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Cravings T W E N T Y - F O U R
A new week has just begun, and so many things have happened at a fast pace. Carmela and Leo went to camp, leaving me just by myself. I have visited so many of my friends' places in under two days, and these days Brianna comes by quite often, and I don’t object.After being deep in thought for a while, I decided to do the unthinkable, to go after the one person that at least made me angry and question a whole lot of things. It was stupid, but who cares?All I needed was his address, my keys, a ward of cash, and what was left of my self-worth.Seth address according to the GPS because I hardly knew I was heading there; it is quite a small town, and everyone here was either driving trucks, some had on straw hats, or it was more like they were ranch owners.I still had no clue where exactly his address was because I just took this out of his employee file, but I know I was on the right track.Not wanting to get lost, I stopped and asked for help in figuring out his area. “Excuse me,” I tr
Cravings T W E N T Y - F I V E
It made no sense that I had planned on saying everything, and there I am feeling like a fool for not thinking of anything tangible to say. Seth simply walked away, and I was confused about whether to follow him or not. I wasn’t in the position to move around in a place where I didn’t already feel welcomed.Seth appeared again with a towel and a cup of tea, as his mother told him to. He flung the towel at me, expecting that I was quick enough to catch it, and I did, feeling delighted for that. He dropped the tea on the dining table and waited until I had dried myself with the towel before collecting it from my hand.I was a nervous mess when I took the cup of tea in my hand, with it almost pouring from my hand. I drank it quickly, trying to avoid his eyes, but it was clear Seth had a score to settle with me.“You can drive?” He suddenly asked, and I choked on my tea, coughing out, but Seth was unfazed; he didn’t even try to offer me water. What sort of man is this?Regaining myself, I
Cravings T W E N T Y - S I X
“You drove all the way here, parked in front of my house, and didn’t even dare come out,” Seth said.“You saw that I was waiting?” I was confused; I could have sworn that no one did, and for as long as I stood there, I am sure he didn’t seem to be my car or me.“Mrs. Thatcher, look around you. How many people have you seen driving this sort of car since you came? I believe none." Seth pointed that out, and I understood better. I mean, it is true that I haven’t seen anybody as affluent as I am, not bragging. “I want you to leave; you are invading my privacy even though I have already quit my job as you requested."“Requested? Seth, I never wanted you to quit your job."My voice rose in defense, and Seth looked worried as he stared at the door Ruth had gone into.“We should talk outside,” Seth said before leaving the house, expecting that I would follow him, which I did.We stood at where the pile of firewood I had seen Seth cut in half yesterday was; they were all wet now. I knew I had
Cravings T W E N T Y - S E V E N
SETH POV“Where is that your friend?” Mother asked as she came out of the room.I looked around the house for this supposed friend that I was expected to have. “Who?” I knew my mother was talking about Michael’s wife, but it is better to play dumb than accept that I have a friend in that woman.“Don’t play dumb with me, son. You know who I am talking about; where is she?” Mother asked again.“She already left; as you can see, her car is no longer at the driveway. She sends her thanks though for the hospitality,” I replied. I tore open the loaf of bread and stuff my mouth with a slice. “I will be visiting the guys later today; I haven’t caught up with them since I returned."“You are yet to tell me what happened to your previous job and why you left. Seth, you know how we need that money for your wedding." Mother slid the container of butter to my side. I opened it and spread the butter on my bread.“Speaking of which, don’t tell Bella I have returned; she is sure to get angry if she h
Cravings T W E N T Y - E I G H T
SCARLETT POVNothing is going right—absolutely nothing!It is all Seth’s fault—nobody else but him. I traveled all the way down here, and all he could do was make me feel embarrassed for it. I thought he understood me. What does it mean to say I need a therapist? That is so harsh to say.This is why I don’t show emotions; the moment I do, I get insulted for it. I should pray he keeps his mouth sealed.I rested my head on my steering wheel when all hope of fixing my car felt lost. I just wanted to scream and let it all out that my life was completely ruined, and I tried confiding in a complete stranger who had the audacity to refer me to a therapist. I will never forget this day.sniffsThere is no network in this damn place; how do they even survive? I should have called Michael or Brianna to figure something out; oh no, if I call, they are both definitely going to ask why I have gone all the way to town in the first place.Who cares? I can figure out how to explain later. Michael won
Cravings T W E N T Y - N I N E
I overslept; my nap was so good that I didn’t even want to wake up. There is just something about this part of the world—the calmness in the air, which is quite different from the bustling city with everyone forgetting what relaxation is—even with all the money I have, there has never been a time that I get to enjoy it.Either I am worried about my kids or Michael, or maybe I am involved in one or two pieces of gossip that I will go all the way in to find the source; something is always going on in my life.Also, Michael and I have had to cancel a bunch of vacations because of poor planning, but I know it just wasn’t that.I yawned repeatedly as I got out of bed. I rubbed my eyes before taking a look at the time; it was already 4 PM!I need to leave, like right now. I actually slept longer than I thought.There was a persistent knock on the door. “Yes,” I answered, grabbing my bag and quickly fixing my hair so I could run to the door. I opened it, and seeing Seth, I just knew I had ov
