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Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 13
I cracked a small smile as I placed the cake, teddy bear, and flower on the grave in front of me. I haven't been here in two years. Despite the passage of time, the hurt and remorse were still deeply embedded in my heart."Hi," I greeted weakly and caressed the marble tombstone where my baby's name was engraved.Angele Dei . . ."I'm sorry, anak. Natagalan si Mommy sa pagbalik." I let out a genuine smile. "How are you, baby? Are you playing well with the other kids? I hope you're always happy."Sinimulan kong buksan ang kahon ng dala kong cake at inilabas. Itinusok ko ang maliit na kandila sa ibabaw niyon at saka sinindihan. After that, I stared back at my baby again."Happy birthday to you. H-Happy birthday to you . . ." I paused when my voice started trembling. "Happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to you."My due date was supposed to be April 26, 2021. The happiest day of my life would have been that one. But that opportunity was stolen from me."Happy birthday, baby. I l
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 14
"They are getting married," Aireen lazily dropped the news to me.I put down the sketches I was making for my clothing line's next designs and just stared at the laptop's display. I gave my friend a long, hard look before laughing incoherently. Unable to believe what she had just told me, I couldn't help but shake my head."So, what's your plan? Are you going to . . . let them have their happily ever after?" She cringed at her own words.Inirapan ko lang naman siya saka umayos ng upo. "Ang tibay rin talaga ng sikmura nila, ah? After what they did to me?" Napatiim-bagang ako at huminga nang malalim."Ano pa ba'ng inaasahan mo sa kanila? Tutubuan ng hiya sa katawan?" She rolled her eyes, too.Hindi naman ako agad umimik. Pinagkrus ko ang aking mga braso at sumandal sa swivel chair na inuupuan ko. Nag-iisip."I'm going to ruin it," wala sa sarili kong anas at saka seryosong sinilip si Aireen.Her lips automatically grinned. "How?" she asked curiously; the excitement in her tone didn't es
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 15
My eyes didn't leave his. Later, the edge of my lips lifted. I even cocked my head to the side to let him know that he was absolutely idiotic."Dream on, Zachary," I spat.Kung iniisip niya na matatakot o kakabahan ako sa kaniya, nagkakamali siya. Matagal nang nawala ang takot ko mula nang patayin nila ang anak ko. I would even be willing to drag myself to hell at this very moment just to strike a deal with evil.Gano'n ko sila kinamumuhian. Gano'n ko siya pinandidirihan.Mabilis na umigting ang panga niya. "You are bearing my child," he reminded me."Let me rephrase it, professor," I said mockingly. "You're just a donor, a sperm donor to be exact."Halos pumutok ang mga ugat niya sa leeg dahil sa galit."Matres ko, desisyon ko. Put that in your mindless shithole, Zachary." I turned my back against him.Muli sana akong papasok sa kotse ko nang pigilan na naman niya ako. Ramdam ko ang gigil niya sa pupulsuhan ko. Halos hindi na nakalma ang nakaigting niyang panga habang nakaharap sa ak
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 16
"Impressive." I chuckled dryly. "As far as I know, Zachary, I am doing all of this shit because of the things you did to me.""Is it your ego talking? Hindi mo matanggap na ikakasal ako sa kapatid mo?" he said mockingly. "You even stoop this low to ruin us?" Disgust was evident on his face. Wala sa sarili akong napatitig sa kaniya. Hindi ko akalain na talagang ibang tao ang nakarelasyon ko noon. He used to be compassionate and thoughtful in his speech, but it turned out he was the opposite of all that.How dare he say that in front of me?Bago pa man bumagsak ang namumuo kong luha ay tinalikuran ko siya. Pakiramdam ko ay sasabog ako sa galit at sama ng loob. May parte sa puso ko na nasasaktan, hindi para sa sarili ko kundi sa nawala kong anak. Hindi ko matanggap na para bang ipinararating niya na napakababaw ng rason ko para gumanti sa kaniya—sa kanila—dahil lang sa pinatay nila ang anak ko. Nanginginig kong nilakad ang daan palabas ng bahay. Tila bigla akong naubusan ng lakas sa ha
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 17
