Chapter 1
Kaia’s POV
I raised my hand and knocked in the door, the sound echoing through the silence. The door creaked open and Aiden's piercing gaze locked unto mine.
“Did anyone see you coming?" He asked, looking behind me to make sure we didn't have company.
"No, Alpha.” My voice sounded tired, having cleaned the dishes of over a hundred pack members after dinner. I knew I was a mess but he didn't give me enough time to freshen up.
“You’re late.” He growled, his voice low and tough, after he was completely sure we were alone.
I swallowed hard. “I'm sorry," I whispered, moving back but he was fast. He reached out and grasped my wrist, his nails digging into them making me wince.
He released me once he saw the look on my face. I knew better than to complain after what happened the previous day when I tried to come out all tough.
“We have to be fast, Brianne is going to be up soon and I don't want her wondering where I am.” He said, already working on the belt of the trouser he had on.
I nodded, biting back my response. It was already bad enough that my mate was embarrassed to announce me as his, but listening to him go on about his chosen mate isn't exactly a turn on when he was about to have sex with me…and only because his wolf needed me.
“Yes, Alpha." I muttered, but I knew he heard me because he nodded.
He got to work, taking off every piece of clothing I had on. According to him, I didn't have to enjoy it as long as his wolf was satisfied. So I tried as much as possible to bite back my moan when I felt him inside me.
“Don't make me wait next time.” He warned, giving me one last kiss on my lips and he was gone, leaving me alone in the storage room. The door creaked shut behind him and I was plunged into darkness. I rested against the door, trying to catch my breath.
“How did I even get here?" I thought.
Just like every other unmated female in the Blue Moon pack, Aiden, our Alpha was a breath of fresh air. His warm brown eyes and charming smiles could sweep anyone off their feet. I wasn't left out.
I've had a crush on him for as long as I could remember. I was nine years old and had just experienced my first panic attack. I had been so scared thinking I was going to die but somehow, even at eleven years old, he knew exactly how to calm me down. Ever since then, what I would give to catch a glimpse of his smile.
But unlike everyone else that would rather wait for their mate because of their conceived idea of the fairytale. Not me, mates are overrated. Just the moon goddess's way of entertaining herself since she was a bored old woman.
So I took the bold step in confessing my feelings for him and the look on his face when I told him would forever haunt me. For weeks, I was the only topic being spoken about…a greedy Omega whose mom didn't love her enough to stay alive.
But imagine my shock when the day I turned eighteen, his wolf recognized me as his mate. And although I didn't get my wolf, the spark when he touched me was undeniable.
“What did I do that was so wrong?" I thought. “Not wanting a mate to avoid having the same fate as my mom who died after being rejected for being weak?"
I must've dozed off, because the next time I opened my eyes, the room was brighter. And panic kicked in.
Brianne was going to kill me if I messed her big day up. Aiden was announcing her to the pack members as his mate, making her Luna officially. I can definitely see her asking for my head for her first order as Luna.
I hurried out of the room, hoping to the goddess that they were all asleep. But even that prayer wasn't answered…the moon goddess surely knows how to hold a grudge.
“What do you think you're doing?” My step brother, Dylan asked, his tone firm but curious. That was never a good combination.
“I uhm…. I'm getting ready for today.” I lied.
His eyes narrowed at me, trying to call me out on my lie. I looked everywhere but at him.
As the Beta of the pack, he was trained to be suspicious of everyone and everything. But I was a special case. Ever since my dad married his mom, he made a special effort in making sure I felt like shit. I wasn't his family…he made sure I never forgot for a second.
“Why do you smell like the Alpha?" His voice was cold, sending shivers down my spine.
“He'll kill me before Brianne does."
I moved back, my body trembling and with each step I took, he followed me. “Answer me, Kaia." He snarled, his wolf coming to the surface.
“He wanted to make sure I was working on Brianne's surprise."
"Try again, and this time think about your response.” His eyes were shooting daggers at me and I knew he'd caught me. And he would not hesitate to throw me against the wall…it wouldn't be the first time that was happening.
“He…wanted…” I stammered, feeling water welled up in my eyes. And for a flash moment, I saw his hard exterior drop but it was back up as soon as it came.
