JADEI didn’t know I had anxiety of the pack members not wanting me back until I was on my way down the stairs. I had started slowing down, without realising. Ray had noticed and asked if I was okay. She thought I was in pain. I didn’t want to worry her so I braved it and forced a smile then quickened my steps. I kept going myself pep talks while were on the way.The welcome I got was not something I ever even envisioned. It took me completely by surprise but I loved it. I appreciated it. Knowing how much the guys missed me on the training grounds meant a lot. It meant that they noticed me. They were aware of my presence and it made a change in their lives.They were all so happy, I had to stop and chat with the a little. Even though Atlas’s gaze was burning a hole on my forehead. And it was taking everything in me not to give in and just get lost in his eyes. When I finally got away, I finally got to them. He and Ray were in deep conversation but they stoped talking when I got there.
JADESpending time with Atlas, making plans about the baby and the pack, I wish it would never end, really. I understood what the good life was and why people never wanted it to end because I didn’t want this to end.Life has been steady since the whole thing with the council. Really, all we do is train, talk about the baby, talk about pack issues, spend some time with Ray and sometimes Andrew, or the both of them at the same time. Usually when we were going for our evening walks. Oh, how I loved those even walks. Though, to be completely honest, I loved it more ehe it was just Atlas and me.I was seeing an entirely different side of him now. He was more cautious, patient and very attentive to my needs. He sometimes even knew what I wanted before I could ask. And it has become, ‘if I want it, I get it’ kind of thing. Because he always makes sure I get whatever I want.Like last night, when we were about to sleep, I told him I was carving fruit juice. He said there should be some in th
JADEThe island Atlas chose for us to come to is on the outskirts off Hawaii. Pretty deserted which was just perfect. But being who he easily, although I understood that we had society threats now. Atlas booked the entire island so we could be alone.There was food and everything we might need for the next ten days. And yes, he decided ton ten days although nobody was surprised.“When you said you wanted alone time, you really meant it.” I said, looking around the beautiful resort we were staying in.“We have seen enough people to last us a lifetime. I think we deserve this.” Well, I couldn’t’t exactly argue with that logic. I felt him wrap his around me, and I place my hand over his, loving the feel if him all wrapped up around me.Atlas being Atlas didn’t let the moment last. He hoisted me up in move and carried me bridal style, ignoring all my moaning and groaning for him to let me down.“I’m sure you were there when doctor said I should be moving more and exercising.” I muttered.
JADEAtlas made a simple dinner before we went to bed, both tired and exhausted from the flight. Especially him because he has been working nonstop the few days before out trip. He positively posed out the moment his head hit the pillow while it was a bit harder for me to fall asleep. At first, I couldn’t find the perfect position. And after that, my mind was just too aware. And the thing is, I couldn’t tell you what I was thinning about. Just multiple hazy thoughts.I felt something touching me, and tried to slap it away. It felt cold and I really didn’t like that. My eyes fluttered but they didn’t fully open. I must have fallen asleep after staring at the wall for hours.Rolling on my other side, now snuggled up next to a warm body, I tried falling back asleep again, forgetting what had woken me up in the first place. I’d started drifting off, then I felt it again. Something cold, sliding up my arm.This time, I sat up with a start. I must have made some kind of noise because I felt
ATLASThe ten days getaway was exactly what Jade and I needed. Not even to give myself credit but she was glowing more by the second day we were in the island. I had considered food and cleaning up, because I didn’t want to compromise on us being alone. So, I planned for the workers to be coming around the time we wouldn’t be at the resort. That way, there was no way for us to meet with them.Andrew thought I was crazy for booking an entire island just to get alone time with Jade. I think he is underestimating the lengths I will go to for her. I hope his is a good lesson for him though, so, he’ll never doubt what I will do for her.And watching her, wearing that sexy two piece bikini. Her bump shining in the sun as she is laid back, sun bathing. It settled in my. Mind that I would really do anything for her. Kill anyone for her. Go to war with the world first she just gives me the okay to do that.These feelings, that overwhelming need to give her whatever she wants just because see h
JADE“You and this baby are my life. And I will lose mine before I let anything happen to the both of you.”I didn’t know what it is about Atlas wars that made me shiver in fear. And he felt that because he immediately asked what was wrong. And I want to tell him, I really do. But I don’t want to ruin the moment of peace we were having here. Leaving all our problems in the real world. Not to mention how I couldn’t even explain what was going on with me. All this dreams, they made nonsense. Or maybe I was scared they were making too much sense.I knew he wouldn’t call me crazy if I told him. He would try and understand then find a solution. The thing is, I’m the one thinking I’m crazy.“Something is on your mind.” He gently urged, not really pushing but not dropping it either. “If there is anything you don’t like, baby. Tell me and I’ll fix it. Is it the weather? I heard pregnant women feel so hot. I should have picked a cooler location, I’m sorry about that—““Atlas.” I covered his mo
ATLASJade has been acting really weird lately. And I’m trying to be understanding, to not push her into telling me what is on her mind, but is has bee really fucking hard, knowing something is disturbing her and not being able to help. I tried to coerce her into speaking. So, she wouldn’t have to deal with the burden alone. A problem shared is a problem half shared and all that shit.She has been impossibly tight lipped. I didn’t like that. This was supposed to be an ‘US’ time before the baby gets us. Our minds weren’t supposed to distract but it seemed hers chose this as the perfect tike to make a show.I couldn’t sleep tonight. I had laid down for a while and pretended to sleep. I find myself doing that a lot in the past two days. I always wait until she falls asleep before my body will also give up on me. We spend most of the day lazying around, exploring the beach, swimming and making sweet love. And at night, we cuddle and go to bed. But it hasn’t been that way for the past few
JADEAtlas was too perceptive and I knew he wouldn’t let it go, not when he knew something was wrong with me. I should have expected something like this sooner. Then again, he was very good at keeping his thoughts to himself. Even though he was more transparent with them now. I could feel what he was feeling through our bond. Too bad it didn’t allow you to read people’s minds. Them I would have known what he was planning.He usually feels asleep before emergencies. I was used to that. I hadn’t expected hi to stay awake. Like he knew I would wake up.What surprised me the most had to be the fact that he didn’t push for me to tell him everything. It was in alphas nature to be compelling and always want to have their way. And I know he is like that too. So, him not doing it was a big thing to me.He cuddled me, stroking my hair gently, our breathing in synch. I eve forgot about the nightmare. Tonight’s own had been particularly gruesome but I couldn’t remember the details of it. I just r