Sa lahat ng mga plano ko, wala roon ang kumain kasabay ang taong kinamumuhian ko. Kaya naman kahit ilang beses kong lunukin ang pagkaing isinusubo ko, pakiramdam ko ay hindi iyon umaabot sa tiyan ko. On the contrary, I felt like I was going to puke seeing Zachary talk and smile with Nanay Victoria. "Kumusta naman ang trabaho mo, hijo? Nakakapahinga ka pa ba? Eh, baka naman mamaya nakakalimutan mo ng kumain, ha? Naku! Masama sa katawan ang pagpapalipas ng gutom," ani ng ginang. I stopped chewing when I heard that. I simply peeked at Zachary from my side, and from a happy face, it turned serious for a moment. Maybe if we weren't facing Nanay Victoria, I would have smirked at the old woman's question. Isang tipid na ngiti ang pinakawalan niya. "Naka-leave po ako ngayon, Nay," tugon niya, naramdaman ko ang paglipat ng kaniyang paningin sa akin. "Aasikasuhin ko muna po ang asawa ko." Hindi ko na napigilan ang mapangiwi. Ang galing niya talagang magsinungaling at magpaikot ng tao. Expert
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 18
Zachary was nowhere to be found when I woke up. I knew he wouldn't stay with me every day, but I didn't think that I wouldn't see his face the next morning either. Anyway, I'm just thankful for that. Saglit akong nag-inat at natagilan nang makita ang kuting na pumapasok sa loob ng isa sa mga paper bag na nakalagay sa sahig. Kumunot ang noo ko. Pamilyar sa akin ang tatak ng bawat isa kaya naman alam kong mga damit, under wear, at kung ano pang personal na gamit ang laman ng mga iyon. Napalingon ako sa night stand nang may mag-vibrate roon at nakita ang isang smart phone. Agad ko naman iyong kinuha at pinindot ang message notification na nakabungad sa screen. You can use this phone temporarily. Message me if you need anything else, and please drink your milk. Isang irap ang pinakawalan ko at isinara ang thread ng mensahe ni Zachary. Itinipa ko ang numero ni Aireen at tinawagan habang isa-isang tinitingnan ang laman ng mga paper bag, naghahanap ng pupwedeng suotin ngayong araw. Wala pa
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 19
Hindi ko na masundan ang mga nangyayari. Mabilis na inasikaso ng veterinarian si Angel nang dumating kami. May mga itinanong siya sa akin na hindi ko na rin alam kung paano ko nagawang sagutin. I was lost. Nakatuon lang ang atensyon ko kay Angel habang chine-check siya ng mga nakapaligid sa kaniya.Ramdam ko ang mga luha ko na walang tigil sa pagtulo. Nanginginig ang mga kamay ko at nananakit na rin ang dibdib ko sa lakas ng kabog niyon. Kung hindi nakaalalay si Zachary sa gilid ko ay baka kanina pa akong bumagsak sa sahig."Everything will be okay."I don't know how many times he has whispered that. As much as I wanted to believe, I couldn't. Not because I don't want Angel to be well, but because I am terrified. Seeing her fight for her life broke my heart. Although she was new in my life, she still held a significant amount of importance for me, and I became attached to her.A few minutes later, Zachary and I were sitting on the sofa. Angel is now undergoing an operation because the
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 20
I stared at him, then slowly licked my lower lip. "I don't know whether to laugh or be annoyed by your stupidity, Zachary," I stated and stepped back."Is what I did really hurt your ego that much, Atasha?" he asked, the frustration in his eyes faded.What? Ego?I scoffed. "Ego ko ba talaga ang natatapakan dito? Sino ba 'tong naghahabol sa anak ko dahil alam niyang mahihirapan siyang makabuo sa fiance niya?" My eyes scanned him from head to toe, definitely telling him that I'm disgusted and pissed. "Ikaw, Zachary? Hindi na ba makayanan ng pagkalalaki mo na lunukin lahat para lang makuha ang gusto mo? Unti-unti ka na bang nababaliw?" I chuckled mockingly.Mabilis na umigting ang panga niya. I know I hit him with my words. Malinaw na malinaw ang pagtitimpi sa mukha niya ngayon."Aren't we just the same? Aren't you also desperate for revenge because I will marry your sister? You ruined my name, you ruined our marriage, and you ruined your father's image. Your ego ate you up so much that
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Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) EPILOGUE
