Ben
“But all that money, though? You had to be living the life,” Tyler said.
I shrugged. “I guess so, but there’s more to life than just money. And doing something I didn’t like was soul-crushing. Happiness can’t be bought.”
“That’s some fortune cookie shit.” Tyler laughed.
Less than an hour later, we got our first call. We pulled on our gear in no time and jumped into the truck.
Ted was driving. I sat next to Sam with Tyler and Jay on the back of the truck.
“House fire,” Ted said as we pulled up. “Doesn’t look too serious.”
A woman in her dressing gown ran toward the truck, her face contorted in fear. A small boy tagged along behind her. He looked scared and lost.
“It’s a fire in the kitchen,” she said. She was close to tears. “I tried to put it out, but it spread too quickly. It jumped to the curtains.”
“You were right to get out, ma’am,” Tyler said. “Please, stay close to the truck. We’ll take care of it.”
Sam and Ted assessed the house. Smoke billowed from one window only. It looked small enough to handle without difficulty.
Tyler and I moved around the back of the house while Sam went in through the front. We reached the kitchen at the same time. The stove was on fire, and the curtains next to it had caught alight as the woman had said. The fire moved to the tablecloth as we arrived.
“We got here just in time,” Tyler said, aiming a handheld fire extinguisher at the stove. “Start from that end, and we’ll meet each other in the middle so it doesn’t get away from us.”
I nodded and aimed my extinguisher at the table. Sam moved through the rest of the house, checking if anything else was wrong. Tyler and I made quick work of it, putting out the fire in no time. When it was done, the kitchen smelled like burned cloth. The pan on the stove was blackened with charred food in it.
“Looks like Sam’s cooking,” Tyler said.
“You don’t need fire extinguishers when I cook,” Sam said, coming into the kitchen. “The rest of the house is clear.”
“Maybe we should consider it,” Tyler said, still mocking Sam about his food. Sam rolled his eyes, and I laughed.
“Let’s get out there and report to Ted,” Sam said. “He’ll be talking to the family about what could have happened.”
We left the house, sure that everything would be safe.
“Do you have insurance?” Ted was asking the woman who stood with the little boy clinging to her legs.
“I do,” she said. She looked less panicked but still on the verge of tears. “I’ll have to contact my husband. He has all the information.”
“Is he around?”
She nodded. “He’s at the office. I’ve already called him after I called the station.”
“Is everything okay?” she asked when she saw us coming toward her.
“Everything is under control, ma’am,” Tyler said. “It’s nothing too serious. Do you know how the fire started?”
The little boy started crying.
“James was trying to cook breakfast for me. I was in the bedroom for a moment. I thought he was watching television. If I’d known he was in the kitchen, I wouldn’t have left him alone.”
“Don’t worry, ma’am. This isn’t a case of negligence. Right, buddy?” Ted kneeled in front of the boy who looked like he was going to break down in hysterics.
“Hey, don’t worry,” I said, stepping closer. I had an idea what had happened. “Do you see Sam, here? He burns our food all the time. Even when we’re right next to him.”
The little boy looked at Sam. “Really?”
“Really,” Sam said with a sigh.
“I was just trying to surprise Mommy,” he said. “She makes eggs all the time. I watch her. I don’t know why I couldn’t.”
“That’s okay,” I said. “The most important things are that you’re both safe, we stopped the fire, and you learned a lesson. What will you do next time?”
“Ask Mommy to help me.”
“What a champion,” I said.
“I’m sorry, Mommy,” he said, looking up at his mom.
“Don’t worry, baby. We’re okay.”
She scooped him up. Two seconds later, a car skidded into the driveway and a man jumped out. I assumed he was the father. He ran to his wife and son, relief clear on his face.
“I think our work is done here,” Ted said. “Well done, Ben. You did well. And apparently, kids like you more than they like me.”
