As if on cue, Abed waltzed into the room, immediately, I get to my feet, my heart doing a somersault, worrying that he may have heard our conversation. My thoughts are immediately cut short when he reached his right hand behind my head, dips his own head and brings his lips to mine in the most tantalizing kiss. He slings his hand around my waist, a good move since my knees grow weak at the end of the kiss. A dazzling smile lines his perfect mouth.“That easily solves everything.” he sighs, resting his head against mine.My heart was jack hammering against rib cage, certainly the entire world can hear it, if they couldn’t, then at the very least Abed would. My body was frozen, panic flooding my system, I wasn’t sure how I was supposed to keep my limbs anymore, anything I did right now felt like he would catch on and realize I had feelings for him. “Say, Ab dearest, do you consider this normal Dom behavior?” Joanne jumps in, already working our plan.I watch as his head turns to fa
Later when Abed and I are in the living room, tucked into his side, his arms slung around me, an afghan covering our legs, and the bowl of salted popcorn still warm from when he made it earlier, on our legs our eyes on the screen in front of us. We had gone back and forth a bit, about choosing what we wanted to watch, he wanted something with me in it, and I wanted something he directed, finally we compromised and started a series that had nothing to do with either of us. “I think, but he has neither confirmed or denied this. Find out for me will ya?” Clay’s words from earlier circles back to mind, like it did when he came out of the Den announcing the meeting was over. Joanne gave me conspicuous nod just as she slipped out of the house, I still have no idea what that nod meant. He had made dinner, put me in the apron again and the only thing I did was pass him the ingredients, yet he made it sound like I made the food. How could someone be this perfect? “You know, before this... b
I felt sick, sick to my stomach, muttering a silly excuse about checking on work with crew members, there is no single mistrust on her beautiful face as she nods at me, her eyes sparkling with something I can’t place a finger on. Hurrying out of there, without so much as a single glance backward, i knew if stayed there for a second longer, staring into those beautiful eyes, I would have confessed everything.I had you sign a marriage certificate, the ring on your finger as well? Not a collar, just because I had to show my father... I groan. Running my fingers through my hair. When I came up with this plan of a fake marriage, it wasn’t with any woman in mind, I just thought I had to pay someone to act like it, but as soon as Rachel appeared in my life, every other woman would not compare, she was the only one that sneaky old man would never get to. So, so why was I feeling so rotten from inside and out? Why do I feel so horrible for lying to her? I must taken a long time in the ba
The next morning, Abed informs me that today is the day we leave for his father’s house, very short notice, but I don’t tell him that, he already looked like he was dealing with a lot, just by the thought of living with his father again.“How long?” I had asked, still under the sheets, he was standing by the bed, already in fresh clothes, his spine straighter than arrow today. Clearly, he was tensed. “He said a few days, no given deadline, but I promise the moment you feel unsafe, threatened by anything, we will leave.” I gave him a muted smile, I was not going to give his father any ammunition, I was not going to leave until he had gotten what he wanted. Yesterday, I felt his pain, today I wanted to heal it. He made us breakfast, a large one, I know what it meant, he wasn’t going to be making breakfast in his father’s house, I was fine with ordering in, in fact, I had the numbers of all the good places, it was going to be my treat. The small talk I tried to make about taking a bi
My tongue stuck to the roof of my mouth, my throat drying from her words, images of his security play in my head, of course he was dangerous, nobody needed that much security, no matter how famous they were, unless they were constantly doing something wrong. And dangerous.“Dangerous?” I croak,“Yes silly, you might end up thinking you have to impress him or something since he could be your father in law.” I snort in derision, if he was like a normal father to Abed, if he were kinder, the absurd idea of him being my father in law... I felt my cheeks flame just thinking about him being a daughter in law, and therefore his wife. Shaking my head and those thoughts away, I focus on the present,“You say that knowing who his father is?”Something passes her face, it’s too quick for me to catch, her expression is now one of exasperation. “Do you really need to go?”She is definitely trying to dissuade me right now, without any proper explanation, I stare at her for a few seconds, tryin
I had never seen anything quite like it, Abed’s silent fury, after the woman in the uniform, who I later learned her name was Greta, explained to him that his brother was going to stay for the exact number of days as he was, and from the explanation. I gathered his brother whom I had no idea about, had called ahead and asked that Abed’s old room be given to him. Abed had turned around, Greta and I hold our breaths as he walked back to the room assigned to us, his spine was as straight as an arrow. The anger rolled off him in waves, from his extremely straight posture, to his jaw locked in place, and the eyes, his eyes drew you in, and tossed you around inside of the storm that raged inside. I was at complete loss, I knew nothing of this brother, and while this room was significantly smaller than his old room, it wasn’t so bad, we won’t be staying for so long. But the fact that he called ahead and asked specifically for Abed’s room meant they were on opposing sides, and he was an ass
