“Where am I?” My voice comes out as a hoarse whisper, as my head continued to swivel in all directions, looking for something that would at least give me a clue to where I was. I wince as the sudden movement causes my head to bang, and bile to rush to my throat-- and from the scratchy feeling in my throat, I could tell it was not the first time this had happened. The bare, stone walled room was very unfamiliar, as were the plain satin sheets on the king sized bed that threatened to swallow me whole, my bed back home certainly did not require me to go around it before I could climb in.“Where am I?” I ask again, this time a bit louder than a whisper, and I was met with the same echo of my croaky voice, no answer to my question.My head banged and the world tilted, and no matter how I tried, I could not remember what happened few hours prior, but that was not the only reason my mind screamed at me that I was genuinely and absolutely fucked.I find an adjoining door wide open, and scram
36 HOURS BEFORE SHE REMEMBERED.Some people say when life is just about to change, they get a tingly feeling, a sensation of foreboding of some kind. Mine came in form of a call I had been anticipating so much I started to chew on my nails again, a bad habit I had since dropped after my debut, my stylist scowled at me until I forced my hand out of my mouth. Gregory, my manager was known as a wizard when picking scripts, he knew what movies to find for me, he would not even bother if he thought in one way or the other the movie was going to flop, and he was always right. Even if I wanted a script so badly, if he says no, I would not do it. “I promised you only the best, and that is exactly what I am going to give you, the absolute best, nothing less.” he would say every time, and I would mouth the words along because I knew what came next. So when the rumors about a film with a strong female lead, saving herself and then the entire world, started to circulate, Gregory jumped on it,
The night quickly drew closer, and even if it was not a formal event, my glam team worked on my appearance, when I protested, they inform me that this was what they did, and I only had to do my part later. I smile between them, wondering if this was how it felt to have friends, the swelling feeling in my chest, the rush between in my veins, was this the reason people had friends? I was always good at being another people, being myself was where I had the trouble, that was why acting was everything to me. That was why when I was not acting, I had no idea how to relate with people, how to act without a script, how to exist without direction, what to do without the cameras, that was where I fell short, my own body felt foreign, how do I place my hands without coming off as awkward as I felt? No director told you if your facial muscles were not relaxed enough as you went about making friends. And this was the grand reason I have no single person to call my friend in all my twenty nine ye
“...Sub.” That one word sucked me in a vortex of fast playing memories, my jaw dropping open as I could not believe I had ruined my career, single handedly. Gregory had given me a look that asked what he did not voice out, are you insane? maybe I was, since I still had the alcohol induced confidence and was almost on top of him, he had leaned back all the way and my right hand that supported my weight shook, I almost collapse on him then, but he seizes my hand last minute, helping me back up, and therefore away from him. “Let us get you home, before you do something you regret tomorrow.” he says with a shake of his head, he hooks my arm around his neck when he was up, my legs wobble, I felt his warm hand sneak around my waist, holding me upright. The warmth of his hand around me causes my entire body to tingle, I press my lips together so a moan did not slip out. It has been too long since I felt a man touch me so intimately, and without a script, so I lean into him even more as he
“Letting a man do as he pleases with my body... having no control over everything that happens to me, being used as a cock sleeve...” I hug myself even tighter as this doggedly handsome stranger recites my tweets back to me, my teeth grind against the other, annoyance flowing in my veins, why does everyone think they can dictate how my life goes? Was I the only celebrity with a burner account? “No, but you were the only one who made a foolish mistake with both of them.” His deep voice was as calm and collected as he looked. His blue eyes studied me even as he was silent, I shrink further into myself, unsure what to do with the attention. “Why don’t you go wash up, maybe a warm bath would help.” he says this like an order and not a question, and something in me wants to turn around and comply, no questions asked, but I was in a stranger’s house, and no matter how devilishly handsome he was, or how many tingles I get in my belly, just from hearing him speak, I stare at him defiantly.
In response to what he said, my body hummed, coming to life in a way that I had never experienced, my nipples were little rigid nubs, and I wanted his hand all over my body. But I also remember people online telling me I was turning an entire race of people into one of my fetishes, and many people agreed. I honestly did not see it as that, but the people had made up their minds. “I was drunk when I agreed to a contract with you, I am sorry for all inconveniences caused during my stay here, I will compensate you for everything if you tell me the costs, but I really have to go now.” I say with a rush to get the words out, my head still banged, most of memories from last night was yet to come back to me, I needed to go back home where things still made sense, away from this beautiful man who made me want to do the very things I tweeted about. And it made no sense since I did not even know the man. He studied me in silence, and I study his forehead, I can’t look him in the eye, especia
“What is her name?”His brows meet in the middle as he tried to decode my question, his head even tilts a little to the side in thought, and I found it cute, he had a little pout whenever he was confused, is it bad that I never want him to find out anything? “What?”I gesture to the cat still eating from the bowl, she hasn’t even come up to gasp for air ever since.“You haven’t introduced me to your cat.”The cute pout disappears and I try to hide my disappointment, I should have let him be confused for as long as possible. He has a little smirk on his face, he knows I am trying to change the subject, and he was going to play along, for now.“Crest is not my cat, she wanders here whenever she wants and leaves right after she has gotten what she wants.” he says this with a little shake of his head, like he was disappointed that she only came to him for food. I frown, the name Crest was unusual, and it sounded familiar, and I was sure it was important to me, my eyes wander up to fin
ABED'S POV“If you would excuse me, I have something very important I would like to discuss with Clay, and if they leave like that, Joanne would make it hard for me to see him.” I tell her, my jaw tightening at the mention of Joanne’s name. Rachel blinked her huge brown eyes at me, my knees instantly grows weak, I have imagined those eyes looking up at me so many times, and in my imagination, she was begging me to use her, just like all of her posts did. She looked away quickly, her eyes darting everywhere that was not my face, but I wanted them to look at me again, pleading silently for her eyes to fall on me, instead, a tiny bit of her pink tongue darts out and wets her lips before disappearing into her mouth again. I felt myself grow even harder, I knew from watching her that this was how her nervousness showed. But her small mouth looks so pretty doing that, I wanted to fuck it so bad. Gripping the back of the chair, I shut my eyes for a second, rem