ALVIRA’S POV
I shivered as the evenings cool breeze chilled my bare arms. I was going to work in a night club, for the first time in my life. This was would even be my first time of being in a nightclub, but I really needed the money, my friend – the only person I had in the world, Clarissa, was sick, and I needed money for her treatment. She had fought me over going to work at a night club, not minding that she was the one that was sick, and she was the one that needed the money. According to her, the nightclub was no place for an innocent girl like me. But, heaven knows I had no other choice other than being a stripper. However, age had helped me dress. Helping me strap my red lacy push up bra that made my boobs jut out in a way that really embarrassed me, making me blush. I was wearing a very short skirt, and fishnet garters that even made me feel more exposed, yet Clarissa had taken one look at me, and said I still looked ‘too innocent’ My work at the club, as the manager explained, was just to stand around, and convince the men to buy more drinks. I could already feel my emotions close to skyrocketing, and yet another hand slapped my butt, squeezing it, and muttering something in passing. Experiencing this finally made me lost my grip over my emotions as tears flowed freely down my cheek, soaking my lashes, and causing a ruin on my makeup. I felt alone, exposed and vulnerable at point. As I bit down hard on my lower lip, feeling a tremble all over my body from the cold. Realizing I was indeed very foolish to think I could handle this job. I mean I could I could face anything despite my traumatic experience in life but I guess this isn’t for me. "And why are you crying my lovely?” I felt a masculine, and yet gentle hand lift my chin, even as the scent of his powerful cologne hypnotized me. I lifted up my eyes, only to find myself looking into the most formidable jet black eyes I had ever seen before. Unable to keep looking, I looked away from his eyes, only to find myself looking at the rest of him. I sucked in a breath as my pulse started racing, and this time, when I trembled, it was not because of the cold. It was because of the magnetic power of this man. Gosh! He was the most handsome man I had ever seen, but there was a power he exuded that went beyond looks. He looked like everything in the club belonged to him – including me. I suppose but damn him though, he doesn’t own me, no one does. But my heart thudded against my chest at that realization. The man smiled, a little upward curve of his lips, but it transformed his face from dangerously ruthless, to ruthlessly sexy. I felt myself suck in another breath, and then, he drew me to himself – forcefully, so that my soft pliant body collided against his rock hard body, and then, I couldn’t think again, as his lips crushed against mine. I only had a few seconds to panic about this being the first time a man kissed me, when he started his experienced onslaught on my lips. I whimpered and unconsciously drew nearer to him as he devoured my mouth with a ruthlessness that bordered on cruelty. His teeth nibbled at my bottom lip, and when a whimper that ended in a moan escaped my tortured lips, he pulled my head even closer, and slipped his tongue into my mouth. As much as this made me feel somewhat, it felt so damn good. I whimpered again, from the acute pleasure his kisses brought, so intense, I was sure it was pain, and I felt my body melt completely against his. He yanked my head away from his then, pulling my hair, not gently, and making me whimper again in pain. The man angled my head, so that once again, I was looking into his powerful, unusual black eyes. For some unknown reason, I felt tears well up in my eyes again and spill over, but this man seemed to be enjoying my tears. His lips curved up in another smile that made him look even more dangerous. My heart skipped several beats – what had I gotten myself into!” "My my. What do we have here! This is a real beauty Carter. Where have you been hiding her.” Carter. His name was Carter. My mind registered the name, even as my heart skipped several beats. I knew his name would forever live in my head, just as I knew my lips would forever remember his kisses. Without realizing what I was doing, I lifted my hand and brushed the knuckles against my bottom lip as I turned my gaze to find out who had spoken. My lips felt raw, tender, and slightly bruised from ruthless kisses. The man who had spoken looked equally rich and powerful. He was dressed in expensive clothes, but he could not take my mind off Carter. I felt my heartbeat quicken in fear – why was my body reacting this way to someone I did not know. "I would like to see this one take it all off – how much do you guys even charge for a strip tease?” The man asked, and real fear slammed against my heart. I was not going to give any strip tease, or lap dance – not going to have sex with any body. I felt another tear slip from my left eye. I couldn’t do this. I was a virgin, had never even had a boyfriend, until