“Let her be.” Aiden commanded, using his Alpha tone. The both of us lowered our neck in submission.
"Yes, Alpha.” Dylan said.
Excusing myself, I hurried out of their sight before Aiden changed his mind. I took a quick shower before anyone else smelled the Alpha on an omega like me.
Once I was done, I picked out the most presentable dress I own, then put my hair in a ponytail. As much as I loved my curly hair, taking care of it isn't a walk in the park. Then I took my drugs from where I kept them on the nightstand. Today was going to be stressful, and I didn't trust myself to not have a panic attack.
The kitchen was busy, everyone was running around to make sure the day went smoothly.
“What part of I don't want to see any wrinkles on my dress do you not get?” Brianne yelled, entering the kitchen, her voice dripping with venom.
“What can you do right?"
No one paid attention to her, at this point, it was a normal morning for them.
“I'm sorry, Brianne. I wasn't paying attention." I apologized.
“It's Luna to you, Omega!" She snapped, her eyes turned black for a moment, her wolf coming out.
"I'm sorry, Luna.”
"Get it done and do it right this time.” She said, before stomping out of the kitchen, leaving me to calm my racing heart.
I hated being weak and on the receiving side of everyone but without my wolf, there was nothing I could do. I wasn't allowed to train because according to them, it was a waste of time.
A few of the other Omega who saw the whole thing shot me sympathetic looks but no one said anything. They didn't want to be labeled with me, so they wouldn't be subjected to the same fate as me.
I hurried to her room, the one she shared with Aiden. There was no one in the room and the dress was sitting on the bed. I carried it as carefully as I could to avoid making it worse. The ceremony would be starting in less than two hours and there were still other things to be done.
But just as I turned to leave, the door opened, revealing a fully dressed Aiden. He looked so good and I felt a tug in my chest. By the end of the day, he would belong to another woman, marking her as his mate.
“Did you dress up for me? Of course you did, you're mine." His eyes darkened possessively.
"I'll leave you to get ready, Alpha.”
"Call me Jager." He sounded hoarse, but much softer than Aiden.
“Jager.” I called gently, and he let out a moan, reaching to touch me. My body relaxed into his touch, enjoying every bit of his gentleness even though my mind was a warzone of everything I was doing wrong.
"Aiden should listen to me. We're strong, we just need our mate." His hand caressed my skin, sending warm feelings I didn't know was possible to feel. He sniffed my neck where his mark was supposed to be.
“Fuck! I'm getting hard just thinking of the things I want to do with you.” I smiled, pleased that he was satisfied with me. I knew it wasn't Aiden, but I was basking in the attention Jager was giving me.
But that soon changed.
“What thef uck is going on here?" Brianne growled, her paws extending and before I knew it, I was flying across the room.
Chapter 2 Kaia's POV I bite back a groan as my body hits the wall. My back throbbing in pain. Brianne was still throwing daggers at me from where she stood beside Aiden, trying to make sure he was okay. Resisting the urge to roll my eyes, I slowly got to my feet, assessing the damage caused by my sudden flight. My dress was torn and from the pain on my back, it wasn't hard to tell that a bruise was forming there. “You bitch! How dare you put your filthy hands on me!” Aiden snarled, his wolf was nowhere to be found. I'm done, my hands were trembling on their own. “I'm s-sorry. I don't know what came over me." I apologized, tears streaming down my face. "I knew you were up to no good when I saw you in that dress." Brianne sneered, "You never learn, do you?" She spat, her eyes bulging. I shook my head, nothing I said to her would prove that I wasn't just making up stories to get out of the trouble I knew was inevitable. I'm sure Aiden knew the truth and his words were
Chapter 3 Kieran's POV "Remind me again why I need to see a rogue?" I asked Caleb, my Beta, my voice sounding tired from being in a meeting all day combined with my Lycan’s restlessness. “Because you're the Alpha and we need you to decide what to do with her." "What's there to decide? She's a rogue. Did she talk?” I asked. He shook his head. “Not a word. Ryder suggested waiting for you. She was in a bad state when we brought her in.” I nodded and followed him towards the dungeon. A rogue entering our land wasn't a new thing. But over the last few years after I became Alpha, their attack became less frequent and I wanted to keep it like that. As a pack, we took pride in making sure that our members were safe at all times. “Let's get this over with." I thought. Dealing with rogues was definitely my least favorite part of the day. As I approached the cell, my Lycan grew even more restless. He began to jump and dance around my head in excitement. "Mate,
