Nate
After all of Wanchai's act of finding Thirasak injured in the dressing room, we sit side by side on the couch, he holds a handkerchief, and pretends to be cleaning my wounds.
— Who did this to you?
I make a pained expression, lift my head and stare at him.
— The same group. Just because their girlfriends like my Instagram posts. What a stupid reason!
— Have you ever been hit before? — I shake my head in the affirmative, and he continues. —
Nate— I'm the man of your life, Nate! The one who with a simple kiss, makes you hard! — He says and I look at him in disbelief. I must be dead for this kid to tell me that, like this to my face, inside my house, and I don't punch him.— Respect me, Will! — I say, and throw another pillow at him.— Oh, that one hurt! You take everything I say very seriously, I was just kidding you gross!— I'm already starting to get annoyed
NateThe big moment to go up to the stage arrives, I look at him who watches me with a questioning expression.— Where are you going?— I go to the stage. Please don't go away! I'm going to sing, and I want you to see me!On the way to the stage, I feel butterflies in my stomach, my hands sweat a lot. I climb a few steps, smile at the musicians, pick up a guitar intended for me that one of them hands me, thank them and approach the microphone, and I see Will's curious eyes on me.— Good evening everyone! I'm Nate Naetang, and today I want to introduce you to a song I wrote inspired by some
Will— Even if I gave him my number, and he was interested in me, the question is, is he Nate Naetang? I say and get even closer to him. — I answer: No! And do you know who Nate Naetang is? He's the guy I'm completely in love with!— Truth? Didn't that guy catch your eye?Sometimes I think Nate is too insecure. It is not possible for someone who has had so many love experiences, especially with women, to behave like this. From the start I was clear about what I feel, and he acts like a jealous fool who doesn't believe what I say. I know I sometimes joke about things too much, but I only do it because I know he likes it.— Are yo
WillTwo weeks after that party, our series finally premiered. The cast meeting was a lot of fun, following the first episode together brought a different feeling, it made me remember the first day I met all the actors, the director and part of the production, and especially Nate. I remember how intimidated I was by his disapproving look, and how difficult it was to deal with him, and today seeing him next to me in the room where we recorded the reaction, looking at me and smiling sideways while we watched, is extremely rewarding in many ways.As soon as we leave the room, he asks me to wait in the foyer of the building while he goes to the bathroom. I do as he says, and wait for him, sitting on one of the sofas. His cell phone rings, and the name "Mom" appears on the display.
Will— So, do you want to date me? — I ask and look at him with a big smile.— Of course I want it. I just didn't order it earlier because I thought it was a bit early, and I saw your birthday, the perfect date, plus it's the day the series premieres!— It's true. I think I owe a lot to the producers who chose us, but we also owe it to Wanchai and Thirasak!— I think Thirasak made me see so much, get out of my bubble, and meet Nate, who I didn't know. I know I'm not as caring as you are, but that doesn't mean I don't feel anything, and— I know, I can already see that you are somewhat closed off an
WillWe are standing, leaning on a wooden desk, Thirasak makes mention of wanting to ask me something, and touches me, while my character talks to his brother .— My friend was really joking. See you tomorrow, bye!— What did he want? — he asks as soon as I hang up the phone.— I wanted to know about the post you made, I guess he still didn't believe what I said.— When will you tell him the truth, Wanchai?— I will tell him when he is in a good mood.— I think you have to tell him soon, we are together, we are not children anymore, and...
WillHis statement made me all goofy, my mood changed when I could tell by the tone of his voice that my question made him uncomfortable.— Nothing, I was just kidding! — I answered, and then we didn't speak anymore.During the trip, I realized that instead of him taking the avenue leading to his house, he entered an avenue leading to my house.All right!I knew that he would not take me to his house after what I asked, but I nurtured some hope that he would have the courage, take me to his house, and we could improvise the scene I so much desire.— I don't want to go home, Nate!