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Though everything that has led up to this period wasn’t planned and neither did I expect it, I was willing to be patient. I waited that day expecting to leave the next day, but Seth said it would only get better the day after. I couldn’t complain; I was starting to enjoy my stay here.“Scarlett, there will be a festival today at the inn,” Seth’s mother told me, and I was excited. It wasn’t a direct invitation to this festival, and I didn’t know what would be done there, but it intrigued me.“I thought it got canceled,” I said, remembering Seth had used that to call me bad luck yesterday. “Seth’s said something like the harvest got destroyed."“He did? I wouldn’t know if it got destroyed; I was only hearing that it wouldn’t be as usual as it was done; we would all gather at the inn this time around."Ruth described it, and I was starting to get an idea, but no picture came to mind as I have never attended this sort of thing.If it wasn't a tea party, a fundraiser, a forum, or my family’s
Cravings T H I R T Y - O N E
Last night replayed in my head continuously as Seth drove me by his truck to the other side of town so I could get an Uber and then finally leave. I couldn’t stop thinking about the mistake I would have possibly made last night.What’s worse is that I kept on wondering if he knew that I tried toThank God for averting such a disaster. I don’t know why I let myself go at that moment.I put my elbow up against the window and pondered everything, so engrossed in my own delusions that I forgot Seth was in the truck with me.Seth passed a long list written on a shit of paper to me: “Have it."I collected it, utterly confused by what was written on it. I took a quick glance, and from the first thing listed, I knew what it was.“You are coming back." My heart leaped as I looked at him, stunned. “What made you change your mind?” I asked, going back to look at the list again. My efforts coming all the way down here weren’t in vain after all.Seth shrugged as he replied, “I don’t know. I woke u
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The minute I stepped foot into that place Michael called home for me and my children, it was the moment I lost all contact with Seth and the world. I never go anywhere without security following me around, monitoring my every movement and the things that I do, and making sure that they work according to my given schedule.Michael has gone insane.“Michael I am tired of all these.” I threw off my shoes and flung them out the window, and wherever they landed, I absolutely had no care for them. “I am tired!”“Then leave!” Michael screamed at my face as he slammed our room door, locking it shut. “I know you want his touch; you are doing all of these because you miss him, don’t you?”“For six months I haven’t seen him; I have adhered to every one of your demands and kept away from him; all I want is for you to sign the divorce papers and free me,” I say, moving away from him."Clearly, you don’t know that I won’t know such things, so act right and come down right now!” Michael yelled, and
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“Carmela, hurry up; you are going to be late for school,” I screamed from the kitchen where I was packing up her lunch. When I didn’t hear anything from her, I went to knock on her door. The door pushed open as I held it. “Carmela.”“Mum, come take a look,” Carmela pointed at the two vehicles with security detail waiting in front of Seth’s apartment.“Ignore them,” I said to her before closing off the curtain. “Seth said he will drop you off at school before we head to the hospital to pick up your brother. Leo is finally returning home.”“Yay,” Carmela feigned excitement. “I am sure he is going to gain all of your attention now.” My forehead creased as I looked directly at her. I saw a small smile on her face. “I am kidding, mom. It is so easy to get to you. Make sure you give him all of the love for me.”“I think you should skip school today and come see him.”“And ruin my perfect record? No, I told you I would do better in school than Leo ever was,” Carmela said as she picked up her
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“Why didn’t you tell me that Leo was alive? What was the need for keeping it away from me and from us?” Michael asked. Carmela had stared with the bitterness she had felt looking at her father this morning.“I did it so Brianna would confess,” I answered.“For fuck sake, Scarlett, if she had gotten arrested, she would have confessed either way; she killed our son, I mean almost,” Michael said as he moved back and forth.“And that is almost the reason he is alive today, Michael. I know Brianna was in her head yesterday, but she is not a bad person and still is my friend,” I acknowledged. “Everything she has done was to provide for her family; there is nothing wrong with that.”“By blackmailing you? Honey, have you gone mad? How can you call someone who has done all these things a friend? I pray she rots in jail for the sins she has caused you.” Michael pulled me and hugged me. I sniffed his shirt, and there was an unfamiliar scent—feminine, I would say.I already knew he had sex when h
