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Author: Moyahx
last update Last Updated: 2023-07-21 08:50:12

Orian’s pov

TW: Self harm, SA recall.

Orian's pov

It was dark and gloomy today, just as my mind was. The windows were closed hindering the illumination which could have given radiance to the room.

The only source of illumination was being threatened as the light breeze blew through one of the cracks in the wall making the flame of the candle flicker with an intent to go off and my tear clouded eyes rested on the movement of the flame as I tried to calm myself down.

My knees were drawn up to my chest while I sat on the cold bare floor naked as the day I was born. The chill coupled with the fear I was shrouded in caused my skin to take on a ghostly pale look revealing to any unfortunate onlooker that I was truly in a state of delirium.

My arms were tightened around my drawn-up legs my back bent over and my chin resting on my knees. I carefully rocked myself with silent sobs absorbing the pain from the bleeding old wounds and the new ones I had inflicted upon myself a
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