ALVIRA’S POVI cried. I cried for myself. I cried because of my situation. I cried for my past. And I cried for my life at that moment. Why couldn’t I just get some peace and clarity in my life, you know? “It’s alright.” Clarissa cooed. After a few minutes of crying and Clarissa trying her best to console me, I sat up, detangling myself from her. I looked down at my hands that were fiddling with themselves on my laps. “Talk to me, what happened?” She asked once again. I took a deep breath and looked up at her. “We were supposed to go somewhere serene and just have some food and drinks and come back home, you know? We went over to one of his restaurants downtown and went up to the last floor just so we could be alone and just have our dinner. We were enjoying ourselves and just enjoying each other’s company on the drive there, but as soon as we got to the restaurant and on the elevator, it was like he had changed from the kind, loving and carefree person to the cold hearted, dista
ALVIRA’S POVIt has been two weeks since that very disastrous date and Carter is yet to call or text or even show up at my door. I have to admit, a part of me missed him and was in despair that he had not initiated a call or even made any effort to reach out to me. I could not count how many times I had run to my phone once I got a notification hoping and wishing it was him but only getting disappointed that it was just something else and not him. Clarissa had made me promise that I would not be the one who initiated contact and all I can say is that it has been hell trying my hardest to keep to that promise. But I understood where she was coming from. I needed to make sure that he knew that I could live life without him and I could see how that was aimed at making me more confident but with every day that passed without a call or text from Carter, I felt my heart break down a little more. It hurt to realize that I was so dispensable that he could go days without talking to me or
ALVIRA’S POV“ALVIRAAA!!” I jumped up out of the bed and ran out of my room and into the living room, a bath in hand as I looked around for any possible threats but there was apparently no one in sight. I looked around just to be sure, my guard way up as I skimmed everywhere for any possible threats. Seeing none, I looked over at Clarissa whose eyes were glued to her laptop, a glass of tea next to it. I walked up to her, my eyes squinting to adjust to the light from the screen. I still found it hard to adjust to the brightness of her screen. It was always on the highest level. It was a surprise she was not blind at this point. “‘Rissa, what is the matter? Why are you screaming my name this early in the morning? The sun is not even out.” I groaned, rubbing my eyes to shake the sleep from them. That did not work though. “Oh! Come on. Don’t be so dramatic.” She said, waving her hands to dismiss me. I scoffed. I was being dramatic? I was not the one who was screaming the house down f
CARTER’S POVPunch.The sound ricocheted throughout the gym room.I needed to stop thinking of her. Fuck! Now I was thinking of her, again.Punch. This one was much louder, harder.Why the hell could I not stop thinking of her?Why was she all up in my head like a children's rhyme, stuck in my brain? She was like an imprint in my head and tried as hard as I could, I still could not completely get her out of my head. She was all that I could think of. Only thoughts of her woke me up daily. They were with me even as I went about my day. Those same thoughts of her lulled me to sleep after every exhausting day. And it should not be so because she was supposed to be my pawn in the game between my father and I. She was supposed to become my victim, one that I would use and break beyond any form of redemption.And here I was now in my private gym on the underground floor of my apartment. I have been trying my best to get her out of my mind to no avail. I had tried different means, be
CARTER’S POVTwo whole hours later and yet it was still safe to say that I was yet to still not get any tangible work done.It is still safe once again to say that I could not also get any form of sleep despite how much I tried.I was stuck on Alvira with the whole of my mind, body and soulSo it was no doubt surprising when I was there three hours later still angrily tossing and turning and unable to find any bit of sleep. How was I supposed to focus on anything when I could barely do no quite right without my mind drifting back to her. I sat up and went to bed and reached for my mobile phone. I meant to use it to distract myself, but I ended up fiddling with the electronic device. And for a while I questioned myself on whether I should call her or text her, leaving a short message. I wondered also if I should just ignore her and continue to keep up my act.In all honesty, the past eight days have been torture while I was going through the motions of going to work and back and num
CARTER’S POVEverything felt unreal.That was because for the third time and hopefully the last time, ladies and gentlemen, it is safe to say that for the first time in a long time that I, the mighty Carter Blane, had two sexy women stark naked in front of me with little to no response from me. There was no familiar rush of blood to my member, no familiar rush of want and desire, no familiar need to have my cock in them, pumping and thrusting till I would come deep inside of them, my thick cum filling their hungry pussy to the brim.And, I felt a tad bit embarrassed about the fact that my member was unable to function in their presence. Okay, maybe it was a lot of embarrassment. I still can't believe that no other woman was capable of making me feel so much and also feel so little at the same time. However, because I am Carter Blane and because I never let myself get embarrassed, I decided to make do with exactly what I had. But that was a story for another day. Right now, I was do
