CHARITY
I think my life just did a 360 degree split right in front of me. Don't know the possibility but that's pretty much how I feel right now as I stared back at the towering figure in front of me while letting my fisted hand that had intended to knock the door senseless fall back to my sides. I was gaping no doubt , drawn like a magnet to the set of eyes that seemed all too familiar to a dream. It ultimately reminded me of how I got here in the first place.
"Looks like you have a knack for naming with colors"
It was the kind of savage statement that usually comes with a smirk but no—the man in front of me wasn't smirking, his face was expressionless and accentuated by those icy blue eyes. And then that deep voice, smooth and rough all in one and it sent chills down my spine realizing I've heard it somewhere before. Somewhere other than a dream.
The words snapped me out of my trance and I shook my head vigorously.
"Wh—what?" I said absentmindedly snapping my eyes away from his entrancing ones. It was then that I noticed his other features and slap me silly isn't he the most attractive man I have ever set my eyes on.
I unashamedly run my eyes all over him. His face was graced with perfectly groomed brows that were slightly raised as he stared—no glared—no—shit! I couldn't decipher that look. His black silky hair cut so low that he was almost bald only added to the masculine look he beared with cheekbones as high as Eiffel and jaw looking so sharp they could cut if you ran your hands through it. His lips are plump and full and so beautifully carved on his face.
His looks could pass him out as one of those badboy next door characters in movies and books but the stubble on his jaw proved otherwise. This was no boy and I know him!
He was surprisingly calm and quiet as if studying me too, I felt my neck heat up to my cheeks at the thought of a man as fine as Adonis probably checking me out. It made me regret being in my wonder Woman pyjamas immediately. Jesus! Char! . He towered over me and I've never been more insecure about my height than I was at the moment.
"It's you" I whispered .
" What do you want red? "
His tone was sharp and dismissive but I found myself being lured into a whirlpool of beautiful blue eyes.
"Er—I —" Words failed me. What was I supposed to say? I know you! You rescued me a week ago and beat a man half to death. For all I care, he might not even be the one! But that deep voice still rang in my ears a freaking million times and those eyes?I've never come across one so different.
He didn't pick a better time to cross his hands over his chest and my mouth goes dry immediately at the amount of muscles and masculinity on display as it rippled in his black tight fitted T-shirt. My head became light again searching for words to say.
"I---errmm----I'm your new neighbor, charity—charity Everton" I said expecting him to return the greeting. Way to go char! Like he doesn't know he has a new neighbor already.
"That doesn't answer my question red"
That sensual voice again, commanding and sending tingles in all the wrong directions. No!
"The noise, just wondering if you could-----wait red? "
I didn't bother to hide the confusion I felt. I can't believe I almost missed what he called me while oogling him. I started to wonder, was it because I unknowingly named him by the color of his eyes ? That name was reserved for my car, unless....
"It's you! "
I said a little louder this time and he practically rolled his eyes as if it was the most obvious thing and I was the dumb one here. My next-door neighbor was the one who laughed while I was venting out my frustration on my car. It was supposed to annoy me, with the added fact that he polluted the air with so much noise but somehow, it doesn't anymore.
All I saw was the man who saved my life. I wondered if he recognized me. I could recognize him whilst only looking at his eyes, he probably saw my face. Doesn't he remember me? Of course char! As if everyone is as obsessed as you. But still I ask quietly.
"You don't remember me?"
He only looked at me surprisingly patient—too patient that I thought he was amused by me showcasing my stupidity and awkwardness but he didn't show it. It was like he could see through me directly, I felt naked under his open scrutiny.
"Right... " I said quietly shifting on one foot even though I had tons of questions swarming in my head. Why was he here? Why is he my neighbor? We met in Connecticut and now he's in Riverdale? Is fate pulling some crazy trick on me?
His eyes left my frame for the first time since I stood at his door. It made me wonder, how long have I been here? Standing like a statue while making a fool of myself in front of my drop dead gorgeous neighbor.
His eyes finally fell on the well packed food in my hand. I almost forgot that I had my mother's tuna casserole in it as a peace offering for him to reduce the volume of his speakers.
