I'm in the bathroom stall, changing into my cheerleading gear.
"Jaylee, you've been in there for more than 5 minutes now. I'm hungry; I need lunch." Samantha hits the stall door.
"Give me one more minute. I promise I'll be out very soon," I say, making sure everything is perfect before I leave the bathroom stall.
Samantha tuts in annoyance.
I came out to see her sitting on the countertop, her back reclined against the wall.
Her blase face morphs into astonishment.
I'm chuffed by her reaction. Samantha leaps from the countertop and walks over to me.
"You look amazing, Jaylee," she compliments.
I redden, and both of my hands run down the mini skirt that clings perfectly to my body.
My glazed, hair-free, slender leg appears long in my mini skirt.
"New sneakers?" Samantha asks.
"Yeah." I fixed the tank top. It snaps against my skin, being mostly made of elastic material.
My old PE sneaker wasn't white enough to go with my gear. I needed something new.
I go to the mirror to touch up my lips.
"If we stay here any longer, lunch time will be over," Samantha grumbles.
She waited long enough, and I hastened.
All eyes were on me when Samantha and I walked the corridor.
Samantha and I giggle as we walk past them. It feels good to be idolized, and I'm glad I've gotten a taste of how Amber and the other popular ones feel. Pridefully, I toss my ponytail from my shoulder to the back.
As we were about to enter the school's cafeteria, I ran into Davie. With envy, she looks at me and walks away.
"What's that about?" Samantha notices her bitter reaction to me.
I shrug, pretending as if I didn't know.
I'm about to get in line for my lunch. Amber pulls me from the line.
Samantha and I exchange reactions as I'm led to the front of the line.
"A Hot Shot never waits in line," says Amber.
I feel bad leaving Samantha in the long line after collecting my lunch: a chicken salad, chocolate pudding, and a bottle of water.
Amber discards the pudding as we go to our chairs.
"Eeww. We don't eat fatty food," she says scornfully.
I nod.
I sit with them, and I'm excited to be with the popular ones for the first time. I feel like royalty.
"Who's that red-headed girl you're walking with?" Amber asks as I open my bottle of water.
"That is my best friend, Samantha," I say.
"You're no longer her best friend; we are your best friend now," Amber retorts.
I'm queasy about her comment.
"How can I not? She's been a true friend to me, and we've been friends for a long time," I explain.
"She's fat, unpopular, and worst of all, she's ugly. She's not in your league to be associating with you," Amber responded.
"Though you've successfully accepted this squad, there are rules to be followed, Jaylee. And as a Hot Shot it is forbidden to be friends with the lowly ones. If you persist in being seen with her, the other nobodies will come to believe they can befriend us as well."
"Got it," she says.
I nod.
Downheartedly, I start on my salad. It will be hard to tell Samantha that we cannot be seen together at school or in public. I hope she understands.
I secretly scan the cafeteria for Samantha. She's with the chest team members, giggling, and I'm glad she isn't eating alone.
"Hey babe."
My attention goes to Tristan, the captain of the football team, tilting Amber's head backward and kissing her. They're the popular couple in school, following Sookie, the co-captain of the cheerleading squad, and Neil, the co-captain of the football team. Tristan and Amber have been the spring king and queen winners for 2 years, with Sookie and Neil remaining the runner-up.
Tristan and Amber kept kissing; I thought they'd never finish. The smacking of their lips as they caressed each other made me feel uncomfortable.
Thankful, they were through.
"Miss me?" Tristan asks as he places a foot over the bench, facing her.
"You know I always do," says Amber.
They kiss again.
Their love seems real, and I find myself desiring it as well.
"I can't stay too long. The coach must be looking for me. You know I have a big final coming up very soon," he says.
"I know. The girls and I have been practicing very hard on a perfect cheer for when you and your team win." Amber fondled his dark hair.
"You know I love when you cheer for me in that sexy uniform," Tristan starts to play with the end of her skirt.
"Guys, get a room," says Sookie.
They laugh.
"Our team has received a new member, Jaylee," Amber introduced me.
Turner's Nordic blue eyes meet mine, and I wave nervously.
He smiles, and I'm reminded of the huge crush I'd once had on him in seventh grade. Dolefully, his heart is always meant for Amber.
"I got to go now," he says, kissing Amber on the forehead.
"Okay." Amber's eyes closed at his kiss.
"Since you're with us now, do you have a crush on any of the sports teams?" Amber turns to ask.
I'm left speechless by her response, and then I answer.
"Not right now," I say.
"Okay, just let us know, and we'll happily hook you up," says Amber.
It is time for class.
"We'll meet after school to teach you the dance routine," says Amber.
I nod, and we discard our lunch that was barely eaten.
