50“Let me see it on my own,” He started striding toward me. I hesitated and stepped back, “It was nothing import…” he didn’t let me finish my sentence and tugged the papers from my hand. I sighed loudly, calculating his reaction. He observed it sharply, it seemed like he would get them out of this picture just by his sight. His eyes were narrow, Neither I could understand if he was getting angry or happy. His face was that neutrally flat. The silence around us was killing me, I always preferred to skip these moments of making me breathless every time I have such encounters. He gave an opposite reaction from what I was expecting, calmly hummed and stopped staring at the papers then trapped me in his eyes. The just-found air was long gone by that moment. “Where did you get it?” “Someone faxed you 5 minutes back,” I replied casually. He cocked his head and observed my features.His eyelashes were soaked with wetness and iris hinting a blaze of passion in them. I gulped at his intens
51My heart was pounding, “Damn, my face!” I cupped my cheeks and rolled my eyes over my pale complexion, I had a shower and discovered my scars on my shoulder gifted by Armando’s grip, he never noticed how heavy his hands were, It nearly hurt when I wore to cover them. I applied fasten-gel to close it, and put back the first-aid kit in the cabinet. I slid out of the bathroom while drying my hair with the towel, my concentration was toward my hair and eyes down at the ground, As I looked slightly up, I found a pair of red heels; one was constantly tapping the floor, I ascended my neck to find Julianna standing tall. “Hello, dear,” She batted her left eyebrow with a bitchy smirk, I would describe. I swallowed my saliva to wet my dried throat, “Hi,” she looked calculated and unknowingly prepared for something which I couldn’t fathom, her face was as usual baked with makeup and nail perfect to wound someone’s neck. As soon she saw my eyes on her hand she hid her hands in her black coa
52Sunrise7:42 AMTime was ticking on the clock and flying forever while I was struggling with the wide-eyes-open fight, I wanted to shut my active mind but it had been busy imagining worst-case scenarios, and I hated it for that. It had been like that from the moment those scarlet pair of heels left the room after spreading chaos in every corner, made me question my belief over the man I loved more than my existence, I finally sat upright on the bed after battling to sleep, my mind wasn’t in my favour that moment, It was continuously on that picture I found in Armando’s office. I huffed aloud - tired by constantly thinking of the immediate future, I had nothing in my control, everything seemed against me. I scooted out of bed and opened the curtains to admire the greenery of the garden, it was pleasant to view as the sun was rising and eating out the dark, my smile grew wider and I took a deep refreshing breath, may something sooner would wipe darkness of my life just this way, I
53I had my hair covered with a hoodie hat and kept my head lowered from the fear of Armando’s man nabbing me. 15 minutes had been passed by and I was still wandering on the streets of Spain. My heart was restless and doubtful about if Nathan was coming to pick me up or was I a fluke in the air, did he really have rosy feelings for my bitchy sister-in-law, I was burnt by this thought flashing in my head. 5 minutes more passed by and still no sign of his car or even him in person. I was frightened and decided to make a call again but before I could reach the telebooth. I caught a glimpse of a navy blue Audi skitting beside me and pulled up, I stiffened at his speed and glanced at it to check out who that insane man was behind the tinted windows. Shoot.The windows slid down and a man with semi-grey hair peeked at me, Oh boy, it must be Armando’s man. I paced to run but I just jogged so people around me won’t catch me suspicious. He drove alongside me, my heart pumped furiously and I w
54“So that’s why you killed my baby because you didn’t want to share me,”“What do you mean I killed your baby? How can you…” I trailed him off, “Armando showed me a video of Andrea showered in blood, accusing you promised her to help getting rid of me and she will have Armando and you’d planned my abduction for a long time, and now, you admitted you knew me from America, It’s quite alining, isn’t it.” I pushed him away and stood up taunting him, he frowned deeply at me, his face had a shade of guilty and he was continuously denying that fact, He tried to catch my hand but I backtracked swiftly, “I didn’t kill your fetus, Come on, Lana,” he stood up grumbling, “For God’s sake he was not a fetus, he was my baby,” I returned with the same potential, maybe more violent than him because my anger was burning my skin. Yes, now the accusation resembled truth, he was sounding like my baby’s culprit and as much I was hating myself for that right now, I was disappointed, shattered and frust
55“Miss Bellen, we suggest you stand on your tracks!” A man yelled as rushing toward me. I stepped back in fear after glancing at him but as I recalled behind me was Nathan and he reached close to catch me, I hastily turned to the one route left, I pushed my legs aimlessly to my left and ran for my life, “Lana!” Nathan shouted but I fastened my speed even my legs started to hurt already, I ran and came into the living room, there were open-glass windows which led to the garden, I decided my route and gave it a try without any second thought, I climbed off the window and got straight to run into the woods. Nathan had good speed to catch me but I was also used to running back in America for my school, I was confident that he would lose me once I mixed with the trees. “Lana, I swear you better stop where you are or this would turn really disastrous,” Nathan forewarned, his tone was deadpan and some voice deep inside me suggested me to listen him but I chose to ignore, he was my belove
