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22. Katya

Author: J. Tarr
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56

I can’t stop thinking about what Ruslan said.

The words keep replaying in my head over and over again: You think I destroyed your life, but you have no idea what your precious husband did to mine. You don’t even know the fucking half of it.

What did Andrei do? What could he have done to Ruslan that was so horrible that it shattered his life? Ruslan killed him. My husband is dead because of him, and yet... I can’t shake the feeling that there’s more to this story. That maybe I don’t know the truth.

But Ruslan won’t tell me. He could have. He should have thrown it in my face, made me pay for every accusation I’ve hurled at him since we’ve been trapped in this cabin together. Instead, he held back, refusing to say anything because he didn’t want to hurt me.

Imagine that. He didn’t want to hurt me.

I’ve done nothing but accuse him, call him a murderer, accuse him of being heartless, cruel, and everything else I could think of. But now, I can’t help but wonder if what Andrei did to him is
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Karen
I am glad he told her. what a rough chapter, it’s like i can feel both of their pain
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A. D. R.
Now it’s all out there …. They can start to move forward … maybe.
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