ALVIRA’S POVWell, recently, my previously boring life has been going rather smoothly, or as smoothly as it could go. It had received more spice since Carter came into it. So far, Clarissa and I have found many other ways to cheer me up and get me to stop thinking of the name that will not be mentioned. It has been ten days since Carter and I had had our last disastrous meeting that had left me so sad that I would still wake in the night thinking of that monstrous thing and later cry myself to sleep every night. What did I ever do to have to go through all these with him? Was all this just a game to him? Did he ever mean the words he said to me? Why did he have to make me question everything I ever believed in? How could he do this and subject me to such emotional turmoil?I sat on my makeshift desk and looked into the screen of my laptop. We were having another class and I was struggling to try to make sense of why Carter just had to make me feel so less of a human being. He
ALVIRA’S POV“Hello, my sweet. Did you miss me?” His clear baritone cut through the tension in the air.“C- Carter?” I asked in disbelief. I was sure that my eyes were wide with shock. I had not been expecting to see him, especially not when Clarissa and I were just talking about him.“Were you expecting someone else hmm?” He asked me as he filled the entire door frame, leaning in closer to me and resting an arm on the door frame in a way that allowed him to look down at me. I was dumbfounded. I was confused. How was he here? What was he doing here? Why was he here? Where had he been all this while? I must have been standing there for a while obviously staring at him because I suddenly heard Clarissa’s voice coming from behind me. “Babe, who is that at the door? Is that the delivery package that I-“ her voice died down as she looked over, her eyes meeting with Carter's dark pair. He in turn was just there looking as smug as ever as he was casually leaning on the door frame. He was
ALVIRA’S POVIt has been a week since Carter’s visit and things have been looking up. Carter had kept his promise of making sure that he proves to me that he had changed and was worthy of a second chance with me. I woke up to a fresh bouquet of different kinds of flowers and a box of a different brand of chocolate every morning. Each of them had a handwritten note that made me swoon daily. Of course, I still felt a sliver of pain whenever I saw them. I knew they were sweet and that he was trying to make up for lost time but try as much as I could, I could not get past the pain I had felt. It was like his reentry opened the wounds that I had so desperately tried to close. Like ripping off a band aid and opening an injury that was already healing. The pain stung. However, I was determined to move past the pain and give myself a chance to heal and move on. Carter had also gone back to his old ways of texting whenever he had the chance. Sometimes, he would go further and send a pict
ALVIRA’S POV“Took you guys long enough” Clarissa called out as soon as I closed the door behind me. I jumped. “Jesus Christ, ‘Rissa! You scared the living daylight out of me.” I squealed in horror.“It is past eight, Alvira. There is no living daylight here.” she said, sarcasm dripping out of her voice. “Come on, ‘Rissa. Please. We do not have to go through this again. I just really need you to be here for me. Please.” I said, walking over to the couch and plopping down on it next to her. She looked away, her gaze focused on the television screen ahead of us. I held her hands in mine as tugged a bit, finally getting her to turn and look at me. She sighed. “Look, you know that I will always be there for you. No matter what happens. And you also know that no matter how hard the truth is, I will always say it and damn the consequences because that is the right thing to do at all times.” She said, “I know. The thing is, I really like Carter. I mean, you of all people know how much h
ALVIRA’S POVWe walked back to the house, the moon now on full display in its crescent glory. The streetlights were switched on as we walked past the different paths that we had hiked on in time past. We walked in a comfortable silence, as opposed to the tension that hovered over us when we had first left the house. We had not completely or even remotely talked about what our future would hold but for now, we were making progress and that was all that mattered. Soon, we had gone past the park and down the lane to my apartment, the path buzzing to life with couples who were taking their evening stroll as well as students who were coming back from classes. We got to my door and I turned to find Carter already leaning down so that his face was mere inches from mine. I took a quick inhale of breath as my eyes widened. “I am sorry. I just really needed to get a taste of your lips before I went back home.” He said. “Oh! Okay. That is okay.” I said. In less than a second, I felt his li
