Viktor The drive back to the mansion was silent with the tension so thick yet non-existent at the same time. I spied glances at her on the passenger’s seat throughout and every time, she was simply looking at the window, looking deceitfully calm. It sent a different trill of fear through me, especially when I knew she was anything but. After Eve left, she hadn't said a word since. I comforted her the best I could, letting her sob in my arms. Moments after her tears were gone, she hadn't saud a word. I was the one to suggest that we left and she silently nodded following me. The sight of her reddish eyelids despite the calm facade gutted me. Id never seen my mother that angry, that sad. And this time, it wasn't focused on me. My grip on the steering wheel tightened. If the feeling from seeing my mother cry hurt, then the ache was twice as bad when I saw Eva crumble right in front of me. In the few times I'd seen her, Eva had never failed to show her strength, even months ago when
EvaI worked up to darkness and dim lighting engulfing me. My eyes felt heavy and my body ached but the smell of food woke me up further.It didn't take long for the past memories and pain to seep in. Swallowing hoarsely, I nearly broke down in tears again until“You're awake,”Jon's voice jolted me. I looked up to find him moving towards me, a plate in his hand along with the familiar aroma of pasta.Sitting up, I tried to smile when he reached. “Are you okay now?” He asked,“Yeah,” I nodded my voice hoarse from unuse.After crying for so long, I didn't know when I just…passed out. But looking around I was sure that a few hours had passed.I should have considered it a relief compared to holding it in, but looking at him only made more guilt swell into me.“I shouldn't have…I'm sorry for coming here unannounced.” I shifted uncomfortably. “It's okay.” Was all he said.“I'm sorry,” my voice cracked as I spoke. Even still I shouldn't have to use him as a crutch.“What happened? Or is
82EvaThe doorbell rang. I was ready, sucking in a breath before standing up.I tampered down any impulse to clean aside anything within the room more than necessary despite the urge to hide it away. He needed to see the reality of their natural environment.Passing by the strewn toys I left alone made me think back to Cory and Anthea.A swift call from them moved the sleepover Penelope spent with them to them staying with her for the entire day while I sorted things out. It was already evening and they were still with her. Considering it was evening she was no doubt also on her way to my home.She wasn't the one standing by the door at the moment however.I forced myself to relax before opening the door, his cerulean eyes meeting mine immediately.“Hi,” Viktor said.The air felt awkward yet I let him slip inside, murmuring a greeting before stepping back. He looked overwhelmed as he looked around and I couldn't blame him when I was the same way.If it wasn't for what happened earli
Eva I was completely frozen under the scrutiny of my best friend’s stare as she flickered between us. Even if he wasn't touching me like before, his closeness was suspicious enough. For a moment everything was still…until the moment the twins slipped out beside her. “Mom!” they chorused and my gaze shifted to their innocent smiles. Without he's they rushed to greet me and I pushed my panic away, forcing a smile. “Hey, babies. Did you enjoy your time at Aunt Penelope?” I hugged them, ruffling their hair to make them giggle and nod in agreement. Looking back up to face Penelope felt sheepish. Her expression said plenty, a mix of disbelief and recognition. I could hear her unsaid words without thinking. I tried to pass a pleading one of my own to tell her that I'd explain after this. “Mom?” I tore my eyes away to meet Anthea’s stare but she wasn't looking at me but behind me, no doubt at Viktor. ‘Oh,’ I quickly stood up, looking at him before turning back to the chil
ONE MONTH LATEREva“When are you coming back?” I asked, rifling through clothes as frustration brewed up in me.“Soon.” Jon’s voice rang through terse and neutral. It made my brows furrow.“So, in a week? Cory and Anthea miss you.” I said, trying to ignore the coldness in his tone.“I…Eva I don’t know yet.” His words gave me whiplash, making me flinch.“Okay.” I said.Frustration brewed inside me but I kept silent.The moment the call ended I dropped the phone like a dead weight, clenching and unclenching my arms for control. What the hell? This wasn’t the first time, at least not within this month.After telling him of my decision to include Viktor and Grace into the children’s lives the day I'd made the decision, he was completely supportive. I still sensed displeasure, however no matter how much I tried to assure him, he said that it was fine. Although he was never present while Viktor and Grace were around, he still looked well.It happened so gradually. At first he wasn’t pr
EvaThe scent of antiseptic stung my nose as I waited in the hospital lobby.Penelope’s presence helped. She had come in a few moments ago, even while I was spaced out with Cory on my lap. The moment she hugged me, I couldn't stop myself from breaking down again.“Everything’s going to be okay.” She whispered to me. I closed my eyes in response. Goodness knew I wished I could believe it.I didn’t know what to feel. We had gotten her there in time, but I still couldn't get my mind off it. It was just like the second time that this happened. I was on my own, alone, scared.“Miss Greene?” The voice made me look up instantly to find the doctor there. All thoughts slipped by as I stood up carefully.“Doctor? How is my-”“Your daughter is fine,” he said, “you brought her in early so it was just a mild allergic reaction she suffered. She's still asleep but when she wakes up she'll be fully ready to discharge.”A sigh of relief left me instantly. She was fine. My baby was fine.Cory was sti
