"Jackson's coming tonight?" I ask Carrie while we're doing our homework together at her room. She stops writing as she looks at me, grinning. "What time is he coming?" I ask, a little bit disappointed to know I can't stay here tonight since her boyfriend is coming over. Ever since I move back to my house, or Dani's house as of two weeks ago, I've been miserable. Dani used to rent a small studio with her husband but ever since the twins came, she had been wanting to find a bigger place. Their salaries aren't that big, along with two expensive babies, so they had to suck it up until I told her about my wedding. She volunteered herself to take care of our house since I'm moving in with my uhh, then-husband, so within that one week when I was at Greece, she had moved everything back into the house. She occupies Emily's room since it's the biggest, puts the cribs in Serena's room, while stocks some stuff in her old room as if it's a storage room. Thank God she hasn't touched my room,
‘You never plan to tell me, do you?’I honestly don't know what to say to that. I've always wanted to be honest with him, but at the same time I want to keep what we have. Uhh, had. I was so scared you'd distance yourself from me, and when you tell me you want four years of my life just like how I took yours, I was ready to give it, even if you want my whole life. But to divorce me after four years? After three children?I thought I married the most sensible man I've ever met, but you definitely proved me wrong. ‘You're only 18, what the hell are you doing Evie?! Getting married to my boss? My BOSS? Are you mad?! He's twice your age! You have a whole future in front of you, why would you marry him and be his sugar baby? Is that what it is? Money? I taught you better than this, Evie! Find your own money, like all your sisters do! Not open your legs to a billionaire who's twice your age!’The voicemail Serena left on my wedding day shattered my heart. But I kept going with my honeymoo
I've been taking birth control pills since I was 14, to ease down my horrible period cramp; Emily took me to the gynae and she prescribed those for me, up until now. Even when I'm not having sex, I still diligently take those pills every single day. So why? After 4 years, why is my birth control not working? "Are you sure?" Lydia takes my hand, "Are you sure, Evie?" "Since when?" I brainstorm at Carrie's enquiry. Shit, I don't know. I don't remember when did I last had my period. "It's okay, it's okay Evie. Let's take a test." Carrie gets up, "I'll go buy one then we'll know for sure. Okay?" I nod. I don't know what to say but my mind runs wild of how bad this is going to be if I really am pregnant. I might hate kids but I can never bring myself to abort one, and this is mine and Augustine's. The product of our love. But I can't be an assistant and go to night school with a baby. I don't even like babies for God's sake, so to take care of one? No. Not happening. I'm still a kid
After six weeks of not hearing anything from her, I wonder if things didn't work as planned. Did the pills not working? Did I calculate the date wrong? Is it my sperms? Are they abnormal? Weak? Slow? That they can't reach her egg to create our baby? What's happening? "Mr Knight," Parker's voice along with a knock on the door interrupts my thoughts. I look up to find the big guy is standing next to the door."Miss Eve is downstairs. She requested to see you. Should I bring her up?" Nobody knows about our break up, so Parker must have thought she's visiting as a loving wife. "Okay." I give a green light as I stand up to walk towards the restroom. I've been miserable the entire month she was gone and I don’t even care about what I look like despite comments from people that I seems to be the opposite of what newlyweds should be. But now, I need to look my best. She can't know I'm miserable without her. When I return from the restroom, Parker stops me just before I enter my room,
I can't wait to go home, to see if she'd be the sweet woman I've been loving all these while, or the cunning fox who showed her true colors in my office. But when the clock strikes 6, instead of going home I stay a little bit longer. I don't want her to think I'm eager to go home. I want her to know that I couldn't care less about her, be it she's away from me or residing in my penthouse. Though I did send a few bodyguards to help her move her stuff. Which I think she barely need to bring anything since all her belongings are exactly where they were when she left. I finally get out of my office around 9, and when I reach home I can smell the tempting brownies. Her infamous brownies. "Hubbyyy you're homeee!" Her cheerful voice greets me as she runs towards me with the smile that looks like a genuine smile, unlike the fake one she had in my office earlier. "I miss you," she hooks her hands on my neck then tiptoes to kiss me but I refuse to lean in so she settles by kissing my neck
Every choice has its own consequences; that's life. I have the options, and I've made my decision, so whatever negative feelings I have right now should be waived aside because I made my bed; I decided to go to Augustine so now let's lie on the bed I made. Or in this case, get up every morning at 6am to catch the early train to Rosewood for school. It's rush hour so I have to be at the subway station before 7, or risk getting late to school. It's 10 minutes ride to the central, then I have to change to another line to get to Rosewood. Add another 10 minutes plus all the walking from one line to another, wait in the super long line, aaaaand finally we're here. But it's not over yet, I have to walk from the subway station to my school for another 5 minutes and then, finallyyyyy, like finally around 8 or a little bit after 8 I'll reach my school. Shit it's only been four days staying at the penthouse but I'm dead tired from the commute. More than one hour in the morning, and around
30 minutes later with everyone working at full speed; Nick painting my face, Helen doing my hair, Jacq picking a dress, accessories and stuff for me as Fred running around getting what Jacq wants. By the time they are done with me, Augustine is already waiting downstairs at the lobby when Jacq helps me with my dress to his limo. "Where are we going?" I ask him once I have comfortably sit in front of him. He's so handsome in his fitted tux, I almost want to throw our favorite ‘you're breath-taking’ comment at him.I do have my expectation on the lower side so when he doesn't answer me and keeps tapping on his phone, I don't mind much about it and look out through the window. It was already 9.35pm when I left the house, I wonder what time this event we're going to attend actually start? Are we late? Is that why he is so annoyed with me? I want to eye him again when the car stops at the red traffic light but I'm caught red handed; he's also looking at me. I immediately flash a smile
The moment we enter the limo, he's back to being the distant, icy Augustine Knight. He reads his emails on the phone pretending I'm not even next to him.I give up and keep quiet after spending 5 minutes trying to rope him into a conversation, or rather, know where my place is the moment he turns his face to the other side when I try to kiss him. It's okay Evie. At least he's providing you a shelter. And food. Be grateful, it's only gonna be four years. Four looooong years. Thank God for the simplicity of this black dress because I managed to move around with ease. Jacq decided to go heavy with the accessories hence this simple off shoulder, high slit dress. "Yesssss ribsssss!" I run to the fridge once we're inside the house. I'm so hungry because I only ate those teeny tiny finger food at the party so I'm gonna gobble everything in one sitting. That's when I hear a faint cough as I quickly turn to look at him. He eyes me with a judgemental look, making me uncomfortable so I grin