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The day after Ian left, Dad passed away in his sleep, the nurse said his heart stopped beating. He’d gone quietly, painlessly. He was buried a week later.

I didn't go.

I couldn’t.

I bared a grudge, maybe later I’d regret it but I am hurt.

It wasn't like me, goody two shoes Katy, who always did what was expected of me. I didn't recognize myself these days.

He’d been laid to rest beside my mum as he wanted.

With mom and dad gone, and him… I was truly alone now. I’d gotten condolences and well wishes from Elise and Naomi, a few of Dad’s colleagues, his assistant at the company, and peers from high school on my social media had reached out also.

I looked at them without responding.

At some point, I got a notification that I'd missed my appointment at the clinic for another shot of birth control and to reschedule. I swiped away the notification so fast, and turned off my phone after that.

Hannah has been by twice, the first time, I’d been surprised to see her and it showed.

“You hav