“It’s the face,” I said
Ted laughed and pulled himself back into the truck. As we drove back to the station, I looked out of the window at Portland sliding by. I was happy where I was. I helped put out a fire today, and helping people made me happy. Happier than I had been the last six years. I hoped my dad was looking down on me from somewhere, proud of the choices I’d made.
I had never been very close to my dad. I stayed behind with my mom in Portland when he’d moved to New York and remarried. But it was the curse of every son that he wanted his father to approve of him, no matter how easy or hard that was. I hoped my father would approve of the person I had become and the life I’d chosen to live despite what he’d set up for me. I knew he had cared, but I was my own person.
“What did you think?” Tyler asked when we had taken care of everything we had used and put our gear away. We sat on camping chairs on the roof of the fire station with sodas in our hands.
“I think this is exactly where I want to be,” I said.
“Good,” Tyler said. “You’re a ton of fun.”
MilaOn Thursday, I was on rotation at the ICU. Both the ICU and the Emergency Room were chaotic at best. It was also where I felt I could do the most. When patients were in mortal danger and we managed to pull them through, I felt like my choice to become a nurse was the right one.“Morning, Mrs. Norton,” I said, walking into an ICU room. Mrs. Norton looked up from her seat next to the bed. Her eyes were swollen from crying and lack of sleep, her hair was a mess after spending one night after the other tossing and turning, and she wore no makeup. It made her look even younger. She was only twenty-one, but with the worry etched on her face, the fading hope, she looked like she was barely out of school.“How are you doing today?” I knew small talk wasn’t going to do much, but I didn’t want to ignore her. She was suffering more than the patient at this point.“I’m all right,” she said with a thick voice. “How is Charlie?”I looked at the patient. He was in a medically induced coma. He h
Mila“We have an emergency,” someone called from the nurse's station, and I rushed to help out. An elderly lady was brought in with a mask over her mouth and nose, her eyes closed. Her family tagged behind her looking lost and shaken.“What do we have?” I asked.“Pneumonia. Advanced stages. She can’t breathe on her own. Heart rate is dropping.”I ran with the gurney, pushing it into an open room, and I worked with another two nurses to stabilize the woman while the attending doctor was paged. The family—three men I assumed were her sons—hovered on the periphery without interfering. Bless them.When we finally stabilized her, the extra nurses left. I stayed behind with Dr. Nash.“Are you her sons?” Dr. Nash asked the three men. They nodded. “Your mother is very ill. She has an advanced form of pneumonia.”“We’ve been telling her to come to a doctor, but she’s always been stubborn,” one of them spoke up.“How long has she been sick?” Dr. Nash asked.“Two weeks, just about,” he said. “Is
BenI drove to Mila’s apartment just before noon. She had texted me her address this morning, and I wanted to pick her up instead of meeting her at a restaurant. I was only being a gentleman. I knew I couldn’t pursue Mila the way I would have liked. With Jerrod being as protective as he was and with him as my best friend, Mila wasn’t exactly available for me to go after.But we were friends. We had spent a lot of time together before I had left for New York. She was my best friend’s little sister, after all. We’d had lunch together plenty of times.Sure, it had never just been the two of us, and it had usually been at the Castle residence where Mila had still lived back then. But for us to hang out as friends wasn’t strange, and I wasn’t stepping on anyone’s toes by taking Mila out to lunch. We were just going to hang out together like we used to.The moment Mila stepped out of her apartment building door after I buzzed up to let her know I was waiting for her, I knew I was wrong. Thi
