44 Lana’s P.O.V Morning I woke up when my ears picked birds chirping near my room’s window, I slowly squinted my eyes and looked to my right to figure out where sunlight was escaping from, and to my shock, the curtains were open which was rare to see, my eyes then focused to the clock which showed 11 in the morning, I huffed, sat straight on the bed and rubbed my head as I yawned and stretched my arms. After passing a good amount of time on relaxing my stretched muscles due to periods, I could finally feel myself in the air then immediately a shock of cramp hit me to strike me down. Ah, I hate periods! Suddenly my mind pictured last night’s scenario when Armando told me he’d permitted one of my friends to meet me because I was too heavy-hearted lately, he admitted that I was depressed by everything he did to me, but I didn’t trust him instantly, I had learnt a lot about his mind games, I investigated the main cause in the most indirect way possible but I should’ve known better th
45“Because I want to show people who you belong to,” He said with my left-hand in his hands. My God, his eyes were so heavy on me that I wasn’t even looking at him but my subconscious knew he was gazing at me… or lusting over and over. I was so nervous of us standing in this position, although I hated him to be romantic for me but I found no courage to stop him from whatever he was doing indirectly, Maybe this is termed as the power of marriage, I felt him coming closer to me and before I could step back to create space between us he placed his hand on my back to repel my force and keep me under his massive influence, I took a deep breath in the realization that I could feel his body warmth. His face was getting closer to my face; indicating to me sooner there would be no space left between them. Abruptly, my heart started to act weak,“You’re mine,” he whispered before hitting his hydrated lips softly on my forehead, I let out a breath of satisfaction when I realised he didn’t fal
46The tension between all of us remained the same for a long while until I decided to speak up, “Can anybody tell me what’s going on?” I then saw Nathan’s eyes shifting on me and scanning my face. He noticed tears rolling down my eyes, later than he should. His face was neither soft nor his eyes seemed to like having zero emotion for me. Although, he was panicked or could say shocked to an extent that he forgot how to act straight, Don’t treat yourself with lame excuses, Lana. I wiped my tear from my eye before Armando could come on front on my face and get wild about it. “Ah, L-lana,” Nathan muffled. Sudden ball of anger mustered up in me, I wished to throw something at his face and remind him how he promised me of only being mine. Just a look at Julianna and he forgot all my love, he forgot everything in a moment, our first date, first kiss, first sleeping together? Did he count it ever? Maybe, he never considered them in the first place. I couldn’t think of any positive though
47 10:00 PM It’s been hours to our lunch and my overthinking but I couldn’t get what was the point of inviting Nathan, just to show him off that he forcefully has me? Or to hurt me with his reaction of watching us together? What did they talk about when Nathan excused themselves? These questions were on top of my mind and there were no justifiable answers to satisfy the heavy feeling pushing my chest. I just came back from my siblings’ room on the orders of Armando to be his in room, I won’t call this room mine because I simply didn’t want to have it in first place. I even asked Nancy to set another for me as doing a favour to her friend but she simply denied by saying she couldn’t go against his fucking master. He is more important to everyone than me, only because he has powers? Go to hell Armando. I wish I never came to Spain. My mind was bearing all my fit of tempers while I marched back to the room, and I thanked innerly for not having Armando here till now. I was alone and h
48 “I have his report of criminal history in my hands,” My mind blanked for a moment as he made the most confusing combination of good and bad. Nathan! He can’t have a criminal record. I knew Armando was lying to me as usual. “You think I’ll buy your manipulation, well let me remind you it’s not gonna happen. I’m not Miss. Bellen anymore, your name with me is enough to understand you and who knows you blackmailed her to spit all this shit,” I retaliated “Oh really I see,” he longed his words as in taunting, “how come you believed Nathan when he slandered me buying your parents,” Armando threw me back to the sofa while stepping ahead like a predator to pounce on his meek prey, “Because he showed me,” I grumbled, shoved him away as he tried to get on top of me, he moved only an inch by all my might. “Showed you what? That I was hypnotizing them into a fantasy-land? Don’t tell me you saw me abducting your family in those videos or whatever the fuck you saw, it’d be funny as hell.”
