The last place Kylie probably wanted to be was at the court watching Brian's match, but I had forced her to come. Even Simon had been taken by surprise when I asked him for two tickets for the match.
We had come to the court with Simon, Brian, Lyla, and Rita. Simon and Brian had been very welcoming and had joked with us the entire ride, and Rita had tried to make conversation and had been very sweet. Lyla, on the other hand, had given us a complete cold shoulder. When we reached the court, we had to separate because, at the last minute, the only tickets Simon could get for us were quite far from theirs.
So Kylie and I were sitting at the back, sipping our cold drinks. The match, when it finally did start, was great. My eyes did not leave Brian for a single second. Whereas my brother is a really good player and did really well too, Brian just has that finesse that makes you want to stare. His flushed face glistened in the court lights. Every time they would score, Simon and Brian would run towards each other, roaring, and then they would chest bump each other. After the winning basket, Kylie and I went down the stairs to meet up with them.
" Where's Lyla?" was Brian's first question when we met him. I could practically hear Kylie rolling her eyes.
"She left to get herself a drink; in the middle, I didn't see her after that." Informed Rita to the boys. So the hunt for Lyla began. Kylie really did not want to help, but the concern in Brian's eyes made me beg her. He called Lyla's phone several times, but it kept going to voicemail. Kylie and I checked the women's bathroom, we checked the food area, and finally we decided to take a break. Just before I was about to sit down, I saw the area beneath the bleachers. I decided to give it one last look. I asked Kylie to join me, but she said she was too tired, so I decided to just check and come back.
I walked into the darkness, but suddenly it got too dark for me to see. I switched on the torchlight on my phone and walked a little further, only to hear the sounds of someone breathing heavily. I thought to myself that, obviously, Lyla would not be hiding anywhere in the dark. So I turned to leave, but something made me stop in my tracks. I could just take a peek, just to be sure. So I peeked inside, and the sight I saw made me clamp my hand over my mouth.
"Steph?" I heard Brian call my name. Of all the places I would have wanted Brian to find me, this was not the one. I do not think I could bear seeing him get hurt. But I am unable to say anything, and my clasped hand on my face made him walk in front of me. He walks inside the room, and I see his eyes go wide as he registers the sight in front of him.
Lyla's arms and legs were wrapped around a guy. They were so busy making out that they did not notice any of us. The squelching sounds made me want to gag.
"Lyla?" I could hear the disbelief in Brian's voice. The guy saw Brian first and immediately separated himself from her. That was when Lyla turned around, looking horrified.
A few minutes later, Brian was sitting on the bleachers gripping the edges tight until they became white. He looked more shocked than hurt. His eyes grew misty and then I would see him clench his neck holding his tears back. Seeing him like this broke my heart, and I could feel anger welling up in my chest against Lyla. However, I kept quiet. Lyla herself was teary-eyed; her mascara was smudged under her eyes.
"I'm really sorry. It was an accident. I know this is obviously wrong, but I have been so lonely ever since we've had to move to different colleges, and then this long distance has been so hard. I've been so alone; you were so busy with your practices that you made no time for me."
I could not believe what I was hearing this girl say. She was manipulating her boyfriend and making it sound like he was the reason she cheated.
"How long has this been going on for?" Asked Brian.
"He found me crying in my apartment last month—"
"A month? So this has been going on for a month." Brian cut her as he shook his head in disbelief.
Wow, I thought to myself, this girl had a nerve.
"Brian, you know I love you. I'm really, really sorry. Just please try to understand. I really didn't mean to—"
Brian, not being able to take it anymore, stood up and left her mid-sentence. Simon tried to go after him, but Rita stopped him. "Let him go; he needs to be alone for a while." She whispered to Simon. We all left Lyla with the boy. On the ride back home, there was a deafening silence in the car; no one had anything to say. No words of consolation. But we were all really worried about Brian. Even Kylie was.
I woke up in the middle of the night feeling parched, so I went downstairs to grab some water for myself. There in the living room, I found Simon and Brian. Brian was in a state of disarray with his disheveled hair and looking haggard. The sight of him made my heart sink. How could a man go from rejoicing about their victory to this in a matter of a few hours? Simon indicated through his eyes and asked me to leave. I grabbed my water bottle and rushed back upstairs.
