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2021-05-29 13:32:03*Kane's POV*
As we watch the movie, the look on her face when she told me how incredible it was is burned into my brain. Obviously the sex was mind-blowing, but the way she looked at me like I was the only person in the world, like I was special, made me realize what it is I’ve been feeling when I’m with her: happiness. It’s an emotion I haven’t felt in so long. It excites me and terrifies me at the same time because I know it can’t last. How can it?
One way or another, this whole thing ends in tragedy, but now that I’ve felt this way again, I am selfishly unable to let it go. I want every minute of this that I can get while I still can.
When the movie finishes, I look down to find Violet passed out on my shoulder. I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised by that. Our evening was quite strenuous, as she put it. I close the laptop and then untangle my fingers and shift my arm around her back so that I can lie her down on
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