When I'm on my way home after cleaning a house at the upper east side, I see a black seems-to-be-too-expensive-to-be-here car parked at the street next to my apartment building. I know instantly it's him. So I walk to the car and stand next to the door, about to knock on the window when it rolls down as if he knows I'm out here. "Open the door for Miss Tanner, Charles." He commands his driver that immediately goes out of the car and jogs towards me. "I'm tired, nuh-uh, I'm not going anywhere." I shake my head as I move my index finger left and right signalling a no. "I'm not gonna fuck you on that death bed." He mutters annoyedly through the window. Charles is standing next to me since I'm still talking to the boss, blocking the door he wanted to open. "Too bad then, go fuck yourself in your castle, Knight. Toodles." I straighten my body then turn to Charles who looks like he's trying hard to hide his smile, "Good night, Charles." "Good night, Miss Evie," he replies politely as
He's been coming here almost every night. I would see his car parked in front of my apartment building and when I reach my place at the third floor, he's already there next to the door, waiting for me. We don't talk much these days, it's purely business by going straight to fucking. Unless there are times when I couldn't take how disgusting I felt with the sweat from cleaning houses and offices that I'd shower first. I know, why should I bother. I was gonna get 'dirty' anyway. Believe me, I'm disappointed with myself too. For wanting to get the best experience when we do it. As if I wanted to do it, not being forced to do it. Screwing my toxic ex-husband? Pathethic. Screwing somebody's fiancee? Whore. Using his penis for MY orgasms? Double whore.Humping myself shamelessly on him until he cums? I certainly can't be helped anymore. That's it, I'm a lost cause. But when I see my calendar, counting days till the day we will finally talk about me seeing the twins, it's all worth it
That was a sloppy mistake. Which I'm determined not to repeat in the future because one, I shouldn't go against my own words. I shouldn't fuck her. I shouldn't initiate it. I shouldn't move it. I shouldn't, why the hell did I do all those things. Two, I can't catch feelings. And those things, the little gestures I did, kissing her hair, stealing a kiss, touching her body, all while she's asleep, no. I can't have any other feelings towards her aside from hatred. Or lust. No, just no."Aug." Sydney's voice makes me snap out of it. I turn to look at my fiancee who's standing in front of me in her silk robe. After the morning sex, Eve rushed to get ready for work as I put on my suit from last night and headed home instantly. Sydney did text me about sleeping over at my place this week, which is the main reason I'm not keen at going home last night. I feel like I'm cheating on Eve if I come home to sleep with Sydney on the same bed after having sex with her. "Where did you sleep last
[ I'll tell someone if you're not here before midnight! ]I sigh reading her last text before she goes quiet. It has been four hours and I've been calling her over and over but she refuses to pick up. But I can't leave the party, Maddy would freak out if I do that and most importantly, it will break my kids' heart if I leave them for the fact I promised I'd stay till the end. So after sending them home and tuck them in bed, I ask Charles to drive me to her place. It's almost midnight so I'm still on the clock. I will destroy her if she fucking tells anyone about us. "I'm here." I knock on that thin plywood when my key couldn't unlock the door. She must have locked it from inside. Yes, I've got my own set of keys now. Her eyes widen the moment she opens the door, "Oh wow, I called for Mr Knight. But I got a Superman instead?" Ha-ha. Funny. I ignore her comment then get myself in there, before her neighbours start to appear and harass me again. There were a couple of times when I
I don't know what else to do. I'm too far gone if I want to quit, but I seriously don't know what can I do next to persuade him into letting me see our kids. It's been six months, and according to the news, the wedding that is supposed to be held next month has been pushed back which I can't help but to wonder if it has anything to do with me fucking the groom. What's worse is I don't just wreck their relationship, it's as if I'm this thick skinned whore who doesn't have a heart, who doesn't have the slightest guilt for what she has done these past six months when I shamelessly follow her Faceb0ok account. In my defence, I have been following her since before I fucked Augustine because sometimes she posts about my children; that's the only place I get to see my babies. Their face was not revealed but I know they are Mason and Mimi. I want to see them, even if I have to occasionally see Augustine in some of the pictures. I have to say I'm relieved to see him at recent posts, which
"Don't go to work today." He tightens his grip around my middle when the alarm woke me up. I push his hand off me but he's not letting me go, instead he asserts another order, "Stay home today." "I will if you tell me the supermarket is yours." This cashier needs to make ends meet. He sighs which makes me push his hand again, and this time I managed to free my body to reach out for my phone and hit snooze. I don't remember what time did we finally sleep last night because we continued fucking from the couch in the living room to the wall of our bedroom and finally, on the bed itself. Instead of sleeping in and hit snooze countless times, being lazy and all about going to work, today I actually look forward to leaving this place at the first snooze. I need to get away from him. "Why are you so stubborn," he pulls me to the bed again and this time hovering over me as his way to forbid me from leaving. "I don't want to see you." I blurt out the truth. Because I'm done lying. We
I think I'm falling for her, again. I removed the tattoo right after the divorce and I've never regretted it. But since the past few weeks, that's all I've been thinking, that I want to put her name back on my arm. Because her name is currently tattooed to my heart. We've been fucking like a couple for three Saturdays now, and I love every second of it. Mimi and Mason signed up for a summer camp hence my long hours at her place this month, but the thought that yesterday would be the last Saturday for us to be together since the kids are home today, it made me feel sad. I don't want it to ever end. But I also want my kids to be with me. There is one answer glaring at me; to have her and the kids at the same place every single day. Marry her again and have that happy family I've always envisioned. But what if she leave us like she did in the past? I don't think I can ever relive that moment, and I promised myself I'll never sabotage myself again. I'll never let her ruin me the way
I can't believe after ten months, he finally lets me see the twins. This is like the happiest day ever! It's been five years, and I must say I've been nervous since the night he agreed to let me meet them. I even have these two big presents with me knowing their birthday will be in two weeks; I bring them in advance since I have no idea when can I see my babies next. "You're my Mummy?" Mimi asks again after Augustine introduced us just now. I came here half an hour early to prepare myself for this meeting and when Augustine finally appears with the twins, my heart blooms seeing how beautiful they've grown into. And how big they've gotten. "Yes, I'm your Mummy." I smile at her. I want to touch them, hug them, so freaking bad but I don't want to scare them so I think it's best if we start slow- by talking. "So... you've finished your school?" Hm? I'm not really sure what does she meant by that since I've finished school four years ago but I answer her anyway, "Yes I have." "You'r