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Yes I'm pretending That i don't need your love 🎶PRETENDING- A BOOGIE WITH A HOODIE FT JESSE REYES.I walked out of the restaurant faster than I ever have in my whole life and started marching east, to my way home.
I heard the honk of a car but didn't bother turning back. I don't need interruptions right now.
Still marching with my tear streaked face I didn't care to look back when the horn was blown again.
"What is it!?" I stopped moving, turned around and recognized the red Audi.
My suspicions only became clearer when he jumped out of his car and ran towards me.
" Hey did you forget I said I'll pick you up? " he asked as he approached me but stopped once he saw my face "what the-
🎶 Am holding on,why is everything so heavyHolding on, there's so muchmore than I can carry 🎶HEAVY- LINKIN PARK FT KIIARAClement left a few minutes ago, not before making sure I was okay. Right now I was tucked up in bed and gazing at my ceiling. Counting sheeps is meant to help me fall asleep but all I can see is the dainty sheeps dancing tango in my vision.i really really need this sleep, waking up before my alarm has not been helpful at all.I gave a loud long sigh and continued."one sheep, two sheeps, three shee-" I was removed from my numerics by my specific ringtone for a specific person.Unknowingly, a smile landed on my lips as I answered the phone call."Okay, so spill, how was your day?" and that was how she began the conversation.
🎶 you know that we gonna be alright, We gonna be alright 🎶BE ALRIGHT- ARIANA GRANDE FT MIGOS Another Monday has arrived, and another day to dread. I woke up as usual, earlier than my alarm but today is different. Instead of an hour earlier, I had just fifteen minutes before the alarm goes off. Shockingly, I don't feel tired like I normally do. I actually felt like I had rest last night.odd. I turned around a bit in my bed and rolled onto the other side, but I hit something fluffy and it landed with a poof on the floor. I bent to pick it up and I saw a white fluffed up teddy bear with a pink bow on its neck and around it's head, holding a little heart that says 'we love you beary m
🎶 The only thing that I can't afford is to lose myself trying to be somebody, Somebody 🎶SOMEBODY- CHAINSMOKERS FT DREW LOWE. After a visit to the nurse, I left with just a little cast on my wrist. Heading down the hallway out to the school entrance with Meredith walking by my side. There is a really heavy silence between us and I know she wants to say something, but I on the other hand isn't in the mood to speak. As we stepped outside the building, our faces were grazed by the cool wind blowing around."so...."i knew she was going to start something."Are you gonna tell me what happened? or are we gonna pretend like you aren't hurt?" Meredith asked but
🎶 No broken hearts in the clubNo tears in the clubcause we gon' get itpopping tonight 🎶NO BROKEN HEARTS- BEBE REXHA FT NICKI MINAJ.Friday is finally here and Meredith has been smiling like a clown all day. Especially since she has been anticipating seeing me in a gown.She's dropping me off at home, since I walked to school today.Again.And she already has her agenda for the night."Then we're gonna drink, and dance and flirt" wiggling her brows at me when saying the last part."eww, I don't drink" I had to make that clear.Then she fake gasped and placed a hand over her heart."You mean to say sixteen years on earth has been a waste?" hmm, she sure can act."You're exaggerating" I rolled my eyes at her
🎶we don't have to wake up cause we didn't sleep, I still got a full cup of the Hennessy. All my friends by my side Is all i need in my life 🎶ALL I NEED- DIMITRI VEGAS FT LIKE MIKE & GU True to her word, Meredith was here in fact fifteen minutes earlier.reason?she was impatient.Here's how it happened.flashback, two hours ago. Mom and Dad left a note on the dining table saying they'll be staying out late. So I wasn't expecting them anytime soon. Lying on my bed and watching the teddy that was given to me from afar, I heard the bell ring then I got up-
🎶Ain't got no tears left to cry so I'm picking it up, I'm picking it up. I'm living 🎶NO TEARS LEFT TO CRY- ARIANA GRANDE.(WARNING! THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS ABUSE. READ AT OWNERS RISK. I WOULD INDICATE WHEN THE SCENE IS OVER) I froze at the oh-so familiar voice and the pressure applied on the grip to my hand. The same hand drew me up so close, I could perceive the musk I've learned to fear."I never knew you could wear something that's not..... appalling" laying a little too much emphasis on the word appalling with his hand slightly grazing the bare skin on my back and I flinched away from his touch. "Hunter please let me go. I promise to go home" I didn't think I'll have to beg tonight. Only if I had stayed with
🎶 I said I'm okay but, I guess I'm a liar 🎶FAKING IT - CALVIN HARRIS FT KEHLANI $ LIL YACHTY I woke on a Monday morning feeling quite tired, And in my usual mood.Hurt.In between my legs hurt and I did not need anyone telling me the reason why.So for today, I have a constant reminder of how much worth my life is to people.Which is of course, worthless.My alarm clock went beeping bringing me out of my semi trance, checking the time, I was thirty minutes later than my usual time.Now that's a first.Who cared if I got to school late? The rate at which I'm going, I would be dead much sooner than later.Dragging myself off the bed with my face scrunched up like it's gonna make the pain down there disappear.I stagger to the bathroom wi
🎶 The more I read it, yeah the more I take offense 🎶EVERYBODY HATES ME - THE CHAINSMOKERS It's been a week. A week since I spoke to Meredith. A week since I heard from Clement. A week since my parents bothered me.So yeah, it's been a really long week. I was leaving my locker to attend my last class for the day, A shadow casts in my line of sight, but from the bangs and waves, no need to confirm the person."hey" Meredith's whisper came out a lot shallow than her personality could reach. I took that chance to look at her. After a week, Meredith looks dull. The light in her eyes faded, but still held an ounce of hope. Hope that my thoughts might have changed after a week.
