2 years ago.
It's the last day of twelfth grade, we were having a quick chemistry practical today. I love chemistry and everything else that had to do with it, and even as it was a broad one to study, I came out top of my class. Skimming through the hallway, my smile was bright, and my cheeks hurt from the unsure joy I had. Maybe it's because I'll be kissing this high school goodbye in a bit or for the fact that I'll be in college in a short time. Both of which I do not know. I had lost so much weight due to my intense studying; my skin was pale, and my Dad was concerned. I've argued with him on several occasions that I'm fine and he's still not having it. ****** We had gone far into the test practicals, I managed to finish up my work and leave. My head hurts and my joints beg for ease. I'm eager to get home as I feel dizziness cloud my senses. I removed the safety goggles that I had on, in case it was the cause of my air shortage. It still didn't help. I didn't want to bring attention to myself in the lab. I felt like I was spinning, my breathing hitched. It happens often that I kind of grew into that constant feeling. Today was worse than other days. I looked around and saw most of my batch mates; each of them had their heads bowed, locked up in the test they carried out. I ran my hands on the bridge of my nose. “Oh God,” I spoke with a soft sigh; I shot my eyes tight. I felt a warm and moist feeling in my nose. With my index finger, I wiped my nose with my palms. The blood I saw this time was not the usual one, it was usually a few drops. I thought it was just the minor stress that I usually put myself through that caused it. I looked at my hand gloves, it was covered in thick red blood. they formed thick blood clots. I gasped, doing my best to stop the bleeding. My hands were shaky or maybe I was the one wobbly. I feel blood slowly run out of my nose like I was an active volcanic mountain, erupting molten lava, bit by bit. In This case, my body was the mountain, and my nose was the vent from which thick blood spilled out. I cleaned them up some more, with my hands. It made it a whole lot messier, the blood was now spread on my nose and mouth region. Blood ran down my nose, staining my mouth, and droplets of blood were on my lab cloth. All that had happened now had drawn the attention of the kids by my side. I heard them gasping; they removed their safety goggles to get a good look at this bleeding child. "Please don't raise alarms." I pleaded with them in my head. You guys could just act like you saw nothing, I would sneak out of the lab without anybody noticing. I could try. “You're bleeding.” The short blonde boy with freckles dispersed below his eyes, whispered to me like I did know the storm that was occurring in my own body “Yes, I can see that too; please, can you turn back to your work and mind your goddamn business,” I whispered back to the boy, who had his eyes bulging out. His eyes zeroed on my blood-stained face. I didn't mean to sound rude, I swear. Gibson, by name, was only trying to show concern. But that's not what I need right now, I'm already choked up on my Dad doing that too much. I know I look frightening now. I'm no different from the zombie dressed in a lab coat from World War Z he had watched last night. While I was busy trying to quiet Gibson with the little energy I had in me, the other guy, I couldn't quite remember his name, had drawn the rest of the class’s attention towards our angle. We were at the back left corner of the science lab, I thought it would be easier to not be heard or seen. That wasn't enough for them, the Lab attendant appeared right next to me with a very concerned face. Away with the attention I never wanted. “Please I need you all exit this premises immediately. If you're done with your test, kindly leave them behind. This is an emergency.” There were murmurs in the lab as my overly concerned mates shuffled around; the sound of their foot steps added to what was going to make my head explode in a minute. I shot my eyes tightly, trying to conserve and contain all these external noises that they made. I stood and leaned on the wall effortlessly, my hands gripping my head tightly; any little force of push would bring me to the ground in seconds. I just stayed, there watching these healthy kid exist in the lab, sweat dripped from my temple down my face. “Come here, child, let me help you get this off.” The old lab attendant helped me get rid of the blood-stained lab coat. I let her help me; I couldn't help myself anyway. I was drenched in sweat mixed with blood. I heard her conversing with someone over the phone, her tone was hasty. “I just called in for help, they will be here in a minute.” “Let me get you a rinsed up, child.” She supported me in the restroom. And helped me rinse out the blood that was beginning to stick to my face. Blood still ran out of my nose, quicker than before, the old lady's hands were stained with blood. The white face towel she used to wipe out the blood was painted with my blood. I was soaked in blood, too, more than before; the metallic stench hit my senses hard this time. At this point, my thinking went from my present situation to how my Dad would feel if he heard this; he had always worried that these little health issues would escalate. I didn't picture this day coming, that I would bleed out two pants of my blood in a few minutes. My eyes began tearing up. If this is to be my end, I should know better.I fell deaf to the clattering sounds of the rain. I had scurried out of my auto repair shop the moment I heard of Rose's incident in school. My face flushed white by the words of the paramedics over the phone.“I want to be clear that I'm speaking with the father of Rose Clifford, Arthur Clifford?” “Yes, yes you are. Is there a problem?” The power call of the sirens buzzed at the call's end.“Okay, sir.”There was a pause.My heartbeat crescendoed as I thought of any possible worse situation my only child would be in at the moment.Old memories I tried to wave off swarm through my mind.I haven't heard what's wrong yet, I had reached out for my keys to my meticulously decrepit truck. It was a hard time retrieving it from my jean pockets but I got them out anyway.I got in the truck, ready to ignite the engines.“Tell me what the fuck is wrong with my daughter, right the fuck now.” I couldn't have this guy fall dead on me over the phone when he had already introduced the situation wi