When I return to the room, he is no longer pacing, he is sitting at the desk, his eyes full of relief as he beacons me to him. Hurriedly, my feet move in his direction, and he pulls me into his legs, plopping down, his face sinks between my neck and my face, my body shivers as our bodies touch. “I missed you, where did you go?” he murmurs,I swallow, unsure how to say that I went snooping around without coming off as creepy.“Out.” I say when the silence stretched on for far too long.He sighs, “I have heard people describe the property as beautiful, but all I see here is pain, Idon’t think I can ever see it as more.”The urge to take this man as far away from this place is overwhelming, I wanted to protecthim, from the horrors of his childhood, from the horror that was his younger brother. SinceGreta told me what his brother had tried to do, I had become even more afraid for him, what was it like living with a monster and his son? “You never told me you had a brother..” I start
My eyes follow her even as she excused herself from the table, clearly flustered, I want to go after her, but the look on Richard’s face stops me. “You know her?”His shocked expression gives way to the smug one he has always worn when he thought he had the upper hand on something.“We go way back, college days, and these days everyone knows Rachel Greene, until recently.”His words pulls something from my memory, he is the fairy godmother she talked about with such fondness?? He was kind to her, got her a lawyer, and did all of those good things that made my insides tingle with unknown emotion? I couldn’t reconcile the person I knew with the person she knew. “We also had a pact that if she wasn’t married by age thirty, we would get married.” he eyes my fingers, searching for a ring, I flexed my fingers showing off the matching ring I had put off wearing until this particular dinner, and had been hiding from her. My father chuckled, finding it amusing that we were once again in com
We ended up fucking all night, I had only read that in books, I had no idea that it could happen in real life, and that it would happen to me. Abed wasn’t tired, neither was I, every time we came it seemed like we craved the other even more. Our bodies sleeked in sweat and mixed with our fluids, we continued to explore each other’s bodies. Naked and tangled in his arms, under the sheets, I realize this was the life I wanted for myself, sleeping next to the man I love, perfectly content. His hands tighten around my waist, I chuckle quietly, he was so adorable. “What are you laughing at?” he says in the most sexy morning voice I had ever heard. It left me shivering. I look at his face and he had a brow raised in question.“Again?”I felt my face redden, and I bury it in the crook of his neck, “I always want you.” I murmur, taking in his scent, it was a mix of various scents, and it was good that I bury my nose there. He picks up my hand, guides it downwards, in between his nak
My new routine was easy, I had breakfast at Big daddy’s, visit some place I had never been, even if I grew up here, I was like a tourist, eager and excited for whatever the new day had to offer in a city as big as this. I had lunch wherever the locals said was good, and it was good, a few people recognized me, and I saw my pictures on the internet at the end of the day, I trained myself to never look at the comments, I was trying to live for me after all. And for dinner, I heated up a portion of Abed’s meals, and that was the highlight of my day, no matter what scenery I had seen earlier, nothing compared to when I sat down alone with the meal he had prepared for me. An ache wrapped around my heart, I was missing him terribly, but I didn’t want to resent him, so I needed the time to heal properly. Joanne often times came over, and tonight, I was also expecting her, I had set out wine I hand picked at the winery I visited earlier today, and two glasses, I had already eaten and sho
My entire body stiffened when her hand grabbed at the elbow of my shirt, I pause in my steps, fighting the urge to turn around and beg to be in her life, knowing fully well I didn’t deserve it. “Can you wait for me? Until I am ready.” she whispers, I could feel all her emotions from just a few words, the hurt, the desperation, the love.Of course I would wait, I waited years to see her, years to tell her I loved her, years to hold her in my arms, waiting would be too much mercy for me. Turning slowly, I find her tear streaked face staring at her feet, her sniffles wracking her entire body. Guilt pushed through my body, with my thumb hooked under her face, gently, I make her face me, her lips quivered as she stared at me. “I will wait, take whatever time you need, I will be waiting.” I tell her honestly as I wiped the tears from her face. She smiles, her eyes brightening and my lungs expelled all the air it had been holding. “No matter how long?”“It doesn’t matter to me, I will b