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A few talks with the officer were all I needed to get a name that I already knew. I couldn’t believe that the person I trusted so much about would have done this to me. I don’t deserve this. I may be a bad person, but I don’t deserve this at all.We drove over to my son’s murderer’s house as I begged for the police to let me speak to her personally; she is my friend after all.“She won’t harm me; Brianna already told me she would be waiting to speak to me,” I said, trying to convince the officer to wait.I knocked on the door of Brianna’s home, and it opened slightly, given that she hadn’t locked the door as she said she wouldn’t.“You came,” Brianna sat in the darkness of her home. I saw different weapons like a gun, a knife, and a couple of pills on the table. She said, “Don’t worry, they aren’t for you.”“I know,” I said. “You won’t harm me, Brianna.”“I hate you.” She said so simply as she whimpered silently, “You are so lucky; you have a good life, family, money , everything. I a
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A heavy downpour of rain washed over Leo’s grave, and while everyone sought shelter from it, I stood there wondering how lonely it would be over there—no one to talk to, no food to eat—at least you wouldn’t have to study any more.My lips thinned as I exhaled deeply.There is no mother to tell you what you can and cannnot, how to live your life, or who you should be with.I kneeled down as I allowed the dirt to stain all over me, losing my mind at the thought that Leo was actually gone, like I would never get to see him again."Leo, I am sorry.” I cried out as all my pain weakened me. A snort came out of my nose as I continued to cry. It will take the intervention of everyone to leave my son’s at this point.I didn’t give him what he wanted and always found a way to make his life about Michael. I used him as a pawn to achieve Michael’s success, and I only started to feel sorry for it when he outgrew me.I never got to amend my relationship with my son; I never got to do that, and now
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Seth was shocked as to where I had gotten such courage from. I mean, I was drunk in his scent and clearly wasn’t thinking properly, but his saying I should go ahead was where I understood he wanted it too."Seth, look at where we are. Do you think God will want to see that from two fornicators?” I asked, and Seth burst out laughing.“Fornicators? So that is who we are now. I have never felt sin be this good before. You think maybe he will forgive us so easily?” Seth asked as he looked around the chapel.“No, God doesn’t work that way, dear; you have to be remorseful and actually pay the price for the sin before he forgives, I think, but though he is merciful, his forgiveness doesn’t come cheap,” I said, smiling. “I also don’t think we should be this close.” I tried to push him further away while pulling him back at the same time.“Since we are fornicators?" Seth laughed, and the room fell into silence as he gazed at me ever so lovingly. “I know this is wrong, but I miss you,” he said
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I visited the hospital frequently as if it were my home; I had to because Leo was yet to wake up and none of us knew exactly how he wound up at shore for that good man who was fishing to find him.Weeks after weeks, and though the doctors said he was responding to treatment and would probably wake up, there was still no sign of that happening, and now I am starting to become worried.For the first week, Leo’s health had been unstable. We received a lot of visitors at the hospital, but as the days pushed into weeks and then a whole month, everyone who we thought cared had soon forgotten and gone back to their own business.I hardly saw any of my friends around either; they were mostly focused on Laura for now, except for Melissa, and that is solely because she is Leo’s godmother; of course she has to be here along with her son.Even Rocky, whom I thought would be here every day, was also occupied, and I understand he has school and his mother to worry about, so maybe he can be excused
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Silence, a void only one could hear and feel for themselves.“Scarlett, Sarlett, Scarlett.” They all called my name from different areas, but their voices never got to me.Could this be true? Could it be?My son is gone, and I am supposed to feel okay about it.I failed as a mother; I failed as his friend; and I failed as his world.When Leo needed me the most, I was never there for him. I don’t deserve happiness at all.My eyes closed as I allowed darkness to seep into me.*** **** ********* ********** ******* ****** ******* ****** ******* My eyes finally opened to see all of my loved ones gathered around my bed, with the beeping sound disturbing my hearing. I looked around, not saying anything. Where would I find the words?“Mum has woken up,” Carmela’s voice said out loud as everyone who was around the doctor soon came to me.“Darling,” Michael touched my face as he kissed my forehead. At first, I wondered why he was getting so affectionate until I saw who came as well.
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~SCARLETT POV~Ambulance sirens blared as lots of body bags were being brought out and taken into the morgue one after the other, my hands shivering. I had already cried in the car. I can't help it now that I have seen Carmela in tears. She would need me to be strong for her, and I can’t help being weak in front of her.“Mum, why do horrible things always happen to us?” Carmela asked as she embraced me, her tears trickling down from her eyes to my shoulder as I stroked her back. “All will be fine, dear; we just have to identify the bodies; we have to hope your brother isn’t a part of it.”I was breaking down so badly; I was so occupied with myself that I never paid attention. God, I only ask for one thing, and that is for my son not to be a part of the dead bodies that drowned at sea.It was hard to pray because it was confirmed that Leo and Rocky were indeed on the guest list for the cruise and that they did attend.“Mrs. Thatcher,” The officer called as I turned, my heart beating ex