Chapter 4 Kaia's POV As soon as the words left my lips, I regretted it. His piercing blue eyes were nowhere to be found, instead his wolf forced its way to the surface. I curled myself on the bed, bracing for rejection. For Kieran to tell me that I was right, that he didn't want me as his mate. Instead he moved away from me and out of the door. His footsteps faded down the hallway and I felt a pang of uncertainty. “Why did I have to say anything?" I thought. "Was I going back to the dungeon?” I asked myself since my wolf decided to play hide and seek with me. Since I heard her in the dungeon, I've been trying to call out to her but there was no response and it was killing me. "Why is my life such a tragic story?” I thought. First, I lost the only person who cared about me and then my father married a woman whose son hated my very existence but was also the reason I escaped from my mate who threw me in the dungeon. And now, another Alpha was claiming me as his mate
Kaia's pov "No, no no." My words played in my head again and again as I stared at him, my heart racing. “Did he just…?" "Yes, yes he did!" My wolf danced in excitement in my head, but I was pale with shock, my lips part in surprise. "Why?" I asked, my eyes finally drifted to meet with his blue ones, and my throat felt like there was a huge lump in there. He wore a puzzled look, “Why what?” He asked. He inched closer, and my heart stopped. Maybe he was joking, maybe this was a plan to make me look stupid like Aiden did. “Are you accepting me now so you can reject me later or you just want me close enough because your Lycan needs his mate?” I snapped before I could stop myself. And I have been doing a lot of it lately. Kaieran's eyes squinted a little before returning to their normal size, and creased lines appeared on his forehead. “Of course not, Kaia." My name rolled off his lips softly. “I'm accepting you because you are my mate, the only one who will complete me. Wh
Chapter 6Kieran’s POV “How can someone be so effortlessly beautiful?" I wondered, “all she did was stand and I lost my ability to make a complete sentence without making myself look like an idiot." "With a face and body like that, whoever rejected her is the real idiot.” King's words echoed in my mind and I couldn't help but agree. Whoever he was, did us a favour. But I hated that she had to go through so much pain to become ours. A picture of the bruises on her body crossed my mind and a growl left my lips. “Whoever did that to her was going to pay." My thoughts were interrupted when I got to my chambers where Caleb and Ryder were waiting for me. Their heads snapped to me, confusion written on their faces since it has only been a few minutes since I left. "Alpha, do you need something?” Caleb asked, his brows furrowed. I shook my head and sat on the chair opposite him. The only person who could give me what I wanted was in my room and still isn't sure if she wo
Kaia's POV I groaned, slowly opening my eyes. However, my heart skipped a beat when I noticed Kieran sitting on the bed beside me with his eyes fixed on me. "What the fuck is he doing here?!" I screamed inwardly, trying to steady my breath. He was staring at me, but in a moment, he spoke. "Good morning," his gentle voice rang, and my wolf purred. “I can't believe that even now she was turned on." but I lowered my head, and remained concerned about why he was seated there. "He probably spent the night here. Can't you smell his scent all over the room?" My wolf spoke, but I remained quiet, trying to steady my breath. "He greeted you, don't just stay silent, say something!" My wolf urged, and I instantly shut her up."Stop being pushy!" She kept quiet just as I had told her, and I heaved before raising my eyes to meet his gaze. "G-good morning." Somehow, my response seemed to light him up because he smiled, but it didn't really matter, so I tried to lower my head when
Kaia's POV Dani's energy was unmatched. We ran into a few people…literally and when they complained, she glared at them like it was their fault. As we stepped into the Mall's spacious interior, it felt like we were in a different dimension. People moving around with different agendas. Everyone was talking about on the top of their voice making everywhere a bit noisy but at the same time, peaceful. “We're going to start with dresses and I know just the perfect store." Dani said. I heard Kieran’s voice before I could respond, “hey." He called softly. "Get as many things as you want, okay?” He continued when I turned back. I managed to nod before Dani pulled me away. “With a body like yours, I'm going to enjoy dressing you up.” "I don't…I don't think so." All I heard about my body was how fat I was and how men were going to find me unattractive. And now, in less than a day of knowing me, she'd complimented me more than anyone close to me. “This is going to be perfe
