He look up at me and I can also notice that some of our block mates are looking at us from inside as well. I walk closer to him but he immediately put his phone down just as I am about to take another step. “It’s Cassidy again.” “Maybe she is really scared on telling Tita and Tito.” He blows an air. “It’s her dream, so why would they interfere?” After saying that, we both enter the class and met Damian’s gaze. I just bow my head a little to show a respect and Levi does the same thing. I walk pass him and walk on the aisle towards my seat. Alaric smiled at me as I walk pass him so I tap his shoulder before sitting down. “So, do you guys have any progress about your Thesis? If you have a question, feel free to visit me in my office, alright?” We nod our head. “I am not going to delve deeper on to theories and piece of every world literature authors but anyone here who knows one except for the famous Shakespeare?” He walks with one hand inside his pants while holding a blank marker
“What about Gustave Flaubert, anyone?” When I heard that Damian asked a question one more time, I automatically hide the book that I have been reading before looking in front. Damian is looking around while waiting for anyone to speak so I wet my lower lip to settle in my seat, checking the names on the board. “Mister?” We all look at Alaric who is raising his hand to answer. Since he is standing, I automatically hide my book on the floor for Damian not to notice what I was holding. I then clear my throat before showing a smile at the guy sitting next to me, motioning him to not speak about it. “Yes, Mister Davis?” Damian replied while not looking at Alaric but just into his book instead. “He is a novelist and was regarded as the prime mover of the realist school of French literature, Mister. And is best known for his masterpiece, Madame Bovary last 1857, which talks about a realistic portrayal of bourgeois life, which led to a trial on charges of the novel’s alleged immorality.”
I took a deep breath as I delve more into this book. I never been into figuring myself out—especially when it comes to my dreams and passion because I am always been the happy-go-lucky who still dreams despite so many impossibilities. I maybe a little full of myself but I am not confident enough to support and cheer for myself even if the people around me wants me to believe in my own. My friends often praises my work since they are always those ones who got the chance to read my work. I may smile with them ass I hear their word of praises, I still can’t put myself into believing what they are saying. I exhale once again before looking around the area when people seem to come and go inside the library. I check the time and it’s still eleven in the morning and I am sure—Damian’s class did not end still. I turn back around to continue flipping the book’s pages. ** I stand up from my chair when I feel famish now. I check for the time on my phone and notice that is already twelve-one. I
After Damian told me about his mother, I could not find the right words to speak with him anymore. I wanted to blame myself for not being extra careful about this kind of matter but he keeps on telling me that it is fine anyway. Right now, I am on the couch inside his office, holding my book once again to kill the time. Damian is out, doing some documents with the other Professor while I am left here who has no choice but to read the book to ease my boredom. While skimming through the pages, can’t help but to think Damian’s childhood once again. Before, I thought he has a great childhood because he seem to be well-raised by his Dad and he is obviously a responsible one but turned out that his mother caused him his biggest trauma. I sighed while shaking my head. “Poor, Damian.” I muttered on the air before going back down on my book. ** So try saying this: "I enjoy my creativity." And when you say it, be sure to actually mean it. For one thing, it will freak people out. I believe th
I am currently staring at nowhere while holding my cup of strawberry frappe on my right hand. Tapping the table with my forefinger on and off, then heave a sigh every after a minute of staring on the air. I then lean forward on my seat before finding Alaric’s gaze whom I guess has been staring at me for quite some time now. “Don’t get me wrong. I am no like Elric, I was just wondering why he is like that.” I murmured, still referring to that statement he had me more confused earlier. He chuckle. “I did not say anything.” I shake my head while sipping on my frappe. “No, you said something earlier and I am never forgetting that.” “I was just asking you.” I shrug my shoulders this time. “Seriously, I am fine now without Elric. It just left me so many wonders in my mind. He clearly said he didn’t love me and now he is acting the other way around.” I growl before leaning annoyingly on my chair. “Whatever.” I added in a monotone before looking around. Denvi was here earlier and now she
Alaric wants to send me home personally but I refuse to let him since I am staying with Mister Dawson. Right now, I lied that I want to buy something on the mall so he dropped me off right here—insisting that he will go with me because it’s already dark but I refused again. I am still standing outside the mall, fetching some cap on my phone. While tapping on my center, a notification pops in—showing Damian’s name. I tilted my head, slowly clicking his name before reading his message. Damian: Just head out from the university, are you still here? I’ll wait for you. My brows furrowed. “Its new he went out almost six now in the evening.” I whispered since he has been out when four PM comes but now, he’s quite late. I type my reply to him, telling him that I am in the mall. I was about to click and hire a cab when he replied immediately, telling me to stay here and he’s going to fetch me. Since I have to wait for him for maybe twenty minutes, I head inside the mall to buy take-outs f
