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45: Lose My Mind
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2024-10-29 19:42:56ATLAS
“You chased her out! What the fuck is wrong with you? What did you do to her?!”
Andrew looked like he wanted to punch a hole in my fucking face and the thing is, I would probably let him do it.
He was yelling in my face, paying no mind to the people moving about their day, shooting us weird looks as they passed by.
“Why do you have to be so fucking miserable and then you make everyone else around you feel that same way?” He yells exasperated. “No one is forcing you to be this asshole but why do you subject—“
“That’s enough now,” William appeared out of nowhere. Handing Andrew his suit jacket that he must have take
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