Here I am packing up all my stuff, realizing I have way more clothes than I remember buying. Hannah is in the room next to mine; she’s packing as well. My father agreed to send me to Pennsylvania only if she comes as well. Guess my parents are still a little overprotective or they don’t trust me being on my own. Maybe they’re sending Hannah to spy on me just so I don’t get wrapped up over some guy.
I hear knocking on my bedroom door. I throw the clothes back on my bed and walk over to open the door, only to see Hannah on the other side holding up two dresses.
“What should I wear on moving day?” She asks.
“Seriously? This was supposed to be an adventure, not some fashion show Hannah. They’re only sending you with me because you have no plans for summer.”
“That’s not true. Kelly invited me to her beach house. I would have gone with the squad, but I chose my sister instead.”
“Whatever, do you have your stuff ready?”
“Stuff? Correction, you mean my collection of Chanel and Louis Vuitton sets, handbags, and my heels. That’s what you meant by stuff right? Come on, can anyone understand me around here?”
She walks out and back into her room to finish packing. This is going to be a nightmare. My room is in a mess.
“Carol.”
My mom walks in and sees the eruption of clothes on my bed.
“Mom, I know it looks bad, but I have it under control. I just need another suitcase and I’ll be good to go.”
I start panicking, why did I say that? I’m so lost I just feel so confused, I don’t know if I’m ready.
Mom walks up to me and tells me to breathe.
“It’s going to be okay.” She says, while fixing my hair.
“Let me help you, it looks like you can use an extra hand.”
“Yes desperately.” I say while nodding my head.
Mom smiles at me. She helps me fold my clothes and pack my suitcases neatly.
“It’s all going to be worth it. You will have fun, trust me.” Mom says.
“Thanks mom. I needed to hear that!”
I continue packing with mom until it’s all done.
“You girls have everything?” Dad asks, while we get in the line to check in our suitcases.
“Yes, I think.” Hannah says.
“I think we do, dad. I’m so excited for this trip.” I say with a hit of enthusiasm.
“Carol, Hannah, before you go, I want to give you this.”
Tanner hands us both a small tape with some of the songs he’s written so far. Some I’ve even helped him with.
I look down at the tape, then back up at Tanner.
“Aww. Come here little one.”
I give Tanner a hug and Hannah joins in. It’s going to be so different being apart from him.
“Call me if you need anything.” Mom says.
Mom and dad join in on our bundled hug, crushing Hannah and I. We all started laughing and just couldn’t stop.
“We will.” I say with a smile.
“Okay now, you girls better get going. Don’t want you to miss your flight.” Dad says.
“He’s right, off we go Carol!”
Hannah looks like some model, or should I say, someone that should be in Paris fashion week. She’s wearing a pink fur coat, with black sunglasses on her head as a headband. Her Chanel handbag and suitcase has everyone in the airport looking at us. As we say bye to our parents and little brother we check in our suitcases and wait for our plane.
“Finally, a chair, that was so much walking. Carol, my foot has blisters!”
“No one told you to wear heels to the airport sis!”
“I have a reputation to maintain.”
Hannah pulls out her phone and takes pictures to post to her I*******m or Snapchat story, I honestly have no clue.
I sit and I can’t help but think how fast this is all happening. I’m happy I have a tape with Tanner's music. Hopefully mom sends him to California. Maybe, he’ll even release an album someday! Maybe, this vacation will be good for me. I need to have a different perspective on life again.
“Now boarding flight PA-114 to Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.” The woman says through the microphone.
“We will start boarding all first-class passengers, please form a line and show your ticket upfront.”
“Hannah, you got your ticket?” I ask nervously.
“Yes, well, no, just kidding it’s right here, I’m not that dumb.”
I roll my eyes and walk to the line.
“Here’s our tickets, ma’am.” I say.
“Great you guys can board. Please follow the flight attendant to your given seat!” The woman says.
I follow the flight attendant and walk through the mini tunnel to the airplane. I’m so excited, I still feel like I’m dreaming to be honest. The flight attendant takes Hannah and I to our correct spots on the plane.We both sit and buckle our seat belts.
“Is there anything I can get for you girls?”