Study, graduate school, and work. Actually, that's the only plan I have for my life. My studies come before anything else, no matter how much time my buddies and I spend hanging out or drinking. But I had a different goal when I met Atasha Rodriguez. She is simple but beautiful. Her appeal was so strong that even if she were just sitting and busy with what she was sketching, she seemed like an angel in my eyes."Ikaw, ah? Matagal ko na napapansin ang lagkit ng tingin mo roon sa fine art student na malimit nakatambay sa bench," puna ni Thelmo nang minsan kaming nag-inuman sa dorm niya.Mabilis namang umigting ang panga ko at matalim siyang tiningnan. "How did you know her?""Whoa! Chill, walang aagaw sa chikababe mo," aniya habang nakataas pa ang dalawang kamay sa ere. "Obvious naman kasi kung anong course ang kinukuha niya, bukod pa roon amoy ko na ang pasimple mong pagdaan sa room nila kahit mas mabilis doon sa kabilang pathway."Tumawa naman ang iba naming kasama at inulan ako ng ka
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) FINALE
We won, and all the people who have sinned against us are already behind bars. I don't know how Zachary was able to sue Tita Ayna, but I am grateful to him anyway. I can now face our children in peace.Masama man maging masaya sa kalungkutan ng iba ay hindi ko maiwasan. Sa loob ng dalawang taon, nakuha ko na rin ang hustisya para sa amin. Para akong nasagip sa pagkalunod, nakahinga at nakakita ng bagong pag-asa para ipagpatuloy ang buhay na minsan ko ng sinukuan."W-We did it," utal at naiiyak kong sambit habang niyayakap si Zachary.Mabilis namang pumulupot pabalik ang kaniyang mga braso sa baywang ko at pinatakan ng halik ang aking buhok. "You are now free, baby . . ." rinig kong usal niya.Napahagulgol na lamang ako. Hindi ko mapigilan ang sayang kumakawala sa dibdib ko at alam kong gano'n din siya. Tapos na, tapos na ang laban naming dalawa."Thank you. Hindi ito magiging posible kung wala ka," ani ko sa pagitan ng aking paghikbi.Naramdaman ko naman ang pag-iling niya saka ako ma
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 39
The following weeks passed quickly. We stayed at Nanay Victoria's home for two days before returning to Manila. Zachary and I wasted no time; he underwent counseling after our assessment, while I, on the other hand, had a therapy session. It was a little difficult for me because I had to go over everything again so that the doctor who was looking at me could understand my condition. Nevertheless, I was comforted to know that I had someone by my side the entire time.I was diagnosed with PTSD. I'm not surprised because that's what my old doctor in America confirmed to me. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder is not curable, but people with this condition can improve their symptoms significantly.Hindi ko maiwasang humanga kung gaano kapropesyonal si Thelmo sa trabaho. Magkakilala man siya ni Zachary ay hindi siya naging opinionated. Kaibigan siya sa labas ng hospital habang doktor naman sa loob. Hindi niya ako pinipilit magsalita sakaling hindi ako kumportable. Nakaalalay siya sa bawat sasab
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 38
I used to believe there was nothing more agonizing than what I went through, but now I'm being forced to feel it twice as much. It's been two days since I found out about the deaths of my pet kitten and my unborn child, but I still don't know how to accept it. I felt like I was losing my mind.Angel suffered a deadly wound that resulted in significant bleeding before she passed away. Unfortunately, I dropped her after getting hit on the head, and a shard of glass punctured her chest. While I lost my baby because my body was weak and I was under a lot of stress, I also had to be injected with some drugs.Wala sa sarili akong napahawak sa impis kong tiyan habang tulalang nakatanaw sa labas ng bintana. Hindi ko alam kung alin ang mas masakit, mawalan ng anak na alam mong dinadala mo o mawalan nang hindi mo man lang nalalaman na may buhay pa lang namumuo sa loob ng katawan mo. Napabuntonghininga ako at pilit na nilunok ang sakit na nagbabara sa aking lalamunan. Gusto kong umiyak, pero par
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 37
I'd be lying if I denied that I wasn't exhausted from the fight I was in. For two years, anger kept me alive, but that didn't mean I wasn't slowly being drained. The people I trusted betrayed me, and even if my anger towards them reached the sky, the pain they left in my heart is still there. I was always aware that the road I was going to take would not be easy. I didn't just want justice for my unborn child; I also wanted to destroy their lives in every way to satisfy myself. Now that I'm slowly getting it, I feel like I'm lost in nowhere."Wala naman kayong balak gawing hotel ang ospital, 'di ba?" pagsusumubok magbiro ni Aireen.Inirapan ko lang siya. "Umalis ka na nga, hinihintay ka na ng fvckbuddy mo sa baba."Akala ko ay papatulan niya ang pang-aasar ko, pero tumitig lang siya sa akin. Naroon ang lungkot sa mga mata niya na hindi ko alam kung para saan. Mayamaya pa ay isang pilit na ngiti ang pinakawalan niya bago ako tinapik sa balikat."Tawagan mo na lang ako ulit kapag may ka