56“Let’s make a baby, love,” he moaned in my ear and bit it. I processed what he said, my eyes were holding his vulnerable side and I was undeniably getting a stronger pull toward him, maybe because of our marriage bond, I believed when spouses accept each other from hearts, they feel an indubitable attraction towards each other and it was happening in our case. My hands cupped his face, his eyes were lowered, “I demand your eyes up, Armando. Look at me and repeat me you won’t dishonour me anymore and take me as your true wife. Promise me you will behave human and you will protect me and your offspring, you won’t make them inhuman creatures. I’d been through a ride of hell and I don’t want to fight anymore, Armando, I need a normal life, a life every girl has a right to life. A year and half months back, I didn’t know that a mafia man would fall in love with me and I will stand here but here am I, so I want you to choose... Today, you need to choose between me or your killing obsess
57Last night was unexpected. I couldn’t think of anything else than the inevitable mistake I made last night from the moment I woke up on his bed, I revived the moment happened between us and realized I willingly had sex with him four times, four bloody rounds and these messed up bedsheets and torn pillows screamed at me how rough last night must’ve been. I buried my face in my hands, regretted every second of what I signed up for myself and what would come next was absolutely clueless, either I had to bear a cold Armando or completely different of what I just said,I was constantly scolding myself, I literally had no idea why I agreed on having intercourse with that man last night, I was having soft corners for him but that didn’t mean I had agreed on having sex with him or forgiven him for every sin he committed. Calling myself shocked was an underestimation, it was above words. But one thing I was sure of, somebody was drugging me, Viagra was in my system that made me do this. I p
103Warning: This Chapter Can Be Challenging For Readers To Read. Kindly Pause Reading If You Feel Anxious Or Depressed. You’re Already Warned. LanaIt was a female. It was her. I knew I would be stabbed by Nathan’s cousin who’s jealous of me or who would accuse me of seducing him. Maybe, she would throw me in the river like my intuition tried to tell me but I ignored it lately. I should’ve considered my gut feeling rather than Nathan’s request. Look, where I stood; in the mouth of death. I tried to struggle in her hold but she roared at me, keeping me in the hold. I tried to shout but it wasn’t loud enough to call for help. I thought she would push me any second but the hope of survival arose when the sirens started to buzz, deafening us to death. Within seconds, there was an army steadied to kill this culprit. Their weapons were locked on their target and the voice that soothed me came across my ears. “Leave her alone!” Nathan shouted at the top of his lungs. My breath started to
102LanaI wasn’t ready for this night. My heart was racing horribly in my ribcage. Something was not right, something would go wrong and someone was going to pay for it terribly—maybe this child in my womb. Maybe tonight I would be stabbed by one of Nathan’s bitchy cousins who would accuse me of seducing him, just like Armando’s cousin did back in Spain. I prayed to God for the abortion and yet I tried to convince one of the doctors during the clinic visit but no one agreed without Nathan’s approval. My heart just said this child won’t see this world. It would die. I just didn’t want to go through with the stabbing pain once again. I wasn’t that strong to bear pains anymore. I had enough and if this time, anyone would try to harm me, I would end myself with my sinful hands. This was it, this was the solution to end my problems. Maybe, after all the while God wanted me to end myself. He gave me enough clues yet I delayed realising them. It had been three hours since I was continuou
101Next Week Somewhere In LondonNathanIt’s a beautiful feeling to be a dad again. I waited long enough to feel this moment again, yet I had never known that I had to force the pregnancy on a married woman—but it was written to happen under such circumstances and I should be less guilty about it. All because Lana left me no choice. Moreover, not only I was happy because I would be a dad again but also that it was time to finally eradicate that motherfucking Armando and his two carbon copies from the earth. Lana wouldn’t have to bear much pain once she would give birth to our baby. Those little devils would be gone and my little human will replace their space in my queen’s heart.Everything was going perfect the way I wanted and sure enough, it would end the same way I planned—except the culprit’s escaping part. Armando’s breakout wasn’t on the list yet he successfully flew away, killing four of my men in the process which he will pay really soon as I got the lead about his whereabo
