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Edwina

I didn’t want attention, but Rebeca! She knows exactly what to do to embarrass me. I don’t know if it makes her feel good about herself, but it is a foolish way to live.

I haven’t witnessed a greater embarrassment, yet this tops it all.

Serving the people, I used to dine with. If I didn’t have a big responsibility hanging over me, I would have taken the easy way out of my problems. I will kill myself and then all this misery will end once and for all, but I can’t do that now. I must stay alive for my mother.

I went back into the kitchen with tears lined up at the corner of my eyes waiting to pour out, but tried my best to hold them in because if they did, I'd break down and I couldn't let that happen, not in front of my enemies!

I picked myself up and found my way back to the kitchen. I didn’t bother to stay a minute when I got to the kitchen, I just carried the stuff I was serving along with me to a storeroom and locked myself in. There I cried out the tears I h