Viktor Hell. That's where I felt like I was right now.I groaned against the blinding lights. Pain hammered through my head. I'd forgotten how bad times like this could be. As I sat up, my memories began to flood back.After leaving her home I had gone to the penthouse. I didn't even know how it started. First it was one drink without hesitation and then another and another until my mind became a blurry haze. Yet I could still recall why it started. I shut my eyes tightly for a different reason altogether. The last sight of Anthea, my daughter, choking because of the candy i bought her. Cory's scream and Eva's green eyes, wild with panic.“Get out.”Eva's words echoed in my mind.The familiar self-loathing and guilt washed over me, threatening to drown me under. Things were getting better, but like always I had ruined everything. Just like that I'd backslid, months of progress gone under the bottom of a bottle.‘Pathenic’ I scoffed to myself.A flash of a hazy memory stopped me in
Viktor It took me a few more seconds to process it wasn't her room but ours, or what once used to be. The same room I hadn't touched in months.“It had been six years since I entered, yet the place looked how I remembered. Not a thing out of place,” she said, shaking her head,She took a step closer towards me and close up I saw the walls shift down, the neutral look replaced with something sadder that made my heart clench.“Seeing it made me realize something. I thought I was doing the best I could, keeping my distance. I was still holding you to the past. I thought I'd let go, but when it came to the kids. It reared its head the moment you found out about them." She continued “I’d forgiven but not fully. I was afraid to face that part of myself until last night in the same way I was afraid to face the present you. Even though I knew that you'd changed, a part of me was still holding you to those days wondering if you were going to do something else.”Those last words were like a p
EvaShock rang over me in waves as her words rang through my mind. I could feel some people's eyes on mine but I couldn't care less. “Eva?”His voice snapped me back. Looking up I meet Viktor's eyes on mine. The concern clear on his face grounded me a little.Blinking frantically, I shook my head, trying to process.“Can you repeat that?” I asked, trying to keep my voice steady.“I've been arrested.”Julienne repeated through the line and my grip tightened . She didn't sound bothered, her voice completely neutral and dare I say, emotionless. But I knew better.The moment we became friends we'd opened up to each other. She constantly kept her exterior tough out of survival but I knew better than anyone how vulnerable one could be. She was already happy going through college what the hell could have changed?After a few more seconds of silence, a sound I recognized as a sigh came through.“Technically it's not really an arrest. It's the college security that detained me and now I neede
Eva“I'm sorry love, I have to stay here longer.” Jon's voice rang through the phone. “What do you mean? You promised the kids you'd be back for the festival,” I tried to keep my tone neutral even as irritation sprang through me.“I know. Something came up that's really important. I'll make it up to them, I promise.”My jaw clenched in response. “Jonathan, it's been a month. Nearly two since they've seen you.” I said as carefully as I could, yet it was hard to keep my frustrations away from the phone.He sighed, sounding exasperated, like he was the one frustrated.“What do you want me to tell you Eva?” he asked and I snapped.“I want answers!” My voice rose and I shut my eyes instantly to calm down. Once I reeled myself in I spoke again.“Everytime I asked, you constantly told me it was ‘okay’ yet you do this. You've constantly been out of the city doing Goodness knows what. What the hell is wrong with you?”“Nothing's wrong. I just need to work out some things.”“Things that you h
Viktor It took me a few more seconds to process it wasn't her room but ours, or what once used to be. The same room I hadn't touched in months.“It had been six years since I entered, yet the place looked how I remembered. Not a thing out of place,” she said, shaking her head,She took a step closer towards me and close up I saw the walls shift down, the neutral look replaced with something sadder that made my heart clench.“Seeing it made me realize something. I thought I was doing the best I could, keeping my distance. I was still holding you to the past. I thought I'd let go, but when it came to the kids. It reared its head the moment you found out about them." She continued “I’d forgiven but not fully. I was afraid to face that part of myself until last night in the same way I was afraid to face the present you. Even though I knew that you'd changed, a part of me was still holding you to those days wondering if you were going to do something else.”Those last words were like a p