100LanaIf it’s true then I was gone. I was busted to live anymore. If Armando was to hear about this I would be much more than trouble. Pregnant? With some other man’s child? I did everything to avoid it. I even bribed Mary to steal birth-control pills for me, how come I got pregnant. Argh, I wanna vanish my existence. If the pregnant part was real, I would really jump off the cliff. I couldn’t prepare myself for the bloodlust of my children or this foetus. This unborn had to die or Armando would kill him and me. I knew how far he could go. He was a maniac in my case. And as far as he was possessive about me being only his. I could predict I would pay a big price for Nathan’s deed. “Good to see you, Mr. Knightley, how may I help?” Malinda’s voice rang in my ear like a driller screwing my head. Though she had a velvet voice but right now, she was the person I needed to stay away from. Her clicks of heels grew louder as she came closer to me and Nathan who had been playing with my h
99LanaPhew. Thank God I successfully got control of the situation before I could finally be thrown to the bed and lost my chance for a dinner outside of this room. It had been fifteen minutes since leaving the house. I was sitting on the passenger seat beside Nathan who was driving his posh Lamborghini. It was the smooth black ride up in the mountains and the view I was having all the while was completely mesmerising. The street lights and the moonlight seemed like having a competition to glorify the route for me tonight. I would’ve enjoyed this moment even more if Nathan would be in his casket like he should’ve rather than driving the car like my man. I sighed at this thought. The pleasant feeling in my chest faded away with realisation of Nathan’s presence. I couldn’t just swallow the thought that I used to die for this man once, I even prayed to see him again when I had affection for him. But the very affection died when Armando started becoming a man of my dreams. He deliberat
98Lana“Speak,” Leone said with the second line connected. My heart palpitated but I overcame my growing anxiety. “Leone, It’s Lana…” I enlightened him. “… They imprisoned us separately for months. I had no connection to Armando even though I tried to encounter him once, Nathan had security at every step. I am not sure if he’s still in his torture cellar or they have done something to him or sent him to God knows where,” I ran my mouth like a bullet train, giving him no chance to speak. “Is everything good on your side?” The second I asked this question had me panicking inwardly. “We are drowning, my lady…” he said in a monotone but the effect his words brought was enough for sinking my heart, “…Our businesses are being sealed by the board for illegal conspiracies. Someone had cracked our shares in the underground sector and we are losing our men count. Our weapons are being stolen from the ports and many more harm’s been done. Everything is out of order. We lost three hundred me
97LanaNathan caught me faking my sleep. I had my eyes closed when he came near and sat beside me on the bed. He didn’t do anything for ten minutes, just quietly sat there and admired me from afar—that’s only what I could get with my eyes closed. But later, I felt his thumb striking with my cheek that ascended inside the blanket and he ended up scooping his hand inside my panties, rubbing my core and wetting me. When he slid a finger in me, I moaned and my eyes wide-opened. I gawked at him with astonished eyes. “What the heck, Nathan, leave me for God’s sake,” I huffed, disapproving his touch in between my moan and got his hand out of my pants, for a fact I hated reacting to his touch so intensely, that makes him full of himself a little more every time. He honestly knew all the perfect spots—but this time his perfection wasn’t my main focus. It was basically the fact that I had a phone and key hidden in my socks that churned my stomach for bad.“I was checking if you were still hot
96Two Months LaterLanaTwo months. A heck of a long time that I spent in a single gigantic room as a hostage. These fucking two months had me crying, screaming, begging for help, pleading for mercy and at last swearing at Nathan for being an asshole with me. I never thought Nathan could be like this. He raped me often. Yes, I would call it rape. He didn’t care what I said to him he only wanted to be inside me thrice a week.He provided me with clothes, food, Netflix and everything any other girl would desire but I was more interested in being able to breathe freely. Moreover, I missed my kids. Not even a single day passed by without me weeping for them. I never left them alone. I didn’t know if Sebastian reached home safe to Nancy or not.I was only stuck here for nothing and I see this situation going to nowhere good. I was hugging my knees, trying to think of a breakout for the thousandth time since two months. This time my escape wasn’t easy because I wasn’t sure if they kept Arm
95Lana“Then, I can even make you have dozens of kids containing your blood just now,” Nathan stated fearlessly. I blinked twice as his words sank in my stomach, each word containing tons of heavy metals that felt like ripping through each ounce of my soul.Making babies appeared to be a joke to him. How could he mock something sacred so efficiently? He wasn’t like this before. I remembered him as someone gentle and considerate yet now, he was portrayed to be cold and selfish. “I don’t want to believe in my ears, speak something real, Nathan,” I replied, foggily. “Do my face tell you I'm joking to you, Lana? If children are the only reason that’s bonding you with that generational motherfucker, then I shall eliminate the root cause and set you free,” I wanted to believe that it was Nathan speaking with such a grudge but somewhere my heart denied. His awful mindset was making him loathe myself for falling for him once. Maybe God saved me from an absolute devil through a qualified de