today, I had never been kissed. Why were these men taking such am interest in me, instead of in the more experienced girls. "Why is she crying?” The man asked Carter. Carter shrugged. He was watching me intently as he replied. “Why don’t you ask her Larry.” "Well you own the place…” Larry shrugged, then suddenly, he drew me to himself, and crushed his lips to mine. I choked back a sob, as my soft hands fisted and beat against his chest. "Let me go p-please…” I whimpered. Larry let me go, but he seemed angry. “You were not begging Carter to let you go were you? You seemed to be enjoying his kisses –” he turned to Carter, “I’m holding out because it’s your nightclub, or else I’d drag this one to a nearby room and tear of her clothes.” "Please…” I could hear myself whimper. I hated the vulnerability in my voice. My eyes were not on Larry, they were focused on Carter, as my green eyes pleaded with his jet black ones. Somehow, I knew he had the power to save me – from whatever other man came by, he was the owner of the place after all. He had to be a billionaire, I knew owning even a small property in this expensive part of town could cost up to a billion, let alone such a big, expensive looking nightclub. The billionaire turned to face me now, dragging me to his side, a bit more gently. I could feel my body press against his powerful body, as his body heat warmed me till I was no longer trembling. "Offer the chick money Larry, if you want her to do anything for you. You of all people should know by now that the language of women is money.” Larry smiled. “One million dollars Little pet, and I want all your clothes off now.” Still pressed against the billionaire’s side, I shook my head shyly. Though I needed it, I didn’t want his money. The money the nightclub would pay at the end of the night was enough for me – and of course, I couldn’t possible strip for anyone. Larry looked angry now. “Well that’s all the money I’d offer for a whore” he said as he stormed off. The billionaire merely shook his head. “Maybe, this one is not a whore,”, he said softly to Larry’s retreating form. “I’ve tasted the innocence in her kisses.” "How did he even know that?” I wondered to myself. I guess he is an expert in women who are strippers, after all, it’s his night club. And to my surprise, the billionaire drew me into a warm hug, his big powerful body covering my tiny one, so that I felt warm, safe, covered. When he finally pulled away, his lips took mine again, in a kiss that was gentler this time, and yet again, something about how raw it was brought tears to my eyes. "What’s your name Love?” The billionaire asked in a gentle voice, but it was underlined with power. "Alvira.” I answered, again hating how tiny and vulnerable my voice sounded. He nodded. “I have some plans for you Alvira” grabbing my head again, and kissing me with a ruthlessness that hurt. His hands moved lower to cup my butt, pressing me more closely to him, as his mouth left mine to trail hot kisses down my face. When he bit the pulse on my throat, drawing a whimper from me, I gathered the last strength I had and fled. I kept running, without looking back, trying to out run the ruthless billionaire, to out run my pounding heart, and the memories that clawed at my throat, memories of powerful hands holding me still while I got forced.ALVIRA’S POVI could feel the tears fall freely now as I got home, despite the fact, I enjoyed everything that happened between Carter and I at the night club.But, the memories from three years ago came crashing in, harder, stronger. I had been outside, trying to get to my rundown home in an equally run down neighborhood quickly before the heavy rain that was brewing came pouring down, and I decided to go through an alley that was a short cut. I could still remember the sound of the rain, the smell of wet pavement, cigarettes, and dirt as powerful arms held me down, hurting me, violating my body. He had kissed me, and his mouth had tasted vile, making me feel like gaging, but I suppressed the urge to throw up. I needed my mouth to breathe, as my nostrils did not seem to get enough air. I shivered, then hugged myself as I finally got to my house. That had been three years ago, and in another neighborhood, another state – so why did I still remember that night so vividly immediate
CARTER’S POVThinking of the little stripper that took the other day, I took long drag while I smiled as I felt the immediate effect slamming against my brain. Life was indeed good. One of the blonds behind me – sherry, or something like that, snaked a hand across my shoulder, curving her thumb, and attempting to take a sniffer of my product. I smacked her hand, and laughed when she whelped."Sorry Sherry. Only good girls get this stuff. You have to prove yourself first.”I watched as a look of pain entered her eyes, and I got easily annoyed. These whores were the same. Always getting hurt for stupid reasons.The whore turned her eyes up to mine, batting her fake lashes. “I’m Sharon, not Sherry.”I hissed, getting annoyed. “Well Shay, I’m already bored with you, leave my mansion now.”Tears immediately filled the whore’s eyes as I called my guards to throw her out. They didn’t even let her put on her clothes, and I had to laugh as I watched them throw her out naked – then I also asked
