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Behind the scenes SHE
The silence that follows his words pressed around us, his hand still outstretched, my eyes cannot look away from his. I watch as his confident smile turn into a nervous chuckle, his hand drops and he follows my lead, kicking back the entire content of his glass into his throat. “This is the first time I ever said that out loud, and it was harder than you think.” he says, reaching for the bottle, he refills our glasses, I keep my eye on him, my head trying to make sense of what he said. “You think you can say something? The wide eyed staring is starting to make me regret my decision.” he says with another nervous chuckle.“I am sorry, I was surprised..” I say quickly, surprised was a mild way of putting it, I was shocked, for a second he started to sound like it was me he liked.He let out an exaggerated exhale, “You weren’t as shocked to find out as my father, I reckon Abed would be the most shocked if he hears about it.”My mind was still whirring with the information, it didn’t ma
Last Updated : 2024-11-15Behind the scenes SHE
At some point last night, we must have fallen asleep, when my eyes peel open the next morning, I find that we had halved the bottle of wine, and my head banged, I wince at the stream of sunlight that poured into the room, pulling myself up to sit in bed, the room was empty, Richard had disappeared, my stomach twists, and my throat tickles, I pull myself out of bed and into the bathroom, my head in the toilet bowl, and I dry heave, my chest tightened with feelings of abandonment, I chastise myself, I had no right to feel that, I had abandoned Abed. By the time I finished brushing my teeth and was back in the main room, the smell of warm, and freshly made food hits me.“Good morning Rachie.”I jump at the sound of Richard’s voice, clutching my chest, it seems he was also startled by me, he almost spills the food he had been arranging on the table. “You didn’t leave?” I ask, matching straight to the table.“Why would I? Are you tired of me already?”I pull a seat for myself at the table
Last Updated : 2024-11-16Behind the scenes SHE
“My first argument when I realized my feelings for my brother went beyond family love, was, Abed was the first person I knew and relied on, and maybe I was feeling thankful and misinterpreting my own feelings. I think that it is the same with you, he helped you when you had no place to go, and when the world turned against you. I mean you never properly dated anyone back in school, and you definitely didn’t as an actress, all those pent up feelings had to go somewhere.” My stomach felt like it was being carved out, he was right, but I didn’t agree with him, Abed was the first man I felt this strongly for, my entire body reacted to him, and that included my heart. He had no right to interpret my feelings for me. “We are here for you though, everyone here will be like you, here is no place to find someone for me..” I gesture around us, the noise from beyond the gates tells us we were missing out on so much fun. “Well, thankfully, people like me, have brought people like you, people h
Last Updated : 2024-11-17Behind the scenes SHE
“Miss?”Someone tapped me on the shoulder, I turn to face them, he has a huge smile on his face, and a hard to miss tag that says, ASK ME FOR HELP. A worker in this place, genuinely I was impressed, there seemed to be no rhythm to anything around here. “Yes?”His eyes widen a fraction, he must recognize me, I clear my throat and tuck my head into my chin, since Connor didn’t make a big deal out of it, I had lulled myself into a false sense of normalcy. “Don’t worry, I was asked to make no fuss and tell no one.” he says quickly, and from his shadow casted on the ground by one of the giant overhead lights, I saw him wave his arms as if waving my doubts away.Yet, he was making a fuss. “By who?”He reached into his messenger bag, dips his hand into the opening and hands me a stack of cash, if I had to guess, I would say it was at least 30k, and from the vacuumed ziploc bag that held it, I knew it came from Richard, he hid money here as well? Taking it from him gingerly, I tuck it to m
Last Updated : 2024-11-18Behind the scenes HE
When the bottle arrived, it came in a small, brown cardboard box, no name of the sender, I stared at the almost empty bottle of wine,“Who the fuck sends a half drunk bottle of wine, straight to your house? Going as far as using express delivery?” Clay questioned, staying up all night manually combing through maps on the triangulated area was starting to get to him. “Maybe it was delivered as a joke or an accident?” Joanne says sipping her third cup of coffee. She seemed to have calmed down, she gave me hell when she heard the entire thing, she had even promised to kill me if we don’t find her.“How do you accidentally package a bottle? It was packed with care so it doesn’t break. What kind of idiot uses this as a joke?” Clay was very irritable at the moment, very soon he was going to start stinging people. “My brother’s kind.” I say immediately I figured it out, I rush to the box it came in, the address was the same place he had asked me to drop him off.“That sonofabitch.” I cuss
Last Updated : 2024-11-20Behind the scenes HE
The video of her trying on new clothes and excitedly showing them off to Richard as he gave his opinion, was playing in a loop, I had asked the workers for a copy of the security footage, initially, they refused, thankfully, there was nothing money could not buy. “The other cameras only capture them walking around, there is no telling where they went to after the mall, he avoided all of the cameras after that.” Clay sighs, sinking deeper into the sofa. Joanne appears from the kitchen, carrying mugs of sloshing coffee, she didn’t bring me one, she passes one mug to Clay and sits as far away from me as she could, like what Rachel was doing. “I can’t believe I didn’t mean anything more than being your friend, to her, I mean she thinks I would give you her location, that is the reason she hasn’t contacted me, or she believes I was in on the lies as well.” Joanne murmured, her eyes unlike her voice, were hard, I could feel the physical weight as she glared at me. To think she used to be