We end up staying awake most of the night, clinging to each other, talking and laughing about the most useless of things, the world beyond the locked doors of the short let, along with all of our issues could wait, we would face them in the morning, tonight, we were going to pretend we were okay. “I don’t think I can fight the sleep any longer.” I stifle a third yawn in the last two minutes. I would beat up myself for falling asleep now, but my eyelids were heavy, my bones weary from all our activities from earlier. “It’s okay, go to sleep my love.”Even in my sleepy haze I hear him, and it makes me feel good, the words I didn’t realize would mean so much to me, the words I wasn’t sure I would hear again. “Good night my love, I love you.”I feel his lips pressed against my forehead just as I drifted off to sleep, and in my dreams this time, I am at a crossroad, literally. Without opening my eyes, my hands reach out on the bed, expecting to hit the warmth of his body, but the space
We stay like that for a while, him collapsed beside me, breathing hard, my heart worked fast, thumping and slamming furiously, did he say..? did I hear him right? Was I perhaps imagining things? I reach out as subtly as I could, pinching myself, it hurt, I was neither dreaming or imagining things, this was real. The silence pressed around us, it was obvious both of us heard the words, but what if I was the one who uttered them? Shit, shit, shit, I shut my eyes, wondering how I was going to undo it. I had confessed my feelings when I was supposed to see him out, that was how one night stands worked right? “Rachel... I didn’t say it so you could say it back to me.”His voice and words startle me, so he said it then, I had managed to keep my dignity, that was good... wait, he said he loved me? I turn to face him sharply, he was staring at me, his eyes so intense that I have to swallow. “You said that?” My voice comes out as a shocked whisper, he raised a brow in question, then he chuc
Flustered was an understatement of how I was feeling, my legs shook, my nerves jumped in excitement. I was still riding waves of the orgasms that washed over me and the ones that were promised. I realize only now that he stopped because of the constant knocking on the bathroom door, the voices on the other end say something about getting the spare key. Abed’s fingers work expertly as he arranges my skirt back and top back in place, he gives me the smile I have come to realize was reserved for just me as he kissed my forehead and pushed me into a bathroom stall. “Stay here until you hear me leave.” he whispers, his mouth dangerously close to mine, I can only nod, I was afraid I would moan if I tried to speak. Within a minute the door was unlocked and I hear the others speaking to him, but his only response is the sound of his footfall as he walked away. I wait until it is silent before walking out of the stall. My body still buzzing with unspent energy, I needed him like crazy. “Th
With our mouths still locked, our feet moved, one hand around my waist, the other at the back of my head. My body roared to life, pulsing with different kinds of emotions as we kissed. Oh how much I missed this, how much I missed him. My back pressed against a door, and his hand slipped from my waist to lock the door behind us, returning to my waist, his hand slips underneath the short skirt, I shiver against him as his familiar hands squeezed and molded my ass. “Ohhh...” I murmur into his mouth, he groaned slightly in response, his hand tugging my hair backward, his tongue sweeps into my mouth, even with my eyes closed I felt it roll backwards. My hands roam the expanse of his hard back, the familiar ridges under my finger tips, even under his clothes I could feel them, the dip in and out, I longed to feel it directly under my finger tips. My eyes flew open when I felt myself being lifted, my ass hitting the cool sink of the bathroom, I meet his eyes, both of us out of breath,
The lone flower followed me all the way to the clothes store, and I got new clothes for the art museum, I had shot a quick text to Connor, asking him if he was free to meet today, his reply could not have been quicker, he said yes, asked for the time and where he should pick me up from. Smiling to myself as I picked out my clothes, I hoped he was watching, so I put on a performance of a life time, humming and giggling to myself when I look at my phone, like a girl would if she was texting someone she was interested in. By them time I returned home, I had two lone... well, not alone anymore, sunflowers, I tuck them into the vase, locking the doors behind me. I still had time to kill before the time I had agreed to meet him, so I dive into the book I had been reading the other day, and even with the thought that I was alone and there was nobody to peek over my shoulder and see what dirty things I was reading, my cheeks flamed. Those kinds of things that were explicitly described in th
Clutching the flowers tightly, I followed the path the child had shown me, my head swiveling in all directions for a glimpse of him, my feet slamming on the ground as I chased his scent, there was no sight of his car, and definitely no sight of him, the only things I was left with were the sunflowers and his scent that was fast fading. That was yesterday, but I haven’t stopped looking, I had put the flowers in water and placed the vase I had found by the window for the plant to get sunlight, not so that he miraculously turned up here and knew where I was staying by the flowers he had given to me. Going for a quick run to clear my head this morning, I asked myself the big questions, did I miss him? I did, but it doesn’t make what he did hurt any less. My parents I thought would come running when they saw me on the big screen, they never did, even with the news of me being orphan going around like wild fire, they never showed, and to be very honest, I waited with baited breath just as