…Jenna POV…
Being stuck in a hole in the ground makes you think, think about a lot of things. Especially the things that you could have done differently in your life. Regret is a big word, and to say that you regret something is even a bigger thing to say. In my little hole here, I am thinking of how I could have regretted something differently.
Every bad reaction has an even worse chain reaction if you think about it this way if the lazy ass cat dies, who is going to kill the dirty annoying mouse. Same as for a relationship, if you break something that needs no fixing and looks for fixing somewhere else, you are bound the create a bigger problem than what you started with.
You end up creating a monster.
You end up with this bad reaction that your chain reaction caused.
Luke that has been watching me intently, finally speaks, “What are you thinking so hard about gorgeous?”
“Can I ask you a question?”
“Of course.”
“If you say you love me, how can you tie me to a pole?”
He gets up from where he is sitting and comes walking up to me, “You will just go running back to him. You always do.”
“So, are you going to keep me here until forever?”
“If I have to, I will.”
“How is that loving someone then?”
“How is taking someone's heart and trample all over it every time you leave loving someone?”
For a brief moment, my heart feels sad for what I have done to him, but only a brief second, “It was never my intention Luke.”
“But you did it anyway.”
“No, you getting me all wrong.”
“I don't see how I can get this wrong.”
“You know I really cared about you.”
He looks at me in shock, “When did care turn into cared?”
“The minute you tied me to a pole.”
“So I guess love turned to loved somewhere between the tying up too?”
“Luke, no matter what you have done, what you are doing, or what you are still going to do, there will always be love in my heart for you.”
“Just not the kind of love I am looking for?”
I only but shake my head at him in an agreement, “Not this kind of love; from where I am sitting, all I can feel is rage. You have to let me go.”
“Unfortunately, I can not do that.”
“How are we going to have a normal intimate relationship like this?”
“I am still trying to figure that out for myself.”
“This is not the way to resolve our problems.”
“This is the only way to resolve our problems.”
I can see that he gets frustrated by my constant nagging, but I am not ready to give up, “God, Luke, please don't do this.”
“It's done; there is no turning back from here.”
“What happens if he finds me?”
“I hope he does not; I don't want to do something I am really going to regret.”
“What do you mean?”
“I don't want to make you a widow faster than you got married.”
I really hope that Tyler finds me, but if this is what Luke is going to do if Tyler does, then maybe it's better than Tyler doesn't. Telling this man what he wants to hear when I even don't want to hear it myself is harder than I thought it is going to be. To claim that there is a love for him is only going to feed that animal inside.
If only I listened to Tyler, if only I had worn it under my dress, maybe I won't be tied up, maybe I won't be in this danger. But ifs and maybes and buts are not going to save me from him. I need a solution, and I need it fast.
…Tyler POV…
Today should have been the happiest day of our lives. Today was the happiest day of our lives. The only thing that can make this day happy again is finding my wife.
“Brooke,” I turn to her concerned, “ You know this town better than me; where do we find any basements?”
“There is about six that I know of.”
“Are the houses all occupied?”
“Only three of them.”
“So we each take one.”
“We can't split up. It will be two against one.”
“It is going to take too long.”
Nathan interrupts me, “Tyler, he won't hurt her, but he will definitely hurt one of us.”
“Can we go then?”
We head off to the first house; standing outside this basement brings an awful feeling of dread over me. How do you react to a situation you have never been prepared for.
There no lock at the door; it seems that it has been abandoned for a very long time; I instinctively know that she is definitely not here.
I look at Brooke, defeated, “She is not here.”
“We have not checked.”
“She is not here.”
The sun is starting to set, it is getting really dark really fast now, and we still have two to go.
…Jenna POV…
I know Tyler is going to find me; I feel that he is getting very close. The only problem is, after our talk earlier on, it got Luke spooked; now he has taken me out of the basement and moved me to a barn at the very outskirts of town.
If there is a chance that I should never be found, I think I might just lose my sanity likeLuke did; maybe it is the loneliness that drove him insane and not me after all.
That day I looked him in the eye when I said my final goodbye; I thought I saw love. Did I see rage fueled by the fire that burns stone-cold hot?
…Tyler POV…
We just finished searching the second house and the second basement, no sign of her. It is pitch dark; Brooke wants to call it a night; I say we don't stop at all.
“Tyler,” Brooke grabs me by the arm, “You can't carry on without sleep.”
“I can, and I will.”
“Stop being so goddamn stubborn.”
“He wants her alive,” Nathan reminds me. “She will be okay.”
“What if he touches her,” the thought cringes through my mind.
