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JADE

I tried sleeping after Atlas left, I did tell him I was going to sleep. But that was just an excuse to get him to go. So, why did my heart feel heavy when he actually left? Did I expect him to stay? No. I would have been upset if he’d stayed but then I wasn’t exactly happy that he left either.

Maybe I’m just crazy. Most be the pregnancy hormones.

Those were the thoughts keeping me up. This exact questions and others similar to it. Once in a while, Antonio would slip into the thoughts but I’ll get rid of them immediately.

I tossed and turned, not finding the bed comfortable at all.

How is it that I slept better in the hospital bed that was much smaller and not at all soft but now, in my comfortable bed, I couldn’t get even a minute of shut eye. This is horrible.

Much later in the evening, I still haven’t gotten a moment of respite from all the thoughts, Ray came into the room. She myst have thought I was sleeping, with all the blinds down and lights off, so she slipped into the be