Last Updated : 2024-11-21Behind the scenes HE
All I see is red, even he is surprised when my fist rams into his face, over and over again, I can hear myself screaming, but I can’t tell what the words are, my fist returns to his face just as his eyes shut. I feel someone pull me off of him, I try to shrug them off, but they hold on to me tight. “Abed! Stop!” Clay screams, his voice managing to pierce through the fog around my head, my body goes slack and I collapse against the trimmed lawn, my head bowed as I look at my hands in front of me, they trembled slightly. This was the first time in years I lost control like this, this part of me that I hated, the part of me that I desperately tried to shut away. My father was right, I was like him. “He said I would never see her again, what does that mean Clay? Did he kill her?” I ask without looking up, I could feel pity and disappointment rolled in one just pouring out of him.Clay sighed,“We could have found out before you... before he became unconscious.”He was badly hurt? I hurt
Last Updated : 2024-11-23Behind the scenes SHE
“You win.”The two worded text immediately tells me it is from Richard, I wrack my brain to find out what that meant and how he got this new number, but I am distracted by the flash of Connor’s camera. Blinking up from the phone screen, I look up at him with a tight smile, he had been doing that all day, after we decided that my status as an actress doesn’t matter, we fell into random small talk. “Connor... isn’t that enough pictures?” I smile nervously, my eyes looking around, in case someone else noticed the constant flash going off and know who I was.“Never, there’s only so much words that I could use to describe you, but not with pictures, they scream on the top of their lungs, with words of endless praises, just how beautiful you are.” I swoon, who wouldn’t? That was very beautiful and moving, so moving that my hands drop from my face, smiling at him, but he was staring at the pictures of me he had taken. “Extraordinary.” he whispered to himself, a smile of awe on his face
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We ended up fucking all night, I had only read that in books, I had no idea that it could happen in real life, and that it would happen to me. Abed wasn’t tired, neither was I, every time we came it seemed like we craved the other even more. Our bodies sleeked in sweat and mixed with our fluids, we continued to explore each other’s bodies. Naked and tangled in his arms, under the sheets, I realize this was the life I wanted for myself, sleeping next to the man I love, perfectly content. His hands tighten around my waist, I chuckle quietly, he was so adorable. “What are you laughing at?” he says in the most sexy morning voice I had ever heard. It left me shivering. I look at his face and he had a brow raised in question.“Again?”I felt my face redden, and I bury it in the crook of his neck, “I always want you.” I murmur, taking in his scent, it was a mix of various scents, and it was good that I bury my nose there. He picks up my hand, guides it downwards, in between his nak
Behind the scenes SHE
My new routine was easy, I had breakfast at Big daddy’s, visit some place I had never been, even if I grew up here, I was like a tourist, eager and excited for whatever the new day had to offer in a city as big as this. I had lunch wherever the locals said was good, and it was good, a few people recognized me, and I saw my pictures on the internet at the end of the day, I trained myself to never look at the comments, I was trying to live for me after all. And for dinner, I heated up a portion of Abed’s meals, and that was the highlight of my day, no matter what scenery I had seen earlier, nothing compared to when I sat down alone with the meal he had prepared for me. An ache wrapped around my heart, I was missing him terribly, but I didn’t want to resent him, so I needed the time to heal properly. Joanne often times came over, and tonight, I was also expecting her, I had set out wine I hand picked at the winery I visited earlier today, and two glasses, I had already eaten and sho
Behind the scenes HE
My entire body stiffened when her hand grabbed at the elbow of my shirt, I pause in my steps, fighting the urge to turn around and beg to be in her life, knowing fully well I didn’t deserve it. “Can you wait for me? Until I am ready.” she whispers, I could feel all her emotions from just a few words, the hurt, the desperation, the love.Of course I would wait, I waited years to see her, years to tell her I loved her, years to hold her in my arms, waiting would be too much mercy for me. Turning slowly, I find her tear streaked face staring at her feet, her sniffles wracking her entire body. Guilt pushed through my body, with my thumb hooked under her face, gently, I make her face me, her lips quivered as she stared at me. “I will wait, take whatever time you need, I will be waiting.” I tell her honestly as I wiped the tears from her face. She smiles, her eyes brightening and my lungs expelled all the air it had been holding. “No matter how long?”“It doesn’t matter to me, I will b
Behind the scenes SHE