CARTER’S POVGetting to the club, I downed a shot of whiskey as I thought endlessly of my father’s word to me. Then all of a sudden, I noticed Alvira was no where to be found.For no reason, I became worried and began searching for her with a scattered gaze."Where is the new stripper girl?” I asked one of the stripper lady in nude."I don’t know who you speak of Mr. Carter,” she responded and with a disdain look, I permitted her to leave without a word to her.It’s rather stranger getting worried about a common stripper girl but something about her seem different.Was it her first time doing this job?Her lips tasted so innocent and without experience.All of these thoughts kept raging in my head. But then I remembered my father’s words to me."Isn’t this a blessings in disguise?” I murmured silently, lost in my thoughts. I mean, my father had asked me to find an innocent, vulnerable girl, make her love me, and then break her heart brutally.Making little Alvira my lab rat in gettin
ALVIRA'S POVI felt the slight shivers that racked my body begin to increase. I tried to stop my teeth from chattering together by biting down hard at my lower lip till I felt blood trickled down my lip.Tears filled my eyes. I was such a weirdo. Carter was all gentleness now, smiling at me, and asking polite little questions, but I could hardly answer him. No matter how much I tried to, my teeth could not just stop. He reached out a hand gently and took mine that was balled in a tight fist. "Alvira look at me,” he commanded, but there was a gentleness in his voice. Unwittingly, I found myself staring into his intimidating jet-black eyes."Do you want me to hold you?” He asked, and if the offer was unusual, the look in his eyes showed he knew what I needed, even before I needed it.Right now, I did need a hug badly, but I was afraid of how my body would react to his if I let him hold me again. I found myself nodding, against my better judgement.I expected Carter to get up, and w
CARTER’S POV I drew in a breath as I heard my phone ring, and my father’s name appear on the screen. I was surprised to notice I didn’t look forward to talking to him. As much as I hated my father, I had always enjoyed talking with him, his conversations proved challenging. I didn’t care to examine the reason why I did not want to speak with him today, but it probably had something to do with damaging the innocence that shone through a certain per of green eyes. It was easy, just too easy, and because of how easy it was, I felt something I had never felt before, guilt. "You’ve done some things I’m proud of Carter.” My father started as soon as I picked the call. In the past, I would have been thrilled to hear he was proud of me, but now, I was starting not to care. "You found just the right girl. What’s her name again – Alexa – Alina?” "Alvira.” I snapped, trying my best to figure out what my father was playing at before he struck his blow. I always failed at that. Somehow, M
ALVIRA's povI never comprehended how rapidly someone could infiltrate every aspect of your existence, weaving themselves into your every thought, emotion, and pulse. Carter did that to me, and to this day, I can not determine if it was magic or madness. Whether by his side or not, his influence dominated every moment, immersing me in a realm I had never envisioned. Despite the excitement, there was a subtle sense of unease present. It was an unspoken heaviness that felt like a looming storm.The initial indication of that stress appeared on a peaceful evening stroll. We had recently departed from a charming small eatery, the type that seemed secluded, secure. Carter and I strolled next to each other down a street bordered by trees, his hand occasionally brushing against mine. He appeared deeply engrossed in his thoughts, his typical calm attitude now replaced by a sense of restraint, as if he was concealing a feeling unique to him.Suddenly, he inquired, "Have you ever pondered on
CARTER's pov It was always there, her, Alvira, in my head, occupying my thoughts. She always slipped in without my knowledge, staying longer than I had expected. But I pushed the thoughts of that away, telling myself that it was because I was on a mission with her that was why I was always thinking of her. Her green eyes, innocent and expressive, bothered me. I remembered how I felt everything I looked into those eyes. They were always innocent, like a window into something pure, and something that would soon be broken. The uncertainty drew me in, there was the thrill of watching as she broke bit by bit in my hands, on her knees at my mercy, completely used. Somehow, that stirred something deep and unexpected within me. As our last meeting played in my mind, I reached for my coffee. I took a sip of the dark bitter liquid as my mind wandered to how she had quickly opened up to me, seeking comfort while contemplating whether to trust me or not. It was amusing that she thought that s