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 36
I know I am enough for my child; however, sometimes I also thought that if I were to disappear, who would stay longer at Angelei's grave like I did? And right now, God has given me the answer to that. I smiled bitterly as I watched Zachary kneeling and silently crying in front of Angelei's grave. I don't know how many hours we have been here; after I was admitted to the hospital for four days, I asked him to drive here first. I know it's too late, but I still want to make up for it and clear his name.Sa buong dalawang taon na lumipas, naging karamay ko si Angelei sa lahat ng sakit at galit na dala-dala ko. Ipinadama ko sa kaniya na kaming dalawa lang ang magkakampi, ipinakargo ko ang puot na mayroon ako para kay Zachary. Kaya naman ngayong alam ko na ang katotohanan sa likod ng miserable kong pinagdaanan, alam kong kailangan kong ayusin ang lahat. Hindi lang ako ang nasaktan. Sa bawat luhang pumapatak sa pisngi ni Zachary alam ko na katulad ko ay hindi niya rin maiwasang sisihin ang
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 35
A mixture of machine noise and whispers woke me up from my deep sleep. My eyesight was blurry as I gently opened my eyes. I wasn't sure if I was awake or in delirium. There were a few vague people I couldn't figure out, including one wearing a white lab coat and a man in front of him who had his back to me. They were speaking, but I was having trouble understanding them.What's going on?Sinubukan kong ibuka ang bibig ko para magsalita, pero hindi ko magawa. Tila may kung anong nakaharang sa lalamunan ko na hindi ko matukoy kung ano. Para ding sinasaksak ang bawat parte ng katawan ko, tipong namamanhid sa matinding sakit. Muli kong inilibot ang paningin ko, gano'n pa rin. Malabo at parang inaalon ang bawat matuunan ng mga mata ko."I'm sorry, we really tried to save them both . . ." I heard someone mumble as my eyelids closed again, slowly.May mga pagmumura pa akong narinig pero hindi ko na iyon nasundan pa. Para akong nasa kawalan, naliligaw sa dilim. Walang anumang liwanag na pupun
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 34
(TRIGGER WARNING)Zachary was sound asleep next to me as I stared silently up at the ceiling. He gave me a warm hug around the waist while his head sat on my neck. I glanced at him for a second, then sighed warily.I asked him to fvck me, not because I wanted to, but because I needed him to do that in order to prove to myself that he and Eunice are still connected. But I admit, I was lost for a moment when we were busy doing that. It was as if my libido fully controlled my body, and I didn't feel any disgust.Isang buntonghininga na lamang ang pinakawalan ko at marahan na umalis sa pagkakayakap niya. Hinila ko ang comforter na tumatabon sa hubad naming katawan at umupo, ipinulupot ko ang kumot sa akin. Wala sa sarili kong nasuklay ang aking buhok gamit ang aking mga daliri saka siya muling nilingon.On a sinking ship with all of us on board, Zachary chose to abandon Eunice. Why? I am unaware of that. What is the strongest potential cause for him to break his previous commitment to her
Beg Me, Professor (TagLish) CHAP 33
(WARNING: This chapter may contain content of an adult nature. If you are easily offended or are under the age of 18, please exit now. Pero s'yempre hindi ka susunod 17below.)It was already past four in the afternoon when I woke up. I didn't even realize that I fell asleep crying. A small table on the side of the bed caught my eye as I gazed around the room. In addition to a bouquet of flowers, there was a plate of stir-fried noodles on it. I approached the table with nothing on my mind when I noticed a note on the edge of the plate. I took it and read it right away.To the most gorgeous woman I've ever met,I'm sorry. Whatever I did wrong, which I don't know, I want to apologize for it. I hope this small gesture will help you feel better.Ilang segundo kong tinitigan ang sulat niya. Pilit kong inaalala ang dahilan ng galit ko kanina pero tila hindi ko alam kung saan iyon hahanapin ngayon. Naguguluhan ako sa inasta ko. Kahit anong gawin ko, hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit sumama ang