Brian had been staying over at our place for a week now. His mom and I were in constant contact, as she had been extremely concerned. Brian had felt trapped inside their house, so she decided to give him space. Simon had been forcing him out to parties in the beginning, but that had just resulted in Brian coming home drunk and battered every night.
Last week, he had gotten into a fight with a guy at the club, who had accidentally spilled his drink on Brian.
“Watch where you're going, asshole?” Brian growled, his voice low and menacing.
The guy, taken aback by Brian's sudden aggression, apologized. “Dude, I'm sorry, it was an accident….”
“Accident.” Brian scoffed. “That's what she had said. I'm sick and tired of these fucking accidents.” Brian snarled, grabbing the guy from the collar of his shirt and slamming him against the bar. He began to punch him repeatedly with a furious scowl on his forehead.
Brian and Simon had then been kicked out of the club, and Brian was covered with bruises all over his hands, bloody shirt and a cut lip.So I talked Simon out of it, saying that if he was a good friend, he should really be concerned about Brian's health. So that put a stop to it.
This morning too, I went straight into the kitchen to make breakfast for all three of us. As I was frying eggs, I heard the bathroom door creak, and Brian walked out of it, drying his wet hair with a towel. I smiled at him and asked him to join me. He sat by the table, looking through the wall across him with a piercing glare. His jaw was clenched, his muscles tense, with his veins popping out. I noticed his swollen and bruised knuckles when he said with a grimace, "Don't look at me like that."
“Like what?”
“Like, I'm some injured animal in your pet store that needs to be pitied.”
Alright, I get that he's hurt, but I didn't do anything for him to talk to me like that, "One, it's not a pet store, it's a pet day care and two, I don't think I'm pitying you, but you are definitely holding this confrontation with the wrong girl," I scoff, shaking my head. We hold a deep gaze, I notice the fire in his eyes, until my eggs start crackling, so I turn back to them.
"I am going to confront her one last time. I need to talk to her." When I do not say anything, he asks me what I think of it. I do not know what came over me or why I said the next words.
Don't go to her! I wanted to scream at him. Come to me, and I'll take all your pain away. Give me a chance, and I'll show you what it feels like to be loved! I chanted in my head. But for some reason, my head and my tongue didn't cooperate on the same thing.
"Do what you think is best for you, Brian. If going after her one last time is what you think will help you, then do it. Do whatever's best for you, and I will always be here to support you, I promise." I said leaving an ointment next to him on the table.
He stared at it for a few minutes then left without tending to his wounds leaving a deep pit in my heart. I do not know why, but tears started pouring down my eyes.
BRIAN'S POV I left for Lyla's house. I went in through the front door because her parents were away this week. Normally, I had to get in through the attic, the only room upstairs with a window facing outward. This was the thing. Lyla and I knew so much about each other; I just couldn't accept the fact that she would do this to me. We had snuck out of her house multiple times. Several times she had called me to come get her when her abusive father was torturing her mother. I just couldn't fathom why she would do this to me. The house was eerily silent. I walked up to her room and knocked at her door with determination. The events of the past few days have really shattered my confidence. With newfound courage and hope, I have come to Lyla's door to give our relationship a second chance. The door was opened by a shirtless guy with red smudging around his mouth . Across the room, I see Lyla standing there, wearing a red lip. I could not register the intense waves of s
Steph's Pov I woke up feeling a little queasy. One glance at the clock on my bedside table made me sit up straight in bed. It was almost two p.m., and I had overslept. As I made my bed and tried to make myself look a bit presentable, I recalled the events of the previous night. He had regretted it. A lot. I did not feel like going down the stairs, but my stomach would just not stop rumbling. Climbing down the stairs, I could see Brian pouring cereal for himself and Simon concocting something black in the frying pan. Eggs, I think. When the floorboards creaked underneath my weight, Brian's eyes shot up to meet mine. He immediately averted his gaze, making me feel more guilty than ever. "Where the hell have you been, Steph? Do these look fine?" Simon said, pointing his spatula at the frying pan. I rolled my eyes. "They're burnt, Simon. Move over." I took over the pan and threw his eggs away. I walked over to the fridge to get new eggs. As I glided past Brian, who, for some reason, w
