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2021-05-10 15:25:37I’m mad. I’m angry. He always does this to me. My inner voice says if he makes you angry, why are you standing here so close to him?
Shut up, I tell my inner voice. I am close. Too close. But I don’t want to move away. This is my kitchen, after all. My apartment. Well, not mine, but you know what I mean.
He’s gazing into my eyes and he’s close enough that I notice his eyes studying my face. They settle on my lips and I swallow. I lick my lips nervously before his eyes move down over my body.
I take my coffee and turn away. I move around the small island in the middle of the kitchen and head for the door. He watches me go and then picks up his coffee and follows me.
I lead the way to the living room and I’m pretty sure his eyes are on my ass. Why did I wear these shorts, I wonder?
I remain standing as I wait for him to sit down. He takes his seat on the sofa where he sat before.
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