Chapter 9Kaia's POV For a moment, Kieran's entire body froze as my hands came around him, but he soon snapped out of it as he held me closer. I had been so scared that he was going to do something to me. And couldn't be more grateful that Kieran showed up when he did. My chest was beating really fast, like I'd just finished a marathon race. “I'm so sorry, Bella.” Kieran whispered, his breath warm against my ear. His hand tightened around me and I felt a lump form in my throat. I shook my head softly, “it's not your fault.” I told him, my voice barely above a whisper. "I shouldn't have left you by yourself, I'm sorry.” he apologized again. I was going to tell him not to apologize for something he has no control over, but my wolf’s voice stopped me. “He's already beating himself up for not being by your side and King is threatening to cut the man into pieces. You should try to calm him down.” She advised before retreating to the back of my mind. I let go of him s
Chapter 48Kaia's POV. Dani and Allie could tell something was off when I got to them but I assured them that it was because I was tired from the cooking, using the fact that it's been a while as an excuse. We called it a day and I went straight to the room where I took a shower and got ready for bed. Kieran should be back anytime soon and he would be able to provide answers to the unending questions I had. Several hours passed, but he still didn't come and mind-linking him failed. I got tired of waiting and climbed the bed but sleep eluded me like a plague, so I gave up trying and sat upright. “But if they take his position from him because of me?" The thought was heavy on my mind. “Like that'll happen." Lylah scoffed. "Do you think they'd risk replacing him with a weak Alpha?” "I know he's strong, but the elders are unpredictable. Do you think they're going to consider that if the time eventually comes?” I asked her. If there was one thing I hated about the
Chapter 47Kaia's POV Two weeks later, I couldn't be more relieved that Kieran had Laura sent out of the pack and as much as I hated to admit, she had managed to get some of the pack members on her side while I still couldn't get them to see me in a different light. Kieran's mom also left for a while, so in a way, things were going back to how they used to be. And now that Allie was back, she hadn't stopped apologizing for the whole thing with her mom, but I assured her that it was fine. I was already happy that she didn't let it come between us. “He makes me feel like I'm on top of the world!" Allie said, "but I can't help but feel worried.” “Why?" Dani asked, “did something happen?" She shook her head, “I don't know. He hasn't really been present." She sighed, “If I didn't know any better, I would think that he's avoiding me." I scoffed, "that's not possible, he cares about you too much.” Lylah snorted, "so did you, but you ended up ignoring our mate.” "Not the
Chapter 46 Ryder’s POV (When he finds his mate) Kaid was going crazy in my head ever since we left Allie's room a few hours ago. He didn't say anything so I assumed it was because he didn't want to leave Allie's side. I was done with the early morning patrol and was making my way to Kieran's office to give him a report. But with each step I took, a weird but delicious smell hit my nose. And Kaid was going even crazier…because that's the only way to explain his next word. “Mate…I can feel mate.” He said, and the entire world paused. "That's not possible.” I argued, but Kaid growled in response. "Find mate.” He repeated, with a sense of urgency that I couldn't ignore. “What'll happen to Allie?” Was the first question that came to my mind. “Find mate!" Kaid growled again and I pushed the thought of Allie to the back of my mind and began following the smell. I came to a stop when I reached Kieran's office where Caleb was standing in front of the door and the smell ha
Chapter 45Kieran's Pov A smile crossed my features when I ended the mindlink with Kaia. I heard part of her protest and it was cute. If I was going to suffer, she must go through the same thing. “How's the Luna doing?" Ryder asked, coming close to where I stood. I frowned, “Why are you here?" He shrugged, “you have a weird smile on your face, and what better way to find out what the reason is and win a bet." He replied nonchalantly. “A bet?" I repeated. “Those kids never learn to not bet against me. Or how do you think I got out of patrol last week?” He asked and my frown deepened. “I'll just leave." He grumbled, going back in the same direction he came from. I shook my head as I got back to training. A lot of the teens got their wolves the previous day and it was necessary to teach them how to control it, especially with transforming. Having woken up early to start, we finished in no time and I was back in the room to take a quick shower. Kaia's smell lingere