BenIt was a pity she was Jerrod’s sister. I would have liked to court her in the true sense of the word, to take her out and spoil her and to spend time with her, exploring every part of who she’d become. But that wasn’t going to happen. I knew how Jerrod felt about keeping her safe, and it would be wrong on so many levels for me to go after Mila. But I could fall in love with this woman if I wasn’t careful. Something about her was intoxicating.“Here we are,” I said, pulling into the parking lot of a beachside restaurant. When we climbed out of the car, the air was filled with the smell of the ocean, and a light breeze tugged at our clothes. It was a beautiful day, perfect to spend time away from our respective jobs and forget about what it meant to take care of everyone else.We walked in and got a table next to a large window so we could admire the view while we ate.“This place is amazing,” Mila said.“You’ve never been here before?”She shook her head. “When your parents own a r
MilaOn Friday, I arrived at the hospital for my afternoon shift to find Mr. Norton awake. He looked a little drowsy after being in a coma, but he was smiling, and Mrs. Norton looked relieved and happy that her husband was back.“Well, this is a wonderful surprise,” I said when I walked in.“Honey, this is Nurse Mila. She was so good to me while you were … you know.”Mr. Norton looked at me. “Thank you, Nurse Mila.”I nodded. “I’m so glad to see you’re awake and feeling better. You had us worried when you came in.” I moved around the room, taking care of my duties. I checked his vitals, put the food tray close to the door, and made sure the pillows were comfortable.Mr. Norton offered a bashful smile. Mrs. Norton held his hand, and I was pretty sure she wasn’t going to let go of him for the foreseeable future.“We also received good news,” Mrs. Norton said, looking lovingly at her husband. “He’s not paralyzed.”“Oh, that is wonderful news,” I said. “Not a lot of people bounce back fro
MilaA lump rose in my throat, but I swallowed it down. I hoped the men had had a chance to say goodbye.When I left the room, I walked to the nurse’s station and recorded the time of death and the cause. I logged the file, and I excused myself.In the restroom, I closed myself into a cubicle and finally let myself fall apart. Sobs racked my chest, and I doubled over, wrapping my arms around myself as if I could keep it together if I did it physically. I’d known this was going to happen. I didn’t know how, but I’d known.Those men would never be the same. I had been lucky enough never to lose a parent, but I knew from what I had seen that the loss of a loved one changed you forever. I had even seen it in Ben, although he’d barely known his dad. Those three men, once they handled their grief in their own way, wouldn’t ever look at life the same.Maybe they would become bitter. Maybe they would blame themselves. Or maybe, they would celebrate the long life of the woman they’d lost, reme
BenOn Saturday, Jerrod and I went into town and found a bar that was hopping with patrons and loud music. I wanted something to draw me away from everyday life. And Jerrod didn’t want to get hammered at his parents’ place. We all needed a break sometimes.“We’re going all-out, tonight,” Jerrod said. “You’re going to have to suffer at work tomorrow.”I shook my head. “I have two days off in a row. Usually, I have twenty-four hours on, twenty-four hours off. But this weekend I have all to myself.”“Even better,” Jerrod said, and we clinked our beer bottles against each other.“So, how’s it going at the station?” Jerrod asked. “I bet you could pick up any woman in this room. A man in uniform and all that.” I laughed. “I guess I could.” But I didn’t want just any woman. Only one had been on my mind lately, a woman I wasn’t allowed to have.“I love my job,” I continued, talking about work rather than having to avoid talking about Mila because Jerrod asked the right questions. “I enjoy th
Ben“I’m not your girl,” Skylar said, pulling a face, and I laughed. Skylar obviously hated it when Jerrod hit on her, and for exactly that reason, he would keep doing it.Mila turned to me, and her smile softened. She looked beautiful, as always. Her hair was down around her face, the tips brushing her shoulders, and she wore a smoky type of eyeshadow that was so popular these days, and it made her look sexy and smoldering. She wore a little black dress that showed off her long legs and heels. I hadn’t seen her from behind, but I was sure it made her ass look great.Despite how hot she looked, there was something about her that was sad. She wasn’t moping, per se, but there was something about her that seemed a little defeated. I had the feeling it had something to do with work. If she wanted to talk about it, I would listen. If she wanted to forget, I would help. I wanted to be there for her. The feeling was so sudden, it caught me off guard. I hadn’t ever wanted to be there for some