“Either she is really suicidal or she wishes to be as carefree as she was in the martial world. What woman would willingly give up her child to be raised by another? Why is she trying to avoid using her talents as that is the only reason why she has a seat among us?”
“Unlearned she is and I have to say that it is such a pity as the duke choose her himself and had such high hopes for her that she would fit in among us. What is she thinking? How can she speak these vulgar thoughts out loud? A woman’s worth is truly tied down to her son. How far can she get on her talents alone?”
“She just wants the duchess to go easy on her because she seduced the duke like the common house person she is.”
Yan Sha listened and wanted to laugh as she went to the pa
Yan Sha knew that these types of men had an insatiable lust. To match that with the purport of a brothel mistress would destroy the affection of father and son. There was no respect to bloom or grow on. Concubine Sun was too stupid for her own good so Yan Sha would take the initiative for her. She sought out the deaf son and found him sitting in a pile of his own excrement as he was chasing a butterfly. Yan Sha was horrified to see him there feeling that this too was a child of the family that no one cared for. As there was no one around she bade him to her and took him outside of the manor. As she was an outsider already none of the guards bothered when they saw the special token that she was holding. The jade pendant was not even questioned as she moved unobtrusively through the area to get to where she wanted to be. She took the refuse covered so
Yan Sha shrugged as the duke had only repeated a series of saying from the five classics. None of the ideas he was presenting was inappropriate. Neither was it showing that his care was much to this wayward son. Yan Sha’s heart sank so this was the reason no one cared at all. “You were too busy to manage the household affairs so you can see now how the duchess is managing in your stead. I can see that your sentiments are here too in how the child has been raised so far. I apologize, your highness, if me interfering has brought offense. This was not my intentions. I just saw someone who is as vulnerable as I and I was compelled to help him. I wish I could have lived a normal life so I was trying to think of ways that this could happen. I think he can go to school as long as he learns to lip read. Such a thing you can only teach him or find a teacher as it is of the skillsets—“
Yan Sha smirked as she bowed deeply before turning to leave. She could think of a hundred smart things to say in reply, but bit back her replies as she would probably have some need of this person in the future. The child had not stirred during the quick exchange and with his preconceived condition, there was no worry about him reporting to anyone else what he had heard or seen. Yan Sha returned to the ducal manor via a farmer’s chart who dropped her off as she handed him some copper pieces. She wore a veil which she discarded quietly in a bread maker’s stall. She yawned hugely as she walked through the opening doors as she felt uncomfortable that the duke was aware that she had gone out, but the duchess probably was not. She wondered if she was about to be punished. But as she was going on, the duke was going out.
“Second class attendants should not have these thoughts. You should be shy. But you are innocent but not. Compared to other doctors you feel a lot more like not but maybe that is due to your gender and lack of knowledge.” “I don’t know what is the proper conversation here, your highness. Others I am sure will give you a more stimulating conversation as they speak of things that belong to the inner court. I am merely an outsider. I apologize if you find me boring. I will have to deliver this to Concubine Sun soon so I will be seeing you.” “Stop right there. I wanted to quietly tell you what I have done for Huan-er. I jumped into the garden like this as I do not want the duchess to be too harsh on you after she finds out that I have done this. I know that sh
In her heart so many men had come to take pieces of her and leave. She gently pushed him off. “Your highness, I am in front of a stove here and I do not wish to burn myself.” “Too hot to handle your husband, huh?” He kissed her neck roughly before moving away from her. As Yan Sha turned around she realized that he had hopped back over the wall already with the agility of a cat going out to explore after being warmed by it’s master’s fire. She leaned her head out of the window as if she could see the ghost of him jumping through the air. As she realized how ridiculous the notion she immediately slipped back into what she had been doing before fanning the tincture. Noble lady, already? She had skipped several
Yan Sha coughed as she watched her friend finish the tonic she had made. “I have already made a better tonic than what the imperial physician made. Your health has return to you, if I expose myself to the same procedures then who knows what the result will be. There are too many hands in the making of medicines that it is difficult to find out without allying with many people. I’m not going to—“ There was a tapping against the side door and both of the women instantly went silent. Xianjuan looked at Yan Sha with a strange expression as there should be no reason that they would be disturbed like this. The Duke’s eunuch with his sapphic expression looked at the duo and seemed amused as he delivered the news. “His majesty, the Duke requests that Noble Lady Yu accompany him for his bath and attend to him in bed tonight as the duchess is away at the temp
“I care for you as you have shown that you want to shoulder my burdens. Huan has been alone for many years as all the women in the inner court are too frightened of the duchess’s disapproval to make a move. What kind of woman will not balk at someone with such a powerful family behind her? You were a tiny second class attendant? Why are you so fearless like a soldier on the battlefield? Where did such a person come into my house?” He brushed her shoulders before tracing the trail of flowers that had gathered there. “I will not die or abandon you like others that you have let into your hands.” “There are others in my heart, my lord. How can you be confident in keeping me if I may leave you for another? There is a harem full of concubines, why taste only one when there can be many tastes that play on the palette?”