49Armando’s P.O.VShe kissed me. Was it for real? Since when did she start showing her soft side to me? How did it happen? Was she being too close to me by her own will? What was going on in her mind when she touched my lips? It was impossible for me to swallow her soft gesture toward me. I was trying very hard to admit that she really kissed me with her own free will and I should appreciate this clue. I roamed back to our passionate moment and reminded her response, her lips… they were so soft against mine just like a cube of butter melting against the heat. Oh fuck man, I want to feel them again. Whatever the case was I’d take it as an acceptance gesture, she finally has a little bling in her heart for me, maybe I should be upset with her often so she repays me this way, I could have it all if I keep having arguments. Or perhaps she wanted to cool down my anger on her. I should tell her this trick of hers worked and will always work on me. My kitten didn’t know her kiss would
50“Let me see it on my own,” He started striding toward me. I hesitated and stepped back, “It was nothing import…” he didn’t let me finish my sentence and tugged the papers from my hand. I sighed loudly, calculating his reaction. He observed it sharply, it seemed like he would get them out of this picture just by his sight. His eyes were narrow, Neither I could understand if he was getting angry or happy. His face was that neutrally flat. The silence around us was killing me, I always preferred to skip these moments of making me breathless every time I have such encounters. He gave an opposite reaction from what I was expecting, calmly hummed and stopped staring at the papers then trapped me in his eyes. The just-found air was long gone by that moment. “Where did you get it?” “Someone faxed you 5 minutes back,” I replied casually. He cocked his head and observed my features.His eyelashes were soaked with wetness and iris hinting a blaze of passion in them. I gulped at his intens
51My heart was pounding, “Damn, my face!” I cupped my cheeks and rolled my eyes over my pale complexion, I had a shower and discovered my scars on my shoulder gifted by Armando’s grip, he never noticed how heavy his hands were, It nearly hurt when I wore to cover them. I applied fasten-gel to close it, and put back the first-aid kit in the cabinet. I slid out of the bathroom while drying my hair with the towel, my concentration was toward my hair and eyes down at the ground, As I looked slightly up, I found a pair of red heels; one was constantly tapping the floor, I ascended my neck to find Julianna standing tall. “Hello, dear,” She batted her left eyebrow with a bitchy smirk, I would describe. I swallowed my saliva to wet my dried throat, “Hi,” she looked calculated and unknowingly prepared for something which I couldn’t fathom, her face was as usual baked with makeup and nail perfect to wound someone’s neck. As soon she saw my eyes on her hand she hid her hands in her black coa
103Warning: This Chapter Can Be Challenging For Readers To Read. Kindly Pause Reading If You Feel Anxious Or Depressed. You’re Already Warned. LanaIt was a female. It was her. I knew I would be stabbed by Nathan’s cousin who’s jealous of me or who would accuse me of seducing him. Maybe, she would throw me in the river like my intuition tried to tell me but I ignored it lately. I should’ve considered my gut feeling rather than Nathan’s request. Look, where I stood; in the mouth of death. I tried to struggle in her hold but she roared at me, keeping me in the hold. I tried to shout but it wasn’t loud enough to call for help. I thought she would push me any second but the hope of survival arose when the sirens started to buzz, deafening us to death. Within seconds, there was an army steadied to kill this culprit. Their weapons were locked on their target and the voice that soothed me came across my ears. “Leave her alone!” Nathan shouted at the top of his lungs. My breath started to
102LanaI wasn’t ready for this night. My heart was racing horribly in my ribcage. Something was not right, something would go wrong and someone was going to pay for it terribly—maybe this child in my womb. Maybe tonight I would be stabbed by one of Nathan’s bitchy cousins who would accuse me of seducing him, just like Armando’s cousin did back in Spain. I prayed to God for the abortion and yet I tried to convince one of the doctors during the clinic visit but no one agreed without Nathan’s approval. My heart just said this child won’t see this world. It would die. I just didn’t want to go through with the stabbing pain once again. I wasn’t that strong to bear pains anymore. I had enough and if this time, anyone would try to harm me, I would end myself with my sinful hands. This was it, this was the solution to end my problems. Maybe, after all the while God wanted me to end myself. He gave me enough clues yet I delayed realising them. It had been three hours since I was continuou
101Next Week Somewhere In LondonNathanIt’s a beautiful feeling to be a dad again. I waited long enough to feel this moment again, yet I had never known that I had to force the pregnancy on a married woman—but it was written to happen under such circumstances and I should be less guilty about it. All because Lana left me no choice. Moreover, not only I was happy because I would be a dad again but also that it was time to finally eradicate that motherfucking Armando and his two carbon copies from the earth. Lana wouldn’t have to bear much pain once she would give birth to our baby. Those little devils would be gone and my little human will replace their space in my queen’s heart.Everything was going perfect the way I wanted and sure enough, it would end the same way I planned—except the culprit’s escaping part. Armando’s breakout wasn’t on the list yet he successfully flew away, killing four of my men in the process which he will pay really soon as I got the lead about his whereabo