🎶 can I just turn back the clock, Forgive my sins. I just wanna roll my sleeves up, And start again 🎶START AGAIN- ONEREPUBLIC FT LOGICHUNTER'S P.O.V————————" I still can't believe you left lovelyn with that Zoe girl " Dylan exclaimed as he made his way into the kitchen.I on the other hand was on the couch, watching this movie that he picked out saying it was fun. And I regret leaving him to make the choices." Well the girl has always been disturbing me for a favor she owes me and I seized the opportunity " I shrugged " Did you just call handing over your little sister to a complete stranger an opportunity?" He emerged from the kitchen with a new bowl of popcorn and a roo
🎶 tough times don't last But tough people do 🎶I BELIEVE - DJ KHALED FT DEMI LOVATO.I was back at the reception area sitting quietly with hopes of waking up any moment from this nightmare.Mom helped me walk out of the room as the doctor began removing appliances and connections attached to Jan's body. And I was in no mood to argue. Dad was sitting by my side all this while as I held onto him for comfort. I had already asked him quite a number of times if I was dreaming but I received a negative reply. Then I changed my course.I asked if he was dreaming instead.Trying hard not to laugh, he also gratified me with a negative answer. So I accepted my fate and maintained silence. Except if this is Mom's dream though.
🎶 Mama you're okay now. You're safe now, okay. You're in a better place now. I'll see you another day now. 🎶UOK- NASTY C Bonjour everyone!!Everyone, bonjour!! Why I'm so happy?, well today is the twelfth day into the month of September and guess what? It's also my birthday.Give me an A! Hahaha. So much for beginning to take responsibility. Did I make mention that today was also the day I was allowed to take my babies home.Yay us! They've finally completed nine whole months!They're so grown up.*Sniffles tears*" The earlier you
🎶 If there is one thing that I'll never learn is, If you play with fire You're bound to get burnt but, Bad Bitches don't cry 🎶BAD BITCHES DON'T CRY- BEBE REXHA. " What color do you want? Purple or blue?" Mom asks holding the pedicure kit in her right hand as she takes position on the floor of my feet. After I came back home, I decided it was time to let them in, so I told them everything that had happened to me, even the reasons why I tried taking my own life. And they promised to stand by me and support me. They planned on confronting Mr Brooks about his son but I went against it. That would only cause more problems than it already had, but then again they
🎶I've found no cure for the loneliness, I've found no cure for the sickness.Nothing here feels like home, Crowded streets but I'm all alone🎶HOME- X AMBASSADORS, MACHINE GUN KELLY & BEBE REXHA. " Iris? honey you awake?" Clement's mom, Mrs Phoebe calls out as she opens my bedroom door by a squeak for fear of waking me if I wasn't already up. But I have been up for the past two hours. The discomfort is killing me."yeah I am, good morning Mrs Phoebe" came my airy response as I tried to get up from my lying position.keyword Tried.She made three quick strides into the room and used two hands to drag my heavy butt off the bed.
🎶 who gon' pray for me take my pain for me sing a song for me 🎶PRAY FOR ME- THE WEEKEND FT KENDRICK LAMAR A week later and I was discharged from the hospital with a long scar stitch on my left forearm and a complete first trimester. The bump of my belly becoming a little observable so I did as much to get involved in wearing oversized tops. Well, I still had to stay at home for another week cause Megan won't let me move an inch and my parents secretly pleaded with her to keep me there so they could have a chance to talk to me. And I laughed in the face of chances.hahahaha. But today has been two weeks since my discharge and I'm on a ride to school with Meredit
🎶 suicide if you ever try to let go I'm sad I know, yeah I'm sad I know,yeah🎶SAD - XXXTENTACION beep. beep. beep. Continuously repeating itself meanwhile my body felt stiff. I inhaled a really deep breath and caught a whiff of disinfectant mixed with bleach. something's not right. Opening my eyes by an inch, all I saw was white.could this be heaven? But pastor's always said in paradise all things are beautiful. So heaven should at least smell like a lovely fragrance? I opened my eyes wider and saw a loop of wires.definitely not heaven.So
🎶 so I peel my skin, and I count my sins, and I close my eyes, and I take it in.I'm bleeding out, I bleed out for you 🎶BLEEDING OUT- IMAGINE DRAGONS. Another morning and I'm still finding it difficult to get out of bed. This nausea and fever is really getting to me. Tossing and turning on the bed, trying to find a comfortable side but all efforts proved futile. To my luck, school was cancelled today.why you ask? It's been two months since the school's football team had left and they returned last week Friday with second place. Our position was due to Cole's injury in the semi finals, but the school was proud of them none the less. And to prove t
🎶 The more I read it, yeah the more I take offense 🎶EVERYBODY HATES ME - THE CHAINSMOKERS It's been a week. A week since I spoke to Meredith. A week since I heard from Clement. A week since my parents bothered me.So yeah, it's been a really long week. I was leaving my locker to attend my last class for the day, A shadow casts in my line of sight, but from the bangs and waves, no need to confirm the person."hey" Meredith's whisper came out a lot shallow than her personality could reach. I took that chance to look at her. After a week, Meredith looks dull. The light in her eyes faded, but still held an ounce of hope. Hope that my thoughts might have changed after a week.