I stretched it forward to his eye level. His eyebrows raised as he looked at it. That's the only movement his pretty face had made since I started talking to him.
"Here! It's the best tuna casserole you'll ever have, my mum's special recipe. Let's say it's my offering of peace as your new neighbor"
I said in a rush unable to stop the nervousness I felt. He didn't take it from my hands. Well ouch! He looked at the well packed meal and back at me. This was a bad idea. This was my cue to leave.
"It's fine if—if you don't wa—want it, I'll just—"
He suddenly grabbed it off my hands and shut the door right in my face. Hard.
Well you're welcome!
I stood dazed , trying to figure out what the heck just happened. He was rude no doubt but that didn't bother me, somehow. I think I was at the door for a few more minutes before I drag my legs off to my apartment, shutting the door behind me and resting my back on it.
I didn't realize how fast my heart had been beating when until I was left alone to actually feel it hammer hard against my chest. It's him! I know it is!I was so sure of myself that it scared me. Unanswered questions and thoughts suddenly swarm around my head.
The music didn't stop. If anything, it got louder. I hissed in frustration. I couldn't believe he took my peace offering , shut the door in my face and still won't turn the freaking music down!
I was about to let out all the obscenities and profanities locked somewhere in my head when the music stopped abruptly. It doesn't come on for a few more minutes and I can't help the smile that formed on my face. It worked!
I stood by the door;having lost the focus to continue with what I was doing , and intent on hearing whatever comes from the other room. A few shuffles and heavy footsteps later and it went completely still.
I had succeeded in making peace with my neighbor or so I thought.
"....and guess who stole the car? " "Old man Pete? " "No silly! Emma ray! " "Right Emma" Julia. Me. Julia. Me. That's pretty much how the conversation went and I was close to losing it. It's been hours and Julia wouldn't stop talking about petty crimes that has happened in the city so far. The one she was currently talking about was about a car theft that had me mixing up names of the people involved. I think at some point I thought the owner of the car was the thief. I didn't want to discourage her, she was clearly intrigued by what she called their biggest story yet. Car theft? You've gotta be kidding me. It's been a week since I moved here and started working at Empire news House. It was supposed to be one of those moment when you admit time flew so fast t
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*DAY ONE*Darkness. Pitch black . Nothingness. Emptiness. Coldness. What are these feelings? Am I in hell? Is this what hell feels Ike? Never been burned before but I'm sure this is scarier than a fire burning with brimstone. The darkness is sickening. Frightening. I want to get out of it. I desperately want to run out through the closed doors that shut me out and away , into this world of nothingness. In the darkness, I searched desperately for the light switch. The lamp. A candle. Anything to light this place up and bring with it the warmth I need. There is no lamp. In the same darkness I search for the windows. Why is there no window? Then I searched for the doors. Light suddenly creeps In. Did I find the door? The light was one-sided at first and then another floods from a different angle and it was almost blindning. The doors open and close momentarily. I came to realize that the doors were my eyes. And the darkness was from having them closed
CHARITY(Author's note: Though, these are my character's thoughts, the first few paragraphs stem from my own sentiments about life, unexpected twists and turns and Determinism (a concept that states; what will be will be "QUE SERA SERA")"Life is so unfair"That very statement. It has been so overly used that it has lost its meaning and purpose. It has lost the drive that makes us feel the intensity of the statement. Before we get to the point where we voice out that statement,we would have asked ourselves so many questions we got no answer to. Why did it happen? Why did it have to happen to me? And why did it have to happen at this particular time? Why me? Why not someone else? Why did he have it so easy? Why didn't she even break a sweat while I went through so much to achieve this? In the end, we go back to the same statement: life is so unfair. That's justWhen things take an unexpected twist and turn and we're met face to face with a shocking r
CHARITY*My phone wouldn't stop ringing as I drove as fast as I could to the given destination. I ignored the incessant ringing knowing who it was. The detective really has to wait. Answering his call could give away my location and I don't need him ruining my chance to actually meet Alice.His calls keep going into voicemails and they all played one after the other. Each one longer and more aggravating than the last. Boy! Was he angry."Pick up the damn phone Charity! Where are you""I can't find you on any of the roads that leads to your home Charity, where are you?""I told you to stay!!! I told you not to leave no matter what and now you won't answer my call? For God's sake answer the damn phone!""Please Charity! You don't know how worried I am right now. Are you okay? Just answer the phone please"The last one was calm and he sounded less annoyed but frustrated at the same time. I felt really bad for ignoring him a