100LanaIf it’s true then I was gone. I was busted to live anymore. If Armando was to hear about this I would be much more than trouble. Pregnant? With some other man’s child? I did everything to avoid it. I even bribed Mary to steal birth-control pills for me, how come I got pregnant. Argh, I wanna vanish my existence. If the pregnant part was real, I would really jump off the cliff. I couldn’t prepare myself for the bloodlust of my children or this foetus. This unborn had to die or Armando would kill him and me. I knew how far he could go. He was a maniac in my case. And as far as he was possessive about me being only his. I could predict I would pay a big price for Nathan’s deed. “Good to see you, Mr. Knightley, how may I help?” Malinda’s voice rang in my ear like a driller screwing my head. Though she had a velvet voice but right now, she was the person I needed to stay away from. Her clicks of heels grew louder as she came closer to me and Nathan who had been playing with my h
99LanaPhew. Thank God I successfully got control of the situation before I could finally be thrown to the bed and lost my chance for a dinner outside of this room. It had been fifteen minutes since leaving the house. I was sitting on the passenger seat beside Nathan who was driving his posh Lamborghini. It was the smooth black ride up in the mountains and the view I was having all the while was completely mesmerising. The street lights and the moonlight seemed like having a competition to glorify the route for me tonight. I would’ve enjoyed this moment even more if Nathan would be in his casket like he should’ve rather than driving the car like my man. I sighed at this thought. The pleasant feeling in my chest faded away with realisation of Nathan’s presence. I couldn’t just swallow the thought that I used to die for this man once, I even prayed to see him again when I had affection for him. But the very affection died when Armando started becoming a man of my dreams. He deliberat
98Lana“Speak,” Leone said with the second line connected. My heart palpitated but I overcame my growing anxiety. “Leone, It’s Lana…” I enlightened him. “… They imprisoned us separately for months. I had no connection to Armando even though I tried to encounter him once, Nathan had security at every step. I am not sure if he’s still in his torture cellar or they have done something to him or sent him to God knows where,” I ran my mouth like a bullet train, giving him no chance to speak. “Is everything good on your side?” The second I asked this question had me panicking inwardly. “We are drowning, my lady…” he said in a monotone but the effect his words brought was enough for sinking my heart, “…Our businesses are being sealed by the board for illegal conspiracies. Someone had cracked our shares in the underground sector and we are losing our men count. Our weapons are being stolen from the ports and many more harm’s been done. Everything is out of order. We lost three hundred me
97LanaNathan caught me faking my sleep. I had my eyes closed when he came near and sat beside me on the bed. He didn’t do anything for ten minutes, just quietly sat there and admired me from afar—that’s only what I could get with my eyes closed. But later, I felt his thumb striking with my cheek that ascended inside the blanket and he ended up scooping his hand inside my panties, rubbing my core and wetting me. When he slid a finger in me, I moaned and my eyes wide-opened. I gawked at him with astonished eyes. “What the heck, Nathan, leave me for God’s sake,” I huffed, disapproving his touch in between my moan and got his hand out of my pants, for a fact I hated reacting to his touch so intensely, that makes him full of himself a little more every time. He honestly knew all the perfect spots—but this time his perfection wasn’t my main focus. It was basically the fact that I had a phone and key hidden in my socks that churned my stomach for bad.“I was checking if you were still hot
96Two Months LaterLanaTwo months. A heck of a long time that I spent in a single gigantic room as a hostage. These fucking two months had me crying, screaming, begging for help, pleading for mercy and at last swearing at Nathan for being an asshole with me. I never thought Nathan could be like this. He raped me often. Yes, I would call it rape. He didn’t care what I said to him he only wanted to be inside me thrice a week.He provided me with clothes, food, Netflix and everything any other girl would desire but I was more interested in being able to breathe freely. Moreover, I missed my kids. Not even a single day passed by without me weeping for them. I never left them alone. I didn’t know if Sebastian reached home safe to Nancy or not.I was only stuck here for nothing and I see this situation going to nowhere good. I was hugging my knees, trying to think of a breakout for the thousandth time since two months. This time my escape wasn’t easy because I wasn’t sure if they kept Arm
95Lana“Then, I can even make you have dozens of kids containing your blood just now,” Nathan stated fearlessly. I blinked twice as his words sank in my stomach, each word containing tons of heavy metals that felt like ripping through each ounce of my soul.Making babies appeared to be a joke to him. How could he mock something sacred so efficiently? He wasn’t like this before. I remembered him as someone gentle and considerate yet now, he was portrayed to be cold and selfish. “I don’t want to believe in my ears, speak something real, Nathan,” I replied, foggily. “Do my face tell you I'm joking to you, Lana? If children are the only reason that’s bonding you with that generational motherfucker, then I shall eliminate the root cause and set you free,” I wanted to believe that it was Nathan speaking with such a grudge but somewhere my heart denied. His awful mindset was making him loathe myself for falling for him once. Maybe God saved me from an absolute devil through a qualified de