Chapter 20 - Blame

Alexandria POV

He closed his eyes, I waited for him to open it again, I begged and pleaded … but he did not respond.

His chest is almost still and I can hardly feel his heartbeat, Am I really going to lose him?

That’s not what I wanted; I just wanted to protect him … not for him to be gone.

I did this to him, if he didn’t reject me he would have been able to defend himself, if I didn’t push him that far he would have been okay.

I always do this, bring death… but I did it right this time, didn’t I? I pushed him away, I wasn’t selfish like I was with Luke, this time my mate was suppose to live, he is going to live.

I start shaking Derek again saying “Derek, just wake up this time and I’ll do whatever you want, please just this once, open your eyes”, still no response.

I hear movement coming from the trees, I snap my head around looking for the dagger I dropped and I can see it just at arm’s length, I reach for it and grab it.

I stand protectively over Derek with my dagger in my h