WillNate's friends are a lot of fun. From the moment we arrived at the bar, they treated me very well. At first I thought they didn't like my presence, but that idea was dispelled. One of them who is sitting closest to Nate, P'Arthit, has a big smile, darker skin than ours, and much taller than both of us. He tells a few jokes, has a fun conversation. However, he changes the subject after checking something on his cell phone.— Nate, do you remember that friend of my girlfriend's, Sam?— No.— What's up, Nate? You stayed with her after you broke up with Mali! What do you mean? Who is this girl? What happened between them?— Oh, I remember! That was a long time ago...
WillHis arms squeeze me even tighter, I wrap mine around his neck, while my tongue meets his. All these days without any contact have made me sad and moody. His hands begin a pleasant play on my back, moving up and down my back, caressing me and making me want to surrender to the moment even more. Our kiss is hungry. I want to devour his mouth, and he wants the same, and his body gently pushes mine somewhere, until I feel the wall behind me. My body is pressed together in a way that I know where we will be in a few minutes, especially if we keep kissing like this, we will both be hard.I stop the kiss, and push him away slightly, because Nate doesn't want to let go. I meet his confused gaze.— What is it, love? Don't you want to?— Of course I want to!— So, what is the problem?— Where will we do it? On the ground?— Of course not!— Another thing, whose house is this? Relax... This room has nothing, but the one next door has a great bed, an amazing bathroom with a tu
WillLyn's screams startle me, I look toward the house, and it is still dark. I hurry my steps and arrive in front of the door. My hand touches the doorknob, I turn it, and it opens. I enter the house. I turn on the flashlight on my cell phone, look around hoping to find a light switch, and to my surprise I find one near the door, I touch it and the light goes on. I call out to my sister, but get no answer from her, my heart squeezes, and a slight chill passes through my stomach. I look around me, at what seems to be a small entrance hall. There is a large staircase with golden handrails, and in front of me a wide, glazed door. I open it, and once again look for a switch. When I finally manage to find it, along with the glow of the lamp comes the surprise, the room appears to be a living room. Its white walls, a large chandelier in the center of the room, but there is not a single piece of furniture in the entire space. I begin to think that my sister might be fooling me, or wors
WillThe days have dragged on, and I still haven't spoken to Nate. Today, Valentine's Day, we could be somewhere enjoying our company, but my boyfriend will be pretending to be a couple with an actress, to promote a series that has no audience. I may be being selfish, I know that, but I would never submit to this for the sake of work, I feel extremely frustrated. My mind feels like it is going to explode from thinking about it all the time. I stare at Lyn, sitting in front of me in the restaurant, she watches me intently, runs her hand under her hair, puts her elbow on the table, does the thinker's position, and speaks.— What did you come here for?— Dinner!— It doesn't look like it, you stare at nothing, and you haven't even touched your plate!— I will eat, don't worry!— Why don't you send him a message? Schedule something after he leaves the live?— No, because there's no way he could see my message, by now the live broadcast has already started, and I don't want to talk to
WillIf there is one thing I understand in our profession, it is the advertising that is done to promote a series, but I don't like this new job of Nate's because of our manager's insistence on something that didn't work out. Sometimes it crosses my mind that somehow he doesn't accept our relationship, and that's why he insists so much that we can't be seen together. I know that all this could be just jealousy on my part, something I try not to develop, especially in relation to work, but lately it has become unavoidable, and I don't like to see my boyfriend with Lily.Hearing him say about faking a dating that doesn't exist makes me uncomfortable, and I don't know what to say, I just watch as he hangs up the phone and looks at me waiting for something.— Did you hear it? — he asks and I just shake my head. I get up, walk to the closet, grab some clothes, put them on, and go back to the bedroom. — Can we talk?— Talk? What for?— Will, do you understand that I can't do a
