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2022-03-25 17:19:49I've lost hope. Now all I feel is this black hole in my heart. Now one cares about me. I've been here for a long while now.
I keep going back to the arena. I have cuts and wounds everywhere. Sometimes the crowd participated and beat me up.As usual, i smelt death. Then I heard his cold and calculated footsteps. A cold shiver went down my spine.I was scared. Yes, he had managed to get me terrified and insane. On some days he injected me with drugs.I would be high and suddenly pain would pierce my pleasure induced world. It was then that I would know that I was in the arena.Sometimes, I would be alone in the dark and people would start beating me. They drew blood from me almost everyday.Sometimes I was chained to a pole and everyone was allowed to beat me. I could feel something surfacing. Like a hidden memory.It haunted me in my sleep. I could hear the voices in my head, telling me to die and that I was worthless.Related chapters
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