My lips parted a little while now looking eye to eye with Damian. What he said feel like there is something that pierce down inside me, after realizing what he said to me. Right. Why am I not taking this for granted now? I have seen Elric like I wanted him to feel but now that he is confuse as hell now, I don’t care anymore. Where was my plans flying now?I cleared my throat before slowly looking away from him. My gaze is now at the dashboard but I am more focused on my peripheral vision right now where Damian is sitting—still staring down at me while waiting for my response.I faked a smile, still not giving him my attention. I am thinking why the sudden change of plans and hearts now that I am oon my way to what I really want to see and now that it’s here no, I do not care anymore.“Maybe few weeks back, I was so desperate to have him back,” I started while looking in front. The traffic light countdown is almost over
I almost got choke on my own saliva the moment he said that. I suddenly become uncomfortable in front of these people so what I did was to just fake a laugh before heading first to the kitchen—just for me to get away from that topic. As soon as I reached the kitchen table, I immediately lean my back on it before heaving a sigh.“God, what was that?” I whispered to myself, trying to fan myself using my hands. “These people are so into with kids. Jesus.” I whispered before walking towards the fridge and grab a water to drink.I know from the start that Tito wanted to see Damian’s kids and that was his final wish from Damian. At first, I was so confident on being into this kind of set-up but now—when everything feel like different, I don’t think so anymore.I am scared now that the more I stay with Damian, the deeper I will have to get myself back up. This is what I am afraid of now, and staying with him for the next
Maybe they are right when it rains on your parade, rainbow will soon to occur after a long journey of heavy rains. I have been wishing for a Prince Charming on a right time with a Cinderella-like love story to pacify my standards. But never thought that I would be no like Cinderella because I was born to create my own story and find my Prince Charming on my own silly way.“Gosh, I don’t feel my make-up today.” I mumbled while watching myself in front of the mirror.Leigh, who is also fixing herself, growled. “Shut up, preggy, you look good already.”I immediately cup my belly after Leigh said that. My baby is six months now, three way to go before we’ll finally see him. And yes, it’s a boy. Damian was so happy after we had our gender reveal celebration last month. I could not help but to chuckle on what my love story looks like. Did not know that being in a total heartbreak can lead a person to another roller-coaster love story that I thought, will fail as well like the usual. Who wou
Did not know why I am back on my hometown alone after spending a day with my friends. Earlier, I was laughing with them to cast all my worries away not until I am finally left alone inside that house. I have never been so empty my life, maybe I was devastated after Elric broke up with me but what Damian did is more painful. I was not expecting a Prince Charmng anymore, contented on how he is to me, but guess I am failed by my own thoughts again. I spent weeks on hiding my pain but this time, I could not take it anymore. Never thought that after hours of good times and laughter, will lead me to this kind of misery. I guess we really should not be too happy or else we’ll be sad longer.I am currently in the same place I was before but this time, I am here because not because I fought with someone but because I failed to love one more time.Earlier, after my friends left, I notice that Damian weren’t at home—even his car. I guess he is out again to wherever he is going. I bent my knees f
Days and weeks passed by so fast. Damian and I maintained the distance, we did not talk like the usual. We just talk about the improvements of the baby, nothing more personal. I have been hiding crying under the sheets for weeks now as well but I woke up feeling a lot better than the previous day. I kept reminding myself to be strong for this little me inside me and that I should continue this damn of a hell-hole.Today, it’s Friday. Leigh and Alaric would be coming here after class so I prepared and ordered foods for us. Damian already said himself that I can definitely treat this house as my own, so inviting my friends would not be a big deal. In fact, he even went to pay Aubrey a visit on their rented unit last day so I think we are both fair towards each other. I cup my belly when my stomach growl. I check for the time and sees it’s almost twelve in the afternoon already so I grab some few slices from the steak I ordered from Denvi’s place. I go on my monthly check up as well and