Yan Sha blushed and pushed him off her. “Now you’ve gone too far. I will have to attend a morning greeting with which consort?” “There is only the duchess and then consort. There is little need to have some in the middle. Consort Guo is much more easygoing than the duchess. She and I are archery fiends so she will probably be twinned with me this afternoon. Why would she have any reason to messy with a little noble lady? But don’t worry, I will have people around you who will report to me if anyone dares to touch you.” “That sounds like good exercise.” Yan Sha laughed. “My lord, I have said that I do not need protecting. Keep the guards to the consorts and the duchess and especially for Concubine Sun.” “You co
“Who dares to disturb the emperor after the court session? That’s bold of whatever minister can even bear the thought of death for his point. This is not the time to keep pushing a point that has died through discussion. Tell that courtier that I will execute him if he persists with his petition. I am not in the mood to entertain anybody under any circumstances. I will not be forced into doing more things that I have no care for.” Ning Zhuo nursed his head as his head was spinning after reading so many memorials. Even though the pile to the left of finished memorials was more in height than the one on the right, he knew there was a whole pile of them that his eunuchs had hidden behind a pot to encourage him to continue. It was incredibly annoying as work now was never ending. He already knew all the sides to the argument so he was irked that some small person was still trying to push after being re
Langhua, the queen of Jungpi, put her arms around Yan Sha tightly and started to cry as Yan Sha was too shell shocked to move or react. “You’re healthy. My daughter has finally returned to me the way that she does in my dreams. To see such a beautiful sight is beyond what I have hoped for so many years. I am so happy. You’re healthy finally. I have felt such guilt as your mother for sacrificing so much just to stabilize the reign of the incumbent. I searched so hard for an answer to my question of how to stabilize what I had put up for slaughter.” “Mother I—“ Yan Sha didn’t know what to say as she was so used to the brutality of the ruler. To be even here to see the tears and true joy in her return to a better state of health made Yan Sha realize that her aunt really did love her even if she preferred her own daughter above Yan Sha. 
Yan Sha was led to an unmarked carriage on the side gate of the Jungpi palace. It was odd at this time of day and she tensed when she saw it. This was out of her usual routine. No one had left her a note or explained why there was such a deviation so she was instantly alert. Her daggers were with her and she brandished them quickly in a way that would disarm the people around her. But as her movement was swift, there was a clothed man in animal skins who was silent and unexpected to Yan Sha such that she had not thought that such a person would be waiting for her. She couldn’t remember what happened after as the disgusting taste of medicine filled her mouth and she slipped out of consciousness. Her body was dragged into the carriage and the wild man drove off in a huff as all the servants scattered.
Yan Sha looked at Ning Zhuo with a sigh as she could feel the world around her come crashing down. Her breath came in harsh strokes as she tried not to breathe at all, if this was a dream she had to fight hard to make sure that she didn’t wake up. But reality was quick to set in. The bath house behind them was abruptly searched. They could hear the sounds of the maid explaining that there were people just here. “Don’t you feel bad for them?” Yan Sha said with a forlorn expression as she could see their panic and expressions. “They work for me. They are all paid well and even if they are taken into the Prefecture Penitentiary. I will take care of their families and make sure that their descendants are well.”
The black melange was moving up her body which as her clothing disintegrated covered all of her up to her neck. All below the water was pitch black and pulsating. He dropped the torch and there was a hiss as the fire went out. “Crown prince you cannot. I have burned many people. Everyone gets burned as they come close to me. You should not. You cannot. I am poison to everyone. Crown prince, please.” He picked up her body and the black color dripped down onto his hands. He moved swiftly out of the lake. Yan Sha touched his face and bounced back as she remembered what was wrong with her. “Crown prince? Since when have you called me that? If I truly am the cause of this, then I will search day and nig
Yan Sha laughed as she heard this. “Sister, I can’t believe that I hear you say this that you want to share me with others and even outsiders. If the Duke would hear of this I’m sure he would be positively shocked. He would say that someone has stolen away his beloved concubine sun and replaced her with a pious monk. He would look all around the moon for you until he found you right at home where he left you. But truthfully, sister, business is not for me. I could never keep all of the older matrons happy with tinctures. It would be a lot more talking than simply giving medicine.” “Well then you can be in all of their good graces and then they will want to invite us to all of the good gatherings and food tastings. Who is to know what nice things that they will share with us then?” “
“What kind of school are we talking about, your highness. I have definitely never heard of it. Whom is this legendary teacher? But on second thought I would say he has been brutal to you. Your back is full of burns and scars and marks. It doesn't sound like a place where a delicate princess should be sent, even if you are the spare.” “I am not one who has been confined to private quarters like my sister all of her life. One sibling must learn of the outside world to keep the other safe while ruling. It is my duty to protect her and guard the line in front of our house. But these is explained in the words of men, I guard the land so I may have a place to go home to and a bed to sleep on and a sister whom I know will raise my children if I am to die first.” “If you say it in this way
The person was walking upside down now and Yan Sha wondered how that could be. Then she realized that the ground was by her face. She struggled listlessly as the person dragged her away and out of sight. The scene that she had left behind was strange as there was just cloth and bones that were swept away by the morning sweepers as they wondered why this area of town had gotten so dusty. The local magistrates guessed all that ash had come from fires. Not knowing the whole area was hallowed with human remains. =\\= Yan Sha spat up black phlegm again and she coughed to clear her throat. No matter how much she coughed her throat continued to burn until she just gave up that she had gotten used to it that there was no point trying anymore. 
Ning Zhuo then turned and saw a shadow in his study. He strutted back to find his bookcases trembling. His movements to fix everything were quick. Maids immediately rushed behind him and one poked him, “Crown prince, your man from Jungpi has arrived to see you.” Yan Sha froze as she sat on the roof. There was a good opening to jump over the roofs but she was torn as she knew that it was incredibly difficult to get spies into this manor. She was proud of her former partner but could not stop the lick of nostalgia. She wanted to say that she knew him. Below her, Ning Zhuo replied. “Oh good. Send him into my study. I want to hear what he has to say immediately.”