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As I leave Leo's room and quickly go back into my own. The pressure of the uncovered truth sits hard on my chest making my heart pound faster as I make my way to the balcony. The cold November air eases my anxiety as I close my eyes and lift my chin to the cloudy gray sky. I try to focus on my breathing while I drag my hand over my stomach, I need to stay calm. First for Prue, and secondly for Domenic and my family so they don't realize I discovered the truth. Never again will I complain about the amount of security men are around me, and I will let my Father and Domenic protect me because I am perfectly aware I am in no condition to do so myself. But at least I understand their motives now, I'd lie if I said that this information hasn't shaken me up, although I do deserve some credit. I managed to compose myself so far. "There you are!" Domenic's voice startled me as he suddenly opened the door behind me carrying a blanket in his hands. "What are you doing out here in the cold?" H
I did my best to pretend I didn't know anything about Alice and do my best to relax but lately, I have been having strange dreams that I can't really understand. I dont know whether they are memories or just an illusion created by my brain, I'd had to ask Domenic and I really don't want to. Since I stopped mentioning the past he has been more relaxed, and I didn't insist on going out anymore so he was less worried than usual. The wedding has also kept me occupied enough not to think about that all the time, picking a dress with a pregnancy belly however wasn't an easy task. Even tho my stomach was fairly small to my physique it was noticeable and the last thing I want is to look like a tent. "How about this one? It's like the one Kate Middleton wore but you know, more pregnancy-friendly." Alex said as she passed me the catalog from one of her favorite salons. "I like the sleeves, not so sure about the neckline." Or the thousand buttons going down the back of the dress. Why is simpl
"Is there anything specific you need Mr.Leo for, I'm glad to be of assistance to you." Mrs. Hendricks asked. I shouldn't have said anything to her, there is a chance she would say something to my father. "Silly me, I wanted to ask about Alex." I lie. "I saw her with Mr.Adam in the hall, do you want me to call for her." She asks as she takes the tray she used to bring the tea. "No, I'll go myself. I need to stretch my legs." I get up and leave the magazine on the coffee table before making my way to the hallway but not looking for Alex instead I decide to go upstairs to see if Leo has returned to his room.As I walk I hear strange noises coming from the upstairs salon and I find myself curious to investigate. I walk upstairs and slowly tip-toe to the corner carefully looking over. Imagen my shock when I see Alex up against the wall pressed closely with Adam as they indore in a passionate kiss. Not that there is anything wrong with it, it just came to me as a surprise. I never thou
"The nightmare I had... about the two of you kissing... That was real, wasn't it?" I ask and his face gives me the answer I didn't want. "She kissed me, not that is any kind of an excuse but... yes." Somehow in this moment, I would have preferred if he lied to me. For some reason it makes me feel like he's less mine. "But nothing more ever happened between us. Never, I swear on my life. That was just a moment and it never meant anything to me." Now that does feel like the absolute truth to me, the look in his eyes leaves me without a doubt. "I believe you, Domenic." I say as I squese his hand and smile. "But next time tell me the truth right away, sooner or later all of you are going to need to tell me everything. Wherever it's when the baby gets born, or sooner." If I find my past before. "Is everything alright?" Father asks as he enters all of a sudden. "Yes." I say as I let go of Domenic hand and turn to him. "Where have you been? I haven't seen you at breakfast." Which is stra
"Because I already know all the answers to your questions, and I cant, I won't be the one to give them to you. That is simply a responsibility I do not want." He knows he is the only one I can ask, the only one without any reasons to hide things from me. Without him, I want to be able to draw out the truth everyone wants to protect me from. "Leo, please. Tell me what you know, what are they hiding from me." At this point, if I need to beg I will. "Autumn I already said I won't. But I will give you one piece of advice." He says with a pause. "Live this reality that you have now, forget about digging in the past. Dont sacrifice the happiness oblivion has provided you with." That was not what I expected, but the heaviness of his words resigned with me for days. Every time I tell myself that I should let the past stay in the past the doubt makes me question myself all over again. I sit next to the picture of my mother, the longing sensation sits on my chest as I try to imagine what did
"Is there a problem? I just want to see my mother's things." I say as I try to appear relaxed in my chair. One person who was definitely not relaxed was Dad, alongside everybody else except for Rachel and Leo. "No there isn't a problem, Mrs Hendrics will just have to look for them. After she died we didn't keep them at hand." Why wouldn't you hold onto the things that were important to your loved one? "Why not? You kept the pictures." I ask. "Well the pictures were for you, but the things..." He poused to find the words. "Other things were just too painful to keep around in sight." Aunt Eloise said. "OK, get them for me tomorrow." I say and we return to eating the rest of our dinner in peace."You are going to sleep already?" Domenic asked as he came out of the bathroom and I was already in bed. "Yes, I feel rather tired after that dinner we just had." I say as I fix the pillow behind me. "Do you think Aunt Eloise is mad at me for taking Rachel's side? I was just so sick of how t
Of course, come in." I say to my father. He comes in closes the door behind him and takes a chair to sit by the bed. "I just hope you are not here to talk to me about what happened at dinner, all of you should treat Rachel better." I do want to make that clear from the start. "That's not what I wanted to talk about, I see that you like her and I don't want to meddel in that. But at the same time, you shouldn't ask me to treat her differently, especially when I don't know how. It's not like she made a big effort herself." Actually, I think he just isn't open to the idea of having her here. "There are a lot of things you don't know about." He says. "Then why don't you tell me?" I want to support him, like he has done with me."My father, your grandfather...hmm. He had an after with Rachel's mother, and when she told him she got pregnant he told her to get rid of it. He couldn't have a baby out of marriage, he cared more about the honorability of our last name than recognizing a bastar
The wedding day "Oh my God... you look... absolutely stunning Autumn." Summer says as she stands behind me while I look at myself in the mirror."You think?" I ask, smoothing the white silk fabric over my stomach. "Absolutely, Nicky is going to fall onto his ass when he sees you." She says as she fixes the curll on my hair so that the earing could be seen."They were my mother, do you like them?" It was like having a piece of her with me."They suit you, elegant and refined, just like you." Summer surely knew how to flatter someone."Why is this taking so long? When can we go downstairs?" I ask nervously as I try to take a look at the garden but Summer pulls me back."No, no... We can't risk the groom seeing the bride before the wedding starts." Whoever invented that tradition is an idiot, I haven't seen Domenic since last night when Anthony took him out on his last bachelor night while Summer and I stayed here and had a girl's night with Alex."Uhh, I'm just nervous." I say, I could