CHARITY*I couldn't move a muscle from where I stood watching my father. I watched as his face turned pale and his expression, hard. He told me to leave but I don't know why I stayed. Normally, I feared my father and respected his commands but right now the only fear I had was not from him but for him. I feared for my father because I have never seen him so disoriented and whatever it is that has him like this, it has something to do with Alice, Dwyer's sister.The name sounded so familiar but it was like a chip off a distant memory. I tried to make a replay in my head of the places I've been and people I've met. If the sounds familiar, then I'm sure I've seen whoever bears that name.Nothing came up in my brain. It was totally blank. Why did the name have such a powerful effect on my father?"Dad". I called out with a voice so small I could hardly hear myselfThe steaming atmosphere between us was far gone replaced by a c
DWYER*After a few minutes of consultations and discussions that seemed to me like hours, Roman finally came back into the interrogation room with a phone in his hand."What took you so long? I didn't Know being a policeman required so much paperwork too" I taunted. He only shook his head at me and threw the phone on the table in front of me."I'm only doing this because it's you. Besides, there isn't enough evidence asides from the footage. That's the only thing that points towards you for now"I rolled my eyes at him. "What other evidence is more than my testimony and my admittance to my crime Romy?" I said and continued "I might not be educated or savvy like you are but I do know things too"He looked everywhere but at me. I Know why he's doing this. He was giving me time to refute my own claims and to confess who the true criminal is but once again, I've gone too far to just stop now. By now, Alice should be out of the town on her
*CHARITY* The news was blaring. The town was rowdy. My phone was ringing incessantly. But all these sounds only faded into the background of my own thoughts. I was so lost in them that I lost the will to do anything other than to stare into open space. Shayne is seated across from me , eyes fixated on me as if my next move would determine her own reaction to it. I don't blame her. I filled her in after returning from the police station about everything that happened. If she was shocked or disappointed in me, she didn't show it. All she did was pull me into herself and enveloped me with her arms. I welcomed the gesture as I had no choice. Each time the news comes on, Shayne moves to turn it off but I stop her each time. I needed to know what was going on since I wasn't allowed to see him. The police still haven't released an official statement yet and everyone wondered why. I wondered why too. What is holding the detectiv
"where is she? where Is Alice?!!" The intense look in Roman's eyes when he said those words reminded of the first time I heard him say them,15 years ago. Although I hate going down the memory lane of those years, I couldn't ignore the urge to remember the years we spent together as best friends, a part of our memory and our lives that we have both decided to keep a secret--like it never happened. A part of my own life that makes my heart clench whenever I think about it. Roman was the most serious one of us both. The one who never missed classes. The one who topped the class in every subject. The one who just happened to be the favorite of every teacher. The one who went on competitions and won fabulous prices and awards for the school that I'm sure still adorns the hallways of whatever is left of the local Riverdale high school. His social life was amazing too. He made heads turn and he broke a few hearts while he wore his on his sleeves. I really lost count
DWYER."You should stay away from her. She's a fucking reporter! You said you wanted to keep me safe but that doesn't mean I can't keep you safe too and being with her is dangerous for you both, don't you get it? It all went wrong the moment she saw you"Those were the longest words my sister said to me since we moved here and they pointed to just one person: Charity. The day after the murder, I had gone to see my sister knowing she would be shaken up by it all. I had called her therapist to tell him about it and yes I left out the part that his patient killed her rapist. No one has to know that. Just like I thought, she was going crazy. She had taken tons of pills that the therapist had given her at the first few years of her which she relied on too much. She only Stopped taking then months ago when her therapist said she was fine without them and now it seemed like they were the only thing that could relieve her of her pain. She mumbled incoherent words as tears stre