Brooke looks me straight in the eyes, “Then I will personally cut his fucking hands off.”
“Two hours, that's it.”
We end back at Jenna's old place; there is some of the old furniture in here; at least it is a place to crash. None of us feel much up for talking, not even Brooke feels like flirting; everyone goes their own way, off to get some rest.
But I don't.
I wait until I know for almost certain that they both are deep off to sleep when I head on out again.
The third house is all the way on the other side; it is one of the big farmhouses on the outskirts of town. I am outnumbered by one and most probably have far less firepower than Luke does; it is not like I planned a kidnapping and standoff on my wedding day.
I get to the third house and make my way inside to search the house itself to see if anyone has been around here, but I do not find a thing.
Now the basement, to say I am not scared shitless, would be a blatant lie; I know I can handle myself; I don't know what he is prepared to do, though. I truly believe his intention will be to eliminate me completely. Monsters don't get reinvented with a conscience.
Where is the basement?
There is no goddamn basement!
What the fuck now?
Wait, there is a barn.
My heart is pounding out my chest; I think this must be it. I don't know if I should yank the door or just pull it.
There is no time to make a decision.
There is a rustle behind my back.
Everything goes black.
I am startled awake by a loud thud at the door, followed by the yanking of the chains. I hear the chain being dropped to the floor, not being locked again as always before; I can hear the district sound of something being dragged along the floorI am struck with fear; what has he come back for so early again tonightAs he turns the corner, I am horrified with the sight of what he has been dragging behind him.“Tyler!” I look at Luke look in horror, “What have you done to him?”“Relax, he is still alive.”“What did you do to him?” I ask Luke again“I had to knock his snooping ass out. What a lovely reunion this is going to be.”“I told you he would find me.”“Yes, he did but without backup. Both of you are stuck here now.”
God no!What do I do?That is a fucking stupid question.Get your shit off the fucking floor, Jenna, and save your husband.“Hey fuck head.” Luke turns to me as I call for his attention. “I suggest you drop that gun.”He bursts out in a rumble of laughter, “God, if this were not, so such a fucked up the mess, I would say that is fucken hot.”My body stiffens as I cringe at hearing his words, “You a sick fuck.”“What happened to monster?” His rumble becomes even scarier than before.But I am not about to back down, “Just drop the god damn gun.”“Baby,” he but only give me some wicked smile on his face. “By the time you get that safety off, I would have blown his brains all over the pole.”&n
Tyler has just taken a life, Luke’s crazy rampage has come to an end. His hand is wrapped around my shoulder as we walk back to his truck. Not a word is being spoken; how does something like this affect someone, how does taking a life affect your own. What is this going to do to the man next to me, the man that I love, the man that has just paid the ultimate sacrifice to save my life? A situation that was created by me that turned a friend into a monster.I am scared I lose Tyler, not him itself, but his mind; right now, he shows no feeling or remorse, will he, in time, start losing himself.I don’t know what to say to him, but I have to say something; the silence drives me insane. I need to know if he is okay if he is going to be okay, “Baby.”He briefly turns his head and looks at me, “Yes, baby.”Without trying to sound with too much desperation in my voice, I s
The drive to the ranch is quiet; Tyler has been staring out the window most of the time. I tried speaking, but it is like my words are falling on death ears. I can feel the heaviness hanging in the air, pain radiating from his body. Before we reach the city, I need to stop for gas, the very same gas station I have been stopping every time I make this trip. As I come to the store clerk to pay, he immediately recognizes my face. There is a slight smile filled with confusion playing in his eyes, “Don’t tell me your dream fell through again.” I look on over to the truck, and the attendant follows my eyed, “My dream is in that truck.” I pause for a moment and turn to look at the clerk again, “His body is there, but his mind is gone.” “Well,” he starts, and there is genuine concern in his voice, “Whatever happened, I am sure time will heal his wounds.” I only but give h
It's been two weeks; the nightmares are not getting any better; I don't see him at all during the days, I spent my nights awake watching over him and crying for him. It should be the happiest part of our marriage, but it's not; he is going through something awful that I can't even begin to understand.I need to talk to him.There is something I need to tell him.I find him out by the stables.“Hey, baby.” I hand him a cup of hot coffee.I reach out to give it to him, and I cannot help but noticed how his hands are shaking. “Thank you.” He only but mumbles from underneath his breath.I move a little bit close to him and sit down on the bench next to him, “Baby, we need to talk.”“Jenna, I am not in the mood for you telling me how you don't understand and how you want to help me.” 
