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2024-10-29 19:42:56A thudding sound was made as I fell to the ground, quickly picking myself up and pressing both legs to stop the heat I felt. There was no one in the room—no Seth, no Michael. Just me.
I had a sensual dream and one with Seth.
I was going insane at this as I ran to the bathroom to throw cold water on my body, hoping I would wash off those wild thoughts from my mind, but it only made things worse.
As I bathed again, I remembered the dream again and began touching myself, thinking of Seth’s face: “You know you want me." Seth’s voice came around me again, and I couldn’t resist biting my lips as I relaxed my back on the wall and began fingering myself, imagining he was the one doing this to me.
I continued until I orgasmed, breathing hard as I suddenly had a wave of disgust flush over me.
I washed my body as I got out of the shower, wore my robe, and went to the terrace.
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