FEYRE It has been two days since Alpha Zade and I kissed and I have been avoiding him, or we have been avoiding each other. That seems more accurate. He turned back when he arrived at the dining room and I was there last night. He didn’t eat dinner, I was told by Delilah this morning. He didn’t e
I’d told her I was going to go and call Asher. I’m not going to tell him about the kiss, I just wanted to talk to someone from my pack. I feel like my life is falling apart, I need a semblance of control which I can’t find here. Delilah is sweet but she reminds me of her alpha, even if they share
FEYRE If I thought I had something to think about because of the kiss, it just got worse with this news of the summit. Dylan tried to make me feel better by saying it is nothing and it will pass in the blink of an eye. He didn’t realize he wasn’t helping so I just smiled politely and thanked him.
FEYRE I stare at Delilah with a blank look after she says that. I wish I could deny it but I can't because she is telling the truth. I think of my childhood and how many times I have heard that. Asher’s father always tells me ‘Curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back’. It was su
ALPHA ZADE “Delilah, give us a moment.” Delilah opens her mouth, ready to argue but a look from me makes her change her mind. She taps Feyre’s arm and smiles, something I can’t explain in her eyes. “I’ll see you there, bye.” With that, she jogs off leaving the two of us alone. It was the wake u
A feral and animalistic part of me wanted me to open my mouth and capture it between my teeth. I don’t know what the hell I’m supposed to do with it after but it sounded great in my head. I let her walk away, deciding it is for the best. I couldn’t help myself though, I watched her sexy ass sway a
FEYRE “Do I really have to go?” I make puppy dog eyes at alpha Lucien. I feel like an idiot but after braving it with Alpha Zade yesterday and then going back to my room and being unable to sleep because he was on my mind. I’d reached a new low when I allowed my hand to trail down and slipped int
“Yeah, yeah.” I add, sounding less than excited about this trip. When I was going with Asher, I was actually enthusiastic and even looking forward to it. Now though, I would rather die than have to attend. “Dylan is coming here to escort you back to your room,” I nod my thanks at Alpha Lucien. I’
After everyone settled and the place regained a semblance of normalcy, we gathered in the living room to talk about pressing matters. Feyre said she wanted to know everything before tonight. That way, she wouldn’t feel like there is something she has to do in her life. She wants to start on a clean
ALPHA ZADE Everything feels different when the plane lands in the private hangar. Even the air felt different, free and fresh. Feyre slept the entire ride to the packhouse. I relished holding cradling her in my arms like a precious jewel. Which she is. Alpha Asher is already waiting for our arri
If someone told me this would be my life four or five months ago, I would take them to the doctor because something had to be wrong with them. We’re here now, and I don’t think I can ever be this happy in my life. “Perfect.” Zade repeats. He grips my chin and tips my head up until I’m looking at h
FEYRE The gentle rhythm of the heart monitor is the sound I wake up to. I look around the dim lit room, sighing in relief when I note that it is NOT a hospital room. I think everyone would understand if I never wanted to be in one ever again. Soft breathing from beside me makes me smile. I push
We both stare at the gun we hadn’t noticed in alpha Lucien’s hand and Zade sighs, then he stands up, letting my hand fall off his body. “He would choose to die a coward. It is all he has ever been.” He turns and walks out of the place. I followed him without a word. When we walk out, there are mor
FEYRE Losing consciousness has become a second skin to me. That is my first thought when I wake up and find myself looking up at the ceiling. I pick myself up from the ground, craning my neck from side to side until I release the cramp. The man is still lying face down on the mattress. He looks d
I knew it was a reach but he was already on a sloppy hill, and this is the one thing I have always wanted to know, if he was the one that killed her or not. It looked like suicide, people believed she had a reason to. But I knew she wouldn’t. She promised to stand by me and she wouldn’t have left w
“It can’t be cured because it is not a fucking illness. Your delusion though, I’m sure they have mental institutions like this for that.” “Don’t speak to me like that.” he growls, sounding enraged. It is the only real emotion I have seen him shown in a while. “I had this all mapped out for years.
ALPHA ZADE I blink my eyes open, hoping everything I’m thinking right now is nothing but my imagination, or at least, a bad dream. A terrible dream where my father has me and Feyre in a crazy lab bunker. It seems too real, the déjà vu hitting me among other things. This has felt like it has happe