ALVIRA’S POVI looked up at him, his eyes sad and hopeful. I wanted to lunge at him and hold him so close and tell him yes. That I have forgiven him ever since I opened the door to him. I was going to forgive him a million and one times over and over if it meant that I would have him by my side for the rest of my life. However, I could not help but worry about what Clarissa would think of me if I so readily gave in and let him back in. The look of disappointment on her face alone was enough to have me rethinking my decision. Yes, he had hurt me so badly with his actions and I could not just let it go. As much as I was willing and ready to forgive him and let him back into my life, I knew that I was going to need time to truly forgive him and let go of the pain that he had caused me. For a good three long minutes, we sat in silence, my mind in an emotional turmoil as I struggled between my head and my heart while his eyes glistened with hope as he stared down at me.“Well?” He aske
ALVIRA’S POVWe walked around a bit before we found a bench that overlooked the horizon. It was perfect with the perfect angle for us to watch the sunset. It was beautiful. I could see myself coming here often just to watch the sunset and most definitely have a cup of ice cream while at it. I made a mental note to bring Clarissa here once in a while. We sat and watched the sun slowly set as we licked our ice cream. Suddenly, the awkwardness that we felt during the elevator ride was back and for a while we just kept silent, each of us lost in our thoughts as the sounds in the background faded. It was there but it felt like we were each in another world of our own. Or so I thought. Soon, I was tired of silence, I could no longer sit still like everything was okay. “What are you doing here?” I asked, making him turn to look at me, surprisingly surprised that I was the one who broke the silence. Or maybe it was because of the question, I could not say. “What do you mean?” He asked. “
ALVIRA’S POV“Don’t keep me waiting, sweets…..” God! He is so dreamy.I quickly spun on my feet, rather clumsily, and walked back to the living room where Clarissa sat, her face set in a very pissed off look. I gulped slowly as I approached her. I knew she was not going to approve of my decision to take a walk with Carter and hear him out. “Hey, so um, Carter and I are going to take a walk.” I said in a smile. However, Clarissa refused to say anything, prefering to stare at the tv, mindlessly scrolling through the channels. I felt the sting of her silence as a know formed in my throat. I walked closer to her again and decided to try again. “‘Rissa? C-Carter wants us to t- talk about what happened so, um, we, um, we will be going for a small walk. W- will you be okay to wait for me for a while before I get back? Please?”Once again, silence. “Come on, ‘Rissa, please say something.” I said, pleading with her. I could not risk her being angry with me. I just want to hear what he has
CARTER’S POVShe is so beautiful today. Same as she was yesterday and the day before that and before that and all the way since the very first day I set my eyes on her. I could see the confusion in her eyes. Hell, I was confused as well.My mind drifted back to the night before. I had been at the office for a couple hours after the close of work going through the countless paperwork that had needed my attention and signature. And just as my unfortunate luck would have it, the last person I wanted to see walked into the office. “Hello, Carter.” His voice sounded like a teacher’s nails grating the school chalkboard. It was truly aggravating. “I am busy, Father.” I replied, not even bothering to look up to acknowledge him. “Oh! I can see that. However, I will only be just a minute. Won’t take up much of your time.” He said, walking off, as usual to the minibar across the room, and helping himself to what I could swear was bourbon. Of course he would go for the most expensive bottle t
ALVIRA’S POV“Hello, my sweet. Did you miss me?” His clear baritone cut through the tension in the air.“C- Carter?” I asked in disbelief. I was sure that my eyes were wide with shock. I had not been expecting to see him, especially not when Clarissa and I were just talking about him.“Were you expecting someone else hmm?” He asked me as he filled the entire door frame, leaning in closer to me and resting an arm on the door frame in a way that allowed him to look down at me. I was dumbfounded. I was confused. How was he here? What was he doing here? Why was he here? Where had he been all this while? I must have been standing there for a while obviously staring at him because I suddenly heard Clarissa’s voice coming from behind me. “Babe, who is that at the door? Is that the delivery package that I-“ her voice died down as she looked over, her eyes meeting with Carter's dark pair. He in turn was just there looking as smug as ever as he was casually leaning on the door frame. He was
ALVIRA’S POVWell, recently, my previously boring life has been going rather smoothly, or as smoothly as it could go. It had received more spice since Carter came into it. So far, Clarissa and I have found many other ways to cheer me up and get me to stop thinking of the name that will not be mentioned. It has been ten days since Carter and I had had our last disastrous meeting that had left me so sad that I would still wake in the night thinking of that monstrous thing and later cry myself to sleep every night. What did I ever do to have to go through all these with him? Was all this just a game to him? Did he ever mean the words he said to me? Why did he have to make me question everything I ever believed in? How could he do this and subject me to such emotional turmoil?I sat on my makeshift desk and looked into the screen of my laptop. We were having another class and I was struggling to try to make sense of why Carter just had to make me feel so less of a human being. He