Chapter 50 - Favorite person

Autumn's POV

I lay in my bed, curled up into a ball with my eyes closed and head buried in the pillow with my nose out just enough to breathe. My body feels heavy and the sole thought of moving seems impossible. I don't feel hunger or thirst, just emptiness within the part of me that used to be filled with love for someone who's no longer here.

I'm filled with regret, because of me Leo spent his last days suffering. Maybe if I had gone to look for him, maybe if I did a better job explaining my feelings for him. Or if I told him the history I shared with Domenic he would have understood me better. How is it fair that on the same day he saved my life he lost his? Where was God when that happened?

Every time I ask myself that question I remember the things Leo used to say to me after my mother died. "Have faith, everything is a part of a bigger plan, you just don't see it right now." What was the plan here? What point could it possibly have to kill someone's child, someone's brother, s