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If Only You Knew My Feeling
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2021-09-12 02:01:19Eriwan got startled and a bit astonished again. “I don’t get it,” said Eriwan briefly.
“Yeah… Like what you’ve heard from me… I did some plastic surgery to my forehead, my nose, and my chin. It cost me ten millions, Eriwan…” replied Victor Jaleco softly and weakly.
“Why did you have to do so? I don’t get it…”
“It’s because I want you to look at me, Eriwan… Turning more handsome and good-looking, I want you to turn to me. I want you to pay more attention to me. I want you to get closer to me, to spend more time with me, so that your feeling towards me can be developed step by step, little by little. Is it clear enough?” uttered Victor Jaleco weakly and softly, but with all his sharp and forthright sentences.
Eriwan patted his own forehead gently. “You needn’t have done that, Victor… You shouldn’t have done that…”<
ATua KoeinataYeah… If only you knew my feeling… Sometimes, too much ‘if only’ can make us lose our courage to struggle for the dreams we’d like to achieve, for the person we love, and for the future we’ve been expecting for. Sometimes, we just require ‘go on’ or ‘carry on’ rather than ‘if only’. What do you think? Should you like this story, please leave me your votes or reviews… Lots of thanks from the deepest part of my heart…
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