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2024-10-29 19:42:56There's a special place in hell for people who let their best friend's dad unknowingly flirt with them and I think that's where I am right now.
I don't regret punching the smug look off of Camila's stupid face. I don't regret the black eye I gave her. Given what she did to my best friend, she deserved it. What I regret, however, is not thinking this through. Yeah, punching Camila on school premises was not a good idea and now I'm paying for it.
"So Miss Monroe," the principal starts. "Is there anything you would like to say to Miss Sinclair?"
I look over at 'Miss Sinclair' who's sitting next to me in the principal's office. Oh I have a lot to say to say to her but I'm not sure Principal Koleman will appreciate any of those things.
Giving her my best fake smile, I decide to say the nicest thing I can ever say to her. "Makeup should help cover up that black eye."
"You would know."
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