CARTER's PovSomeone clearing their throat caught my attention and my eyes darted over to see Collins, my personal assistant, standing rather awkwardly in front of the open door, looking at every single spot but at me. "Who granted you the permission to come into my office?" I asked him with a voice that was laced with irritation. "And what the fuck do you want Collins?" I emphasized with angry eyes.“Um, sir, your father, he might have placed a call to your private phone. He said he was not able to reach you and asked me to check up on you,” He started before I could cut him off. “Okay, and what else did he tell you to do?” I barked out harshly. The thought of my father always left a bitter taste in my mouth. It was always something sinister with him. “I think he may be on his way over because he said to let you know this so that you would ‘tidy up’”“Tidy up?” I questioned him with raised brows, “what the fuck does he mean by that?”“Um, I- I do not think that I know that sir. Bu
ALVIRA’S POVUgh, my head hurt so bad. It felt like a thousand trains had run through my head at the same time. I felt so paralyzed and weak. I tried to move my body but realized that it hurt to even think. I took a deep breath, willing myself to finally open my eyes. Why did my eyelids feel like they were made of lead? I tried to open them, the pain in my body excruciating. What happened? Why did it feel like I was being confined to a bed?My throat was so dry. It felt like someone had run a million sandpapers on it. I definitely did not like this feeling. My toes also felt numb and cold. I tried to wiggle them but felt the same disappointment as it did not work. You can do this, Alvira. Come on. I took another deep breath and slowly willed my eyelids to open, cracking them open slightly only to shut them back, groaning. Why was it so bright? I tried to raise my hands to block the light but I could not. “Hey! Oh thank goodness you are finally awake.” A voice said, very faintly.
ALVIRA’S POV“Hey, sweets.”I turned. It was the man of my dreams, his smile was still enough to make me weak in the knees. “Carter! Oh! How I have missed you.” I said, running over to his arms. “Where have you been? I have missed you.” I said into his chest. “Please do not ever leave me alone again. I can not endure that.” I pleaded, holding him tight. “Just take a look at how pathetic you look, you disgust me with your weakness and timidity.” I raised my head, horror coating my face as I stared at the face of the one man I had ever loved. His smile was gone, now replaced by a look of utter disdain. “Carter…” “Do not ‘Carter’ me. I have always known you to be a weak little thing and never having the balls to stand up for yourself. Of course, you would run over to this place just to hide. You have always been so pathetic and it is so appalling to watch you. I mean, have you no shame?” He sneered. “Carter, please. Just tell me what you want me to do and I promise to be that for y
ALVIRA’S POVThis place was quiet and calm, just how I liked it. For the first time ever, I was finally at rest. I could finally rest. With no barriers, nothing stopping me, no one to worry about me. I could finally take a break. I look around me and realize that once again, I am left alone. However, this time feels different. It feels somewhat peaceful. Like I can finally breathe. I find myself back in the park, just by the lake. The cool evening breeze hits my brain, and I take a deep inhale. This feels so good. It is all I have ever needed and at this moment, my only wish was that I could remain in this place forever. I watch as the breeze sets a small wave over the lake, the soft sound from them clashing against the shore mixed with the whistle of the leaves on the trees overlooking the lake.I take a seat on the bench by the shore, taking in another deep breath. This felt better than great. I took in another deep breath, I could get used to this. The sun was setting and I sat
ALVIRA’S POVI walked out.I did not stop. I just kept walking. My mind was numb. My eyes were empty from having cried all through and right now, there were no more tears left to cry. I just kept walking. I walked out of the penthouse, hearing the sound of giggles from the ladies but not caring to turn back to see what was going on. I had seen and heard enough. I walked into the elevator and just stared ahead of me, seeing nothing in front of me as I waited to get out. Soon, the doors opened and I walked out of the elevator, my legs on autopilot as they carried me out of the building. I vaguely heard the doorman greeting me as I walked by but I was numb to even fake a smile and respond to him. I walked past the security and out of the gate, my legs turning left and moving back the same direction I had come in. It was a gated estate so unless you had a car, you had to walk all the way to the gate. So I walked. I walked all the way down to the gate which was about eight miles but t