“Water would be fine.” I say.
“I’ll have some wine please. This plane is already giving me the jitters.” Hannah says.
“Shush Hannah, stop acting like that!”
“What, it's not my fault it's bad service.”
“She’s so nice, what do you mean? Can you please zip it now?”
“Damn, what’s your problem, missy?”
“Nothing, just zip it and enjoy the flight.” I say.
I pull out my headphones from inside my purse and start listening to a song called “Like That,” by Bea Miller.
First class is quite nice. So much space and room! Guess it’s not so bad after all. Mom was right, I just need to be calm.
“All passengers, please buckle up your seatbelts. We are preparing for takeoff in just five minutes!”
I continue listening to songs all the way through!
Same weather, green grass, but the house is bigger than what I can remember as a child. Growing up my parents always brought us herefor family vacations. Now I can’t believe my dad just gave it to me! It’s nice having wealthy parents, yet horrible at the same time. They're never around to enjoy nice moments like this. I mean, sending me here with my twin sister to babysit me, then telling me to follow my dreams. Something in the back of my mind keeps telling me, probably they just wanted to ship us away. I know it’s a crazy thought but maybe I’m just overwhelmed, after all, it was a long flight.
Hannah booked an Uber Luxury ride from the airport because she’s that extra. The driver finally parks the car and gives us our bags.
“So many suitcases.” The driver says.
“Yep, we came all the way from New York, so had to come prepared!” I say.
“Well, that’s the last of it.” He says.
“Thank you so much, I really appreciate it a lot!”
The suitcases were so heavy. I turned around to look for Hannah. She’s up by the door, leaving me with all the bags as usual.
“Hannah! Come back, you need to help me.”
“Alright, fine, just my thingsthough.” She says.
“Just your things? They're mostly all your bags!”
I roll my eyes at her, then roll each suitcase up by the door.
“Yes you’re right! Mine are the ones with personality!”
“Inanimate objects don’t have a personality, Hannah.”
“Whatever, just hurry up, I want to see my room so I can start decorating it. You know, making it all super girly!”
It hasn’t even been an hour since we arrived, and it feels like a nightmare. Can she just relax and act casual for a change? Who knows, we might be back home after summer or should I stop running away from my fears and start embracing them. Well, if I think positive, at least Hannah is here and I’m not alone. It would be challenging if I came by myself.
As I step into the house, my mind is flushed with childhood memories. I can remember when we were all kids and sitting by the fireplace. My dad would constantly be telling us stories about meeting mom in Pittsburgh. They first met in Pennsylvania, fell in love, and then got married here as well. I guess that’s why he bought this house in the first place. It all makes sense now since I’m older and wiser.
“Okay, so we need to make a few adjustments around here. I’m going to take the master bedroom, but I need the flat screen TV. There's another in the living room for you, but I’m moving this one into my room.” Hannah says.
She drives me nuts sometimes. When will she realize that money isn’t everything in life? First, it cannot buy happiness, yes you can have everything in the world but what if you have it all and you’re not happy? I think that’s the kind of rut I’m in or have been in since my breakup.
“Fine, but keep it down, don't blast the music, we have neighbors in the area!”
“Yea, yea, I will. Damn, you can be such a granny sometimes.”
“Not a granny, just the mature twin.”
How are we even twins? We’re completely the opposite of each other. We don’t like anything that’s the same. If I was the mature one, why did mom and dad send her with me? Maybe to keep me company? I don’t know. But I do love her. Whatever happens, happens, but in the end it’s good we got each other during this time. The most important thing is sticking together.
I start to carry my things up to my bedroom.
“Wow, it's huge!” I say.
I put my things down and beginlooking around the room. I see so many old photos of my family and ornaments my mom had filled the room with.
“It’s lovely.” I whisper to myself.
Hannah walks across the hall.
“So, I talked to dad and he’s hiring a maid for us. She’ll come once a week to maintain the house.”
“What? No. I can do it all myself, it's fine, really. There’s not even much to clean. Paying someone to come here isn’t the best idea. Hannah, you came with me to help start my journey. The reason why we came here is to explore, be independent, learn different aspects of life, a simple life, and living the wealthy lifestyle our parents made us grow up in, isn’t really my cup of tea. So, give me her number, I’m canceling!”
