Avery
He was avoiding me.
Not ignoring me but definitely avoiding. He kissed my cheek anytime we were in the same room, which wasn’t very often. He was polite but he couldn’t hide the distance in his eyes when he looked at me.
He was gone. I could tell. Whatever he had seen in that room or thought he had seen had changed the way he felt. And it stung. It stung so much it was like a knife carving out my heart. But I couldn’t blame him.
Me having a crazy psychotic ex-husband hadn’t been what he had signed up for. As long as he was there for Parker that’s all that mattered.
Or at least that’s what I kept telling myself as the days passed.
It was worse somehow this awkward politeness between us than anything else I had been through. And then there are the club girls. Girls who I knew I shouldn’t be jealous of that hung off his every word and touched him every chance they got. I hadn’t seen him get freaky with anyone but I wasn’t stupid. I had grown up here so I knew how things worked. It wasn’t like he was sharing my bed. So it stood to reason he was sharing someones or maybe several someones.
Either way, my time at the clubhouse was over. It was time to move on. To get on with our lives and heal.
Me and Parker, the only boy I would ever need. We would count on each other. Just like we always had.
“Throw it in the back.” I grinned at my son from my place perched on the corner of the bed. My fingers clutching the bedspread. Why was it so hard to leave? It wasn’t even like this was a decent room. It wasn’t my room and yet I didn’t want to leave. Leaving the clubhouse would mean leaving Ruin. For good this time.
“He’s a good kid.”
“He is.” I smiled up at Truth but instead of grinning back down at me like he always did, his handsome face twisted into a frown. “I heard you were leaving.”
“Yeah.” I threw a pair of socks towards my open case. “It’s time.”
“You’re not going Cutters are you?” He didn’t wait for me to finish. “Have you told Ruin?”
“He’s been busy.” The bitterness in my voice was palpable. And it didn’t go unnoticed.
“So you are planning on leaving and not telling him… again?”
I ignored him, gathering up the case I had been hastily throwing clothes in I pushed passed him. Heading down the stairs and towards the front door.
There were people here I wanted to say goodbye too. People who had been kind to me and Parker and some that deserved to know where I was going because I had known them a long time.
“He would never be that busy Avery, not ever.” Truth came to a stop so suddenly that he almost walked straight into me.
I barely noticed. “Want to bet.” For a heartbeat, I closed my eyes against the sight of Ruin. His broad frame leaning close to one of the club girls as she whispered something in his ear.
“Avery.” Truths voice was small but Ruins head snapped around. His blue eyes meeting mine for just a second. “Let him explain…”
“No need,” I shrugged it off. It wasn’t like there was anything real between me and Ruin. We didn’t have a future. All we had was history. “He’s busy. It was nice meeting your Truth.” I couldn’t stand to be here any longer.
Not with Ruin in the same building.
The sooner I was on the road the better.
Time to move on and not look back.
There was just one more person I needed to say goodbye to first.
***
“Going somewhere?”
I came to a halt at the top step of my father's house. “Yeah.” Glancing behind me, I watched as my dad ushered Parker back into the house. Parker giving me a goofy thumbs up before disappearing back into the living room.
Traitors.
“Yeah.” Slowly I made my way down to him. A smile plastered to my face. The last thing I had expected was to find Ruin here, leaning against my car like he owned it.
“You didn’t think saying goodbye was a good idea before you moved back to your dads?”
My dad’s? Was that what he thought I was doing?
“Excuse me.” Reaching around him I tugged at the back door. I needed my charger and it was in my case on the back seat.
“No.”
“Damnit Ruin, move I….”
His hand, came down hard on my arm, as he caught sight of the cases on the back seat. All of my cases, not just the one I had at the clubhouse.
“You’re leaving aren’t you, properly leaving? And you weren’t even going to tell me?” Ruins grip increased but he didn’t pull me towards him. “What about Parker?”
Jesus, it hurt.
Not that he had asked about Parker first but because he hadn’t asked about us.
There was no us, I reminded myself. Just like there hadn’t been an us the first time around.
“You have my number Ruin, you know I would never stop you seeing….”
“And what about you? Do I get to see you as well? Or do I have to do another thirteen years knowing you are sharing your life with someone else and not me?” His voice broke, startled I glanced up at him. And his hand came to cup my cheek. “What?”
“You’re fucking killing me, Avery.”
“I didn’t think you …” I shook my head. “ I didn’t think you liked me after what had happened.”
“I don’t like you, Avery. I am in love with you. I have been I think since the moment I first laid eye on you. I just wanted to give you space, I didn’t want to rush you or push you into anything. And here you are again? Trying to ghost me.” His forehead bumped into mine, as he leant down. But I could still feel his eyes on me.