We end up staying awake most of the night, clinging to each other, talking and laughing about the most useless of things, the world beyond the locked doors of the short let, along with all of our issues could wait, we would face them in the morning, tonight, we were going to pretend we were okay. “I don’t think I can fight the sleep any longer.” I stifle a third yawn in the last two minutes. I would beat up myself for falling asleep now, but my eyelids were heavy, my bones weary from all our activities from earlier. “It’s okay, go to sleep my love.”Even in my sleepy haze I hear him, and it makes me feel good, the words I didn’t realize would mean so much to me, the words I wasn’t sure I would hear again. “Good night my love, I love you.”I feel his lips pressed against my forehead just as I drifted off to sleep, and in my dreams this time, I am at a crossroad, literally. Without opening my eyes, my hands reach out on the bed, expecting to hit the warmth of his body, but the space
Behind the scenes SHE
We stay like that for a while, him collapsed beside me, breathing hard, my heart worked fast, thumping and slamming furiously, did he say..? did I hear him right? Was I perhaps imagining things? I reach out as subtly as I could, pinching myself, it hurt, I was neither dreaming or imagining things, this was real. The silence pressed around us, it was obvious both of us heard the words, but what if I was the one who uttered them? Shit, shit, shit, I shut my eyes, wondering how I was going to undo it. I had confessed my feelings when I was supposed to see him out, that was how one night stands worked right? “Rachel... I didn’t say it so you could say it back to me.”His voice and words startle me, so he said it then, I had managed to keep my dignity, that was good... wait, he said he loved me? I turn to face him sharply, he was staring at me, his eyes so intense that I have to swallow. “You said that?” My voice comes out as a shocked whisper, he raised a brow in question, then he chuc
Behind the scenes SHE
Flustered was an understatement of how I was feeling, my legs shook, my nerves jumped in excitement. I was still riding waves of the orgasms that washed over me and the ones that were promised. I realize only now that he stopped because of the constant knocking on the bathroom door, the voices on the other end say something about getting the spare key. Abed’s fingers work expertly as he arranges my skirt back and top back in place, he gives me the smile I have come to realize was reserved for just me as he kissed my forehead and pushed me into a bathroom stall. “Stay here until you hear me leave.” he whispers, his mouth dangerously close to mine, I can only nod, I was afraid I would moan if I tried to speak. Within a minute the door was unlocked and I hear the others speaking to him, but his only response is the sound of his footfall as he walked away. I wait until it is silent before walking out of the stall. My body still buzzing with unspent energy, I needed him like crazy. “Th
Behind the scenes SHE
With our mouths still locked, our feet moved, one hand around my waist, the other at the back of my head. My body roared to life, pulsing with different kinds of emotions as we kissed. Oh how much I missed this, how much I missed him. My back pressed against a door, and his hand slipped from my waist to lock the door behind us, returning to my waist, his hand slips underneath the short skirt, I shiver against him as his familiar hands squeezed and molded my ass. “Ohhh...” I murmur into his mouth, he groaned slightly in response, his hand tugging my hair backward, his tongue sweeps into my mouth, even with my eyes closed I felt it roll backwards. My hands roam the expanse of his hard back, the familiar ridges under my finger tips, even under his clothes I could feel them, the dip in and out, I longed to feel it directly under my finger tips. My eyes flew open when I felt myself being lifted, my ass hitting the cool sink of the bathroom, I meet his eyes, both of us out of breath,
Behind the scenes SHE
The lone flower followed me all the way to the clothes store, and I got new clothes for the art museum, I had shot a quick text to Connor, asking him if he was free to meet today, his reply could not have been quicker, he said yes, asked for the time and where he should pick me up from. Smiling to myself as I picked out my clothes, I hoped he was watching, so I put on a performance of a life time, humming and giggling to myself when I look at my phone, like a girl would if she was texting someone she was interested in. By them time I returned home, I had two lone... well, not alone anymore, sunflowers, I tuck them into the vase, locking the doors behind me. I still had time to kill before the time I had agreed to meet him, so I dive into the book I had been reading the other day, and even with the thought that I was alone and there was nobody to peek over my shoulder and see what dirty things I was reading, my cheeks flamed. Those kinds of things that were explicitly described in th
Behind the scenes SHE
Clutching the flowers tightly, I followed the path the child had shown me, my head swiveling in all directions for a glimpse of him, my feet slamming on the ground as I chased his scent, there was no sight of his car, and definitely no sight of him, the only things I was left with were the sunflowers and his scent that was fast fading. That was yesterday, but I haven’t stopped looking, I had put the flowers in water and placed the vase I had found by the window for the plant to get sunlight, not so that he miraculously turned up here and knew where I was staying by the flowers he had given to me. Going for a quick run to clear my head this morning, I asked myself the big questions, did I miss him? I did, but it doesn’t make what he did hurt any less. My parents I thought would come running when they saw me on the big screen, they never did, even with the news of me being orphan going around like wild fire, they never showed, and to be very honest, I waited with baited breath just as
