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2024-10-29 19:42:56Walking into the hotel I felt eyes on me. I knew the front desk people were staring at the poor drowned rat who walked in barefoot but I ignored them walking straight to the elevator. Waiting for it to open I dug out my keycard clutching it along with my shoes in my hands. I was freezing, with my luck, I would catch pneumonia. Here I was at the end of February in a sleeveless dress short dress walking barefoot in the rain.
The elevator doors opened and I stepped in feeling the tears that I had tried so hard to hold back break free. Once free it was like a flood, I couldn't do this. I would tell Seth thanks for everything but this wasn't for me.
The door opened in front of me and I walked forward not paying much attention to where I was going. Our suite was easy enough to find. It was the last one down the hall. As I slid my key in the door I turned the knob pushing the door open. My shoes and purse fell to the floor as the door shut behind me. Hearing a noise I l
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