BlairIt’s been three days since Hunter and I returned to the Moon Pack and I abandoned my goal of rescuing my sister. I’ve stayed at the pack, unsure of what to do with myself because I don’t want to go home. I want to figure out what’s going on with Raya, but when I mentioned it to Hunter he told me to wait a couple of days.I don’t know what we’re waiting for and it makes me frustrated. Those bloodsuckers still have her in their clutches. There’s no way she could be safe for the long term and yet…. She had no problem sending me away.I fall back on the bed in frustration as I stare up at the ceiling. For the most part Hunter has left me alone to process things and he has seemed pretty busy with his pack that he hasn’t come to bother me much. I get delivered food for every meal so I’ve had no reason to venture outside of this room unless I’m wanting human interaction.The thing is, I don’t know what I want. With life, with Raya, with… anything. And it’s frustrating because I almost
RayaIt’s been a week since the Adam, Blade, and Luther admitted their feelings for me. They’ve left me alone so that I can have time to process. I haven’t seen Adam at all. Blade is always near, watching me and keeping me safe, but he doesn’t interact with me and I haven’t figured out the words to say to him. I’ve seen Luther in passing. I walk into a room, he leaves it and that’s how it’s been.I don’t know how to talk to any of them. But I feel overwhelmed with guilt for not knowing which one of them I want. For not realizing sooner that they might have feelings for me.The choice should be obvious, I should pick and want Blade. He’s been there for me the most and has made me feel valued. But I think of Luther and his charisma and the chill that I get when he calls me his toy. I think of how I haven’t seen him take a girl to his room, human or vampire, since I came here. And from the way the boys talked apparently that had been a very common thing from him.I think of Adam. I think
BladeIt has been difficult to be away from Raya. I thought I made my feelings for her obvious with that kiss, yet she asked for space from all of us. She has never sought me out so I let her have her space.I watched her from a distance, still concerned about her safety even though my father seems to be less of a threat with each passing day. At this point, I’m just missing her. I miss her presence and talking to her, she was one of the only things in my life to make me feel like I have a purpose.So, after 7 days of respecting her space, I decided that today if she doesn’t crack then I will. And I hope she won’t reject me.I watched her room from afar like I always do until I heard a commotion from some of the servants we have down the hall. I sigh as I force myself to leave to help with whatever was going on. It’s rare for there to be fights around the estate, but I know no one would act up if I was around. With great reluctance, I leave Raya’s space unattended.I couldn’t have bee
RayaI’m surprised by how much I’ve enjoyed being around Luther. Things aren’t tense with him instead I feel like for once, I don’t have any worries. He doesn’t get too close to me, but I’m not sure if he’s doing that out of trying to give me peace of mind or what his motive might be. Regardless, I’ve been grateful for the night out.We get back to the Estate and he looks at me with a happy gleam in his eyes and asks, “Do you want to see what my favorite spot of the estate is? I like to go here anytime I get out of the house.”I look back where we can see the sun just beginning to peak through in the darkness. I murmur, “Is it outside? You don’t have much time.”He smirks and holds out his hand and asks, “Do you trust me?”And surprisingly, I don’t hesitate to put my hand in his. Even with the sun coming up, I don’t feel afraid. Then again, I’m not the one whose life is in danger because of the sun. He pulls me closer to him and holds me tight and his breath fans my ear as he whispers
RayaI feel disoriented. I don’t know what exactly is going on, it’s like my head is spinning round and round on a ride that won’t stop. I hear Adam’s harsh voice as he asks me, “What did you do?”Something about the tone of his voice helps me to focus, although I don’t understand why he thinks it’s okay to speak to me that way. My head snaps towards him and I tell him harshly, “Mind your tone.”His eyebrows raise in surprise and I feel a hand on my shoulder, it’s a silent warning for me to stand down. I look back at Blade whose eyes are shining with concern. I frown as I look at him, I don’t know what they’re so worried about. I just went out with Luther for a little while, it isn’t as big of a deal as what they’re making it be.We went out, we came back, and then… and then… I don’t remember.My eyebrows crinkle together as I try harder to think of what happened next, but nothing is coming to my mind. I look towards Luther who also seems to be in a bit of a daze. He rubs his eyes for
BlairTonight is supposed to be my Luna ceremony… I’m not entirely sure what that means, but I trust Hunter and I trust his pack. Or well, our pack.He walks into our room with a small smile on his face, his eyes flicker to look at the mark on my neck. He walks over to me and wraps his arms around my waist before kissing my mark, making tingles erupt through my body. He whispers softly, “You look perfect, like a goddess, Blair.”My cheeks heat up and I turn to look at him, his eyes shining with adoration for me. I tell him, “I’m becoming your Luna officially, I’ll be your equal, right?”He smiles, “You’re already my equal, Blair.”I comment, “I want to see Raya.”He winces softly and shakes his head, “I know you want to, Blair, but it’s dangerous around vampires.”“I don’t care.”He huffs, “You might not care, Blair, but I do, a lot, You are everything to me and if they got their hands on you.” He pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration. This has been our main argument since we