Tristan had been my biggest crush since the first time I laid eyes on him in class during our first year at Effney High. I recall stealing glances at him when his attention was glued to his book, wishing it was me he was so focused on. I used to be overwhelmed with wonderous feelings whenever he walked past me in the school's corridor, until he no longer had that same effect after sharing my first kiss with Nate.Tristan's head remained lowered as I walked over to him.Even when he's drunk, I still get nervous around him."Tristan," I call as I stand before him.He slowly raises his head, and as he does, he rakes a handful of hair from his face, brushing them backward, like a hot character from a teenage romance movie—making my heart skip a beat, which I find attractive, despite the fact that he was extremely intoxicated."What do you want?" His bewitching blue eyes looked at me for a second before drifting all over the place, unable to stay focused.I never had a conversation with hi
It's the weekend; I should be hanging out with a friend instead of laying in bed mulling over a guy who doesn't want me. It's almost evening, and I'm still in my pajamas.Forcing myself out of bed, I go to stand before the mirror. Combing a handful of hair out of my face, I notice myself in the mirror.Why didn't Nate fall for me instead of Sophia? I think downheartedly.Weren't I beautiful enough for him? Walking away from the mirror, I fall backward on the bed.I believed being a HotShot cheerleader and walking among the popular ones would give me the privilege to get any guy I wanted, but it didn't. If Sophia hadn't gotten in the way of Nate and me, things might have turned out differently for us.What am I thinking? I reach for the pillow covering my head.Nate had admitted he had no feelings for me, so there was no hope of us getting together if Sophia wasn't in the picture.But why Sophia, though?Out of all the girls at school, he had to choose her. I wish it was someone else,
I'm coming from Mom's car when Amber shouts my name. Amber is at the side of the school building; her phone is at her right ear; she is talking to someone; and Sookie stands beside her.I approach her, and she hangs up the phone. Amber smiles at me, and it doesn't feel right. She's up to something, and I know it."How is everything about getting Nate to be your boyfriend?" She asks, then places an arm around my shoulder, drawing me to her side.I caught Sookie with a smug on her face, and I was certain that Amber was up to no good.The aching memory of Nate turning me down after I had confessed my true feelings to him struck my mind, and I lowered my head."He has a girlfriend," I tell Amber."And so, you decide to give up," says Amber.Keeping my head lowered, I give a sad nod."Well, his relationship didn't stop Sophia from chasing after him," Amber says, maintaining a straight gaze.I lift my head to see what she's looking at, and my eyes widen to see Sophia sitting in the front se
It's Saturday, and I'm outside mowing the lawn when Mom pops up with a cup of water.Stopping, I turn to her and take it, quenching my thirst."Thanks," I say, handing her back the cup.She takes it and starts to play with the end of her hair, twisting it around a finger, and her eyes, as dark as mine, scrutinize the areas I'd mowed.She does this when she's nervous, and I find out she wasn't just there to give me a cup of water; there was more to it."Mom, is there something you want to tell me?" interestedly, I ask.Quickly, her eyes jump to me, and worries mixed with fear take over.Finding out what she wanted to say, I angrily resumed mowing, refusing to hear anything.She runs in front of the lawn mower. I stop, almost running her over."I could have hurt you," I growl."We have to talk about this, Nate," she says, standing firmly before me."I don't want to hear anything you have to say about that man!" I'm walking away."Nate," she chases me down."How long have you been talkin
For an hour, I had Sophia in my arms; she'd fallen asleep.My phone vibrates. I retrieved it from my pocket.Training late, Mom texted.No, I'm with a friend; I'll be there soon. I texted back.Okay, come home soon.I put my phone down and watched Sophia sleep. She's beautiful when she sleeps, and I find myself developing feelings for her.I wish I could let her sleep more in my arms, but I must go."Sophia." I gently touch her shoulder."Hmm," she moans, her eyes open."I'm sorry, but my mom needs me," I say."It's okay," she says, sitting up and rubs her eyes."Should I take you home or leave you at the gas station?" I ask.I'd hate to cause any more trouble for her and her mother."At the gas station," she says.I nod.As we arrive at her stop, she says, "Thank you, Nate, for being here for me.""My pleasure, and feel free to call me whenever you need someone to talk to again," I say with a smile.She's about to open the car door to leave."When are you coming back to school?" I as
It's Tuesday, and I'm at swimming practice. Brimworth, the coach, approaches me as I get out of the pool."Nate, your phone has been ringing like crazy for about an hour. Go and see who it is. It must be something very important for someone to be calling like that," he says, walking off.I was worried something might have gone wrong with Mom like Dad finding out where we lived. I ran to the locker room and burst open my locker with the wildest thought that Dad had her lying on the floor, choking her.There's a possibility it can happen. I left her at home, not feeling too well, and she probably heard him at the door, though it was me.Fishing my phone from my backpack, the worries fade away when I see it was Sophia calling thirty times, and no missed call from mom, which means she's okay.I return Sophia's call. After the incident with the sex buyer, I haven't heard from her, nor has she been at school. It's good to hear from her now."Hey Nate, I'm sorry I haven't answered any of you