Steph's Pov“Steph, are you okay?” It had been a regular, foggy winter morning. I had arrived at school early, like I always did, and was sitting in the library, trying to get my head around the bizarre chemistry equations, when Kylie had rushed to me, out of breath, with a look of concern etched onto her face. “Yeah, why?” I was confused. “Well?” She hesitated. “What's wrong, Kylie?” I asked, holding her hand, worried something might've happened to her. “Someone egged your locker. I was afraid you were hurt too.” She said, clasping her hands and looking nervous. My heart dropped when the words came out of her mouth. We rushed towards my locker, and surely enough, it was splattered with eggshells and egg yolk all over it, sending a foul smell throughout the hall. “What's all this racket? Move aside, let me in.” Mr Avery, the janitor, made his way through the crowd. “Well, well, well, look who we have here, Miss Hudson
A fair was being held in our town. Kylie was to attend it with Nick. Simon, and Rita, who after their date just could not seem to get enough of each other, decided to go together again. "Brian could take you, unless you'd rather stay at home." Simon had said this to me while munching on leftover muffins. "I was going to go either way, because of work." We were putting on a show with our animals from the daycare. "But yeah, Brian and I can go together." Simon gave me a thumbs up and a smile with his mouth full. I had informed Brian that my shift would be from four to six and then I could join him, and he had said that he would come around six to find me. I was actually looking forward to the fair. Not only was I looking forward to the food, the rides, and the other activities, but I was anticipating the entire evening with Brian the most. On that day, I left the house early for daycare. I had put on a white tee with my denim shorts. With a little bit of jewelry and makeup, the o
"Not here. Let's go to the ferris wheel. We'll have the entire cubicle to ourselves then." He had stated this, and I remember thinking there was something very wrong with this boy. Of all the normal places in this world where people would sit and talk, like chairs and benches, he found the most comfort in rides. He wanted to discuss whatever the hell just happened on a Ferris wheel. We went inside the cubicle and sat opposite each other, in deafening silence. A few minutes went by, and the ride started with the hissing sound of the machine. As we started soaring up high, I heard him clear his throat. "I saw Lyla." Um, okay, I thought we were sitting in here to talk about the kiss we just shared. He had kissed me after making that promise to me in the car. Not that I was complaining, but I really did not want to hear about Lyla. Nonetheless, I asked him, "Here?" He nodded. "She looked happy, content with her life." I turned my gaze to the window, not knowing what to say. He
Steph's PovI woke up to the soft golden rays of dawn filtering through the curtains, casting a warm glow across my bedroom. The clock on my nightstand read 6:02 AM—early, even for a school day. I blinked against the light, my mind still hazy, when I felt the faintest shift beside me.Turning my head, I saw Brian lying on his side, propped up on one elbow. His disheveled hair fell across his forehead, and his dark eyes studied me with an intensity that made my pulse quicken. He looked so natural there, like he belonged in my bed, like this was something we’d done countless times before.“Morning,” he said softly, his voice gravelly from sleep.“Morning,” I whispered back, acutely aware of how close he was.For a moment, we just stared at each other, the silence between us thick with an unspoken understanding. Then he shifted, sitting up and leaning against the headboard, the sheets pooling around his waist.“Steph,” he began, his tone serious. He ran a hand through his messy hair, the
Steph's Pov I had enough time to stop by at Kylie's before work. So we sat in her room, munching on chocolate-covered strawberries that her mother had prepared for us, when I told her about the deal. "You agreed?" She yelled at me, spewing some strawberry chunks out of her mouth in the process. I was prepared for this reaction. I knew she would get quite mad at me, and I understand that if I were in her place, I would probably have the same reaction too. "Yeah, I know what it sounds like. But believe me, it really isn't that bad. In fact, it's kind of fun. It's everything I had always fantasized about with him." "Um, you fantasized about him using you?" "He's not using me. He asked me, and I said yes; it's consensual." "Steph, he manipulated you at first, making you think it was a mistake, and now suddenly he really wants you. But only physically, and you said yes! Wow!" Kylie exclaimed. "Kylie please, let's not ruin it. Look at how happy I am." I plead.