“Dang, you really don’t know how to have fun; this will be the worst summer ever. Ugh, why do you have to be so stubborn?” Hannah says.
“Well because I have to, stop being so dramatic. Can I have that number now?”
Hannah gives me the number and I call the maid, Patricia,immediately. She was so sweet and kind over the phone. I feel horrible about telling her not to come, however, I need to be independent, which means, doing things on my own. I’m in Pennsylvania, without my parents. I need to learn how to live on my own.
I walk towards the window and hear the birds chirping from outside. I forgot we left so early that it’s still morning here. It’s only 10:30 a.m.
It’s so gorgeous, I can smell nature.
“Hannah, I can’t believe you're having your car shipped here, ugh!” I say with an annoyed look on my face.
“It’s the last thing, I promise. Well, I’m trying sis.”
“Whatever, I’m going to make some coffee and toast. Tomorrow we need to go to the grocery store to stock up.” I say.
I feel so much better here. So peaceful and calm. The weather is basically the same but it’s a lot better. Wow, it looks like it’s going to be a long summer after all.
“Hannah, where are you going to work?” I ask.
“At Tiffany’s Salon. She has another salon here in Pennsylvania, Betsy or is it Betty told me. Dang, can’t remember that girl's name.”
“It’s okay, I need to find a job here as well. I've applied to a few online before coming here but I haven’t heard anything back. I’ll let you know if I do.”
“You can come work with me and give clients manicures and pedicures!” She says with a big smile.
“Nah, I’ll leave that up to you, don’t want to interfere with your work. I think I might go for a walk.”
I finish up my coffee, grab my phone on the counter and go out for a walk around town.
Is it just me or is it brighter here than New York? Well obviously it should be, no more tall buildings or skyscrapers blocking the gorgeous morning sunlight. I throw one foot after the other walking through the trail. If I remember correctly, there’s a mechanic shop down this path and a bakery or cafe next door. I pulled out my phone to find a signal. The only downside was that my phone had really bad reception once I left the house and began walking. “Shit, still no bars! What am I going to do?”The best part was, I kind of grew up here so I could never get lost, I think. I put down my phone and start to look around. “Wow it’s like I’m on a mountain.” I started taking a few pictures of the scenery and even some selfies. Hey, I never said Hannah was the only diva, I have my moments too! “These are adorable pictures.” I say. I text Hannah right away and send them to her. RING! RING!Mom’s calling, I answered immediately with excitement. Somehow, I was able to get some bars on m
Why did I have to be so cruel? All he did was bring us breakfast. I need to work on my people skills. Look, now she’s out with him, doing God knows what, where. What am I going to tell mom now? I promised mom I would be here with her, now. Ugh. I stomp my feet to the floor. How did I let this happen? Jack wasn’t all that bad. Now look, I must clean up after them. What a mess. Oh no! Am I turning into a mother? Why am I acting like a mom? I’m supposed to be cool, yet I’m thinking this way. This is scary, maybe I should go lay down. I walk towards the stairs having second thoughts about the dishes. Okay that’s it! Dishes first, rest later! RING RING! Is that my cell phone? Who could be calling? Wait, no that’s Carol's phone. Tanner? Why’s he calling? “Hello!”“Hey Carol, how have you been?” He says.“Nice try. You got the evil twin. It’s Hannah! Ha.” “What are you doing with Carol’s phone? Where is she? I need to speak to her. It’s urgent!” Tanner says angrily. “She’s out with som
As we drive through our town, the wind rushes through my hair. This is so incredible; it feels like a movie scene I watched when I was child. “You okay back there?” Jack asks.“Yes I’m fine.” Speechless to be honest, I don’t have a clue of what to say. “Well, we’re almost there. I’m not taking you far, just wanted you to have a look around your old town!” The rain stopped a bit but we’re both soaked. It’s been pouring rain the entire time.Jack pulled up by the corner and stopped the motorcycle.“Here we are.” Jack said.It’s a beautiful lake filled with ducks and swans. It’s so romantic and unbelievable. How could I have never experienced this before? The smell of nature. The pitter patter of the rain falls, as it lands in the lake. “I’ve never been here before, not even when I was a kid. I’m sure I would have remembered a beautiful scenery like this.” I say.“Oh dear, Carol, you're soaked. Come here take my jacket.” As we get off the bike Jack holds my hand and runs with me so