I want to be strong for my daughter but I keep on failing. The words of Dr Myron repeated in my head over and over again.“Her cancer is hitting stage three. Her life is at risk.”I'm at the edge of losing Rose.I sat still on my chair in the doctor's office, actually I was numb. I had gone into an endless reverie that I thought I would never come out from.“Mr Arthur.” I heard the doctor call out, I struggled with myself to bring myself to my draining reality.I looked at him with zero emotions on my face, just a blank glare.My heart felt heavy.My mind was clouded in a thick dark fog.“You seemed lost; I called you several times, Mr. Arthur.”“I'm sorry,” I said weakly.Dr Myron took a deep sigh. “I know this is a tough one for you, but we've had similar cases; it wasn't as bad as Rose's Cass, but I assure you that we will do our best to lengthen her life to the best of our knowledge.”He leaned into the table as he spoke, cupping his chin with the back of his palm.I inhaled de
There was a large troop of horses stomping in my head, or at least that was what it felt like.Beep. Beep.Where am I? oh, the damn hospital.if I had just snuck out of the lab, I wouldn't have been here. I winced at the that surged through my head. I opened my eyes slowly; my vision was blurry for a few seconds before it balanced.I lifted my hands to hold my pounding head, it felt heavy.There were tubes attached to my hands, restricting me from reaching for my head.I heard the door of the ward open up, heavy boot-like footsteps stumbled on the floor, and it got louder until it came to a halt. In front of my bed.“Dad!”I couldn't hear myself speak but I wished he saw the excitement on my face the moment I saw him.Was he sad?Myriad expressions swarm across his handsome features, shock and grief were evident.“My princess.” He said in a wavering voice. “You're awake.” He continued, I saw tears beginning to cloud his eyes. His eyes were puffy, causing retention in the tissue a
Our living room was small, with a few comfortable white couches neatly arranged in it.My dad had decorated it simple but beautiful. The wall where the TV was positioned was lined with trays and cupboards, fancy objects that were kept there whose functions I couldn't decipher.There was just one window on the left wall from where I sat.I had dimmed the lights; they made me squint my eyes each time I entered the room.I love my room dark. The eerily sound that came from the clock ticking on the wall stood out in the deafening silence.The TV was muted, I muted it myself.Why? I didn't fucking know.I was in my usual off-mode today.My eyes were glued to the muted TV. It was one of my favorite TV shows.My muse, my wannabe woman was a guest in the show.Emily Brooker, the legendary city queen of New York City. She was a popular runway model in her prime.I've read every documentary about her, read all the articles I could find that had her face on it.Was it the Aura she possessed?
I'm glad I finally knew what I was dealing with.I had surfed through Google to give me a name for these changes in my body until I saw it boldly written down in that envelope.I couldn't be mad at my Dad, I would do the same if I was in his position.If I felt anything, it was fear.Fear of what my life had become.Stage 3 and still progressing.The night I found out I had leukemia, another incident occurred that landed me in the hands of Dr. Myron again.I showed my father that envelope while he was in the kitchen; he was juicing out oranges to use with our dinner at the moment I stood at the door. his eyes zeroed on the envelope when he saw that I had the truth he had been hiding from me in my hands.He stopped mid-air to look at the envelope in my hands; the knife used to cut the oranges into two was on his right.“The day I was admitted to the hospital was the day you knew about my sickness; why didn't you tell me? Why let me know this way..” I melted down, bawling. My Dad, seei
It was a 30-minute ride to the airport; we arrived earlier than expected. I was hoping to see Morris' cute little face pissed as he was a little too impatient for his age. Miss Beatrice would have been buzzing either me or Dad's phone.We were out in the terminal, expecting to see them.I sat.My Dad was getting worked up, he strolled from pillar to post.“We could go grab some snacks, Miss Beatrice is gonna call when they've arrived.”“I'm starving,” I added that. He wouldn't object to that one. Baby Rose always got to eat.I wouldn't want him worrying over situations that were far from serious.“Right.” he let out a wheeze.“Yeah.”“Come with me, Rose; what would you like to eat? I know mine.”He walked over to where I sat to help me up from my seat. Urgh…Does he have to?“You know, my usuals.”Cheesecake.It always was, and always will be.That's the only snack that entered my mouth, except some I took unconsciously which wasn't possible.In the nineteen years of my life, I’ve al
There's nothing that makes me happier than when things go as I'd planned them to. I stared at the silky red gown that was hung in my closet. I've admired it from the moment Miss Beatrice brought it home, she had good taste.I love that woman.It was a red v-neck body con dress with shiny stones neatly dispersed on it; the stones were clustered at the upper part and were less at the lower part.My whole back was open I had put it on earlier, it fit me perfectly. Although I had lost so much weight, my curves were undeniably visible. The dress was far above my knee and I wouldn’t say I wouldn't be so conscious of my exposed body because I definitely will.“Knock knock.”I gasped. I turned to see Miss Beatrice at the door; she stuck her head inside the room.“You scared me.” Placing my hands on my chest with my mouth opened slightly like I'd seen a ghost.She shrugged.“Stop being overly dramatic, Rose. You left your door half open,” she said as she let herself inside.I liked the way s
I was out to burn this prom to the ground, to burn out this sadness that dwelled in the pit of my chest and watch the smoke evaporate into the atmosphere, to solo dance till my legs gave out.I was a bit strong to carry that out.I was not here alone. Miss Beatrice was here with me and Morris; of course, we couldn't leave him behind.They just had to be there to take pictures with me and go back home, I was going to get back home on my own.“Rose Clifford!” Miss Beatrice's high-pitched voice bounced from the vinyl interior of the car straight to my eardrums“Yes, Miss Beatrice Clifford.” “Now I need you to listen to the fuck up.” She said the f-word inaudibly as she didn't want Morris to pick that up.“When you get in, please, I beg you, young lady, do not try to get drunk. Don't break any stuff because I'm not gonna pay shit.”Saying shit inaudibly.“Got that?”“Got that right ma'am.”Only if she had never tasted anything other than freshly squeezed fruit juices.Speaking of breakin