EpilogueWill— Didn't you do it because you didn't mean it? You don't even watch the Lakorn to support me, you don't comment on your social networks, you're not helping me engage!— Nate, what do you want me to do? The story is bad, it's toxic, nobody wants to watch it, and besides, Lily is not a good actress, and the couple you make in this series is horrible, with no chemistry!— Wow, how supportive my boyfriend is!— It's true, and I told you not to embark on this idea, but you didn't listen and thought it would be a success!— Is it the truth, or are you just dying of jealousy?— Me? Jealous of you? Stop being cocky, Nate!— You are jealous, yes!— I am not jealous, and I warned you about this project, but you insisted because you listened to our manager.— I know, but it would be a great opportunity to be in prime time on broadcast TV, and...— We got more audience when we acted in Fake D8, it was not in prime time, and...— What do you mean, Will?— I mean that w
EpilogueWillI didn't know how to cry, that is, I was raised thinking that I couldn't shed a tear, and that it was synonymous with weakness for a man. However, I created so many uncertainties about my life, and I hid myself inside a tight closet, pretending to be someone I wasn't, to quiet my parents' hearts, and with that I lived stuck without being able to do what I really wanted to do, to be the real Will. The one who wanted to act, dance, cry, and love a man.Almost three years ago I met a guy who helped me to change this story. I confess that it was not easy at all, and in the beginning I thought he was an arrogant, intimidating guy who had an image of a sexy straight boy who is always going out with thousands of girls, at least that's what I believed, however, the sexy straight boy fell in love with the real Will, the one who before couldn't cry. The two started to find out who they really were, what they felt for each other, and this feeling became intense for both of them.
WillNate has been calling me the whole time to see if I was on my way, I'm starting to get nervous. It started when I was at my grandfather's house talking to Sunee and Lyn, and even they were worried. During the ride to his house, and now as I park in the garage of the building, he calls once again to find out where I am. The elevator takes three minutes to get to his floor, but for me it is an eternity.I put in the key, turn the knob, and finally open the door. The room is dark, and I can just make out the light coming from the next room, the dining room. I turn on the light and call for him, who answers me. I walk there, and find a table set for dinner, with Chinese food, my favorite, and Nate sitting waiting for me.— Wow, are we celebrating something?— We are... But first you are going to wash your hands, come on!— Do you have to be rude, you pain in the ass? — I complain in my sly voice. — You like it rough, that I know! — he answers in a ma
WillNate is a box of surprises. After we spent that period apart, he has surprised me a lot, I feel that he is more confident about the emotional problems caused by the negative fame that comes from social networks, and this makes me calm, if he is happy, I am happy. His confidence, and the way he acts has impressed me, and when he brought me to this locker room with the intention of fulfilling a sexual fantasy, it really surprised me, I did not expect such an attitude from him.When I think back to the beginning, the first contacts, the denial on both sides, the first kiss, the flirtatious moments until the proposal, the breaking of sex as a taboo (read on his part), and the long awaited first time. It was a long path, but a very pleasant one, and I would walk it again without a second thought.— What are you going to do to me, Kitten? Or should I call you Daddy? — when I ask, he looks at me with such desire, and my reaction before he says anything is to lightly bite his lower
NateRecording continues, and I confess that it is a little difficult to dissociate fiction from reality. Every scene in which I must show my love, care, and attention is all too real when I view it after the director has finished recording. I'm starting to notice that everyone realizes this, how much this love has connected us in a surreal way, and with every scene we shoot, photos, ads, everything we develop together, this has become clearer, and the fandom of the ship has gone crazy for any of our posts, especially those where we combine phrases, or pretend to be far away, when we are actually next to each other.As I invite him to come to the court with me, to play with my friends, I remember the first time he came, got hurt, and insinuated that we could do something more in the locker room. Unfortunately that was another time, I was just beginning to accept the fact that I was in love and dating a man, and sex was a taboo for me. If his insinuation were made today, I w