“Driving down at sunset, ohhhhyea!” I sing in the car.“You got a nice voice kid!” The driver says.“Ha. Thanks! I’m actually doing some vocal exercises, don't mind me.” I say.“So, are you a famous singer here? This area is all about fame! I think Jason Derulo lives here too.”I choke on the water I was drinking. “Really.”“Yes. Indeed.”“Wow, I’m here to start camp for Juilliard. They sent me here on a trip with a few other students, it’s very hard to get into the camp, they’re extremely selective!” I say.“Juilliard! That’s in New York, isn’t it? I heard it’s one of the best music schools in the United States.”“How cliche. I mean it’s a good school and all but there’s so much more opportunities here in LA. Don’t you think so?” I say.“True, people come here to pursue their dreams and passions in life. If singing is something you want to pursue, then you’ve definitely come to the right place!”I look around as the car drives down a road filled with palm trees on both sides. It’s e
“All I want is to fly with you,” I sing. Jack looks at me and continues the song. He starts singing as well. “All I want is to fall with you,” he says. “So just give me all of you,” we sing together.“It feels impossible” “It's not impossible”“Is it impossible?”“Say that it's possible”I stop and look into his eyes. It feels like faith has brought us together. Jack continues on singing the last part.“You know I want youIt's not a secret I try to hideBut I can't have youWe're bound to break, and my hands are tied.”I smile and he smiles back at me. How did we end up here? Where has he been all my life? The bond and connection we have is immaculate.
“Are you finish ordering those cups Jack? We’re a bit low in stock and we need more of them.” Dad says. “Yea. Dad. I ordered a few last Wednesday and more should come in today.” I say.“Business is better now, probably because of the new hotel that recently opened.” I can’t believe summer has officially passed and it’s been two months since I’m dating Carol. I haven’t been this happy for a while.“What are you smiling about over there? I can see you blushing.” Dad says. “Umm. Dad, come on, you know why.”“Is it Carol? Oh, I am so happy she moved to town with her sister. Every morning I see her on her way to work. She’s definitely something special, son.”“I’m so in love with her. I think I have been all my life. I just never realized it until now.”“How about dinner? I haven’t had a proper talk with them since they moved to town. Your mom and I would love to have them over.” “Sure. I’d like that a lot dad and I’m sure she’ll say yes.”Once my shift has been over at the cafe, I wal
“Hannah, are you done yet? We must leave in ten minutes! I'm nervous.” I say. “Almost.”She walks down the stairs, trying to put on hoop earrings. “Nervous? It’s the Jones family, we have known them since we were kids. Don’t be nervous, I’m starving. I remember Jack’s mom was a great cook too!”“Yes, I know. But that was back then Hannah, Jack and I weren’t dating back then.”“Breathe, Carol. Relax, I'm with you. They are going to love you even more now, you're the nicest person I know and you're super smart. Sometimes I’m a little jealous myself, I wish I could be more like you!”“Thanks sis. Okay, I feel a little better now, you’ve given me a bit more courage. Alright let’s go before we’re late.” I say.As we approach the house I can remember playing in the front yard when I was a kid. Tanner and Jack were so close, he should have been here. I hope he’s okay. Okay Carol, chin up, it’s showtime.“Carolina! You’re even more beautiful than when I last saw you. Hannah, you are too. Wo
Stupid parties, I hate going to these things. I should just tell Chase, but our relationship isn’t the same anymore. It’s like he fell out of love with me. Now he’s ditching me to spend time with that Tanner kid. I thought we’re good together. Maybe I’m just not enough for him. “Ready yet!” Chase says walking into the bathroom. “No.” I say.“What’s taking so long?”“Being a woman. Five minutes, please. Now can you go wait outside?” “Fine.” He says, then walks out. As I glide my red lipstick on my lips and look into the mirror, I start wondering. Is it all worth it? Will we even last? Should I just come clean and tell him how I feel? I shake my head a bit to add some volume in my hair. Then, I walk out into the hall to meet Chase. “Done.” I say“Great, now let’s go.” He says, in a deep voice.“Why are you showing me attitude? Seriously Chase?” I say angrily. “Shall we go to the party or stay here and have one of your dumb diva moments?”“There aren’t any diva moments. It’s fine,