...Tyler POV…There is a lot that can happen in a split second that can change your life, that can change a man. You might think at the time it is the best thing to do but it can turn around and be your greatest regret.I thought I was walking into it as a man that wanted to save his wife but I walked out a ruined and broken man. A man that will never be the same.I play it off in my head over and over again. One second I am staring a crazed monster in the face then next he is on the floor. The second his lifeless body hit the floor my own life became lifeless.I cannot face Jenna, I don't know if it is because I feel ashamed or because I feel like a monster. This is the week that should be my honeymoon but I cannot be around her, I don't want to be around anyone at this moment or even in the near future.She is trying her best to be supportive and to understand but I am n
Tyler seems to be better. The news of our baby that is on the way has cleared his head in some way and he has escaped from the demon that has to hold him back in his mind.Or that is what I have thought.Last night was torture, not only for me but for him as well. The nightmares seem to have crept their way back into his soul. I did not but sleep one wink out of desperation to get him from where he went running off again.I thought he had escaped the place where he had gone, but yet he is back again. The man that I love has become but a shelf of who he is. He has forgotten all the good things that need to keep him here.As we sit for breakfast this morning, which he reluctantly had been forced to do, I can see that hollowness has returned to his mind.Tyler is gone from me again and I have, once again, no way in saving him from himself. I thought that the news of our baby would keep him back, get him away and save him from the monster that has take
It does not take me but a second and I drop the phone and race over to Tyler. I find him lying on the floor in the stables. As I look over at him, I see he is not moving. There is blood. There is so much blood. I cannot see where it is coming from. I call his name. There is no answer. I shake him. He does not respond. I try to find his pulse. I feel nothing. There is nothing. He is not responding.It comes faster than a crashing wave over my body, "Tyler!"The pain knocks my breath away, and I cannot breathe, "Tyler!" I shake him harder than I have ever shaken anyone in my life ever before."Tyler, Please wake up!" My words mean nothing. He is not moving.I beg, and I beg, and I plead, I say the words over and over, "Please, please, please, please wake up!"There is a deafening silence; the world has stopped. There is nothing but horror. My words are stuttering; I am totally lost; my world is shattered in pieces. Why is he not waking up? Why is he
…Tyler POV… The countdown has begun. In as little as eight hours, I will be taken to the theatre. Right now, every bit of this is scary. Yet, the only thing that remains in my mind that is a constant is the fear that I will not see beyond the eighth hour. Everything pays the price…even love. We are paying the price for the bad things in our past, for the bad people we have left behind. I would like to say that my past has come to haunt me, but when you truly reflect, it is Jenna that has left a string of monsters behind. Now in no way am I blaming my wife for what has happened, but I just wish that there was a point where she was more honest. So, there have come uncomfortable silences between us as we sit and count down the minute in slow agony and some anticipation of hope. I will be honest, I went from frightened to despondent, and angry when I heard the word come from the Doctor…blood clot…apparently you get different sizes, and min
As the ambulance gets to the hospital, we find the Doctor is already waiting for us on the steps. But the moment that Tyler sees the wheelchair, he changes his mind. "I will not go in there if you put me in that thing. I can walk!" "Tyler, you are still very weak; please, you won't be able to walk so far." "No, Jenna, I say no wheelchair." I nod to the Doctor that very reluctantly pushes it away. He comes and helps them to help him out of the ambulance. The instant he sees how pale his face is looking, he is immediately concerned. "Let's get you to a bed; I need to do more tests." "No tests!" If I thought that coming to the hospital mean that they can do tests, it seems that I have completely misunderstood the concept of why we are here. "Tyler, please, remember how we said they must see what is wrong?" "Yes?" "Now, please, they need to do tests to see what has changed from the last time we were here."