Raya“Do you know how reckless that was?!” Adam’s voice screeches for the fifteenth time. It doesn’t matter what Luther says, it doesn’t matter what I say, there’s no reason that I should’ve compelled him according to Adam.Blade watches the whole interaction with his arms crossed and he feigns disinterest. I know him, I know he’s a lot more interested than what he’s letting on.Luther snaps, “There was nothing reckless about it, Adam! You don’t get to just control everyone’s life!”“It’s my job to keep you safe!”I breathe out, letting the boys continue to fight as I lean against the counter next to Blade. I ask him softly, “Do you think we were reckless?”He shakes his head softly, “It’s natural for both of you to want to explore this new dynamic. I think Adam believes you were reckless because if our father had seen Luther when the tether broke… there’s a chance he would’ve killed you on the spot. He wants the Ambrose family to be the most powerful and with you having power over on
RayaAnxiety fills my body, each minute brings me closer to the time I turn 18 and it terrifies me. My life… my pure existence it isn’t normal. I’m not like others. I’m half vampire and half human, I live with my human mother and she has hidden who I am from the rest of the world.But when you’re a vampire certain ages bring about certain qualities. By the time you’re five you’ll sprout your fangs, by thirteen you’ll notice that you’re stronger and faster than humans are, and when you turn 18 you’re supposed to come into the full powers of whatever gifting your blood line has.I’ll officially turn 18 in one hour. I have no idea what powers I may come into and I’m in the worst place I could possibly be in. My stepfather, Trevor and my stepsister, Blair hate vampires with a burning passion, once a month they go on hunting trips to try to kill them. They claim that they are ridding this world of evil. I think that Trevor brainwashed Blair over the years into the deep hatred she has. Don’
Raya“Do you know how reckless that was?!” Adam’s voice screeches for the fifteenth time. It doesn’t matter what Luther says, it doesn’t matter what I say, there’s no reason that I should’ve compelled him according to Adam.Blade watches the whole interaction with his arms crossed and he feigns disinterest. I know him, I know he’s a lot more interested than what he’s letting on.Luther snaps, “There was nothing reckless about it, Adam! You don’t get to just control everyone’s life!”“It’s my job to keep you safe!”I breathe out, letting the boys continue to fight as I lean against the counter next to Blade. I ask him softly, “Do you think we were reckless?”He shakes his head softly, “It’s natural for both of you to want to explore this new dynamic. I think Adam believes you were reckless because if our father had seen Luther when the tether broke… there’s a chance he would’ve killed you on the spot. He wants the Ambrose family to be the most powerful and with you having power over on
BlairTonight is supposed to be my Luna ceremony… I’m not entirely sure what that means, but I trust Hunter and I trust his pack. Or well, our pack.He walks into our room with a small smile on his face, his eyes flicker to look at the mark on my neck. He walks over to me and wraps his arms around my waist before kissing my mark, making tingles erupt through my body. He whispers softly, “You look perfect, like a goddess, Blair.”My cheeks heat up and I turn to look at him, his eyes shining with adoration for me. I tell him, “I’m becoming your Luna officially, I’ll be your equal, right?”He smiles, “You’re already my equal, Blair.”I comment, “I want to see Raya.”He winces softly and shakes his head, “I know you want to, Blair, but it’s dangerous around vampires.”“I don’t care.”He huffs, “You might not care, Blair, but I do, a lot, You are everything to me and if they got their hands on you.” He pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration. This has been our main argument since we
RayaI feel disoriented. I don’t know what exactly is going on, it’s like my head is spinning round and round on a ride that won’t stop. I hear Adam’s harsh voice as he asks me, “What did you do?”Something about the tone of his voice helps me to focus, although I don’t understand why he thinks it’s okay to speak to me that way. My head snaps towards him and I tell him harshly, “Mind your tone.”His eyebrows raise in surprise and I feel a hand on my shoulder, it’s a silent warning for me to stand down. I look back at Blade whose eyes are shining with concern. I frown as I look at him, I don’t know what they’re so worried about. I just went out with Luther for a little while, it isn’t as big of a deal as what they’re making it be.We went out, we came back, and then… and then… I don’t remember.My eyebrows crinkle together as I try harder to think of what happened next, but nothing is coming to my mind. I look towards Luther who also seems to be in a bit of a daze. He rubs his eyes for
