Chapter 45

Next day except Manik everyone performed last rituals for Karan so that his soul will rest in peace. It was very hard for everyone to perform rites without anyone from his family when in real he still have his father and brother. But practically it doesn't matter, after the soul leaves body everything becomes meaningless. So person should try everything possible when doing something will give meaning to the deeds. 

That day at night Manik got panic attack but he didn't tell anyone about it and after that he never slept, he controlled his emotions pretty well. Not for once he cried or let any emotion make him feel miserable or lonely or guilty. He can't afford to feel anything or else he will die with the exploitation of self loathing. 

But he skillfully blocked Nandi