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2021-02-02 09:08:03I had never responded to Seth's last email, I couldn't. I didn't know what to say. In all honesty, I was afraid I would break, so I just didn't email him back. It had been a week since we had talked. I knew from Brooke that he was still in town but as far as I was aware he hadn't been back to her place, of course neither had Dutch. He was now banned from her apartment until he learned to behave. Not that it stopped her from going to him.
Friday had been a killer day, I had been called into a staff meeting only to be trapped at the office for eight hours as we went over the holiday design plans. Leaving the office I shook my head seeing it was already past 5 PM. I stopped by the grocery store to pick up a few things before heading home. Brooke had let me know she was going out with Dutch tonight when I had texted her inviting her over to eat. Selfishly I was kind of aggravated at her for not being mad at him anymore about the whole Seth situation. I had yet to speak to him sin
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