The seconds ticked by, each one feeling like an eternity as I anxiously observed the conversation between the tattooed man and me. My mind raced with worst-case scenarios, unable to comprehend the danger we had stumbled into. The silence outside the car was deafening, broken only by the distant sound of passing traffic."What do you want from me?" I finally spoke, my voice filled with a mixture of frustration and apprehension. I strained to hear our exchange, my heart pounding in my chest.The tattooed man leaned in, his voice low and menacing. "You know exactly what I want. Don't play dumb with me."My eyes narrowed, my face a mask of defiance. "I told you I'm out. I'm done with that life."The man's lips curled into a sinister smile, revealing a set of yellowed teeth. "You think you can just walk away? We had an agreement. You owe me."A knot formed in my stomach as I tried to piece together our cryptic conversation. What agreement? What was I involved in? The man's words hinted at
The car trailed closely behind us, and a wave of fear washed over me. This was undoubtedly the most terrified I had ever been in my entire life, and it was difficult to comprehend that this was actually happening. Just as I was starting to find a semblance of happiness, everything had to go awry.The sound of impact reverberated through the air as the person behind the wheel repeatedly rammed into our car. Panic consumed me, and I couldn't help but scream out Jack's name in desperation. Jack glanced up at the rearview mirror, and the expression on his face confirmed my worst fear - he knew who was pursuing us. "Would you relax already?" Jack's voice attempted to calm me down, but my heart pounded in my chest as I clung onto the leather seat, seeking some solace."Calm down? Really, Jack?" I retorted, my voice shaking with fear.Another crash resonated through the vehicle, intensifying my anxiety. I couldn't help but question the motives behind the relentless assault. "Why is he doing
The living room of the ranch house in Pennsylvania was now filled with tension, despite the twinkling lights and festive decorations. The air felt heavy with negativity, as my mother, Emily, continued her relentless efforts to drive a wedge between Jack and me. I couldn't help but feel a mix of frustration and sadness, knowing that this Christmas gathering was turning into a battleground.As I hurriedly set the table, my hands trembled with anxiety. Jack, sensing my distress, approached me with a worried expression."I can't believe how much your mother is trying to sabotage our relationship," I whispered to Jack, my voice filled with a sense of defeat. "I don't know how much longer I can endure this."Jack placed a comforting hand on my shoulder, his eyes filled with determination. "Carolina, we won't let her tear us apart. We'll stand strong and show her that our love is unbreakable."Just then, Emily entered the room, her face contorted with a malicious grin. "Oh, Carolina, dear, I
Jack and I have been talking all evening, while sitting by the fireplace and listening to Christmas songs. Suddenly we hear the sound of the doorbell ring. “Baby stay here with Leland, I think I know who it is. It’s actually another surprise.” Jack says. “Babe you’ve already done so much! This is the best Christmas Eve ever; I couldn’t be happier!” I say while holding Leland in my arms. I hear so much talking, when I turn around, I see my parents, Jack’s parents, Hannah, Max, Tanner and Chelsea all standing there! My eyes open wide. “Oh my god. You’re all here!” “Yes indeed, it’s Christmas Eve after all.” My mom says. “It’s like a blizzard out there!” Dad says. “Leland!” Jack’s mom says, running up to hug me. She holds my face and looks at me. “You know every time I see you Carol, you're even more beautiful.” She says and smiles at me. “Let me see my grandson.” Jack’s dad says. I hand Leland over to Jack’s mom and she holds him. They’re both so excited, it’s their firs