“You can’t even touch me Ruin.”
“Touch you? Is that why you think I haven’t crawled into your bed the last week? Fuck Avery. All I want to do is touch you. But I didn’t know if you were ready to be touched.”
It hit me then. Hit me like a sledgehammer. “You think I was raped?”
Pain flitted across his face. He didn’t need to answer.
“Dean never touched me Ruin.”
His head shot up with so much force I heard his neck crack. “He didn’t?”
“No, you… got there in time don’t worry.”
“So I’ve been keeping my hands to myself this whole time for nothing?”
I giggled I couldn’t help it. “Looks that way.”
“Hmmm.” He pursed his lips. His eyes darting towards the house. “Do you think your dad would watch Parker for a few hours?”
“I am not running off to have a quickie with you Ruin.” I slapped at his shoulder, a move I instantly regretted. My palm stung.
“Stop hurting yourself, Avery.” Softly he kissed the skin of my palm, his eyes never leaving mine. “I am not talking about a quickie Avery. I want to show you our home.”
“Our home?” I parroted back.
“Well it’s my home but you and Parker can live there until you are ready for me to move in.”
“Move in?” I sounded like an idiot.
“Yes Avery, move in.” He shook his head and this time when his head dropped his lips didn’t just hover over mine. My hand went up to tangle in his hair automatically.
“You want me to move in because I wasn’t raped?”
“No Avery I want you to move into my house because I have been in love with you for thirteen years. And I can’t imagine my life without you and Parker in it.”
His lips were unbelievably soft as they brushed against mine.
“Stay with me, Avery. Stay so we can be the family we should have been from the beginning. Stay with me and let me love you how you deserve to be loved..” his lips left mine as he stepped away. “Be mine?”
“Because I am your baby momma?”
Exasperated he groaned. “No, because I fucking love you and want you to be my wife.”
I took a stumbling step back, my hand to my throat. “Your what?”
“Wife Avery, I want you to be my wife one day. The sooner the better. We have wasted so much time already. But I get that you might want some time. So, for now, I will be happy if you will move into my house and be my old lady. I want the world to know you belong to me.”
I couldn’t breathe, couldn’t speak. Tears made my vision blurry. “Baby don’t cry, I’m sorry ok? I didn’t mean to rush you just don’t cry.” The pad of his thumb swiped across my cheek, capturing the tears that were falling freely.
How could I explain to him that they were happy tears when I couldn’t even speak.
“Ok.” It came out croaky, clearing my throat I tried again. “Ok.”
“Ok?” Ruins eyes grew wide as they searched my face. The start of a smile curving up the corners of his kissable lips. “To what part?”
Reaching up I pressed my lips to his. “All of it.”
Truth Tattoos.It was time for another one. It had been time for another one for weeks. My body was covered in them, bright, colourful ones that women loved.My own personal story of violence and death.Sure they were beautiful but wasn’t death beautiful? In its own macabre way?Who was I kidding? Death wasn’t beautiful. I only told myself that so I could sleep at night. I had been telling myself that every day since I had first squeezed a trigger and ended someone’s life. Snuffed them out like a candle flame. That had been during conflict. A war where I wasn’t even sure who my enemy really was.Now I knew who they were. It was a different type of war now, sure, but it was still a battle. Of sorts anyway.Pushing open the heavy door, I scanned the large shop front. My eyes squinting. Usually, this place was a hubbub of activity. The sound of the tattoo gun filling the air with its whirl, but today it was quiet. No one sat in the chair by the window. And there was no sign of the man
Colton/ RuinMaybe I said it too loud, maybe I even meant to, but the moment the words were out of my mouth and into the smoke-filled air, I regretted them.Every single pair of eyes turned towards me, but truthfully I only cared about one. The wide brown ones that were looking at me in horror. She recognised me just like I had recognised her. I had seen it in her face even when she tried to hide it. And those brown eyes? How could I forget them? They were the same eyes that I had kissed tears from only last month as I took her virginity. And just looking at them now, I knew she had heard what I said, and I had lost her. Of course, I hadn’t known who she was then… She had just been a summer distraction, or at least she had meant to be. Until suddenly, she wasn’t. Not that I had admitted that to anyone. I had a reputation to uphold. It had hurt when the fresh-faced Ava had ghosted me. One second she was there asleep in my bed, her warm body wrapped around mine and then she was gone.
