Chapter 3

Chapter 3.

Caroline. 

I felt exposed. Not because i was naked, but because of him getting all frozen, straddling me. He was insisting to see me a few moments ago and now it felt like he was regretting his decision. 

I gulped, trying to swallow the humiliation. I never felt like this before. How could I do this? How could I cloud my own judgment to leave myself vulnerable in front of him? Of course he had his fair share with girls. Blondies, smart, skinny. Beauty princesses, models. And who was I trying to impress? 

I sat up, trying to cover myself with my arms but the more I tried, the more tears slipped down my eyes. I would never forgive Xavier Russel for the insult. He was still looking at me without blinking and frowned to see me sitting up. I wanted to say something, to slap him, to throw him out of my room but something snapped inside him. 

"Carl. Baby. Oh my god. I am so sorry baby. Shhhhh". He pulled me in his lap, caged in his strong arms. "I am sorry baby. I..". He kept frantically kissing my cheeks and that made me cry even more. 

"I hate you. I hate you Xavier Russel. How could you do this to me? What am i? A cheap whore? This was why you wanted to see me to make me feel so worthless. I hate you. Get out". I kept hitting his chest, trying to wiggle out but he held me close. 

"I am sorry baby. It's not you Carl. It's me. You are way above my league Love. I know I shouldn't have reacted like an asshole, but I felt..".

"What? You felt disgusted huh? I am not skinny and definitely not upto your standard girls. But that doesn't give you any right to insult me. I will never forgive you for this Xavier. Get out now". I attempted to get away again but I know I can never break his arms. 

"No. No. No Caroline. No it's not like that baby. Shhh. Look at me". He cupped my face, making me look at him. He wiped my cheeks planting soft kisses on his wake. 

"I felt unworthy of you Caroline Heard. You are so pure. So beautiful like an angel. I am not pure and you know that. You can never be compared to any of the girls from my past. I… I lost Caroline. I saw you and I thought I was so cheap for you. I.. It's not you, baby. I am sorry". He attached our forehead together. I was confused. What the … 

"I don't understand Xavier". I whispered. He sighed. He looked me in my eyes, placing his lips on mine for a while before he pulled off. 

"I don't want to go back into the darkness Caroline. Do you think I can walk with you? I don't want to risk it all. I don't want to lose you Carl". He said in a defeated tone. 

I blinked and then it all sinked in. 

"How would you lose me Xavier? I am here". I cupped his cheeks in my hands. 

He pulled me closer as if there was any space left. He put his hand in my hair, and wrapped my waist with his other arm. 

"I don't know where this night will lead us, but fuck, i cannot stop myself now". He murmured on my lips and then it was a blur of events. 

His kiss was heated, frantic. All needy. He made me straddle him, angling my head so that he could get a better access to my mouth. 

"Touch me Carl". He whispered in a low husky voice. 

"Where".... I didn't know how and what to do. It was overwhelming. 

"Anywhere baby. Just touch me already". He was breathing hard. Nipping and kissing on every skin he could put his lips on. In one fluid move he had me on my back on the couch, hovering me completely. 

"Goddd. … you are perfect Carl. You are so beautiful". Unlike before, his hands were exploring my body now. He was softly biting on my collarbone. Sucking on my nipples. How can one do this? His moves were precise. His touches were calculated. He kissed me once more, open mouth licking in my mouth making me a puddle. 

I felt a rush of moisture in between my thighs. It was hot. I didn't know how long I could hold myself. He moved down, worshiping my body before settling between my open legs. This time he didn't wait a moment and sucked the flesh. 

"Xavv…". I jolted. It was so sensitive. My pussy was clenching with need. I wanted him more. But how to say. He sucked my clit for a moment before he dragged his middle finger in the wet flesh of my pussy. 

"God Xav… please. ." I held his head, pushing myself more into his mouth. 

"I got you baby. Relax". He looked at me from between my legs. His lips glistened with my arousal. He took out his finger and sucked it clean before plunging it again. My body was working perfectly with his. 

"Perfect Carl.. Give me more cream love". Him talking all dirty while thrusting 2 thick fingers in my wet clenching pussy and i was undone. 