Steph's Pov My shift ended, and we decided to go home together in Brian's car. As Brian was getting our jackets, I checked all the animals one last time to see whether they were carefully tucked or not. "You two make a beautiful couple." I heard Mrs. Clayton's soft voice say. My cheeks turned a shade of crimson. I thought to myself that we were not really a couple. I wished for it, though. I really wish we were a couple. This day that we spent together made me feel like we were a real couple. But I knew I was deluding myself. Instead of saying all of this, I thanked Mrs. Clayton instead and walked out to Brian to get my jacket from him. On the way back home, Brian was really giddy. He could not stop smiling. I pretended to be just as happy and smiled brightly every time my eyes met his, but there was a sinking feeling in my chest. The one major rule of the deal is slowly becoming very hard for me to keep, and it has only been a day. All of this was going through my
Steph's Pov “Man, does Mitchell never get bored of listening to his own voice? He drones on and on, giving me a fucking migraine every time. Lucy complained, slouching in her seat. We had just taken Mitchell's solid three-hour lecture. With Mitchell's, three hours meant three hours, not a minute less or more. “Who's up for some crispy fried chicken?” Stella proposed, nudging my shoulder. I was busy completing and compiling my notes. “Yes, me. I'm starving; my stomach has been rumbling throughout the class.” I chimed in. “Oh my God, guys, Meghan and Jack broke up.” Sarah began with her daily dose of gossip. “What? No way!” “Yeah, I used to think they looked sweet together. What happened?” We all leaned in, eager to hear the juicy news. “Apparently, Jack got drunk and hooked up with someone at the club.” Sarah continued, her voice barely above a whisper as if she were sharing a big secret. “I always thought Meghan deserved better; good riddance.” I
Steph's Pov “Bro, it's midday. Do you think we should wake her up?” “No, she's never slept in; maybe she needs it.” “How drunk do you think she—oh, oh, I think she's waking up!” I could hear the whispers next to me when I tried to flutter my eyes open, but the bright light sent a shot of pain through, forcing me to shut them up just as quickly. I groaned, “Man, my head hurts,” I said, holding my head with both my palms. When my eyes adjusted, I slowly opened them to find Stella, Lucy and Sarah standing around my bed staring into my soul. They looked like they'd start performing a ritual on me. “Well, who asked you to take off with a random guy you had just met?” Stella scolded me and I looked at Lucy and Sarah squinting my eyes, and they stood there with two hands joined together, mouthing me to not throw them under the bus. “Girl, you were busy flirting and dancing with some other guy, so I decided to have a little bit of fun on my own. W
I pulled out my red dress with sequins embedded into it. Seeing him waving at his fans and smiling so bright that it had his eyes all crinkled had me all riled up. I wanted to look and feel the best. “I'll make you regret it, Brian Lockwood; I'll make you regret leaving me.” I said to myself in the mirror. Gosh, why was it still about him? Man, I really needed to get some drinks into my system to wash him out of it. My phone began to ring and it took me a while to find it under the pile of clothes heaped onto my bed. By the time I found it, it had stopped ringing. It was Simon. Brian and Simon had both qualified for the nationals together but played for different teams. Simon was part of the Inferno. I didn't really follow the game but I knew that both Omega and Inferno had been at the top of the board this year. Simon and I spoke from time to time. He had called me drunk, crying when the coach had threatened to kick him off the team. “I'm su
3 years laterSteph’s Pov “Steph, are you done with Mitchell's worksheet?” Stella, one of my housemates, popped her head through my bedroom door frame. “I'm working on it; let's tally whatever we have done.” I said and fifteen minutes later we were huddled together at my desk even more frustrated than before. “I swear to God, he does all of this deliberately. That sadistic man gets pleasure out of torturing and failing us.” I said with irritation. “Please don't say that. I can't afford to fail even one test this semester. It's our last semester. This is the time the GPA needs to be maintained the most.” Stella said, looking horrified. I rubbed my hands over her shoulder. I remembered last semester, we sat on the university steps trying to calm Stella down as she bawled her eyes out after Mitchell's had just shattered her dreams into pieces. “You might as well just throw away your dreams of setting foot in the hospital ever, if you're plan
Brian’s PovI despised myself in that moment. Every muffled sob that came from the other side of her bedroom door pierced my chest like a blade. Steph’s tears always broke me in ways I couldn’t describe, and the fact that I had caused them made me loathe myself even more.Leaning against her door, I clenched my fists, willing myself to stay put, to not burst in and hold her. But I was a coward. A coward who had ruined the one person who trusted me without question. I pressed my forehead against the cool wood, each wail behind it twisting my insides tighter. I couldn’t stay. I needed to be away—away from everyone, especially from her. But most of all, away from myself.By the time I reached my room, I was barely holding it together, the rawness of my emotions clawing at me. I slammed the door shut behind me, but it didn't stop the chaos swirling inside my mind. My knees gave out, and I sank to the floor, my back pressed against the cold wood, my breath coming in shallow, ragged gasps.