RayaI’m surprised by how much I’ve enjoyed being around Luther. Things aren’t tense with him instead I feel like for once, I don’t have any worries. He doesn’t get too close to me, but I’m not sure if he’s doing that out of trying to give me peace of mind or what his motive might be. Regardless, I’ve been grateful for the night out.We get back to the Estate and he looks at me with a happy gleam in his eyes and asks, “Do you want to see what my favorite spot of the estate is? I like to go here anytime I get out of the house.”I look back where we can see the sun just beginning to peak through in the darkness. I murmur, “Is it outside? You don’t have much time.”He smirks and holds out his hand and asks, “Do you trust me?”And surprisingly, I don’t hesitate to put my hand in his. Even with the sun coming up, I don’t feel afraid. Then again, I’m not the one whose life is in danger because of the sun. He pulls me closer to him and holds me tight and his breath fans my ear as he whispers
BladeIt has been difficult to be away from Raya. I thought I made my feelings for her obvious with that kiss, yet she asked for space from all of us. She has never sought me out so I let her have her space.I watched her from a distance, still concerned about her safety even though my father seems to be less of a threat with each passing day. At this point, I’m just missing her. I miss her presence and talking to her, she was one of the only things in my life to make me feel like I have a purpose.So, after 7 days of respecting her space, I decided that today if she doesn’t crack then I will. And I hope she won’t reject me.I watched her room from afar like I always do until I heard a commotion from some of the servants we have down the hall. I sigh as I force myself to leave to help with whatever was going on. It’s rare for there to be fights around the estate, but I know no one would act up if I was around. With great reluctance, I leave Raya’s space unattended.I couldn’t have bee
RayaIt’s been a week since the Adam, Blade, and Luther admitted their feelings for me. They’ve left me alone so that I can have time to process. I haven’t seen Adam at all. Blade is always near, watching me and keeping me safe, but he doesn’t interact with me and I haven’t figured out the words to say to him. I’ve seen Luther in passing. I walk into a room, he leaves it and that’s how it’s been.I don’t know how to talk to any of them. But I feel overwhelmed with guilt for not knowing which one of them I want. For not realizing sooner that they might have feelings for me.The choice should be obvious, I should pick and want Blade. He’s been there for me the most and has made me feel valued. But I think of Luther and his charisma and the chill that I get when he calls me his toy. I think of how I haven’t seen him take a girl to his room, human or vampire, since I came here. And from the way the boys talked apparently that had been a very common thing from him.I think of Adam. I think
BlairIt’s been three days since Hunter and I returned to the Moon Pack and I abandoned my goal of rescuing my sister. I’ve stayed at the pack, unsure of what to do with myself because I don’t want to go home. I want to figure out what’s going on with Raya, but when I mentioned it to Hunter he told me to wait a couple of days.I don’t know what we’re waiting for and it makes me frustrated. Those bloodsuckers still have her in their clutches. There’s no way she could be safe for the long term and yet…. She had no problem sending me away.I fall back on the bed in frustration as I stare up at the ceiling. For the most part Hunter has left me alone to process things and he has seemed pretty busy with his pack that he hasn’t come to bother me much. I get delivered food for every meal so I’ve had no reason to venture outside of this room unless I’m wanting human interaction.The thing is, I don’t know what I want. With life, with Raya, with… anything. And it’s frustrating because I almost
RayaThe world stills, my heartbeat quickens, my toes curl. My entire being is lost into Blade and his lips and where his hands move to. I can’t help the soft moan that slips from me, but the moment is lost in an instant as the door slams open and Luther shouts, “I KNEW IT!”Blade rips away from me, scowling as he looks at his brother. Luther looks smug as he walks into the room and says, “You like Raya.”Blade rolls his eyes in annoyance add I can’t help but feel pleased from the fact that he doesn’t deny it. He does like me, he wants to be with me. Adam closes the door behind him as he walks back into my room. He moves past me, closer to Blade as he seethes, “What are you thinking?”Blade doesn’t respond instantly and Adam rants, “Do you know the kind of trouble that you’ll be in if father finds out about this? Do you want to die, Blade? Do you want her to die?”Blade’s voice drips with sarcasm as he says, “You act like I’m not already dead.”“You and I both know that there is a way
RayaAs we approached the Ambrose Estate my stomach felt twisted in knots. If Julian Ambrose sees me he’s going to want answers immediately and right now… I don’t trust him. I don’t feel like I can say everything that Arthur told me.Blade surprises me because as we head inside he doesn’t let me go. Instead, he carries me all the way to my room and then brings me inside the room and drops me on the bed. I look up at him, my eyebrows raised in surprise as I watch him begin to pace around my room.I tilt my head tot he side, he seems as if he’s overwhelmed by anxiety, but that’s not a quality I would normally associate with Blade. He is strong, confident… I don’t understand what has him so rattled.I ask softly, “Are you okay, Blade?”He freezes and looks over at me and states, “I invited a werewolf and a human to come here if they had questions for you. I’m… sure, I guess you could say that I’m ‘okay’.” He lets out a huff and I tilt my head to the side and asked, “Why did you do it if