…Jenna POV…Last night we decided that Tyler will be going ahead with the operation, now if I say that he is not petrified I would be lying. We have faced so many challenges in our lives, but this will be by far the toughest. Yet, I am so grateful that he will not be facing this one on his own. I will be there every step of the way. I am that silver lining that he needs when he feel that the clouds around him are getting too dark. So I am going to do absolutely everything to show him how much I love him. I don't know how to give love, but I will try my damnedest to show him.But if there is one thing that I can say about Tyler, then it is the man has a heart beyond compare, especially with the devotion he shows to those he loves and the lengths that he shall go to protect them. I so did expect him to be a different man out here, but he has not lost one bit of the part of him that he was back home.This morning, I have decided to make breakfast for
…Tyler POV…In a strange way, I feel calm, I think, even though I truly don’t think it is the right word to say, but I am relieved that I know now what is wrong. At least we know what we are fighting for. And even though I feel somewhat awful, the dizziness at times seems to be rather unbearing. But I feel as if I have had a breath of fresh air; I know that I can get through this, no matter how bad it gets.But first, I know of a little woman that needs a good spanking, for she has just slapped me on my ass. Before she even knows what I am doing, I throw her over my shoulder and start to carry her out of the kitchen to the bedroom. She kicks and wiggles as best as she can, but I hold her firmly in place."Tyler." She softly whispers. "Put me down.""Sorry, I cannot do that."She squirms, and she moans, "I have two feet. I can walk.""Nah,” I only but chuckle, “I am not letting you get away."I tak
Tyler really struggled last night, the headaches and dizziness were beyond what he could bear. I sat with him in my arms the whole night while he was crying in complete agony. Every single second was pure torture for me, once again I cannot help him. Just the way that his body trembled in my arms was enough to render me helpless. I cannot protect the man I love, what type of woman does that make me.After much protest this morning, I brought him out to the creek. It is early morning and the sun is just starting to tickle the horizon. I lead him towards some shaded trees right in the middle of almost nowhere. The smell of sweet flowers that are coming into bloom fills the air. Nearby on a tree branch sits a bird humming a beautiful song welcoming the new day. Everything else almost seems quiet; it's peaceful, it's perfect.I thought I would do something nice for him and make him a picnic out in the fresh cool air. He has been stuck inside for most of the day since we go
…Jenna POV…I am struck by absolute terror as I leap my way over to where Tyler has fallen back into the chair, “Tyler, what is wrong?”"I don't know, I just got so dizzy, and I fell. Can we please go home? I am really not feeling well.""Don’t you think that we need to see a Doctor? We are here now. It is the second time that you have fainted in two days now.""No, please, can we not just go home?"With that, I hook my arm around his waist and pull his frail body off the chair. His entire body is shaking, and he has gone paler than all fifty shades of white. My heart sinks, and I feel completely helpless; it looks as if he is in total agony, and there is a terrified look in his eyes.And terrified we make our way to the car, not for one minute do I let go. I lay him down on the passenger seat and cover him with my jacket. His body is still trembling, but he tries his best to hide it. God, it breaks my heart.
...Tyler POV... When you strive for happiness, look towards perfection. Perfection is what my eyes behold…Jenna Moore. And beyond those layers that cover that beautiful bump of her belly is a miracle. What else is a miracle is getting her out of bed this morning. We are supposed to go to the Doctor today to have our first scan done, but she reckons that the Doctor can wait for her. “Baby, you need to get up. We are going to be late for our appointment.” “He can wait for me.” “Baby, the doctor, can’t wait for you; that is why you make something called an appointment.” Well, here comes a pillow flying at me. "Baby, I am going to drag you out of bed in that godawful pajamas if you don't get up now." She only huffs and pulls the blankets even further over her head, "Just for that, I am going in my pajamas." "Then rather stay because I don't want to be seen dead with you in those things. Why did you buy them
It is with great concern that I sit with Tyler’s head resting on my lap. He seemed to have fainted, and we are patiently for him to wake. Brooke believes that he must be completely exhausted, for he has not slept but a wink since I have been gone.So as I watch him flutter open his eyes, there is a great relief that flows over my body, “Baby, are you okay?”He mumbles softly under his breath as he grabs at his head, “What happened?”“You fainted. Are you okay?”He goes silent for a few seconds, I can see a fear creeps in his eyes, but he only waves me off, “I am just exhausted. Come, let’s go home.”The drive home is fairly quiet; not much is said about what happened. Nobody dares to mention how reckless I was. I know the conversation shall come up; if I am going to be prepared, well, we will have to wait and see that.I might have said this before, and I shall say it once again. Li
…Jenna POV…I have been waiting for this moment for far too long, and the pleasure it is bringing to my very bones is near that of sexual satisfaction. Not truly, but there is nothing so satisfying as the dumbfounded expression on Brendan's face. Her face has gone from a slight pink to completely pale.But before he can ask me once more what it is that I mean by my words, I watch as a rather intimidating man, who is only but for a few inches away, presses his gun into Brendan’s side. His voice hitch, and his entire body stiffen. In total surprise, he looks at me."Brendan, you do need to be careful what you wish for. You of all know that you should not tempt fate. Fate has come to take a rather large chunk out of your ass.""You, you," he stutters, "You will pay for this.""Now, do you really want to come back for revenge? Please let us save ourselves the miserable chase and grand build-up, for I shall get mine first.""B