Avery- NowSometimes in life, you just don't have a choice.I didn't have a choice the day I was forced to leave this God-forsaken town. And I didn't have any choice but to come back to it now.Of course, that wasn't quite true. The choices I had made in the past had set into motion an avalanche of shit that had shaped my entire life for the last thirteen years.One wild summerA little teenage rebellion.Which was meant to be nothing but a giant screw you to my father for trying to sell me off like a broodmare so he could keep a position in the club.One mistake.Had set me on a path I couldn't get off of. But the truth was I had never expected to ever come back here. I had put this town and its people behind me. This was where Avery Waters had grown up. And I wasn't her any more. I hadn't been for a long time. I was Ava now. Ava George. ” I am Ava George.” I mumbled to myself as my car idles at the red light that seemed to be taking forever to change. ” I am fucking Ava George.
Ruin “You like what you're looking at son?” My voice was low, non-threatening but the boy jumped like I had screamed at him. Taking a step back, he dropped his hands to his side, casting his eyes in my direction to check my reaction before he nodded. “Yes sir.” I grinned, the lad had some manners on himAnd was obviously not from around here. Any of the local kids would have known better than to even step up to my bike.“I didn’t touch it or anything.” He mumbled, his cheeks flushing. “I promise.”I grinned, leaning back against the wall. “That’s good you should never touch another man’s bike.”He nodded thoughtfully and for the first time since I had opened my mouth, he fully looked at me. “Whoa…” he mumbled and took another step backwards as I grinned at him. I knew what he saw. All six foot three of me, the beard, the tattoos. The leather cut I wore proudly across my chest. This was a good kid, no doubt from an affluent family. It was obvious I was the first biker he had ever com
AveryOne look, that’s all it took. A single passing glance and I knew it was him. Even if I hadn’t recognised his piercing blue eyes, the rolling in my stomach would have told me it was him. And it has put me on edge ever since. I was literally teetering on the brink. What the hell was he doing here? This wasn’t his home, he didn’t belong. And yet he had pushed his way out of Cooks like he owned the place. The cut on his back looked more weathered now. The last time I had seen him he had only just been patched in. He had been all shiny and new. Now? Now he looked hardened.And dangerous.And still so sexy it made my knees weak just looking at him. The same as it had the day I had met him, the same as it had the day he had thrown me under the bus and ruined my life. I had thought I would be safe coming home, after all, what were the chances of running into him on my very first day?Him seeing me was an added complication I just didn’t need. In a town this small it was going to be
RuinOk, so she hadn’t said it out loud, not directly but she didn’t have to. Her son, Parker. He was mine.And she had kept him from me. She hadn’t even fucking told me. That was unforgivable. But I knew I wasn’t exactly blameless in it all. She had lost everything, and that had been because of me. She must have felt so fucking alone, on the streets and pregnant, with no one to turn to and yet somehow she had managed to drag herself out of that hell.My son seemed a well rounded young man. He had more manners than I did that was for sure. She had done a good job. And she had done it alone.But there was one thing she had said before she had stomped off to sit in her car. She had said he had a father. I wasn’t stupid I had seen the tan lines on her finger. She was married or had been married until recently. Someone else had played dad to my kid. Someone else had laid next to her naked body. For some reason that made my teeth clench. But whoever the mystery man was I had something
Avery -ThenOne last summer, that’s all I had. One last summer of freedom before I had to go back home. My father had officially called me back into the fold. It didn’t matter to him that I would have to give up school, but then again nothing really mattered to him unless it was related to The Black Aces. The dodgy as hell motorcycle club he was president of. A club he seemed to think I was the property of.One year of freedom, that’s all I had been given and that year was now rapidly coming to an end. I would have to say goodbye to my friends, to my classes. Even to my kind of boyfriend. Not that I could ever tell my dad that I had a boyfriend. He was stupidly old fashioned for a man who had cheated on my mum for years with any club girl he could get his sweaty hands on. But that was just the way it had always been. The men could do whatever and whoever they wanted and the women? Well, the women, especially daughters were held on some kind of shiny pedestal. They weren’t to be touche
AveryHome.With every passing second, I spent in my father's house it was feeling more and more like home. Which was strange because it had never felt like home when I had been growing up here. Not after my mum had died anyway. But now? After a solid week of cleaning up a decade of filth from a man who should be old enough to look after himself, it was starting to look and feel like a home. And there had been a change in my father as well. He ate more and drank less and honestly seemed like he enjoyed having us in the house. More Parker than me but I could live with that. I wanted my son to know my family. I had expected some repercussions when I had left the clubhouse bbq but so far there hadn’t been any.There wasn’t any sign of Ruin either. Which was surprising. But it gave me a chance to catch my breath and gather my thoughts. He should never have taken the phone from me. I had had it totally under control. I knew how to handle Dean. Hell, I had been putting up with his mood sw