Steph's PovI called Brian's number and both times, it took me to the voicemail. I didn't like this sickening feeling in my chest. Yes, I had agreed on not giving official tags to our relationship, but I did think, we were close enough that I deserved to know if he was going away for six months. Or had that been his plan all along, to just completely ghost me? To use me, when he needed. I could not believe I had been this blind and stupid. He really did not give a single fuck about me. Kylie had been right all along; I should've just listened to her. But I had been in denial. In that moment, it was fun lying to myself, but now when I could feel my heart sinking, I didn't think it was worth it. No one should get to treat me like this. Yes, he was hurt then, but I had sacrificed enough of my own happiness to take his pain away. I was not going to make a fool of myself anymore.***Brian's voice called out as the door creaked open. “Do you want to join us for a game of Mo
Steph’s povThe weekend had finally arrived, but instead of relief, I felt an odd weight in my chest. Ever since the beach trip, Simon had been hovering, checking on me every few hours. I knew he was worried after what happened, but his overprotectiveness felt like a constant reminder of the incident I wanted to forget. The weekend had finally arrived, but instead of relief, I felt an odd weight in my chest. Ever since the beach trip, I caught cold and felt like shit, burning in fever all day long. Simon had been hovering, checking on me every few hours. I knew he was worried after what happened, but his overprotectiveness felt like a constant reminder of the incident I wanted to forget.It had all happened so fast. I had gone to the water with Kylie and Nick, their laughter filling the air as they splashed around. I tried to join in, but my heart wasn’t in it. My mind was elsewhere—on him. On Brian.I couldn’t stop replaying the day in my head. The way he had laughed and joked with e
Brain’s PovThe school had organized a trip to the beach. The bus ride to the beach was supposed to be fun, but nothing about this trip felt remotely enjoyable. Why?Because of that one woman whom my mind just cannot take a break thinking about. Steph. She was sitting with Cole. And me? I was right at the back with Simon. Gosh, I hated this feeling too much. I clenched my jaw as I watched her laugh at something Cole said. Her head tipped back slightly, her smile lighting up her face. She was stunning, but the sight made my stomach twist painfully. Why hadn’t I seen her in the same light that I see her in now before Lyla? WHy hadn’t I realized it was not Lyla who was the one for me. But…"Why are you glaring at Cole like he just stole your lunch?" Simon asked without even looking up from his phone.I forced my hands to relax on the seat in front of me. "I’m not glaring."Simon smirked. "Sure, keep telling yourself that."The ride dragged on, every second punctuated by the sight
"Where are you? You promised you'd be home by now," I had said, my voice laced with evident annoyance. "You might as well not come." That was what I had said. In those last moments with them, when I could have said anything to them, this was what I had chosen to tell them. Like they had promised, they would fulfill any wish I made that day, but they did not come back. I have hated myself ever since. Had I known that was the last time I would be hearing their beautiful voices, I would have just listened to them talk. I would have told them how much I loved them. They were the most important people in the world to me.It had taken me years to not think about it every single day. To move on with life and not blame myself every time I looked at myself. But today had been especially good. In the midst of my tears, I did not hear the door creak open. I only noticed when a warm body was sitting right next to my crouched body, hugging me from behind. His familiar scent and touch made it a lit