Viktor Hell. That's where I felt like I was right now.I groaned against the blinding lights. Pain hammered through my head. I'd forgotten how bad times like this could be. As I sat up, my memories began to flood back.After leaving her home I had gone to the penthouse. I didn't even know how it started. First it was one drink without hesitation and then another and another until my mind became a blurry haze. Yet I could still recall why it started. I shut my eyes tightly for a different reason altogether. The last sight of Anthea, my daughter, choking because of the candy i bought her. Cory's scream and Eva's green eyes, wild with panic.“Get out.”Eva's words echoed in my mind.The familiar self-loathing and guilt washed over me, threatening to drown me under. Things were getting better, but like always I had ruined everything. Just like that I'd backslid, months of progress gone under the bottom of a bottle.‘Pathenic’ I scoffed to myself.A flash of a hazy memory stopped me in
EvaThe scent of antiseptic stung my nose as I waited in the hospital lobby.Penelope’s presence helped. She had come in a few moments ago, even while I was spaced out with Cory on my lap. The moment she hugged me, I couldn't stop myself from breaking down again.“Everything’s going to be okay.” She whispered to me. I closed my eyes in response. Goodness knew I wished I could believe it.I didn’t know what to feel. We had gotten her there in time, but I still couldn't get my mind off it. It was just like the second time that this happened. I was on my own, alone, scared.“Miss Greene?” The voice made me look up instantly to find the doctor there. All thoughts slipped by as I stood up carefully.“Doctor? How is my-”“Your daughter is fine,” he said, “you brought her in early so it was just a mild allergic reaction she suffered. She's still asleep but when she wakes up she'll be fully ready to discharge.”A sigh of relief left me instantly. She was fine. My baby was fine.Cory was sti
ONE MONTH LATEREva“When are you coming back?” I asked, rifling through clothes as frustration brewed up in me.“Soon.” Jon’s voice rang through terse and neutral. It made my brows furrow.“So, in a week? Cory and Anthea miss you.” I said, trying to ignore the coldness in his tone.“I…Eva I don’t know yet.” His words gave me whiplash, making me flinch.“Okay.” I said.Frustration brewed inside me but I kept silent.The moment the call ended I dropped the phone like a dead weight, clenching and unclenching my arms for control. What the hell? This wasn’t the first time, at least not within this month.After telling him of my decision to include Viktor and Grace into the children’s lives the day I'd made the decision, he was completely supportive. I still sensed displeasure, however no matter how much I tried to assure him, he said that it was fine. Although he was never present while Viktor and Grace were around, he still looked well.It happened so gradually. At first he wasn’t pr
Eva I was completely frozen under the scrutiny of my best friend’s stare as she flickered between us. Even if he wasn't touching me like before, his closeness was suspicious enough. For a moment everything was still…until the moment the twins slipped out beside her. “Mom!” they chorused and my gaze shifted to their innocent smiles. Without he's they rushed to greet me and I pushed my panic away, forcing a smile. “Hey, babies. Did you enjoy your time at Aunt Penelope?” I hugged them, ruffling their hair to make them giggle and nod in agreement. Looking back up to face Penelope felt sheepish. Her expression said plenty, a mix of disbelief and recognition. I could hear her unsaid words without thinking. I tried to pass a pleading one of my own to tell her that I'd explain after this. “Mom?” I tore my eyes away to meet Anthea’s stare but she wasn't looking at me but behind me, no doubt at Viktor. ‘Oh,’ I quickly stood up, looking at him before turning back to the chil
82EvaThe doorbell rang. I was ready, sucking in a breath before standing up.I tampered down any impulse to clean aside anything within the room more than necessary despite the urge to hide it away. He needed to see the reality of their natural environment.Passing by the strewn toys I left alone made me think back to Cory and Anthea.A swift call from them moved the sleepover Penelope spent with them to them staying with her for the entire day while I sorted things out. It was already evening and they were still with her. Considering it was evening she was no doubt also on her way to my home.She wasn't the one standing by the door at the moment however.I forced myself to relax before opening the door, his cerulean eyes meeting mine immediately.“Hi,” Viktor said.The air felt awkward yet I let him slip inside, murmuring a greeting before stepping back. He looked overwhelmed as he looked around and I couldn't blame him when I was the same way.If it wasn't for what happened earli
EvaI worked up to darkness and dim lighting engulfing me. My eyes felt heavy and my body ached but the smell of food woke me up further.It didn't take long for the past memories and pain to seep in. Swallowing hoarsely, I nearly broke down in tears again until“You're awake,”Jon's voice jolted me. I looked up to find him moving towards me, a plate in his hand along with the familiar aroma of pasta.Sitting up, I tried to smile when he reached. “Are you okay now?” He asked,“Yeah,” I nodded my voice hoarse from unuse.After crying for so long, I didn't know when I just…passed out. But looking around I was sure that a few hours had passed.I should have considered it a relief compared to holding it in, but looking at him only made more guilt swell into me.“I shouldn't have…I'm sorry for coming here unannounced.” I shifted uncomfortably. “It's okay.” Was all he said.“I'm sorry,” my voice cracked as I spoke. Even still I shouldn't have to use him as a crutch.“What happened? Or is