Like what we really want to do, Alaric and I are now looking at the sandbar from a far. People there are enjoying their little vacation, perhaps some of these are students who just finished their term exam. We are both leaning on his car while we are on the side way. Silence envelopes us for long minutes now, no one is talking. We just enjoyed our company without necessary words to speak. I know that there are lots of question running through his head, even I.Questions like, why? Where did we go wrong? Did I trust him too much? Was I that gullible? And lastly, why is he treating Aubrey unlikely? But the latter seems cool seeing us yesterday—like the first day I saw her. I do not know if was I too stupid not to notice or there is really something going on between Damian and I.A loud sigh escape from my lips before tilting my head. “Aren’t you hungry?” I asked to break the silence, remembering that we never had our lunch still. Well, I was about to. But never thought I would be seeing
It’s already eight in the evening when Alaric sent me home after hours of riding the car near the sea side. After Damian left earlier, Alaric invited me for a drive for me to ease the burden feeling I was dealing with earlier. Unlike what Damian said, I did not wait for him back there. And now, as I head inside the n=entrance of the house, the lights from the living room are already off except upstairs. I took a heavy breath while going towards the kitchen and drink a glass of water. I lean for a few seconds on the counter before removing my blazer as I walk upstairs, burnt out and with a heavy heart.I check the balcony of Damian is there but he wasn’t so I am sure he is inside his room. I turn the knob right and sees him reading a book on his table. He look up at me and sigh before going back to the book he is reading.That’s it. I don’t want bullsh8ts while we share the same sheets.I walk straight towards him and put the test result I had few days ago. I saw him looking at the two
I have been sitting on top of the toilet inside our room for long minutes now. The kit is still inside the box after I tested myself right away I arrived home and now, I am afraid and confuse at the same time on how I am going to react by the result. I take a deep a slow deep breath before closing my eyes as I move the kit out from the box.“Oh my god.” I whispered as I decided to open my eyes.My lips parted at the sight of two red lines being shown and my hands immediately shaken, mind starting to process in haywire.“Fck.” I cussed out of deep breath. I then remain my posture to calm my nerves down before I went out from the comfort room just to sat back down on top of the bed. “Oh my god, it did not change.” I even mumbled, sounding so stupid on how I reacted.“Mommy…” I mumbled once again before tearing up. I then realize why I am crying so I immediately fan my face using my hands. “Heck.” I sniff before looking around.Should I tell Damian immediately? Everleigh? The rest of my
I thought that the supposedly lunch won’t take longer that what I expected but I guess not. Alaric and I are both panting as we head out inside a hunted castle in the amusement park. I do not know what pushes me to invite him here but I just feel like going in here, did not really expect that he’ll go with me.Few seconds passed when I saw him offering me a tumbler of water, moving it to and fro in front of my face. “Here.”My gaze shifted towards him confusedly. “You already drank in here.” I muttered, reminding him that he already used this and I don’t think it’s appropriate for me to use it as well, knowing that he used it first-hand.He chuckled. “Right. It was so stupid of me not to realize that.” He mumbled before looking around the area. “You wait here. I’ll find some stores that sells water.”I am about to stop him and would be the one to look for one but Alaric already walked away. I look around with a smile on my face before putting the tumbler down on my side, giggling upon
The next day, Alaric and I still decided to see each other. We are still in Damian’s place as what Alaric also suggested so that we can ask assistance for Damian today. We are almost done on our Thesis which is an advantage so that we don’t have to worry anymore after finals. “Should I talk with Damian instead? I have just few questions to ask.” Alaric said in the middle of our silence. I look at him and he is seriously typing on his laptop while not looking at me. I then turn around to look upstairs before nodding my head. “Sure, if you want to.” I simply mumbled before I fix few useless papers on the carpet. Alaric just nod my head, not responding anymore. Few more minutes has passed one more time when he stand up. I follow him with my gaze as he started roaming around. “Uh, are you seeing him now?” He shake his head with a smile. “No, I was about to ask if you guys can print out papers here.” I immediately nod my head and stand up. “Of course. Damian has upstairs. He should no
I shake my head a little while biting my lips. I watch him as his throat slowly move up and down while looking shock at the house in front where I told him to park. “This is our Professor’s place. Why are we here?” Oh my god how did he know Damian’s place? “H-Ho—“ I tried as much not to stuttered but the way he reacted made me lost my right mind to think immediately. I watch him as he went out the car so I followed him. “Let’s talk inside, Alaric.” I mumbled in a whisper before I swipe the card key to the small gate. I heard him gasp from behind but I did not turn to look at him or how he reacts because I know for sure he is confused and I am as well. How did he know that this is Damian’s place? “Wait, Dionne---“ I face him just we are about to enter the entrance of the house. I rub my temple as I look for words on how to tell him. A deep sigh came out from me before I finally raise my gaze up at him. “Damian is my boyfriend…” I whispered, looking at him under my eyelids, worri