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Xavier…

That was an out of the world experience. She screamed my name as she cummed. It was so intense that her thighs lifted upwards. I kept on sucking her sweet pussy, kept fingering her until I extracted the last of her orgasm. 

She was breathless. Panting hard. Her body was still shivering with pleasure. I hovered above her, coaxing her to open her mouth as I made her taste herself on my tongue. 

She wrapped her arms around my shoulder keeping me closer. A thin layer of perspiration covered her body. 

"Are you okay"? I balanced myself on my elbow to look down at her. She opened her blue eyes, biting her lower lip. 

"I am..". She smiled softly, tracing her fingers at my cheeks.  "But you…". She fell silent with a blush creeping on her neck and face. I chuckled, totally understanding what she was saying. 

"Don't worry about it. It was about you tonight. But maybe someday i will ask to return the favor". I leaned in closer and she smacked my shoulder playfully. 

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The weekend turned out to be the best days they spent together. They played, they danced crazy. They spent their noon on the beach. They enjoyed every moment making love to each other. 

It was their last night and they had to leave in the morning. 

"What are you doing Carl"? Xavier saw her walking in and out of her bedroom as if checking.  

"Counter checking if i had packed everything or not". She checked her suitcases and mentally made a list.  

"I think only toiletries for the morning are left". Xavier shrugged. 

"Have you packed"? Carl turned to ask him. 

"I am practically wearing just shorts here so nothing much is out of my bag". Xavier winked, making her chuckle. 

"What is it Caroline? What's bothering you"? Xavier stood by her. He cupped her face in his big hands, tucking those stray hairs behind her ear.  

"I…". She sighed. "What's now Xavier? What will happen tomorrow when we reach home"? She finally spit it out. 

"How do you want it Caroline"? He replied calmly. 

"It's not how I want Xavier. We both know we cannot be together. This..". 

"And why can't we be together"? Xavier asked. He wanted to listen to Caroline. He was noticing her disturbed and bothered since morning. 

"Xav.. We belong to two opposite worlds. With a different work routine. Also with Marcus all possessive and this all friend code. I know he will go all crazy if he finds out. What will I say to him? That we.. That we".  

"Carl. There is nothing wrong with us working in a different environment. I know there is so much mess. I know every word is spread around me. But all I want is one chance. 

I don't want to lose you Caroline Heard. I don't want to lose this friendship between us and I know it's no more just friendship now. I know I have been with so many girls before, and I would never deny it because you know me. Nothing hidden from you Caroline and I don't want to hide anything either. 

I know you hate lies and liars and I am aware that I cannot go any far if I start it with fake excuses and build up stories. 

I want you Caroline. I am not a hormonal teenager to work on impulse, but I have never felt this before. Can you trust me once? Can you give me a hope to court you"? Caroline was out of words. Xavier could be a player, a jolly buddy, a fun friend. But this Xaveir had put her short of words. 

"Xav…". 

"I know I am asking too much. Trusting someone is a big issue for you. Especially with my history. Look, there would be times when we would come across any one from my past, any one to claim me. But I swear Caroline, I have never been in a relationship with anyone. No girlfriends, nothing. 

I need you to stay with me. And if you feel like I am not worth it, I won't hold you back. You have my words". Xavier was telling the truth. Caroline could see the sincerity in those green eyes. She had no reason to deny him because she knew each and everything about Xavier. 

"I won't be able to risk my heart, Xav". Caroline looked at him with her blue eyes fixed in his green orbs. 

"I know Carl. I am not asking you to give it to me just like that. Let's take it slow. Let's get to know each other from the start. Let's spend time with each other. I want to hold your hand, take you out. I want to announce that we are together. Can i"? There was so much hope in Xavier's eyes that Caroline couldn't deny him. And for once, she wanted to listen to her heart. 

"Okay. I will wait, Xavier Russel. But if you broke my trust, you won't see me ever again". Caroline said in a firm tone. 

"It won't happen, baby. I will never let you go". Xavier smiled before he bent down at her and kissed her lips to tell her how much it meant to him.

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