The second car carrying Jair's cousin stopped right behind and then turned off the engine. The three men got out of the car and immediately walked to the back of the SUV to retrieve their weapons. Eric's hand searched for the S&W Model 29 pistol with its Magnum 44 cartridge; That's enough to shoot through the door. Or a face. Whatever. He looked at Jair, resisting the urge to shoot him in the head and end it all, but held back. Jair still has some utility value. Eric looked at the pistol. It's been a while since he'd used it, but the familiar feeling had wriggled through his fingers, up his arms, seeping through his chest and forcing his heart to speed up. His head was flooded with adrenaline, and three feet down was where he was getting an erection at the thought of killing and taking back what was his. Jair checked his AK-47 and Eric watched as he stroked the weapon. He understood Jair in the rarest of ways. That bloodlust and mutual understanding, any similarity between them disg
Narweh's English consists of simple words and phrases – yes, no, sleep, come, and sex. His primary form of communication was to beat the boys with sticks until he understood, though he sometimes did worse than that. There were things that went on and on, things that Kéleb forced himself not to think about. Every time he obeyed, he would be rewarded with food, clothes, or gifts from various men, and although he abhorred what he did to receive such rewards, he did his best to suffer. Whenever he resisted, the blows would be so brutal that even a grown man could not stand it. Finally, after many years, Kéleb also grew up, tall and beautiful. Along with that, arrogance and quick-wittedness soon followed. He was more fluent in Arabic than in English, though the English boys helped him retain his basic knowledge. He soon chooses his own tormentors, pitting them against each other with the promise of true affection, even though he is incapable of giving it away. Still a child in the eyes o
An urge unlike anything Eric had ever felt rushed through his veins, at the angry sound of gunfire and the sound of wood exploding to pieces. Tach-tack-tack-tack. Screeched. BOOM. The door was kicked open. The pounding footsteps - theirs. Screams of panic and anger - from within. Jair was the first to charge in, his battle cry making their prey even more stunned. By the time Tiny thought of taking action, he was hit in the face by the butt of Jair's gun. Blood splattered across the wall behind Tiny as he fell to the ground. The first pool of blood, but not the last. The woman screamed and dashed toward the foyer, calling out to someone named Kid. Eric immediately ran after her. Behind him, two of Jair's cousins were beating up a motorcyclist left in the living room with Tiny. The woman was screaming for someone. There were two doors in front of Eric. One on the right is lit, the other right in front, closed. Eric fired twice at the door in front of him. The door swung open and Eric
Eric watched the boy. Kid. The name is very catchy. His face was as smooth as a child's, his lips a little too full, like his own. Something evil took root within him. He'll let this guy live, and the blonde. Soon, though, they'll wish he hadn't. Eric finally looked at Kitten. Her face was bruised and stained with blood. Her eyes were closed but her lips were still moving, shaking violently like the rest of her body. Her head tilted to the left, her arms stretched out over Kid's. A little below, her outstretched legs were streaked with bruises and boot marks in places that had clearly been stepped on. Eric swallowed. “Khalid,” his voice was even, “put a blanket over the girl. She is in shock. Then bring these two to me.” When Eric turned, Dani was standing with Khalid in the foyer. Two men entered as Eric left, and yet he heard the blonde resist them. Eric allowed old memories to flood back as he strode toward the living room, mingling with the image of Kitten bruised and shivering o
I'm sinking, very fast. I tried to open my eyes, but the world around me was just a blur, an illusion. Unreal. Could it be real? I was surrounded by bright lights and muffled voices, but I couldn't lift my head to see where they were coming from. A man wearing a white shirt appeared in the field of vision and spoke up. Agent Mulder? I'm in an episode of X-Star Profile. No, it's absurd. The scientist? Doctor? Crazy man with a scalpel? I couldn't make out what he was saying, but his face seemed full of assurance, false promises, clichés meant to appease me. Then a tunnel of blue light surrounded me. I wanted to say something, or sit up, but the pain was too intense. My heavy eyes closed, and I sank back into silence. There were times when I was half awake and half asleep but couldn't remember anything. Time is not clear. Not now, or next, or after. Only pain. More pain, less pain. That's the only thing that doesn't change. I am sinking. Deeper. Deeper. Deeper. There is no botto
"I'm sorry, Kitten," he whispered. Is he apologizing? In Eric, guilt was almost never the case, and the last thing I expected. My face showed at the same time a snort-joke-funny-crying-cry, making me feel excruciatingly painful. I almost laughed again. Would laugh if breathing wasn't so painful. "For what they did to me." Yes, he's sorry, but not for abducting me from the house. "Good." Home. My family. Everything happened because I wanted to go back to my trash mother. Even if she didn't want me there. Never. No matter how many times I said sorry. My eyes ached. Can't believe I'm still in tears for her. I hate her. I hated her, for loving her so much, and she clearly didn't feel the same way. Eric cleared his throat and swallowed. “I made them pay.” They. A bunch of people, which could be worse than Eric. I felt shaky again, but hearing those words from Eric's mouth gave me a little satisfaction. "Well," I said smugly, "you like that." A smile crept across his lips, and for some r
“I made them pay.” He whispered again, his voice cold and short, but the words meant nothing to me, even though I suspected they were extremely important to him. Only his arms mattered, just the hard, solid feeling of tangible flesh enclosing me was enough. His embrace does everything his lips can't or won't do, they tell you you're safe and I'll protect you, even look like you care for me, even if It's chaotic, but everything is chaotic. Through it all, his lips just kept repeating, "I made them pay," and I felt something different but still very real, more real than anything. I hate him but at the same time I don't hate him, I don't understand anything anymore, worse than myself. I wept for a long time, taking solace in his deceptively comfortable arms. Illusions, fantasies, very helpful. I never wanted to leave. I want to stay here forever, clutching his chest, his fingers brushing my hair, his heartbeat in my ears: you-be-safe, trust-me-love, love you. Love. Do I want him to lov
“Eric…” “It's not, you know.” He must have read the confusion on my face and looked forward to it, for he immediately went on, “While sleeping. I said it's not all my fault, that's true - I'm not at fault here. It's…It's just not.” There is a tight knot in my throat. No matter how hard I tried, I still couldn't swallow it down. It got stuck there, choking me. Eric's fingers slide across the sheets toward my feet, then pause and then retreat back into place. Why can't he just be a cruel, emotionless bastard so I know his roles and mine? Why does he keep changing from cold and unforgiving, to pleasant and warm? pressure? “What have they done to you, Kitten? Can you talk to me?” His eyelids closed and I wondered what he was hiding. Is it because of me? No reason at all. He tortured, imprisoned, beat and forced me into circumstances beyond my imagination. And now, now he feels…something to me? A voice in his head reminded him that, despite everything he'd done to me, there would alway