ALVIRA’S POVMy world was spinning. Nothing made sense to me. How was I supposed to take in the fact that my boyfriend had not really been my boyfriend, but instead, it was I who was the pawn he had used in this twisted game between him and his father?“So, everything, every single day was a lie. Every conversation, every time we hung out, every word you said to me, every single time I opened up to you, you mean to tell me that none of that, not even one, meant anything to you?” I asked. It was a surprise to me how steady my voice was when on the inside, I could feel myself dying. Every fiber of my being, every nerve ending, every single part of me was crumbling right now. I could not believe that this was happening right now. This had to be some sick joke. I ran a hand through my hair frantically pacing around the living room. Carter cackled, his laugh so evil and twisted. I paused in my steps and turned to look at him. He looked so different. Like he was possessed. This was defini
ALVIRA’S POV“C- Carter?”“What the hell are you doing here? Williams, who the hell let her in?” I could barely move my eyes. I could not believe my eyes. What was going on? How? When? Why? No, this has got to be a dream. Yes, that was the only way to explain this situation. I was dreaming. This was nothing but a bad dream and I was going to wake up any moment from now. I pinched myself over and over to try to wake up from the dream, the pain shooting up my leg telling me that this was not a dream but reality. “I don’t know sir, I did not hear the bell ring or anything so she must have let herself in. I only met her on my way up and I tried to stop her. I am very sorry sir.” I heard Williams mutter from behind me but I could barely move my head. My eyes were stuck on the view in front of me. How could he do this to me? To us? After everything we have been through. What did I do to deserve this? Tears welled up in my eyes, blurring my vision as I remained rooted in my spot. “How?
ALVIRA’S POVMorning came by rather quickly. I had barely gotten back home last night before I crashed on the sofa and blacked out, the exhaustion and stress of everything finally getting to me. Today was the day I had silently been dreading.Thankfully, Clarissa had been cleared for natural bed rest and had been removed from induced sleep. Thankfully also, she was recovering very well. At the rate that they were going, she would be home in about two weeks if she could go on with no more complications and honestly, I was already tired of all these complications. I really hoped that this time, she could finally come home.Now that the day had come, I was freaking out. It was like the little bubble I was hiding in had finally popped and it was now time to face the reality of my life. I grudgingly stood up, shooting a quick text to Rissa to let her know I was finally awake and explaining that I blacked out as soon as my head hit the sheets. I thought about the last fight Carter and I ha
ALVIRA’S POVI must say, it was definitely a good idea for me to just leave the house and take a walk down to the park and I am entirely grateful for having Clarissa in my life. I could not even begin to imagine what I would have done or what could have happened if I did not have her around to talk to at my lowest. I probably would have been deep in gallons of milk as well as endless amounts of candies and chocolate bars, drowning in my misery and sadness. It was still looming in my mind, the feeling of being left alone and the uncertainty of what was going to happen to our relationship. How had we gone from being a happy couple who enjoyed each other’s company and loved each other to being distant from one another and going for days without talking to the other? I walked down to the ice cream truck, the familiar view helping to ease my worries. There was a line at the truck and I stood at the very end of the line, taking in the scenery and just enjoying the view of the garden. I r
ALVIRA’S POV“What do you mean he just up and left?” Rissa queried from the other end of the line. Her voice sounded weak but it was obvious that she was pissed. “I don’t even know what to do about it. I just stood there, most certainly looking like a moron as I remained glued to the ground, watching him walk out the door. It happened in what felt like seconds and for the life of me, my mind could not comprehend what and how it happened?” I explained. I was on the floor, stressed, eating like a hundred types of chocolate and candy and drowning in cups of milk. It had been over a day since the incident with Carter and I was still lost as to how to go about it. I had tried to call the hospital to speak to Rissa about it but they had explained that she was on mandatory rest. I had sucked it up that day and kind of just gone through my evening in a daze, everything happening in a blur as I moved around the house, my mind in a far off land as my body maneuvered its way around the hous