Getting out of Trixy, i held my handbag and car keys. My hair swayed with the rhythm of the wind as i made my steps towards the Cafe' Del Blanca. The wind chime clinked the moment i pushed the door to enter myself in.Everybody's eyes went to me, i smiled awkwardly and quietly walked towards Regina's table which she occupied for us. She was waving her fingers at me, signaling me to go there. I can still feel the lingering stares of the customers and i get it, they probably know me as Lorcan's lover since the rumors had spread all over the city. That wide range. See the result of mom's impulsivity? It's a pain in the head."Good that you came. I thought you would ditch me." Regina grinned, her bangles were clinking."That's not my thing." I said, putting my bag on my lap after i sat in front of her.She's all casual, all smiles to the point that they are so fake for me. Although i want to ignore this pathetic small detail, i couldn't help but spot my clothes and compare it to hers. I'm
"Lorcan, please! Open this goddamn door!"I've been screaming out my lungs since he shut the door before my face but until now, there's no response i get. I feel hopeless, i feel so weak. My holds on the knob loosened up as i slowly accepted the fact that no one can hear me out. He won't listen and it hurts my heart much. I moved my feet towards his bed and back on sitting on it with heavy flowing tears around my face. Why would he lock me here in the first place? I thought we'd already talked and i told him I would accept him for being him, that I'm not really scared even after knowing how darkly dangerous it is to be involved with him. How i really wish i could read his mind, i could get into his unpredictable ideas that lead me to misconceptions. He's the most veiled person for me, so unfathomable despite exerting much effort to get to him.Sighing in frustration, i nearly pulled my own hair, I'm so confused and I wanted to burst out but i couldn't risk the baby in me. So, i nee
Eyes glistening with unshed tears, they remained stuck on his luminous pair of grey mysteries. "Y-you love me? Tell me you're not kidding..." I said breathily."I don't do kidding, that's too boyish." He lowered his gaze at me. My chin trembled."But i thought... I thought you couldn't..." Confused, i was shaking my head.He held my face still, to focus on his eyes. I stopped shuddering but i couldn't find a reason to breathe normally anymore. He took it by chance, hammered my heart, making it pound so loudly in my chest that it's filling my ears real clear."I thought i couldn't either, but you taught me," his lips pursed a bit as he paused before he continued. "Atasha, you taught me what love is. You woke me up in the reality where i could possibly feel it without minding anything but only you and me, that i learned how it is way far different from pleasure and pain i used to have as mediocrities to seek for light amidst the abyssal of my zone." He murmurs every sentence he makes.
"I love wearing this," i uttered while spotting myself through the standing mirror, emphasizing the black maxi dress that was elegantly hugging my body."And i love how you wear it or even without it," Lorcan showed up beside me and kissed my temple.My lips pursed a bit. "Don't i look horrible? Look, my bump is too showy and i turned fat and i don't have any good curves anymore..." I pouted, eyed remained on my reflection."If i ever give my eyes to you, you wouldn't dare to say that." His hand touched my bump and rubbed it smoothly. I held onto his shoulder covered with tux's sleeve. "Look, baby..." He held my chin and we stared into each other through the mirror. "Everything's pretty normal. You're still the most beautiful woman in my eyes." He murmured.I pouted. "You're just saying that to make me feel good because you love me." "How wrong you are," he rested his chin on my shoulder. "You're fucking alluring, all sorts of wonderful... with every dress you wear but this one sui
Dark brown hair tied in a high bun with a few strands falling down her face, she's wearing a single-strap magenta above knee dress that suits her milky white skin. Meanwhile, Atticus beside her is a tanned skin gorgeous man in his dashing tuxedo. There's no curve of smile on his lips, he's all serious, a Lorcan-like expression.They are going near, i started to feel the approaching awkwardness. I held my purse firmly on my lap and i felt Lorcan's warm palm on my right thigh."Greetings, everybody!" "It's nice that you're here, sweet Reg!" Mrs. Helena immediately approached Regina and they kissed each other's cheeks. She then, turned to her son and tapped his shoulder. "Good that you lent her a drive, son." She chuckled enthusiastically."Small thing." Atticus said coldly.I glanced at Lorcan, thinking of what he would feel by watching the two, how his mother treated his half-brother sweetly in front of him. But like usual, he's so good at hiding his real emotions, he mastered it very
"S-stop it already, Atticus!" Regina shouted, and tried to intervene, looking so affected.Her eyes reflect guilt, her face reddened as if she's ashamed after the man threw a shade in everyone's watch. Meanwhile, i couldn't keep up with the pace of my beating heart, the tension is going intense and Atticus' words just made it worse. "Are you that insecure, brother?" He continued while holding his wounded lips.Lorcan icily gazed at him. "I will never be insecure to anyone. I do the threat not the other way around and fuck the past you kept on bringing up! It was just a phase for me so, don't bother still." He said, full of firmness.Shit. Is he indirectly saying that the cheating issue was really nothing to him after all?Someone gasped and it was Regina. She looked in pain, eyes were about to spurt some tears, she was hurt by Lorcan's harsh honesty. As long as i want to sympathize with her, i eventually remind myself that she wronged him first. Cheaters do not deserve sympathy.I ju
I left that space before they could catch me eavesdropping on their conversation. Still carefully, i walked ahead but with questions forming in my head. Does she hate me and my family that much? And she even mentioned mommy's name. Is there something more into it though? Why can't they just let us be happy? Why can't they just let their son be with me? I wonder when all these hindrances will be gone. But even so, i will fight. I will definitely fight for him, and with him. I'll fight for my Lorcan no matter how or what. Because i can't imagine a life without him with us, he's my go-to in my every day. My thoughts are full of determination but when i reached the dining hall, my attention drifted to the helpers who were busy cleaning the table, mopping the floor. A light smile appeared on my lips as i paused for a moment to watch them.A sudden nostalgic memory flashed back to me. It happened when i married Lorcan and i lived here for a week. The ambiance still feels the same but no
He wants us to get married again next week? For freaking real?!By the urge of full curiosity, i resumed my steps towards the hall. I saw them from the entrance, like a deja vu, they were sitting on the seats they were occupying last night. Although the only difference is that, Mr. Fauler was nowhere to be found and it's only his son with us so, to state the obvious, he went home after the commotion.Lorcan then was quick to turn to me the moment he saw me, and guided me through his side, he pulled a chair and i sat next to him. Everyone fell silent as i belonged myself to their table. This is another moment of awkwardness...It seems like they are still in a shock state after Lorcan's sudden announcement. I can't blame them though because even me, I'm shocked to the core that he actually has a plan like that! He never told me about it whenever we were alone!"But Lorcan! Isn't it a sort of rush?" Mrs. Helena asked in a slight violent tone."Why are you in a hurry? Can't she wait?" H