Two months later...Lilly's POVHappy.I've been happy. So very happy, that it feels surreal at times.It makes me wonder how can one person only make me feel so much at once.The sweetness, the gentleness, the excitement, and the thrill...it's all very overwhelming.I don't want it to end. Can it never end?I took Sally's advice and lived each day, one at a time, not ruining it with thoughts of what will happen tomorrow. At the moment, I really don't care about tomorrow, as long as today, he's by my side and I am by his.Chase has gotten better, much better lately. The doctor says it's a matter of days before he can be discharged for good. They're only keeping him in now to make sure his condition is stabilized.The side effects stopped almost a couple of weeks ago. Still, he went through a lot of pain and it ruined me seeing him face it all. I thought I am not strong enough to stick by him through all the bad, but I did.I kept my promise and stayed. It wasn't even physically possib
Lilly's POVConner washed up, and Sally angrily slumped over the couch, inspecting her lip.The lyrics of the song dad had in the car kept running up my mind, and I involuntarily found myself mumbling them lowly, "Ocean blue eyes looking in mine, I feel like I might sink and drown and-"Chase's weirded-out look had me shutting up. I sighed and shook my head, "It's all dad's fault." A small smile crept up my lips as I looked into his eyes, "Actually, it could be our song, feels fitting."He smiled back and pulled me to his side, he pressed a gentle kiss to the side of my head and I sighed in relief. Aylin can't destroy this, she can't.When Conner came back, he shot Sally a hard glare to which she returned, still holding her broken lip. When he looked back at us, he rolled his eyes, "Can you two not be lovey-dovey all the time?"I pretended to think about it then shook my head, "I don't think we can," I said and pressed a small kiss over Chase's cheek.Conner mumbled something, probabl
Lilly's POV"I told you guys, you didn't have to come here today," Chase told his parents, who dropped by unexpectedly, way to ruin my alone time with Chase, "Conner is staying tonight."Auntie Katherine nodded and sadly mumbled, "I know, but I've missed you," Her eyebrows pulled closer, "Also, I think there is something wrong with your dad."Uncle Ashton looked at her, confused at how she talked about him when he's right there by her side.She gave him a side glance and looked back at Chase, "Yesterday, he made me dinner for example, can you believe that? And in the morning, he made me breakfast again," She said, pretending to whisper to Chase, "I mean he hadn't done that in forever, I think he's not okay."I chuckled at how serious her tone is, she turned to Ashton and her eyes suspiciously narrowed at him, "What are you planning?" She asked, "What do you want from me?"He couldn't help but smile at her expression, with his arm around her shoulder, he pulled her closer, "Well, I jus
Lilly's POVThe feeling pressing up against my heart is cold, so cold. Like concrete drying in my chest.It wraps me in. It invades the part of me that was scared all along.It's unexpected - top of the world one minute and cut down the next.I still feel myself in a haze, drinking in the feedback of the news, my mind in a swirling loop between the past, the present, and what's about to change in the very near future.His parents left after, because today was supposed to be ours. I wanted it to be ours, to make him happy, to celebrate his birthday, and show him that he could still have everything he once had before the drug.Now I realized, he didn't need my little surprises.They weigh nothing in front of this. He is going to have what he wants the most so soon.He is happy. That's the important thing.I kicked everything away and took his hand in mine, dragging him with me and out of the room, determined to keep this day going as planned. Whatever the problem is, it can be dealt wit
MondayChase's POVI gathered my books and notebooks into one box, fitting them all in, and placed them beside my already packed bag before I stood straight and took a quick glance around me, at the room that kept me captive for the past two and a half months.It was supposed to feel like a prison. But it didn't.The people in my life didn't let it be.Inside these four walls, Conner helped me with my lessons every day, making sure I graduate on time. Between these walls, my mother brought me food and insisted I eat it all before she went on telling me about her day. My father stayed right here by my side, discussing my future as a pilot even though nothing was sure yet, with countless nights sleeping on that very uncomfortable couch, even though I begged him not to. He never left me alone.In this room, there was Alex, Cara, Max, and Sally, they all stood by my side. They all visited, they all cared, they all tried to bring a smile to my face. They were all part of the hope that kept
Lilly's POVMy gaze flickered from the road to dad beside me. Conner's words ringing in my ears non-stop.You don't have time.He's been in love with you since I met him.You love him too.My eyes went to the backseat to see Max's airpods plugged into his ears, his eyes on his phone, totally oblivious to us."Dad," I started, breaking the silence and needing to say something, needing to talk or I will explode with theheavinessof my thoughts.
Lilly's POVHe walked me down the stairs and into our backyard. He stopped right by the loungers positioned by the pool. My gaze went from them and to him, I smiled, I had to smile, "I kissed you right here, that very first time."He nodded, "You took me way off guard that day, I gotta admit that," He said, his eyes lingered over the spot where it all started and I still could read nothing of his expression, "I always learned to expect the unexpected from you," He looked back at me, "You're relentless, you're wild at times," He smiled, finally giving me his beautiful smile, "And you're so very dangerous, Lilly."His eyes caressed my face and he added, "You have the courage to lose yourself in the things you truly want and I really love that about you," He added and my heartbeat accelerated."I am the total opposite of you," I said, yet somehow, I feel like we're one and the same. I am the rush in his calmness, and he's the calm in my storm. The perfect puzzle.He nodded, "That's so tr
Ten days later...Lilly's POV"My wild heart longs for you; Every part of me is crying out and begging for your return. Your leaving me alone is like some reflex of my bad karma, I had committed years ago. Now that you have left, it's like I am dying a hundred deaths each moment." I read the lines written over the piece of paper out loud, and my heart clenched so tight in my chest. My gaze drifted up for one mere second and I looked into the crowd of people, all seated down in their assigned places, all of their eyes on me. I am not the type to have a stage-fright or to get uncomfortable under people's gazes but today, at this moment, I wished to just run away.Physically, I am in pain. Mentally, I am exhausted. This play is not doing me any good either. It reminds me of him, in every way there is. We practiced these lines together once. We stood over this same stage and read them out loud. "My eyes go numb when reminded of you. It hurts, It really hurts. What has happened to me;