ALPHA ZADE I didn’t want to meet her, or talk to her, or even simply be in her presence but as soon as I saw her leave the hall immediately after Feyre, I knew I had to stop her somehow. Stop her from what exactly? I didn’t know. I hated to admit but my attention has been on her since we walked i
FEYRE “Where are we going?” I ask Zade as I grip his arm, halting his steps. I thought we were going back to the room since he obviously left the dinner hallway through—rude much, but he didn’t bother telling me where we were heading, he just expected me to follow him blindly. Yeah, he has somet
FEYRE “Are you okay?” Zade asks, his voice breathless. Our chests are heaving, breaths coming out in short pants. My hand is trembling on his chest and I don’t think I can speak, the adrenaline and fear has mixed into one, the force of it threatening to make my heart fail. I can’t believe what j
FEYRE “Don’t.” I say with an almost plea. I didn’t trust myself near him right now. After what just happened, everything was just too much and he couldn’t—shouldn’t—be saying things like that. My wolf was already putty at his feet. She needs a mate and the full moon is close. I can only hold her
This mate bond coupled with the full moon being close must have made me lose my sanity. It has to be the only reason I’m still here after she said to stop, after she said to not do it. I have never bothered myself with women, I didn’t have to chase them, they brought themselves over like offerings.
FEYRE I keep tossing and turning on the bed, my body refusing to shut down, my wolf refusing to help the matter with her constant nagging and mewling. I don't know who is more crazy at this point, Naya or me, or this crazy need between my legs that I can’t seem to get rid of. Zade going off to h
What she is saying might be making sense in her sex riddled brain but I still have a few working braincells and I know, there is no way that will end well. We are the same person, literally and even if she takes control and he sees that, what is saying I won’t take it back in the middle of whatever
FEYRE “You mean, he seriously didn’t tell you I called?” Asher sounds surprised as he asks. He is lying horizontally on the bed beside me, like we used to do back at home. I turn to lie on my side so I’m facing him and he does the same. It almost feels like when we were teenagers again. The thoug
After everyone settled and the place regained a semblance of normalcy, we gathered in the living room to talk about pressing matters. Feyre said she wanted to know everything before tonight. That way, she wouldn’t feel like there is something she has to do in her life. She wants to start on a clean
ALPHA ZADE Everything feels different when the plane lands in the private hangar. Even the air felt different, free and fresh. Feyre slept the entire ride to the packhouse. I relished holding cradling her in my arms like a precious jewel. Which she is. Alpha Asher is already waiting for our arri
If someone told me this would be my life four or five months ago, I would take them to the doctor because something had to be wrong with them. We’re here now, and I don’t think I can ever be this happy in my life. “Perfect.” Zade repeats. He grips my chin and tips my head up until I’m looking at h
FEYRE The gentle rhythm of the heart monitor is the sound I wake up to. I look around the dim lit room, sighing in relief when I note that it is NOT a hospital room. I think everyone would understand if I never wanted to be in one ever again. Soft breathing from beside me makes me smile. I push
We both stare at the gun we hadn’t noticed in alpha Lucien’s hand and Zade sighs, then he stands up, letting my hand fall off his body. “He would choose to die a coward. It is all he has ever been.” He turns and walks out of the place. I followed him without a word. When we walk out, there are mor
FEYRE Losing consciousness has become a second skin to me. That is my first thought when I wake up and find myself looking up at the ceiling. I pick myself up from the ground, craning my neck from side to side until I release the cramp. The man is still lying face down on the mattress. He looks d
I knew it was a reach but he was already on a sloppy hill, and this is the one thing I have always wanted to know, if he was the one that killed her or not. It looked like suicide, people believed she had a reason to. But I knew she wouldn’t. She promised to stand by me and she wouldn’t have left w
“It can’t be cured because it is not a fucking illness. Your delusion though, I’m sure they have mental institutions like this for that.” “Don’t speak to me like that.” he growls, sounding enraged. It is the only real emotion I have seen him shown in a while. “I had this all mapped out for years.
ALPHA ZADE I blink my eyes open, hoping everything I’m thinking right now is nothing but my imagination, or at least, a bad dream. A terrible dream where my father has me and Feyre in a crazy lab bunker. It seems too real, the déjà vu hitting me among other things. This has felt like it has happe