After cleaning up the ranch house, I end up having so much trash laying around. I put everything into a garbage bag. That evening I opened the door to take the trash outside, it’s freezing here. But it feels like the holidays even more when it’s cold. It’s Christmas Eve so it’s normal. I think it’s even snowing a little as well. Snow makes everything more magical.I lift my head up and realize Jack is standing right there in front of my house. Is that really Jack? How is he here? Oh my god, it is him. His face looks so red, how long has he been standing there? Is so cold outside. I drop the garbage bag on the floor and run straight up to him. “Jack!” I say loudly, while running up to him.I hug him so tightly, like I never want to let go of him. Then I look into his eyes and kiss him. We both start crying, we’ve been through so much together. It was some adventure! “Carol, I love you so much, I never want to lose you.” Jack says.“I love you too Jack!” I say.“I’m so sorry for e
“Okay that should do it. Wow, wait, no, ahhhhhh.” I say, as I fall from the ladder.“Ouch.” I say.“Okay well I guess it’ll have to do after all.” Richard says.“Thank you, dad, the sleigh is perfect, just in time too.” I say.“Yep, Benny from the mechanic shop is one heck of a good helper.” He says.“Well, whatever you did, thank you so much!” “The house looks incredible son, honestly.” He says.“I’m so lucky I finished it in time too.” I say.“Well hard work pays off son. You know, I think it might even snow later this evening!” He says.“Awesome! The house looks incredible now but wait till tonight, it’s going to look even more beautiful because of all the lights.”“I know, it definitely will be gorgeous.” He says.The rest of the afternoon goes by and it’s starting to get dark. I think it’s even snowing lightly outside. I miss Carol so much; she’s probably having the best time in California with her family. I just miss her and miss my son. I want to meet him so bad. I walked dow
I finally arrived here in Pennsylvania again. As I walk inside the ranch house with Leland, I start to remember the moments when Jack and I first met. When he first picked me up and took me to the lake, when he threw pebbles at my window, when he proposed. It all happened here in Pennsylvania;I wasted my time moving with him to California. Being with him was the happiest moment of my life.I sit on the couch with Leland and look around, I just start crying. I miss him so much, how did we get here? Why did I move to California to begin with, Jack and I had everything here this entire time? I unpack my things and I see all our wedding pictures hanging up on the wall. I take out a framed picture of holding Leland in the hospital and hang it up on the wall. If I could talk to him again or see him again, I would just tell him thank you for everything because we did have special moments together. Moments that I could never forget. He showed me what it was like to feel loved by someone. G
“Finally, I think this is the perfect house. It's lovely. I’ll take it sir.” I say.“Great, it's all yours. Please sign here for me!” The real estate man says. “Sure.” I say. I skim all the paperwork and sign all the documents.“Great, the key is all yours now!” “Thank you, sir.” I say.As I enter the house it looks like it was made for us, Carol and Leland will love it. It’s so lovely and cozy for us, it feels like home. I don’t waste time at all, I get all my things ready to start decorating and designing it like a beautiful Christmas house. I have an image in my head, I want this house to be perfect. I want it to impress Carol, after all I need to win her back and I think this is the only way I can. I need to prove to her I love her and I love our son with all my heart. I pick up the hammer and start adding nails to the walls for the Christmas green garland. I’m also going to fill the entire house with holiday lights, starting from the front entrance and continuing. Wait, I
This is my favorite time of year. It sucks that it doesn’t snow here, I know Hannah tried her best making it her style for the holidays but it’s not the same without snow. Leland needs to experience his first holiday with white snow. I’m so lucky to have him with me but something inside me just feels completely empty. “Guys I need a vacation.” I say. “You’re leaving, great I’ll help you pack!” Tanner says. “Seriously Tanner, stop it.” Chelsea says. “Carol, why are you leaving?” Hannah asks.“I need Leland to experience the holidays with snow, I think I’ll just go stay at the old ranch house in Pennsylvania for some time.” I say looking at everyone. I don’t see anything but sad faces in the room. “Are you sure you want to go?” Chelsea asks.“Yes, I’m positive.” I say.“I’ll go with you.” Hannah says to me.“No sis, you have all done so much for me already. I just need to go by myself with Leland.” I say. Everyone gets up to give me a hug. We all form a group hug together. I can