Chapter 44Kaia’s Pov I smiled softly at the thought of waking up beside Kieran, but the smile was quickly wiped away from my face when instead of his warm body, I felt the empty spot beside me and I frowned. “Where’s he?” I wondered. For someone who threw a tantrum because I took a bath without him, he sure doesn't learn. “I'm at the training grounds Bella, you were sleeping so peacefully, I didn't want to wake you up” Kieran's voice said through our mindlink and a smile covered my face. “Why do I forget that he could read my thoughts?” “You should have woken me up” I argued and he chuckled lightly. Just like him, I've gotten used to waking up beside him. Being with him somehow makes me forget my problems…most of the time. “I'll do that next time, Bella.” He assured me and I chuckled as I stood up and walked into our adjoining bathroom. “You better.” My voice was light. I frowned, my interaction with Laura coming to me. I didn't mention it because it felt
Chapter 43 Kaia's POV Instead of going back to the pack’s hospital, I stayed in Kieran's arms in his office, enjoying the warmth his body provided while trying not to think too much. Kieran could tell that something was on my mind, but he just watched me without saying anything…I did say I didn't want to talk about it. “Oh," I started, sitting upright abruptly, causing Kieran to go into protective mode. “What's wrong, Bella?” He asked, his voice laced with concern. "Are you hurt?” His brows furrowed in confusion, but he still checked his body just in case there was something he was missing. I fought back a smile at how confused he looked. “I heard training was intense today and I met some people in the hospital, injured during training and then I tried mind-linking you but I didn't get a response.” "I'm sorry you were worried.” He apologized, pulling me into his arms again and I didn't fight it. "You know what will make me feel better?” I asked. His eyes n
Chapter 42Kaia's POV After Kieran's conversation with his mom, things got worse. And it didn't help that a few members of the pack heard about it, so they sometimes glared at me without saying anything. Dani also tried her best to assure me that with time, she'd come around but I'm sure even she didn't believe that. But now, I focused on ignoring everywhere that she might go. I couldn't exactly talk to Allie, it was her mom we're talking about and the last thing I wanted was for her to hate me too. “Allie isn't like that." Lylah assured me. I sighed, "I know. I hate that Kieran is going against his mom because of me.” My mom wasn't here, but I know how much I would give to make sure she was happy. "Would you have left your mate if she wanted you to?” Lylah aaked, and a look of horror crossed my features. “Of course not,” I replied, offended that she'd even think that. "Exactly, then why are you worried about our mate leaving us because his mother chose to be an
Chapter 41 Ryder’s POV -(To show you his view on his relationship with Allie) I have never been so confused…maybe I have, but this was just over the top. I wanted a mate, one that the moon goddess prepared for me. I wanted something like what Caleb and Dani shared and even Kieran. But at the same time, there was no denying the attraction I felt towards Allie. And for the longest time, trying to ignore felt like a waste of time especially when she felt the same way. Before she clocked eighteen, that was two years ago, I hoped she was going to mine. That hole was crushed when my wolf didn't recognize her as ours…even Kaid was disappointed. But one thing led to the other that night and ever since then, a part of me couldn't stop thinking about her, misses her when she wasn't close. “What are you thinking hard about?" Caleb asked, jolting me back to reality. “Taking over your position." He snorted, “if you weren't so lazy, I'll believe that?" He said. “I'm offended." I
Chapter 40Kieran's Pov As I made my way out of the room, I couldn't help but play the events of the previous day. She'd enjoyed her day and so had I. But all of sudden, she couldn't stand the sight of me. My heart felt tight and King had been very quiet since she started ignoring us, we were even blocked out of her mind. “..Alpha?” I heard someone call and I snapped out of my haze to stare at my beta and gamma who took a glance at me and back to each other. I definitely didn't sleep well and now, I am lost in thoughts. “What?” I asked harshly and they gulped, I considered apologizing for my tone but I was feeling too hurt and preoccupied by thoughts of kaia to even think of doing anything else. “We have to go train with the new recruits, Alpha” And with that, they both left me in the office alone and I felt the wheels in my head turn. What recruits? Recruiting of new warriors was not till a month from now. I didn't care to think much about it because my mind soon went